I opened a thread "Violence fetish? " in BDSM Talk about my fantasy of being beated.
Here's is short text about how one of my fantasies go... I actually have really thought over to do it for real but I dont have guts...
I join thai boxing club. Women there are totally unlike me. They are tough and competitive. They like to fight and test themselves, accomplish and win. I'm there because of this crazy fantasy of being beaten. Like all beginners it starts with basic techniques and training. No real matches yet.
Other girls find me quite weak and meek. They wonder why I'm there at all. Some of them are easy on me in sparring. Couple others clearly like the idea of being superior.
Then first matches... We are paired up with same sized boxers. With all gear and everyone being new, fights arent spectacular. Only couple minute rounds and referee keeps fight very clean. I lose of course. Referee stops fight after my opponent scores couple good hits and I dont seem to be able keep my stance well anymore.
Afterwards in locker room there's excited talking and laughing while everyone takes a shower and goes through first matches. I sit silent feeling slightly humiliated, very submissive. I dont have any highlights to brag about.
Then discussion goes to my match and how clearly the other girl won. One girl asks me why I started thai boxing anyway. I hold breath. Everyone turns to look at me and hear my answer. I should lie something but I'm too deep in submissive mood to lie. So I answer honestly. I answer I want to lose and get beated. If everyone looked me earlier now they stare me. I look too serious to be joking...
Here's is short text about how one of my fantasies go... I actually have really thought over to do it for real but I dont have guts...
I join thai boxing club. Women there are totally unlike me. They are tough and competitive. They like to fight and test themselves, accomplish and win. I'm there because of this crazy fantasy of being beaten. Like all beginners it starts with basic techniques and training. No real matches yet.
Other girls find me quite weak and meek. They wonder why I'm there at all. Some of them are easy on me in sparring. Couple others clearly like the idea of being superior.
Then first matches... We are paired up with same sized boxers. With all gear and everyone being new, fights arent spectacular. Only couple minute rounds and referee keeps fight very clean. I lose of course. Referee stops fight after my opponent scores couple good hits and I dont seem to be able keep my stance well anymore.
Afterwards in locker room there's excited talking and laughing while everyone takes a shower and goes through first matches. I sit silent feeling slightly humiliated, very submissive. I dont have any highlights to brag about.
Then discussion goes to my match and how clearly the other girl won. One girl asks me why I started thai boxing anyway. I hold breath. Everyone turns to look at me and hear my answer. I should lie something but I'm too deep in submissive mood to lie. So I answer honestly. I answer I want to lose and get beated. If everyone looked me earlier now they stare me. I look too serious to be joking...