Can we just skip over the next 24 hours please?
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I'll keep you busy, babydoll. Monopoly, Scrabble, or Twister. You choose.
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superlittlegirl
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I just want to skip right to the middle of February.
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Freya2 said:
I know what you mean.
Holidays + Stress + My family = Insanity
morninggirl5
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Freya,
My thoughts will be with you tomorrow.
We'll survive it. I'm sure of it.
mg
My thoughts will be with you tomorrow.
We'll survive it. I'm sure of it.
mg
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Freya2 said:
Hi Freya! You pretty girl, you.
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I've spent the last 25 Christmases, since I was 8, at the same house, with the same traditions, same people. Then two years ago after my mom left, we continued doing what we always did, except my sister-in-law and I made dinner, and it was one less person. It was different - one of the big sparks was gone out of our day, but we tried so hard to not let it change anything.
This year, when my brother said they would be having Christmas dinner in their new house, I had this moment of total immaturity, and thought to myself that we just couldn't do that - it wouldn't be the same. But at the time at least we thought everyone would still be there with us - it would just be in a different place. So I figured I might just sleep at my dad's, like I always have, and still wake up there on Christmas morning.
Now he's gone, I'm alone here, and my daughter just IM'ed me to wish me Merry Christmas, instead of her being alseep in her bed ready to awaken to Christmas morning as she has always known it. One of my biggest pleasures has always been finding that "perfect" gift for everyone - it's the only time of year I will willingly go to a mall, unless my clothes are in tatters. This year, money was so tight, it was a matter of getting what little I could afford, rather than what people might like. My other big pleasure was always sitting on the floor, everyone in their special spot, while my dad played Santa, and opening our gifts. I really don't care what I get, I just like to open things. This year, my gifts will be two envelopes - one from my brother and one from my grandpa. It's not that I don't appreciate everything, it's just that it's just not the same at all, and I hate it.
I feel like a selfish child. There are so many in this world suffering daily, others who are so much worse off than me, but I just want to crawl into bed, pull the covers over my head, and wake up on December 26th.
Bleh.
This year, when my brother said they would be having Christmas dinner in their new house, I had this moment of total immaturity, and thought to myself that we just couldn't do that - it wouldn't be the same. But at the time at least we thought everyone would still be there with us - it would just be in a different place. So I figured I might just sleep at my dad's, like I always have, and still wake up there on Christmas morning.
Now he's gone, I'm alone here, and my daughter just IM'ed me to wish me Merry Christmas, instead of her being alseep in her bed ready to awaken to Christmas morning as she has always known it. One of my biggest pleasures has always been finding that "perfect" gift for everyone - it's the only time of year I will willingly go to a mall, unless my clothes are in tatters. This year, money was so tight, it was a matter of getting what little I could afford, rather than what people might like. My other big pleasure was always sitting on the floor, everyone in their special spot, while my dad played Santa, and opening our gifts. I really don't care what I get, I just like to open things. This year, my gifts will be two envelopes - one from my brother and one from my grandpa. It's not that I don't appreciate everything, it's just that it's just not the same at all, and I hate it.
I feel like a selfish child. There are so many in this world suffering daily, others who are so much worse off than me, but I just want to crawl into bed, pull the covers over my head, and wake up on December 26th.
Bleh.
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There's not a damned thing anyone's going to be able to say to make it better, honey. I feel for you, I really do.
I guess firstly, it's not wrong to feel the way you do. There's nothing malicious in what you're feeling at all. Just sadness, and that's pretty appropriate under the circumstances.
You've been through a lot this year. I hope that once you're there tomorrow you'll be able to focus on loving your remaining family and taking joy in being with them.
I don't really get the whole Christmas thang, so I'm probably saying the wrong stuff, but I know that as much as I dread stuff sometimes, the reality's usually a billion times better than I think it will be.
I guess firstly, it's not wrong to feel the way you do. There's nothing malicious in what you're feeling at all. Just sadness, and that's pretty appropriate under the circumstances.
You've been through a lot this year. I hope that once you're there tomorrow you'll be able to focus on loving your remaining family and taking joy in being with them.
I don't really get the whole Christmas thang, so I'm probably saying the wrong stuff, but I know that as much as I dread stuff sometimes, the reality's usually a billion times better than I think it will be.
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Nora said:
You know, you're a damn smart cookie Nora. And you're right too - I'm sure it will be better tomorrow. It'll be tough, but we're a tough family.
Why do things always seem so much shittier late at night? I've kept a good mind about all this, and then tonight it hit me like a ton of fucking bricks.
Thanks for the hugs Cibo and SaraPet (how are you btw Sara?).
Ezarc, I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.
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I hope your tomorrow goes better then my tonight did. *hugs*Freya2 said:You know, you're a damn smart cookie Nora. And you're right too - I'm sure it will be better tomorrow. It'll be tough, but we're a tough family.
Why do things always seem so much shittier late at night? I've kept a good mind about all this, and then tonight it hit me like a ton of fucking bricks.
Thanks for the hugs Cibo and SaraPet (how are you btw Sara?).
Ezarc, I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.
Take Care and Wishing you the Best,
Ezarc
Christmas has been so different for me the last three years. This is my third Christmas *alone* (divorced). Christmas really started changing the year my brother died. We were really close and took such great delight in shopping together for our family. And we always came up with such unique gifts for each other. The last Christmas before he died was 1984. He already knew he had AIDS and might not live long. But he didn't tell anyone. He had a personalized "Care Bear" made for me with a heart on the tummy and his name embroidered in there. I still sleep with that bear.
Then my dad died four years later, then three years later, my mom. My two sisters and I do our best to make Christmas, and all holidays, good. But it just isn't the same, ya know?
Then my dad died four years later, then three years later, my mom. My two sisters and I do our best to make Christmas, and all holidays, good. But it just isn't the same, ya know?
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Freya2 said:
Things always seem worse at night cuz there's no distractions of real life to pull us away from the icky bad thoughts that just have time to flitter through our head when we're busy doing productive things.
And did someone say cookies?? Yeahhhhhh, that's what you need, gf! Cookies and milk. Nothing seems bad when there's cookies and milk to be had! lol
Or you could masturbate a bit. That always takes my mind off stuff. And um.. yeah, I think you should record it. *nods* and post it. And if you wouldn't mind screaming out, "OMG NORA YES YES YES!" that would be pretty cool.
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*hugs*
If you need me.. I'm only a phone call away.
If you need me.. I'm only a phone call away.
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Nora said:Things always seem worse at night cuz there's no distractions of real life to pull us away from the icky bad thoughts that just have time to flitter through our head when we're busy doing productive things.
And did someone say cookies?? Yeahhhhhh, that's what you need, gf! Cookies and milk. Nothing seems bad when there's cookies and milk to be had! lol
Or you could masturbate a bit. That always takes my mind off stuff. And um.. yeah, I think you should record it. *nods* and post it. And if you wouldn't mind screaming out, "OMG NORA YES YES YES!" that would be pretty cool.
Well shit! I should have recorded my earlier session then. Of course it was more like "Oh god Nora! Oh yes baby, do me like that! Fuck me Nora! Oh yes, yes, YES!!!!" Would that be bad?
Freaky, I
you so much. Thanks.Sara - I'm so happy to hear you're doing well. I worried about you over the last couple of months.
