Am I that bad?

Nathon_88

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I mean, I want someone to look after....I want someone to share my life with.

I don't CARE that she might be married, so long as her husband knows, maybe joins in.......

I want to love someone. I want to wake up, knowing that, yes, there really IS someone out there who gives a rats ass whether I live through the day or not, and not just because they're a friend, but because they LOVE me.......

My parents? Dad? HA. Dad doesn't even love Mom. Mom? She's nice, but when I leave the house, for good, I don't really think she's going to miss me all that much. My brother? He's got a girlfriend.

I have friends, but I just want someone to hold me, to be held BY me, to kiss me, let me wrap my tongue around theirs, moan, to share my life with, to grok, to grow closer (Sorry, re-reading unabridged Stranger in a Strange Land).

Am I a bad person for wanting this? Am I a loser for not finding this?

My friend hurt me......It wasn't her fault, she shouldn't blame herself, it's mine for caring too much about her. If she reads this, I hope she doesn't get sad, or depressed. It's NOT your fault.

Is there anyone out there that truly and honestly wants a prince in their life? I smell good, most of the time, don't smoke, rarely drink......I feel like I am a loser, simply because I never find someone in my life that actually truly accepts me as is.

I've tried everything. I ever, heaven help me, tried an online dating service. Met somone, she spent a night getting to know me better, and became a lesbian.

I don't know......there never seems to be a time or a person that actually wants ME, not just......someone.

I just want to know that there is some REASON behind all this. Religion would help, if I wasn't too cynical and doubting to find one that fits me, so I end up agnostic.

*sighs* Maybe there is something I can do......As soon as I find out what it is, maybe I will be happy.

Sad, depressed, lonely......I remain,

Nathon.
 
jeez...i feel so much for you because i'm in a very similiar situation..hurts like a sunuvabitch
 
It's that time of month for the nice guys again.

Perhaps the testostrogen (;)) shack should start up.
 
You're not bad at all. You're just trying too hard. Love, unlike nearly everything else, is not easier to find if you work ultra hard at it. And the type of love you describe - where she wants you above all others - is not all that easy to find. Some people never find it.

Be patient. Concentrate on stuff that interests you - stuff where you might meet people, but where that's not the main goal. Clubs, events, hobbies, dancing, school, whatever. Don't wear your loneliness on your sleeve. People are most attractive when they're enjoying life...so get out there and enjoy it. Love will come. Trust me.
 
sigh

Good Luck Nathon.
You are a really nice guy from the posts that I have read and our PM's.
I am sure the right lady will come along.
Hang in there and keep positive. I know that is hard when you are hurting like you are but being positive will help at least.
 
dude, don't beat yourself up about it. You can't force something like that to happen. That love thing has a mind of it's own, you can't control it. Just chill, be yourself and have fun. Chicks dig guys who know how to have fun. Or just find a baby to carry around with you; we like babies.
 
Yeah. Babies & puppies. If you carry one of each, you should be set for life.
 
I'm sure that the friend who hurt you didn't mean to.. she was probably trying to save you from deeper pain. And Nathon, honey, you are a wonderful person.. trust me. I happen to know, from other friends in your area that the women in your neck of the woods are stupid, have no taste (honestly, I've heard stories!).

I love you, you know that, you know you can call me.
 
awwww Nathon :( I feel your pain.

My personal opinion, don't set out looking for love.. you're wasting your time, and setting yourself up for a world a hurt. Love will find you, when you don't expect it usually. At least, that's what everybody tells me.

ack, don't mind me. i'm in a *mood* :rolleyes:
 
Laurel said:
You're not bad at all. You're just trying too hard. Love, unlike nearly everything else, is not easier to find if you work ultra hard at it. And the type of love you describe - where she wants you above all others - is not all that easy to find. Some people never find it.

Be patient. Concentrate on stuff that interests you - stuff where you might meet people, but where that's not the main goal. Clubs, events, hobbies, dancing, school, whatever. Don't wear your loneliness on your sleeve. People are most attractive when they're enjoying life...so get out there and enjoy it. Love will come. Trust me.

Holy crap Laurel. That’s pretty good advice.
(not being facetious here)
Ever think about counseling for those help hotlines?
 
OpposingBalance said:
Holy crap Laurel. That’s pretty good advice.
(not being facetious here)
Ever think about counseling for those help hotlines?

I'm saving it all for the book. Webmistress's guide to relationships. I'll make a killing.

PROACTIVE
 
How interesting that you say you are waiting for a princess...I'm a princess! ;)
 
Laurel said:
Yeah. Babies & puppies. If you carry one of each, you should be set for life.


A puppy is a baby. A baby dog. So wouldn't getting a puppy be like killing two birds with one stone? Plus, with a human baby you'd have to feed it with a bottle, unless Nathon has manboobs.

I'm not in favor of killing birds though.


proactive!
 
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