Vermilion said:
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Edge23 said:Dear dad,
Over the years, and a little therapy, I've grown to understand why it was that you cheated on mum all those years ago. I understand that you had to 'sow your wild oats,' as you put it. I'm a guy and I know the feeling. I guess I just have a little more self-control.
It's okay that you thought that teaching me to play baseball one weekend a month was enough of being a father. It's okay that I had to figure out girls for myself, because I was living with mum and Shan, and how difficult would THAT have been? (By the way? I've been married 11 years and I STILL haven't figured out women, but it's fun to try
Honestly, I've had a hard time figuring you out, dad. At one point, you drove me, while you were still drunk, from one side of town to the other, taking me home, only for me to watch as mum slapped you in the face and kicked you out. Can't you see just HOW wrong that was of you? I mean, I was FUCKING SEVEN! Then, once you moved in with your mistress, I got to watch you smack her around a few times, 'all because of the alcohol.' How exactly was I to take that? That it was okay to hit women as long as you were drunk? It kinda seemed that way, since she didn't call the cops or anything. But maybe I was smarter than that or maybe it was being raised by mum, since you were too busy taking care of my step-sister to seem to give more than two shits about me or Shan. Or how about when you asked me that, after 25 years of divorce, whether mum would take you back? Here's an idea: ask her. I can already tell you the answer, though, so I wouldn't bother if I were you.
So, you've given up drinking for your health. Good for you. Now, if you could just keep step-mom from drinking herself into a blackout every single night, starting at 3 p.m. While she's watching her grandson. Alone. And she can't drive because of her back injury. Damn. Really makes me want to come out for a visit. Can you tell?
Speaking of visits, when are you planning on visiting me out here? Why is it that every year, I'm the one who has to shell out money to fly out there, rent a car, and see you for a few days? Why can't you leave step-mom on her lazy ass for a week and come out and visit me? The last time you traveled more than an hour to see me was my WEDDING! And you weren't even going to come THEN if mum hadn't been driving out. Good thing you hitched a ride, huh?
I can understand WHAT you did and WHY you did it. To a point. What I can't understand is HOW you could have done this to me and Shan. And mum. Why did *I* have to tell her about why you cheated on her? After so long, she deserves to hear it from YOU, not her son.
All this and I'm STILL trying to find time in the work schedule to squeeze in a long weekend to come visit you in a house that reeks of cigarettes and stale beer. Is it any reason the wife doesn't want to come along? It's about enough to make me sick. But still, you are my dad, regardless of whether I've given up on the rest of your family or not. So, I still feel obligated to do so.
See you some time when you don't deserve it,
Your Son (Biologically Only).
*hugs* 
& 
for seeing how wrong of a person he was and for being the better man ^.^ 
dear cloudycloudy said:
ABSTRUSE said:
Abs. Thinking of you and wishing you well x
