Repeatoffender25
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You ever just have this feeling where you want something but you just don't know what it is, or better yet how to describe it. Would it be an emotional affair, an online gf as I've read somewhere here? Maybe it's just a mid life crisis kind of thing with 50 closing in? Maybe I just need a friend.
I've been married for quite some time, have older kids, steady life...nothing even close to luxurious by any means but things are the way they are for my life and will always be. I'm left with an empty feeling of some kind, like I've missed out on something in life. I wasn't a partier, didn't have a lot women, but I've had an enjoyable time with where (and who) I've been (with)......as to where I'm going, I'm just not so optimistic.
This week I ran into a 30(ish) year old who was absolute drop dead gorgeous and she had the gift of gab, telling me about her life and work experiences. Yet all the while in my mind as she was talking to me, I'm thinking "I'm almost 20 years her senior and never once have I had a friend or more-than-friend that looked as good as she does" Sounds shallow I know, but I'm just being honest. I will add that in addition to her looks she was kind and super intelligent, if she chooses she will make someone an incredible S/O one day.
So, back to the ramble...I found myself vaguely flirting with her. At that moment in time she had me feeling 25 again. Then when we went our separate ways she left me feeling depressed. I mean really down. A-that I prolly looked like an idiot, B-why I couldn't have found someone like that when it mattered, when I was younger and tied up in all the strings I've already chosen for myself. I know I should see the glass half full but my mind isn't allowing me to view things that way right now, and before you say you're never too old and blah blah blah....trust me I have no hope of changing anything.
Wait...as an addendum to that last sentence I want to say that --I realize that anyone at anytime can shake up any situation, but I feel too committed to the corner I'm sitting in to ever come out from it. (if that makes sense)
So what do I do? What do I look for? *Do not say a therapist!
* (although that may help) Sometimes I think just a woman to talk to, and become friends with would be really nice, but I'm a guy and a female friend to talk to is great but it only lasts so long before the desire for a female friend who's "fun" pops into my mind. When the "fun" begins to materialize, my sense of morality has a way of tapping me on the shoulder and tells me I should move along. Maybe I shouldn't look for anything, just resign myself to "life is what it is".
Part of me doesn't like how that last statement sounds. So dear reader you see my dilemma. Maybe there's a lady here browsing these forums and you read my post and feel like I do, or maybe you would just enjoy a friend online. Start there and just see how it goes?
My inbox is open!
I've been married for quite some time, have older kids, steady life...nothing even close to luxurious by any means but things are the way they are for my life and will always be. I'm left with an empty feeling of some kind, like I've missed out on something in life. I wasn't a partier, didn't have a lot women, but I've had an enjoyable time with where (and who) I've been (with)......as to where I'm going, I'm just not so optimistic.
This week I ran into a 30(ish) year old who was absolute drop dead gorgeous and she had the gift of gab, telling me about her life and work experiences. Yet all the while in my mind as she was talking to me, I'm thinking "I'm almost 20 years her senior and never once have I had a friend or more-than-friend that looked as good as she does" Sounds shallow I know, but I'm just being honest. I will add that in addition to her looks she was kind and super intelligent, if she chooses she will make someone an incredible S/O one day.
So, back to the ramble...I found myself vaguely flirting with her. At that moment in time she had me feeling 25 again. Then when we went our separate ways she left me feeling depressed. I mean really down. A-that I prolly looked like an idiot, B-why I couldn't have found someone like that when it mattered, when I was younger and tied up in all the strings I've already chosen for myself. I know I should see the glass half full but my mind isn't allowing me to view things that way right now, and before you say you're never too old and blah blah blah....trust me I have no hope of changing anything.
Wait...as an addendum to that last sentence I want to say that --I realize that anyone at anytime can shake up any situation, but I feel too committed to the corner I'm sitting in to ever come out from it. (if that makes sense)
So what do I do? What do I look for? *Do not say a therapist!
* (although that may help) Sometimes I think just a woman to talk to, and become friends with would be really nice, but I'm a guy and a female friend to talk to is great but it only lasts so long before the desire for a female friend who's "fun" pops into my mind. When the "fun" begins to materialize, my sense of morality has a way of tapping me on the shoulder and tells me I should move along. Maybe I shouldn't look for anything, just resign myself to "life is what it is".Part of me doesn't like how that last statement sounds. So dear reader you see my dilemma. Maybe there's a lady here browsing these forums and you read my post and feel like I do, or maybe you would just enjoy a friend online. Start there and just see how it goes?
My inbox is open!
