Anally raped to within a nanometre of my worthless little life.

[VelvetDarkness]

Well.

I'm writing this in stunned, post-violation silence. I'm in too much pain and playing host to too many adrenalin pixies to even think about sleep. Master went psycho on me just now and I loved every second. I think it merits posting for posterity.

Master had been out drinking with a friend and I went to bed at about 11.30 because I'm working early. At fuck-knows o'clock I am woken by a set of teeth in my shoulder and a hand over my mouth. He was so violent and totally disregarding of me in a way he has never been before. When I gagged on his cock he pinned me underneath him and throat-fucked me. I almost threw up. He took my pussy for a while and then moved on to the main event, dry anal.

I have never been able to tolerate it before. I have always safeworded very quickly because for some reason dry anal makes me feel like I'm going to be sick. He was lubricated with my juice but it's never enough. Tonight he just pinned me down and plunged straight in. It was so very bloody painful because he's 6'1" with a big dick and I'm 5 ft nothing with a vacuum-packed rectum. I started to cry, which is something I almost never do and I was shaking so badly I could hardly stay in position. I said everything from 'no' and 'stop' through 'get the fuck out you bastard!' (which earned me a few savage bites across my back) but at no point did I safeword. It wasn't even a case of being too sub-spaced to remember how, I just didn't. After a certain point I know it was sammy-assed stubborness and the knowledge that my arse was shredded to shit already.

After a while though (and Master lasted much longer than usual because he'd had a couple of drinks) the pain became... something else. It still hurt like fuck but I was somehow less connected to it, almost as though I was observing someone else in pain, empathising but unable to experience it. Master noticed a change in me because I stopped complaining and started joining in. He got so turned on by that.

He started calling me every name under the sun, that I was such a nasty, twisted little painwhore and I was actually grinning from ear to ear, euphoric. He got increasingly savage on my poor little backside and was still dripping filth into my ear. The kicker though, after I had endured all that and conquered it for him, Master growled that at that moment I could be any woman on the planet and he wouldn't give a shit, that I was just fuckmeat and nothing more. I came so hard I had a small epileptic fit. It just came in wave after wave of a level of nirvana I have never hit in my life before and he was still pinning me and fucking me till he came (Master is used to my little epileptic idiosyncrasies and there was no risk in him carrying on, not that he was at all concerned at the time. Since I was diagnosed I am the luckiest bitch alive for multiple orgasms so I try not to knock it too much).

So here I am, sitting rather gingerly on one side of my ravaged backside, totally wired and trying to assimilate what just happened to me while my Lord and Master shakes the house with his snores. I have never disconnected from pain like that before. It was incredible.

Well that's it. Thanks for reading. Comments received with thanks.

 

[Chicklet]

awesome

exciting

and...

hotttttt

 

[marieR19]

awesome

exciting

and...

hotttttt

*agrees muchly* Wow. Just..... Wow. *drools*

*wants!*


Heather

 

[MasterOfUrMind]

I'm nearly too stunned to say anything but WOW! At first I thought it was too much. I thought that at heart I was a bit too much of a softy to ever be that cruel, that brutal. But then I have never been with a woman that would tolerate it. In fantasies is one thing, but even then, I tend to be more about humilation than about inflicting pain. But then, there at the end, when he said you could be anyone and it would make no difference, that was a sublime moment, beyond the pain to utter debasement and humiliation. WOW!

 

[ecstaticsub]

I am going back in forth in my head between being wicked envious and turned on to being worried about your anal health.

Being taken like that especially the way he spoke to you throughout the experience is one of my most frequent fantasies.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us. I'm going to go back and read it again...

Now baby that ass and drink lots and lots of fluids.

 

[VelvetDarkness]

I'm nearly too stunned to say anything but WOW! At first I thought it was too much. I thought that at heart I was a bit too much of a softy to ever be that cruel, that brutal. But then I have never been with a woman that would tolerate it. In fantasies is one thing, but even then, I tend to be more about humilation than about inflicting pain. But then, there at the end, when he said you could be anyone and it would make no difference, that was a sublime moment, beyond the pain to utter debasement and humiliation. WOW!

Sublime is a good word indeed. Even the soreness I have now feels sublime because for the next couple of days it will be a constant reminder of our lovemaking (yes, it really is all lovemaking on one level or another, definitely a bonding experience) and where my place truly is.

 

[VelvetDarkness]

I am going back in forth in my head between being wicked envious and turned on to being worried about your anal health.

Being taken like that especially the way he spoke to you throughout the experience is one of my most frequent fantasies.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us. I'm going to go back and read it again...

Now baby that ass and drink lots and lots of fluids.

Don't worry, I'm on it. I have applied some antiseptic cream and am chugging water as I sit here. In an hour or two I'll have a bath and a thorough wash before creaming my arse again.

He better not go anywhere near it for a while though. I think I'm safe. He's grown up enough not to break his toys irrepairably.

 

[HB1965]

My God that's amazing. What a story! I'm happy for your VD. To given the very things you crave is nirvana

 

[Cheshire D]

For a minute, I thought I should be worried.

Then all was well, in a manner of speaking. Glad you had a good time.

 

[VelvetDarkness]

To given the very things you crave is nirvana

Yep, that was exactly it. I have fantasized about being used that violently before and wondered how I would cope if I ever got my wish. Now I can say with total conviction that I really am that twisted.

 

[ecstaticsub]

Don't worry, I'm on it. I have applied some antiseptic cream and am chugging water as I sit here. In an hour or two I'll have a bath and a thorough wash before creaming my arse again.

He better not go anywhere near it for a while though. I think I'm safe. He's grown up enough not to break his toys irrepairably.

I'm sorry if I sounded negative...i didn't mean to be.. I really am in awe and very envious. Enjoy ..

 

[VelvetDarkness]

I'm sorry if I sounded negative...i didn't mean to be.. I really am in awe and very envious. Enjoy ..

You didn't sound negative and it wasn't my intention to sound dismissive. Let's call it evens.

 

[ecstaticsub]

You didn't sound negative and it wasn't my intention to sound dismissive. Let's call it evens.

Evens

 

[Wyldfire]

Velvet, a couple of questions, and understand while I am wholeheartedly with you on this you also need to consider your continued health.

Are you bleeding? If so how badly?

Second. If you can feel with your fingers down there, is there any tearing between vagina and anal cavity? If there is or there is any large amount of bleeding, please get yourself to a hospital. Cross infection could be a very bad thing here.

I ask these questions because I have been where you are and I got a small cross infection. It was one of the three worst experiences in my life. It may be heaven right now (I know it was for me) but you need to do an after scene assesment baby.

 

[Evil_Geoff]

Velvet, hon, thank you for sharing that with us. Gotta love it when someone's experience fills us with envy/jealousy, desire, and concern. Wish I had done it, wanna do it, worried that you might find the experience to be a negative... *grins and shrugs*

We're here if you need us hon... To be voyeurs or supportive shoulders...

 

[Bandit58]

I'm gonna be the lone naysayer here and say that wouldn't be something I'd get off on. I've been raped by a drunk man and something like that would send me into flashback land so fast my head would spin - not to mention rough anal like that would put me off it totally for the rest of my life (and I've had a bad experience before).

Good luck to you if it floats your boat though

 

[VelvetDarkness]

Velvet, a couple of questions, and understand while I am wholeheartedly with you on this you also need to consider your continued health.

Are you bleeding? If so how badly?

Second. If you can feel with your fingers down there, is there any tearing between vagina and anal cavity? If there is or there is any large amount of bleeding, please get yourself to a hospital. Cross infection could be a very bad thing here.

I ask these questions because I have been where you are and I got a small cross infection. It was one of the three worst experiences in my life. It may be heaven right now (I know it was for me) but you need to do an after scene assesment baby.

Thankyou for your concern. I bled a little during sex (extra lubrication if nothing else) but stopped bleeding shortly afterwards. I did a digital exam when applying the cream and am satisfied that I have lived to die another day. I will bathe and apply more antiseptic cream and check things again before work but I have found no cause for concern so far.

I'm sorry to hear you had a bad experience. Trust me when I say that slave I may be but I will not tolerate something like tonight with any kind of frequency at all. Definitely one to go in the 'special occasion' box.

 

[VelvetDarkness]

Velvet, hon, thank you for sharing that with us. Gotta love it when someone's experience fills us with envy/jealousy, desire, and concern. Wish I had done it, wanna do it, worried that you might find the experience to be a negative... *grins and shrugs*

We're here if you need us hon... To be voyeurs or supportive shoulders...

I was a bit shellshocked when I first posted but being a painslut of robust constitution I'm over the WTF? of it all now. It's so good to have Lit as a sounding board.

Well wishing voyeurs are always appreciated.

 

[Wyldfire]

Thankyou for your concern. I bled a little during sex (extra lubrication if nothing else) but stopped bleeding shortly afterwards. I did a digital exam when applying the cream and am satisfied that I have lived to die another day. I will bathe and apply more antiseptic cream and check things again before work but I have found no cause for concern so far.

I'm sorry to hear you had a bad experience. Trust me when I say that slave I may be but I will not tolerate something like tonight with any kind of frequency at all. Definitely one to go in the 'special occasion' box.

Good. My past is just that. Past. But I live by the old phrase of Live and Learn. Just because I lived and learned that just means I can share it to hopefully help someone else. And yes if it is with a loved one it is the most intense and unbelievable experience in the world.

I will stop being concerned for a kindred soul. You have it well in hand.

 

[VelvetDarkness]

I'm gonna be the lone naysayer here and say that wouldn't be something I'd get off on. I've been raped by a drunk man and something like that would send me into flashback land so fast my head would spin - not to mention rough anal like that would put me off it totally for the rest of my life (and I've had a bad experience before).

Good luck to you if it floats your boat though

I have never been the victim of (an unwanted) sex attack and I totally understand how that would drastically alter your perspective. That you can wish me well in something like this that I found I enjoyed means a lot.

 

[VelvetDarkness]

Right, time to hightail (pun intended) it off this thread and have a bath.

Thanks again for all your great comments

 

[BiaTcHiNFiRe]

When I start reading your post I was like "oh fuck!! " and I was really worried about you, but then as I read more and more I start smiling again. I am glad it all turned out and that you enjoyed it at the end.

I usualy like this kind of raw sex and I crave to be taken just like that, animalistic raw way with no mercy. I love reading about it and talk about it with my Sir, atm I am not sure what your experience would do with me tho. Smelly drunk man reminds me my ex and since he wanted sex usualy only when he had few drinks I hate it now. It always made me feel like totally crap woman when he could fuck me only when he had few beers in him, so now I prefer someone who likes me in the "normal" state of mind as well, if you know what I mean.

I love this things, my Sir knows I am a pain slut, but due to fact every little shit makes me cry lately, including my mum, I don't think what you had would do me well just right now so I still have mixed feelings about your story. I like it cuz its something what I was dreaming about for a long time now, but I fear it as well. Hard to explain.

Your story was HOT!! The pain slut in me still want it lol, with every detail. The realistic me doubt if I would handle this kind of treating atm.

I am glad you had fun and enjoyed it!! I would hate if you'd feel just "raped and abused" after this.


~Kate

 

[catalina_francisco]

Congratulations, sounds like you've moved on from the nicely controlled, everything nice and proper scening to the more meat and fire type I prefer, though I'm with Bandit to some degree in that the fact he had been drinking would have ruined it for me in many ways and made me wonder if it was him or the drink, and for me, that matters a lot and can change how I see everything given I have an aversion to any type of substance abuse, or mixing play with drinking or drug taking. LOL, you sure do go to a lot more doctoring after such events than I do though, but I'm lazy like that unless ordered to and usually for something such as you describe he wouldn't think it really necessary to order me out of my laziness unless it were to get him a cup of coffee or give him a massage. Hope you have many more such happy experiences.

Catalina

 

[doveofserenity]

Velvet, hon, thank you for sharing that with us. Gotta love it when someone's experience fills us with envy/jealousy, desire, and concern. Wish I had done it, wanna do it, worried that you might find the experience to be a negative... *grins and shrugs*

We're here if you need us hon... To be voyeurs or supportive shoulders...

Velvet, i think EG said it best. The concern at first, made me very worried; then the jealousy and desire of seeing how you were enjoying and getting into it was very arousing. ~shivers~

If you need a shoulder to talk to about any of it; i and probably others, are just a message away.

Just make sure to take real good care of your body during its healing stage.

 

[BiaTcHiNFiRe]

though I'm with Bandit to some degree in that the fact he had been drinking would have ruined it for me in many ways and made me wonder if it was him or the drink, and for me, that matters a lot and can change how I see everything given I have an aversion to any type of substance abuse, or mixing play with drinking or drug taking.

Yeh I feel the same way about drinking and then having sex and things like that. Well it prolly depends how much was he drinking. When I had sex with my man after his few beers and I spoke about it the other day telling him he's a teaser and he said "uhm? was I? really??" I was like omg fu lol.

I hate when he didnt remeber what happened.... plus if I had something like this with my Sir I would expect him to have 100% control over whats happening while our play and can't say I would trust him if he he had few drinks before, dunno. As I said, it depends how much of a alcohol he had. I cant even smell the breath of a drunk man, its pissing me off and I hate it.

Honestly I cannot imagine my Sir would take me like this. Well I can, without the alcohol tho. With the alcohol I dunno how I would react. I might just slap him and throw him down from me if he tryed go on me like your Master did. I can be good and let him treat me as he damn please, but I can be hard headed fuck as well lol, guess this would be the case.

*wondering who would win LOL *