Are my feelings... Wrong?

[PoseidonsPoolBo]

So last night I decided to hook up with a guy friend I usually do, but this time it was different. I've been very timid about sex that was... "In the back door" but he kept begging for it. We were in his car and I was giving him oral and he just kept begging!
Usually I would of told him no, but I don't know... I think I was intrigued. Since we were in such a tight space I had to crunch up my legs to my chest so my ass was up. While I was giving him oral he kept moaning (a man's moan is my weakness) and playing with my snatch. He slowly moved to my other area and for some reason I was TOTALLY opposed to it. He slowly put his finger all the way in and I jerked. He just pushed my mouth back down and told me to relax. AND I WAS SO TURNED ON. He kept telling me "You like that?" And moaning "fuck" in between breaths and I was emersed.
After he came he told me to turn around and face the window. (At this time the car was all steamy and added to the sexual feel) I honestly was terrified. He turned my hips up and started to rub on me. Usually I fake moans because I like to hear myself, but these were 100% real. He used my wetness on the other part and that's when I started to get nervous. I told him "No." But,... I didn't mean it. He slowly rubbed himself against me and I jerked again. He rubbed my shoulders and then pushed again. I kept saying "No stop" in a little moan and I could tell that was turning us both on. He told me "After the head is in you'll love it trust me." And, trusting him, I reached back and helped him in.
OW! Jesus Christ I hadn't screamed (in a good way) during sex in a LONG time. As he pushed himself farther in he kept saying "fuck you're so tight." And moaning loudly which turned me on so much. We are dripping sweat by now and god it feels so good. Honestly all my life I thought I'd NEVER let anyone do that. But fuck, it felt so good I was pushing back. And his "Take this dick"s and choking me just pushed me over the edge.
It was so hot and... I want to do it again. Just how rough it was and how good it felt oh god I want it all the time now. Is this wrong? Should I still be the girl that says "Ew that's gross!!" I don't want to seem weird but its all I've been thinking about ALL day!

 

[Algos_Idoni]

I'd love for you to be my girl. Thanks for the story.

 

[subwannabe]

Hot story but it's girls like you who confuse us poor guys. Does no mean no, or does no mean yes? This poor guy will probably be arrested for rape some day because the next girl might really mean no. I'm not complaining though.

 

[DeliaJade]

So last night I decided to hook up with a guy friend I usually do, but this time it was different. I've been very timid about sex that was... "In the back door" but he kept begging for it. We were in his car and I was giving him oral and he just kept begging!
Usually I would of told him no, but I don't know... I think I was intrigued. Since we were in such a tight space I had to crunch up my legs to my chest so my ass was up. While I was giving him oral he kept moaning (a man's moan is my weakness) and playing with my snatch. He slowly moved to my other area and for some reason I was TOTALLY opposed to it. He slowly put his finger all the way in and I jerked. He just pushed my mouth back down and told me to relax. AND I WAS SO TURNED ON. He kept telling me "You like that?" And moaning "fuck" in between breaths and I was emersed.
After he came he told me to turn around and face the window. (At this time the car was all steamy and added to the sexual feel) I honestly was terrified. He turned my hips up and started to rub on me. Usually I fake moans because I like to hear myself, but these were 100% real. He used my wetness on the other part and that's when I started to get nervous. I told him "No." But,... I didn't mean it. He slowly rubbed himself against me and I jerked again. He rubbed my shoulders and then pushed again. I kept saying "No stop" in a little moan and I could tell that was turning us both on. He told me "After the head is in you'll love it trust me." And, trusting him, I reached back and helped him in.
OW! Jesus Christ I hadn't screamed (in a good way) during sex in a LONG time. As he pushed himself farther in he kept saying "fuck you're so tight." And moaning loudly which turned me on so much. We are dripping sweat by now and god it feels so good. Honestly all my life I thought I'd NEVER let anyone do that. But fuck, it felt so good I was pushing back. And his "Take this dick"s and choking me just pushed me over the edge.
It was so hot and... I want to do it again. Just how rough it was and how good it felt oh god I want it all the time now. Is this wrong? Should I still be the girl that says "Ew that's gross!!" I don't want to seem weird but its all I've been thinking about ALL day!

I've been there... No, it's not wrong to feel that way, and a lot of people do it! Do what makes you and your partner feel good... Set up safe words, so that if you're trying something new and you don't like it, you can say your safe word and he'll back off... Remember no doesn't always mean no...

 

[RNJAG]

No shame in likeing what you like. Enjoy it.

 

[DeliaJade]

Hot story but it's girls like you who confuse us poor guys. Does no mean no, or does no mean yes? This poor guy will probably be arrested for rape some day because the next girl might really mean no. I'm not complaining though.

That's what safe words are for...

 

[Paul_Chance]

Nothing wrong with it at all. Pleasure is its own reward, whatever, however.

 

[bluesky496]

So last night I decided to hook up with a guy friend I usually do, but this time it was different. I've been very timid about sex that was... "In the back door" but he kept begging for it. We were in his car and I was giving him oral and he just kept begging!
Usually I would of told him no, but I don't know... I think I was intrigued. Since we were in such a tight space I had to crunch up my legs to my chest so my ass was up. While I was giving him oral he kept moaning (a man's moan is my weakness) and playing with my snatch. He slowly moved to my other area and for some reason I was TOTALLY opposed to it. He slowly put his finger all the way in and I jerked. He just pushed my mouth back down and told me to relax. AND I WAS SO TURNED ON. He kept telling me "You like that?" And moaning "fuck" in between breaths and I was emersed.
After he came he told me to turn around and face the window. (At this time the car was all steamy and added to the sexual feel) I honestly was terrified. He turned my hips up and started to rub on me. Usually I fake moans because I like to hear myself, but these were 100% real. He used my wetness on the other part and that's when I started to get nervous. I told him "No." But,... I didn't mean it. He slowly rubbed himself against me and I jerked again. He rubbed my shoulders and then pushed again. I kept saying "No stop" in a little moan and I could tell that was turning us both on. He told me "After the head is in you'll love it trust me." And, trusting him, I reached back and helped him in.
OW! Jesus Christ I hadn't screamed (in a good way) during sex in a LONG time. As he pushed himself farther in he kept saying "fuck you're so tight." And moaning loudly which turned me on so much. We are dripping sweat by now and god it feels so good. Honestly all my life I thought I'd NEVER let anyone do that. But fuck, it felt so good I was pushing back. And his "Take this dick"s and choking me just pushed me over the edge.
It was so hot and... I want to do it again. Just how rough it was and how good it felt oh god I want it all the time now. Is this wrong? Should I still be the girl that says "Ew that's gross!!" I don't want to seem weird but its all I've been thinking about ALL day!

honey if you both enjoy it and no-one gets hurt then relax and carry on having fun with it ,xxx

 

[PoseidonsPoolBo]

Hot story but it's girls like you who confuse us poor guys. Does no mean no, or does no mean yes? This poor guy will probably be arrested for rape some day because the next girl might really mean no. I'm not complaining though.

Sorry that's not what I was going for!

 

[PoseidonsPoolBo]

Thank you to everyone making me feel less weird about this!!

 

[vizio]

Your rectum has a great many nerve endings and that is why it feels good. I dated a woman that liked when I would do her in the ass while she had a small vibrator in her pussy. it brought us both a tremendous orgasm

 

[policywank]

Personally, I really enjoy anal sex.

However, your question as to whether your feelings are "wrong" raises a broader point about the way that views are imposed upon us. So following is my own set of rules for the sexually mature woman.

1. Don't hurt others and don't betray their trust. Beyond that, what you do in your sex life is none of anyone's business and what they do is none of your business.

2. You are not responsible for the conduct of others but you are 100% responsible for your own conduct.

3. There are no implicit obligations. The only things you are obliged to do is keep the commitments that you explicitly accept. But once you make a commitment, there is no excuse for not keeping it.

4. Ignore the judgment of others completely - not just strangers but those close to you as well. It isn't necessary that your mother, friends or priest share your views on sex and if the try to impose their views, they are in the wrong. They have no place in your sex life and your partner(s) didn't agree to let them in.

I don't claim to have never violated any of my own rules. I am just stating what I have learned.

As it relates to #3 for instance. If you commit to monogamy you are entitled to end that commitment and go fuck someone else. But it is a betrayal to fuck someone else while staying in that relationship - your own emotional perspective doesn't change that one iota. A sexually mature woman keeps her commitment or ends it.

Or as it relates to #4. It is typically the views of others that would make you question your own interest in anal sex. You will never get others to stop being judgmental and you will always be constrained by that judgment until you can set it aside completely.

 

[dhnry1152]

Sweetheart, you did just fine, not all women enjoy anal, I'm still trying to get my girl to try it but if they're dead set aganst the pleasures of anal they lose, look else where..

 

[SlutAddicted]

Feelings aren't right or wrong. They are a visceral, emotional response that we don't control. At best we try to control how we react to our feelings. You can't simply choose not to enjoy anal sex anymore than you can choose to enjoy a root canal.

Good for you that you are able to have an honest and real grasp of what those feelings are. That is a great start to understanding this aspect of yourself. Generally speaking I would say if you enjoy something embrace it unless there is a compelling reason not to. Is there a reason not to enjoy this?

Aside from fairly practical precautions related to any sexual encounter I can't think of a reason. Unless the moralizing judgment of people who have no business in your sex life matters.

 

[ReadingExcitesMe]

If you liked it, then that's awesome. A lot of times things we think we won't like turn out to be fabulous.

 

[deyv]

For far too long, women have been conditioned to think that feeling good about their own sexual pleasure is 'wrong', 'weird', or 'gross'.

Embrace what turns you on. Embrace your desires. If you discovered that you love anal sex then go with it.

I'm not saying tell the entire world that you like anal but don't deny yourself the pleasure either.

And don't be all 'eww' about either. It's only gross to those who have never tried it.

 

[J1biboi]

If it feels good, do it!