Bi or confused?

[Harry sach]

I have a dilema I needed to share, I hope nobody minds. I am, for the most part, happily married for over 10 years now, but about 6 or 7 years ago now a conversation with a gay guy where I worked turned into my first male experience in getting sucked off, which absolutely terrified me at the time. There must have been something that made me want to do it again though, as it happened numerous times over a long period, inside and out, and eventually he asked me to fuck him. Again, I was totally terrified but it has happened several times since. I think a lot of it was to do with the lack of sex at home at the time, though that has improved quite a lot recently, and there are reasons why it wasn't great but I shouldn't go into them. Although I don't actually get that turned on when it's happening, the thought of it and of him sucking my cock is what seems to make me go back, but afterwards it feels so dirty and wrong, along with the obvious feelings of guilt. I've tried to suppress these urges but every now and again will find myself watching and pleasuring myself to gay porn, and wondering what it would be like to have a cock inside me. The last time i went to see my friend, which was the first time for a while, he sort of part penetrated me and i didn't feel any pain because i was so turned on. He wants me to go and see him again and half of me is thinking should I go and see if I can allow him to fuck me, and maybe get some closure on all this, but the other half of me is saying don't do it.
Am I Bi, or just confused?? Any help would be most welcome!

 

[jackofthedawn]

Don't get hung up on labels. I'm convinced that most people have the capacity to enjoy sex with partners of the same sex.

 

[photobuff56]

I know how you fell on the guilt, I had a first Bi session 3 weeks ago. I was nervous and felt guilt but once I got into That all went away.

 

[PJPenner]

I had my first sexual experience with a guy 18 years ago. I can remember having many internal conflicts and questions. Over the years, I came to this conclusion: I am sexual. The labels of heterosexual, bisexual and homosexual are simply restraints that others want to put me in because I don't fit nice and tidy into their box(es) of limited sexual perceptions, beliefs or experiences.

Do not allow others to define you. Labels serve them ... not you.

I enjoy women and men as lovers. There are specific times in my life when I desire one over the other. But over a span of time, I desire and appreciate them equally.

I encourage you to take advantage of any and all sexual opportunities that come your way (male or female) as long you are participating by your own choice and you are not hurting yourself or anyone else.