Do we have a GLBT Blurt thread?

[AussieAngel]

<BLURT> I love my job.. but it scares me because i doubt my ability to keep a girlfriend. And I love my mum.. but I hate that she cant accept who I am.. I'm sick of her talk of husbands and boyfriends. I want to scream at her.. tell her i wasnt joking when i told her Im gay. But i've only got a few more weeks back home.. then i go back to my world and my new life.. One day she is just gonna have to accept it.. and if not.. my escape plan has shown to work quite well <\END BLURT>

 

[Gi_Venus]

<BLURT> I love my job.. but it scares me because i doubt my ability to keep a girlfriend. And I love my mum.. but I hate that she cant accept who I am.. I'm sick of her talk of husbands and boyfriends. I want to scream at her.. tell her i wasnt joking when i told her Im gay. But i've only got a few more weeks back home.. then i go back to my world and my new life.. One day she is just gonna have to accept it.. and if not.. my escape plan has shown to work quite well <\END BLURT>

*warm hugs*

 

[lightsaver]

Holy muthafucking hell !

AussieAngel, you have been missed and on a personal note, I really missed your avatar.

Thank you for checking in on us. You are missed and cherished here.

 

[AussieAngel]

Thanks light and you know what.. i really missed my avatar too

 

[Gi_Venus]

Holy muthafucking hell !

AussieAngel, you have been missed and on a personal note, I really missed your avatar.

Thank you for checking in on us. You are missed and cherished here.

Thanks light and you know what.. i really missed my avatar too

*giggle*

 

[AussieAngel]

Paintballing is soooo much fun. And the bruising is definately worth it. Cant wait to go again.

 

[playwithlezli]

<BLURT> I love my job.. but it scares me because i doubt my ability to keep a girlfriend. And I love my mum.. but I hate that she cant accept who I am.. I'm sick of her talk of husbands and boyfriends. I want to scream at her.. tell her i wasnt joking when i told her Im gay. But i've only got a few more weeks back home.. then i go back to my world and my new life.. One day she is just gonna have to accept it.. and if not.. my escape plan has shown to work quite well <\END BLURT>

funny how we both have moms that said, "I just want you to be happy" then aren't happy with who we are. Can't say for your mom, but mine has never been satisfied with my choices, except that I produced a granddaughter, and was married for a while.

sigh....thank heavens for good friends eh.

How about I'll be your internet mom, cuz I love you just the way you are and am proud of your strength.

 

[AussieAngel]

funny how we both have moms that said, "I just want you to be happy" then aren't happy with who we are. Can't say for your mom, but mine has never been satisfied with my choices, except that I produced a granddaughter, and was married for a while.

sigh....thank heavens for good friends eh.

How about I'll be your internet mom, cuz I love you just the way you are and am proud of your strength.

*Huge smile* Sounds great I promise im not trouble. And im really low maintainance haha.

but seriously thanks Lezli. Its great to have people out there who are so supportive. Maybe one day she'll come around. Not holding my breath though.

btw, theres a course i can do with my job in Canada, its really hard to get but i've decided im not quitting until i've done it *crosses fingers and hopes that one day i actually make it to Canada*

 

[AussieAngel]

Had a meh day.. just things about it made me feel shit. im over being home. wanna go back to my life

 

[Gi_Venus]

Had a meh day.. just things about it made me feel shit. im over being home. wanna go back to my life

*warm hugs*

 

[playwithlezli]

Had a meh day.. just things about it made me feel shit. im over being home. wanna go back to my life

LOL! Welcome to being a grown-up!

 

[lightsaver]

Got diz?

 

[playwithlezli]

Got diz?

wouldn't that be lovely

 

[lightsaver]

wouldn't that be lovely

You're not too shabby either ... each of you should have a dessert named after you!

 

[playwithlezli]

You're not too shabby either ... each of you should have a dessert named after you!

I like that idea, let's see, nothing that needs a spoon, more like something that needs licked....

 

[lightsaver]

I like that idea, let's see, nothing that needs a spoon, more like something that needs licked....

Definitely.

 

[playwithlezli]

I like that idea, let's see, nothing that needs a spoon, more like something that needs licked....

and has a sweet, sticky sauce...

 

[lightsaver]

and has a sweet, sticky sauce...

I'm a messy eater...
hmmm....just call me greedy.

 

[playwithlezli]

I'm a messy eater...
hmmm....just call me greedy.

a greedy girl are you, well, we can always lick you clean after your dessert, or go skinny dipping in the moonlight if you have made that much of a mess of your self

 

[lightsaver]

a greedy girl are you, well, we can always lick you clean after your dessert, or go skinny dipping in the moonlight if you have made that much of a mess of your self

Why can't I have both?

 

[playwithlezli]

Why can't I have both?

your wish is my command mistress of the light

 

[lightsaver]

your wish is my command mistress of the light

Now that's a user title!

 

[playwithlezli]

Now that's a user title!

yours to use as you like

 

[AussieAngel]

I really need to stop stuffing around and doing stupid shit. i really hate it when i do. gah. sooo stupid

 

[Gi_Venus]

I really need to stop stuffing around and doing stupid shit. i really hate it when i do. gah. sooo stupid

You need to stop beating yourself. You learn from that stuff, sometimes it takes a while to sink in, I know I have a disproportion amount of hardheadedness myself. One is falling into habits of behavior we have, when we see they are wrong it takes a while to modify and change.
So stop beating yourself or I will send Lezli and light over to spank you. *wincing rubbing my hinny* Ooop never mind I am supposed to motivate you to change. Well stop beating yourself anyhow.

Being aware of your internal dynamics is the first step in change. I am going to quote a lovely friend of mine. "Knowledge is the Alchemy of Change"

The first step in change is perceptual awareness. The only proper course is to move to the next moment and let it go. For we can never undo what is done. We can try to right a wrong. But we must learn or leave it.

I had a nicotine habit at one time in my life I decided to quit. I must have tried a thousand times to quit. Eventually I did. I know others that failed because they got wrapped up in their failure.


*grin* To much information?