Diary for my Dom

[RBkinky]

Dear Literotica, I'll start off by telling you a little about myself. I'm R and I share this account with B, my Dom. I'm his slave girl, and I'm still very new to this 'lifestyle'. I'm shy and quiet and having the most difficult time thinking of what to write. So, if you have any questions, feel free to ask!

My dom lives a few hundred miles away so I don't see him much. I have a list of orders to follow and must complete daily tasks. One of my tasks is writing a diary entry on here every night. In each entry, I'm supposed to reflect upon my day, share with you my performance as B's slave, and share my current feelings about this whole arrangement.

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Entry #1

I spent most of my day studying and carrying out my daily tasks. B had things to do so I was on my own most of the day, which meant I couldn’t talk to B as much as I would have liked.

Along with today's regular tasks, B decided he wanted to see a video of me stripping and sucking my sex toy. I was only allowed 20 minutes, and barely did it in time because I was too worried about finding matching undies. Luckily, he did not punish me when the video took too long to send. He was also very forgiving when he caught me saying "yes" instead of "yes sir" by accident. Aside from that, I completed my daily tasks as instructed. In particular, I'm supposed to exercise for at least 15 minutes each day and do some exercise to improve my sexual performance. Today I used a weighted hula hoop to improve my hip motion. Also... Outfit of the day and nude pictures; check. Restroom use report; check. Being a good girl; check!

So far I've really enjoyed this relationship of ours. Everything he has asked of me has been very reasonable and beneficial, not just to better me as his slave but also as a person. I’m very lucky to be owned by him.

I'll post again tomorrow. ~R

 

[eric60red]

You are very lucky to have such an understanding master. I look forward to your next report

 

[theGM26]

This should be in the bdsm cafe not the talk forum. Thats what im thinking anyhow. I'd be careful about posting this kind of thing in the talk forum.

 

[Oubliette123]

Hi R,

I'm not sure if this is or isn't in the right forum (so won't comment on that!) but I think its great to see an insight like this, especially for people new to this lifestyle. The question/answer posts are informative, but reading someone else's experience in whatever format is a different way of learning for some.

Good luck with your tasks, and thanks for sharing

 

[RBkinky]

Entry #2

Not a very interesting day today, both myself and B were busy, and he had business that kept him away from me.*

No special task today. We briefly talked about having me perform for his friends but he doesn't have wi-fi there so I got off the hook... For now. As for my daily tasks: outfit of the day and nudes; check, restroom use report; check, exercise; check (I did a few sets of pelvic raises). I got one strike for forgetting to say "yes, sir" again today, two more and I'm going to be punished! I was suppose to be in bed an hour and a half ago, but since I had good reason to be up (I was baking cookies and an apple pie) I was able to avoid punishment. So I'll post earlier tomorrow and be in bed by twelve! *

I'm still enjoying our relationship, though I do wish we were together... but then I would be tempted to be bad just to see what he would do to me... Mmm

Until tomorrow, ~R

 

[RBkinky]

Entry #3

Yet another busy day, all work and no play.

B instructed me to pose for a picture in just a lacy thong and a sign to say hey to his friends- so nudes: check! Outfit of the day: check, bathroom report: haven't submit them but check, exercise: check (did some planks... Not a fan) well I think that's all I have 10mins before I have to be in bed! Cutting it close!

Still enjoying my relationship, of course. I wish we had more time together, I miss him!

later, ~R

 

[RBkinky]

Entry #4

I got a lot done today, as a "normal" girl and as a slave girl.

I had to do mandatory check ins, every 30mins for four hours -while stripping an article of clothing and taking a new picture each time. I also have two golf balls inside of me...
I was punished twice today; one light spank for being 1min late on a check in but I had a good excuse, also ten spanks for not getting my tasks done on time and for proposing instead of asking for a time extension. All my other tasks were completed in a timely manner.

I'll be a good girl tomorrow, I don't want B mad at me

Good night,
~R

 

[wicked woman]

Wondering why B thinks we all want to partake in their little ritual. Sure have her email you this info, but don't involve others who didn't consent.

Adds another to my ignore list.

 

[RBkinky]

@wicked women: you're the one who clicked on the thread, no one forced you to read anything.

Entry #5

My day was good, didn't have anything I needed to do, I got to sleep in and stayed naked all morning.

Made a special video and was on hourly check-ins. Nudes and outfit pic, check. No more restroom report. Exercise; check! I was a good girl today.

Still loving our relationship. And he said if I were to visit him, he would have some VERY nice plans arranged for us... Mmm can't wait.

gotta run, ~R

 

[eastern sun]

Still loving our relationship. And he said if I were to visit him, he would have some VERY nice plans arranged for us... Mmm can't wait.

gotta run, ~R

Have the two of you met yet?

 

[Loverskitten]

What is a "restroom report"?

 

[RBkinky]

@eastern sun: we have met, but he's away for school

@Loverskitten: I had to tell him every time I went to the restroom (ie: 12:31, 1:32...)

Entry #6
Huge weight has been lifted off my shoulder! Overall a good day.

I've been a good girl, really late with this entry but... Shhh, don't tell. I had to be reminded but I did all my tasks for the day, including some kegel exercises.

Our duo-dynamic is possible about to take a huge turn. B is wanting (if said girl agrees) to add a secondary sub, yep.

~R

 

[seela]

Our duo-dynamic is possible about to take a huge turn. B is wanting (if said girl agrees) to add a secondary sub, yep.

Do you agree? Have you been included in the conversation?

 

[Loverskitten]

@Loverskitten: I had to tell him every time I went to the restroom (ie: 12:31, 1:32...)


~R

What does one want with such minutiae? Is he in Medical School, possibly to become a gastroenterologist? Do you have digestion problems? Does he use this information to help you in your daily life, like suggesting a stool softener or more water? I just don't get it?

I have heard of Doms requesting food diaries or exercise from a sub in need of weight loss. But this confuses me.

How old are you and your Dom? How long have you two been together?

 

[RBkinky]

@loverskitten: he is actually in school to be an engineer But it used to teach me to be more concious of my own body's natural functions and to make it easier to identify irregularities. Increasing fiber, mobility, and fluids usually does the trick ;-)

I don't need to do a food diary but I do have to exercise at least 15 minutes a day.

I am in my twenties and my Dom is eighteen. We knew each other for three months before we started dating, dated (normal relationship) for a month, *and our BDSM started less than a month ago.

@seela: he did ask for my input before agreeing to it. I said I'll go along with it if that's what he wants; I know such a good slave girl I am ;-)


Entry #7

So I have been informed that I've been slacking on my diary entries and that I need to make it a little more thorough this time. Yes, sir. *Overall I had a good day, but didn't get to talk to B a lot. B went to bed already, he had a bad day, I wish I was there to cheer him up. I know, way past my bed time, I should be in bed too. Highlight of my day was getting a great deal on clothes, bad news though is that I'm now broke.

I didn't get any special tasks today... Actually, I was suppose to make a masturbation video last night but I got an extension to complete it today, yeah, haven't done it yet. But I look like a mess right now. I decided to clean my room (who knew it could get so disgusting in just two months) and now I'm all sneezy, sniffy, runny nose... Far from sexy. I did take a benadryl and it is making me VERY sleepy, or maybe it being 3:30am has something to do with it. I took my outfit of the day picture, speaking of, it was a tube top that kept slipping, so I had to constantly readjust my top to prevent myself from flashing*unsuspecting victims. Does shopping count as exercising?

I know, I'm really really slacking today, I'll deal with the punishment tomorrow :-(

~R

 

[seela]

@seela: he did ask for my input before agreeing to it. I said I'll go along with it if that's what he wants; I know such a good slave girl I am ;-)

This is something, I've seen ruin many a relationship. Going poly changes the dynamic of your relationship greatly, so please, please don't say yes to this just because you think it's what you're supposed to say. You are entitled to your own opinions and feelings.

Of course, if you truly are ok with this, or maybe you even want this, then go for it. But at the very least talk about how the reality of it is going to look like. Talk about how to handle jealousy, what to do if you feel abandoned and lonely, think about how much of your current time with him you are willing to give up, how you would feel if the other girl is local to him and gets to spend time with him in person and you won't etc. Maybe come up with some ground rules.

I'm not trying to rain on your parade, just trying to remind you to tread carefully, I guess. I get young people with heavy BDSM leanings really well, because it isn't too long since I was one myself. But you're both new to this and you are long distance. Are you sure this is the moment to start thinking about adding other people into the mix?

 

[eric60red]

So life goes on, and as long as both are happy who cares.

 

[seela]

So life goes on, and as long as both are happy who cares.

Was this a reply to my comment?

If so, I made my comment to try to make sure they both are happy in the long run, too. I'm sure they're able to figure things out on their own, too, but a few words from other likeminded people might help them avoid a few pot holes along the way.

There are very few people who can operate, in the long run, on the premise that everything goes as long as it makes the other person happy. Especially when it's a question of relationship dynamics rather than which item goes into which slot or something similar.

I'm sure R and B are well capable of making their own decisions. But when you bring your life to a discussion board, it's bound to get discussed.

 

[RBkinky]

@seela: thanks a lot for the input. The girl never replied, but I'm honestly not disappointed. I am not ready to share B yet, even though he has made it very clear that we're not in a "relationship", that he is not my boyfriend and is free to date other people.

Entry #8
My punishment was to make a video of me giving myself 18 hard spanks; fifteen for the 15 minutes of exercise I didn't do and three more for the 3 minutes of video I didn't bother to attempt. It was a justified punishment and I deserved that. The punishment itself wasn't bad, but having B tell me how disappointed he was in me was terrible.

No special task other than my punishment. I made sure to complete all my assigned daily task today. Outfit and nude pictures: check. Keeping a golf ball in my vagina whenever I'm not in my room: check. Sleeping naked: not asleep but in bed naked. Exercise: check, I did some pelvic floor exercise and walked a mile. I was a good girl today.

Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy our relationship and being B's slave. I'm not doing anything reluctantly, I'm still having fun, and I'm not doing anything just for the sake of making B happy. It was wrong of me to forget my place and ignore my tasks.

Good night,
~R

 

[eric60red]

Was this a reply to my comment?

No it was a general comment, if it was a reply I would have addressed it to you

 

[JustADom]

What does one want with such minutiae? Is he in Medical School, possibly to become a gastroenterologist? Do you have digestion problems? Does he use this information to help you in your daily life, like suggesting a stool softener or more water? I just don't get it?

I have heard of Doms requesting food diaries or exercise from a sub in need of weight loss. But this confuses me.

I think it's just about control... Actually it would turn me on if my slave reported such things to me. I would prefer my slave to use the bathroom at regular intervals, like poo at 7 a.m., every day, etc... and apparently, it's healthier that way.

It's not so much that the details that matter... it's the fact that she's doing these things for me... and that she's giving up more control.

 

[RBkinky]

entry #9

I really need to get some sleep, I have to be up in about an hour. Overall day was good, I'm really disappointed that I have more free time and still don't get to talk to my Dom much.

I did all my tasks today, nude and outfit picture, check. I didn't ask for permission to use the restroom but B said since he haven't been where he could answer right away, I'm excused. I had my golf ball in when I was out. Exercise, check.

I wish my dom was here, I'm feeling rather lonely being naked in bed.

bed time,
~R

 

[RBkinky]

entry #10

I was out and about all day today and didn't get to talk to B until a few hours ago. I had fun but I was really tired from the lack of sleep last night.

As far as my tasks go, I didn't have my golf balls in today. As a punishment, I now have both of my nipples clamped and a toy deep inside of me. I've been punished for an hour now. I had to get some household chores done before bed, and in order to keep my toy in I had to tape it to the side of my thigh. It is very uncomfortable when I have to bend over or walk upstairs. I get to remove the pins from my nipples as soon as I get this entry done.. Without rushing, I don't even want to know the consequences. Exercise, check. Pictures, check.

I'm ready for my punishment to be over and I would never think twice about leaving without my golf balls.

~R

 

[RBkinky]

Entry #11

Lazy day today, my justification is because I have to work tomorrow. I watched a romance film and ate banana ice cream, having B here to snuggle with and complain about my movie choice would have made the night perfect!*

All my tasks were completed ;-)*

B asked me when he gets a girlfriend, if I wanted to be in the loop or be in the dark about their relationship. I honestly didn't know how to answer him, I *do and I don't. Of course I would be jealous, I am a female after all. But he did assure me that I shouldn't feel threaten and that I should see her as a partner to help me pleasure B.*

~R

 

[Sweetdaisymae]

Entry #11

Lazy day today, my justification is because I have to work tomorrow. I watched a romance film and ate banana ice cream, having B here to snuggle with and complain about my movie choice would have made the night perfect!*

All my tasks were completed ;-)*

B asked me when he gets a girlfriend, if I wanted to be in the loop or be in the dark about their relationship. I honestly didn't know how to answer him, I *do and I don't. Of course I would be jealous, I am a female after all. But he did assure me that I shouldn't feel threaten and that I should see her as a partner to help me pleasure B.*

~R

^^ this you need to give serious thought to.
I have been to the brink in my relationship with Master due to him having a second sub, and not entirely being open about the level of their relationship.

Be absolutey honest with your feelings
This can begin a whole world of hurt!