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positive side. you got to enjoy it for 20 years, and passed the enjoyment on. (and got paid)
Didn’t get paid- lost money on a car that I should have made crazy money on. Loved the car, likely won’t ever be able to afford another one. If I think too much about how much I got screwed, I will put a bullet in my head. Getting fucked that bad physically hurts.
 
Yes, kids grown and gone. Spouse dead. Family in another state, and wouldn’t know or care if I dropped dead tomorrow. I have a fair amount of equity in my house, and have things I worked my ass off to buy that I don’t wish to lose. And I have lost almost everything twice before, and sold off “treasures” that meant far more to me than money. Many of which actually kind of haunt me to this day. Particularly a car I sold after 20 years of building it. None of that matters to anyone else, and I totally get that. But it is (perhaps stupidly) painful to me. I don’t want to go through that again, and especially not since I am alone now (before I had my love with me).

I had two more paragraphs of my experience typed in here, and I just deleted it. It was all depressing. All true, but depressing and nothing good will come of me sharing it. So instead, we should look on the positive!
Hugs Brenda Bear
It's just fine to treasure things you have collected and have memory and extrinsic value to you.
We value you too... and we would miss you terribly if something happened to you.
I have confidence you will find a path that you are ready and willing to walk. You have more life ahead of you than you sometimes realize. And I say that as a women older than you.

Mwah!
 
I become sluggish at anything over 27, the heat here is very dry and sometimes very humid. Like now I should go lie outside in the sun but I just feel like sitting inside in the cool.
My sluggishness starts about at the same temperature - and I definitely don't lie in the sun when it's above 27, my head starts boiling. The best side of hot weather is that it's nice in the shade too.

If there's no good shade available, then my max is close to 25-26. Even with a good wide straw hat.

And I don't deal very well with humidity either... I'm one damn big meteopath.
 
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