Campus Corner (Open)

[CarnivalBarker]

"Well," Riley says. "What do you need to be that girl?"

 

[celestialdragon]

I shrug. "Last time, it took a nice blade to my wrist," I say. "I'd rather not do that again. Beyond that, I'm not sure."

 

[CarnivalBarker]

"Lynn!" Riley says. "That's absurd. He did not fall in love with a girl because she cuts herself. In fact, that will not help at all."

 

[celestialdragon]

"I know, I know I know," I groan. "That's why I need help, Riley!"

 

[CarnivalBarker]

"What can I do for you?" she asks. "I will help you."

 

[celestialdragon]

"You know me almost as well as Reece," I explain. "Its a question of making me feel that way again. And I need to do this fast. I have a wedding in three weeks."

 

[CarnivalBarker]

Riley's eyes narrow. "Do you think you need to be....punished? Is that what you are missing?"

 

[celestialdragon]

"I think I've been punished enough," I remark dryly. "Punishment will make this worse."

 

[CarnivalBarker]

"Then tell me what you need." She says.

 

[celestialdragon]

"I need to be reminded of who I am, and that I'm everything he loves about me because I honestly am having a hard time doing that. And I need a way to prevent this from happening again, ever."

 

[CarnivalBarker]

"Wait," Riley says. "Why....why would it happen again?"

 

[celestialdragon]

"Any number of reasons," I say. "Its a precaution.
"

 

[CarnivalBarker]

"What. Reasons."

 

[celestialdragon]

"Riley, its just a preventative measure,"/ I assure her. "I'm not saying I'd be this stupid ever again, but it could be any sort of trigger in which Reece is truly angry at MW."

 

[CarnivalBarker]

"I have a picture," Riley says. "It's one that Reece has as his wallpaper on his phone. I made him send it to me because, well, it's hot. And it is the girl he fell in love with." She scrolls through her phone and shows you a picture of yourself from some time when you were at your place, early on in your relationship with me.

"Look at you, Lynn. Clear eyes, the body that makes Reece want to be inside you every minute of the day, the confidence to wear that dress, the boots that say you will fuck a guy when you want and only when you want, but definitely when YOU want. And an attitude! THIS is the girl he loves. And THIS is you."

http://thechive.files.wordpress.com/2011/02/hot-college-girls-0.jpg

 

[celestialdragon]

I smile and laugh. "I hated that picture," I confess. "It just looked unflattering." My smile is genuine and unforced, the first she's still in a long time.

 

[CarnivalBarker]

"I know it. And when you are unflattering, you are the prettiest, sexiest, most confident girl in the room. Reece could have fucked me forever, and I'd have done anything for him." She looks at the picture. "But I could never be this beautiful creature." She changes gears somewhat. "Did he ever use a condom with you?" She asks.

 

[celestialdragon]

"Never,"/ I confess. "I hate condoms."

 

[CarnivalBarker]

Riley glares a little. "Well we all do. But he always used them on me. The first time he didn't? When you were in the room. When you had made sure I had birth control. When he first fucked me, I told him he didn't have to use them. He told me later that he would ALWAYS use them because he wasn't comfortable with the idea of becoming a dad, because he didn't know if he could be a good one. My point is," she says. "He wasn't worried about that with you. He had found his girl. THE girl."

 

[celestialdragon]

"Yeah, he did," I say with a smile. "It still seems surreal, sometimes."

 

[CarnivalBarker]

"You ARE that girl," Riley says. "You KNOW it. Be her."

 

[celestialdragon]

I smile and give her hand a squeeze. "Bit easier now, actually," I confess.

 

[CarnivalBarker]

"And," she says. "I don't want to fuck anyone that isn't great either. Guy or girl," she winks at you.

 

[celestialdragon]

I laugh. "I'm not that good," I say.

 

[CarnivalBarker]

"Oh, but you ARE," she says, blushing.