Broken Hearts and Ego Blows

[Angel]

My birthday is in two days. BK was supposed to be here for it.

In fact I was supposed to pick him up from the airport in a few hours. But I log on this morning and instead of a phone call I recieve a last minute E-mail telling me he's not coming because of our Retaliation bombings.

He's had since Sunday to tell me this shit if he wasn't going to come. But he tells me last minute, in the most cowardly way possible - to write an e-mail and then log offline and not answer his telephone when I called him.

Talk about an Ego-blow not to mention the oh so lovely feeling of a heart being ripped out, stepped on and then tossed to the side.. I'm in total shock. I have no idea what I'm thinking or feeling at the moment. I keep tearing up and then stopping. I cried and now I can't. I'm angry and pissed off and depressed and hateful and bitchy right now.

If I snap or bitch or treat anyone like shit, I'm sorry.

 

[Chuckus]

((HUGS))

 

[sarahuk4]

I am so sorry for what you are going through Angel, but that is "real life " for you , it stinks sometimes, if you want to chat to me , pm me ok ......i am a good listener , be fair i am older than your mum i bet ........lol......

 

[Shylady]

I am very sorry to hear that Angel.

 

[Purple Haze]

I hereby volunteer my services as Angel's punching bag.

 

[YogiBare]

Gosh Angel, that IS a really low blow. I'm sorry - I saw your post where you sounded so excited about seeing him. His move WAS cowardly. He's obviously carried out a terrorist attack on your relationship with him.

I know that this is probably hard to do right now, but rather than putting energy into the relationship now by trying to get in contact with him, you might want to put your energy into pulling together alternate plans for your birthday. Don't let him ruin it. Who can you turn to to get love and nurturing on your special day?

Besides, after a dasterdly deed such as this, I would say that the ball is certainly in his court. (You could, however, send him a scathing email after your well-celebrated birthday.) Don't let yourself be a victim!

Hugs.

YB

 

[Angel]

Who can you turn to to get love and nurturing on your special day?

I don't want any right now.

 

[cymbidia]

Oh baby - i'm so very sorry.



(Look. you already have practice screaming at me. I'd be delighted to stand still so you can scream and kick me for awhile, if it'll help you any at all. Then i'll go sulk for a few days, and then we'll be just fine again. I mean this sincerely. If you gget to feeling like you want to explode all over someone's butt here, just mosey on over and unload on me. I can take it; we already know that.)

 

[Guest]

((((((((((angel))))))))))

I'm sorry.

 

[MissTaken]

I am so sorry to hear that Angel.

*hugs * for you. If you want to have a bitch fest or do some male bashing, I am in about the same frame of mind.

You certainly don't deserve this kind of hurt.

*more hugs8

 

[Azwed]

That was a very low blow for him to do and he should be in the dog house for a long time because of it.

I still think you are gorgeous by the way. Try and find some happy things to do for your birthday maybe take your mind off it.

 

[Angel]

I have alot of issues with shit that has happened in the past around my birthday that I really have a difficult time dealing with when this time of the year rolls around. He knows this and promised that he'd be here with me to make it easier.

He was the one person I always counted on when I get down like this and he knew. He KNEW I needed him to be here with me when this week arrived. And he promised.

That is the thing that's fucking me up right now. I didn't want to vent on the freaking board. I'm sorry to anyone who doesn't want to read this. I just don't know what else to do.

 

[Azwed]

I don't think there is anything I could say that would make you feel better.

You got friends here nothing wrong with taking advantage of them for a while.

Sounds like BK might deserve a good ole ass whooping. I guess I could offer my services in that regard.

 

[Guest]

Why stay with someone that is so inconsiderate of your feelings and so selfish

 

[MissTaken]

~more hugs~

Vent away, Angel!


YOu have friends here.

 

[SexyChele]

Angel, I don't know you all that well, but I understand the pain. I'm sorry, and hope things will get better for you.

Sounds like you've got a great bunch of people here who care a great deal about you. You are fortunate in that regard.

 

[Guest]

That is the thing that's fucking me up right now. I didn't want to vent on the freaking board. I'm sorry to anyone who doesn't want to read this. I just don't know what else to do.

Gee, if you didn't want to vent on a board and reap the sympathy, why did you post it?

Spare me.

 

[Angel]

I was trying to annoy you, actually.

 

[Nathon_88]

(((((((((((((((((BIG BLUE MONSTER HUG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)))))))))))))))))))

 

[Guru]

 

[beckbabe]

Sorry angel, that sucks.



I know all about bad birthday syndrome. . .I've had it for years. . .Pm me if you want.

 

[lavender]

 

[Guest]

 

[Mistress]

SNUGGLES

 

[Blackbich]

BIG ASS HUG AND SQUEEZE FOR ANGEL

SO SORRY TO HEAR THAT, LADY.
I don't know why he'd want to do that to you, Angel. Especially with him knowing how important your birthday is to you.