Did you cut or harm yourself?

[Pure]

Anyone know, on good evidence, of a 'celebrity' or famous person who harmed themselves (non lethally)? All I can think of is Van Gogh's little incident.

Maybe some of the more 'highstrung' women poets. Anyone know info on Sylvia Plath?

J.

 

[OliverTwists]

Courtney Love had an "abortion"

 

[orangeangel]

yes I like to stick pins into myself

 

[orangeangel]

Yup, I used to cut.. but more often than I cut, I used to stick pins into myself. I'd put them in, and leave them there for a few hours, pushed as far as they could go. Incredibly painful, and rather dangerous, but I didn't care. I did it to relieve tension, and as a way to express to myself how much I hated myself. I really truly hated myself. Everything about me.

I stopped that practice about 4 years before I discovered that I was submissive, and I don't believe that it had anything to do with it. I mean, I've been through a lot of self-abuse, and I don't feel that BDSM in any way fills that headspace that I had when I was cutting, etc... I no longer HAVE that headspace. BDSM for me was something completely different, which I believe stemmed from the rapes that I've experienced. It stemmed from abuse that other people inflicted on me, but BDSM is a way for me to experience roughness and some physical pain, WHILE I HAVE THE CONTROL. It's completely different than my cutting was.

.. I like to stick pins into myself. I like to put them in, and leave them there for a few some time pushed as far as they could go. Incredibly painful,

 

[pierced_boy]

steeel in the body

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pure as long as I can recall I have desired piercing. It is erotic in its focus even though it started before puberty. I have sustained piercings long after it is "comfortable" for the steel in the body effect (on me)

It is a very primitive part of me that sometimes draws redicule but it is me and so what. it is sensational (literaly) and empowering.

anybody who has been pierced understands. It is for them!!!

H

ps spelling is crap

 

[dolf]

i pierced my own nipples...but now i only have one in as the other healed up when i was breast feeding.
it was kinda fun i had music, lighting and intoxication.

on the other side of this i slash the soles of my feet when i'm fucked up. cutting here leaves very little scarring and it hurts every step....i try not to do this now, it's not healthy!

xx

 

[Wednesday'sRose]

I used to cut but not as much as I tended to do other things. The most prevalent of the self abuse methods for me was using something like a ring or my finger to literally rub skin off. I would intentionally do it in places where I knew it would take longer to heal and be irritated by jewelry or clothing so that it would hurt more too.

However, I do not think that any of that had anything to do with my being interested in BDSM as a switch that is mainly a sub. My fantasies ever since I can remember have been of a BDSM nature and I actually didn't start the self abuse until after I had my first BDSM experience (as a sub). The self abuse did not have anything to do with those sessions or the Dom involved. It all started later because of issues that were not at all related to BDSM. My need to harm myself had more to do with relieving very high anxiety and stress levels. It also stemmed from a hatred of everything about myself and the belief that I deserved to suffer. The feeling of pain helped to ease that hatred. I would literally feel my mood rise as I felt the pain rise. It wasn't even a sexual thing. The scars from the abuse made me much more capable of coping and I would feel good for a while until they started to fade. Then, as soon as the stress returned, I would start again.

I stopped the abuse at least a year and a half before I came back to BDSM and would not think of starting back in my present situation. For me, that was another part of my life that came from many horrible things that were going on then. That time was full of doing things that I would never want to go back to. That is not to judge anyone else's preferences; it's just how I feel about a time in my life.


As for the movie, I have never seen it, but I do feel from what has been said that the portrayal is biased and judgemental. It is things like that that tend to make it even more difficult for the vanilla world to accept the BDSM lifestyle as sane and loving. I really hate stereotypes!!

 

[Wednesday'sRose]

i pierced my own nipples...but now i only have one in as the other healed up when i was breast feeding.
it was kinda fun i had music, lighting and intoxication.

on the other side of this i slash the soles of my feet when i'm fucked up. cutting here leaves very little scarring and it hurts every step....i try not to do this now, it's not healthy!

xx

I actually know someone that pierced their own ears in the middle of class one day. She used the earrings from the first set of holes in her ears to pierce a second set. She wasn't really going for the pain or abuse though, she just figured that her mother wouldn't go for the second set and thought that doing it herself was a better expedient.