cymbidia
unrepentant pervert
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From another thread, Risia to others on where i've been:
Thank you to all who expressed concerns about me, either here or more directly. It feels good to be the recipient of such from such lovely people. My deep gratitute to Risia and Muff, my dear friends, for not letting me slink away and dig myself into a corner. I'm grateful, too, to april-wine, surely one of the most sweetly loyal friends one can have. Additionally, i am astounded and amazed by the perceptiveness, intelligence and openmindedness of the one we call patient1. It was you, patient1, (and Muff, of course, the bearer of your message) who jolted through my self-absorbed and (let's face it) selfishly cranky misery.
I needed a Lit break, as Risia said. That New Year's go-round over the word "nilla" just did me in. With all the rest of the crap i was carrying around, it felt like the provarbial "last straw", you know? I just needed some time off, away from the turmoil, to think and regroup and recharge.
To that end, i did nothing for the first few days i was away, and then, bored, i began haunting bondage.com in an effort to find some people like me to spend face-to-face time with. I need, i think, though matters with MS are still so fresh, to begin casting my eyes outward. I'm sick of being depressed.
I'm definitely going to my local munch on the 20th - and with a Dom i'm getting to know, too. (If you don't know what a munch is, ask on the BDSM thread!)
In the time i've been away, i've spent some real time talking to two from bondage. com. (Ah! the blessings of being in the San Francisco Bay area... there are *lots* of us around here.) One was a nice, sweet man but after talking with him for a face-to-face while, it was clear to me that we were in two very different places with respect to our needs and desires. The other, well. The other... there are some possiblities there!
As is my wont, i'll keep you informed of my progress through the world of online BDSM personals ads. I'm not sure those who i meet from there will like it though...
Hmmm...
Maybe i'd better introduce some from there over here. (Cuz there're four of us from here over there!).
I'm feeling like i can smile and laugh again and have it be real.
There's still a lot of "process" for me to go through, i know that, but i've turned some kinda corner, that's for sure.
Risia's right: i'm bent... not broken.
"Bent but not broken." How profoundly true those words are, la amiga del corazón, and on several levels.RisiaSkye said:For a number of reasons, cym needed a break from Lit. I spoke to her yesterday, and she sounds like she's turned a corner. I expect we'll see her back before too long.
She's bent, but not broken.
Thank you to all who expressed concerns about me, either here or more directly. It feels good to be the recipient of such from such lovely people. My deep gratitute to Risia and Muff, my dear friends, for not letting me slink away and dig myself into a corner. I'm grateful, too, to april-wine, surely one of the most sweetly loyal friends one can have. Additionally, i am astounded and amazed by the perceptiveness, intelligence and openmindedness of the one we call patient1. It was you, patient1, (and Muff, of course, the bearer of your message) who jolted through my self-absorbed and (let's face it) selfishly cranky misery.
I needed a Lit break, as Risia said. That New Year's go-round over the word "nilla" just did me in. With all the rest of the crap i was carrying around, it felt like the provarbial "last straw", you know? I just needed some time off, away from the turmoil, to think and regroup and recharge.
To that end, i did nothing for the first few days i was away, and then, bored, i began haunting bondage.com in an effort to find some people like me to spend face-to-face time with. I need, i think, though matters with MS are still so fresh, to begin casting my eyes outward. I'm sick of being depressed.
I'm definitely going to my local munch on the 20th - and with a Dom i'm getting to know, too. (If you don't know what a munch is, ask on the BDSM thread!)
In the time i've been away, i've spent some real time talking to two from bondage. com. (Ah! the blessings of being in the San Francisco Bay area... there are *lots* of us around here.) One was a nice, sweet man but after talking with him for a face-to-face while, it was clear to me that we were in two very different places with respect to our needs and desires. The other, well. The other... there are some possiblities there!
As is my wont, i'll keep you informed of my progress through the world of online BDSM personals ads. I'm not sure those who i meet from there will like it though...
Hmmm...
Maybe i'd better introduce some from there over here. (Cuz there're four of us from here over there!).
I'm feeling like i can smile and laugh again and have it be real.
There's still a lot of "process" for me to go through, i know that, but i've turned some kinda corner, that's for sure.
Risia's right: i'm bent... not broken.
