Nathon_88
Hunting
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I mean, I want someone to look after....I want someone to share my life with.
I don't CARE that she might be married, so long as her husband knows, maybe joins in.......
I want to love someone. I want to wake up, knowing that, yes, there really IS someone out there who gives a rats ass whether I live through the day or not, and not just because they're a friend, but because they LOVE me.......
My parents? Dad? HA. Dad doesn't even love Mom. Mom? She's nice, but when I leave the house, for good, I don't really think she's going to miss me all that much. My brother? He's got a girlfriend.
I have friends, but I just want someone to hold me, to be held BY me, to kiss me, let me wrap my tongue around theirs, moan, to share my life with, to grok, to grow closer (Sorry, re-reading unabridged Stranger in a Strange Land).
Am I a bad person for wanting this? Am I a loser for not finding this?
My friend hurt me......It wasn't her fault, she shouldn't blame herself, it's mine for caring too much about her. If she reads this, I hope she doesn't get sad, or depressed. It's NOT your fault.
Is there anyone out there that truly and honestly wants a prince in their life? I smell good, most of the time, don't smoke, rarely drink......I feel like I am a loser, simply because I never find someone in my life that actually truly accepts me as is.
I've tried everything. I ever, heaven help me, tried an online dating service. Met somone, she spent a night getting to know me better, and became a lesbian.
I don't know......there never seems to be a time or a person that actually wants ME, not just......someone.
I just want to know that there is some REASON behind all this. Religion would help, if I wasn't too cynical and doubting to find one that fits me, so I end up agnostic.
*sighs* Maybe there is something I can do......As soon as I find out what it is, maybe I will be happy.
Sad, depressed, lonely......I remain,
Nathon.
I don't CARE that she might be married, so long as her husband knows, maybe joins in.......
I want to love someone. I want to wake up, knowing that, yes, there really IS someone out there who gives a rats ass whether I live through the day or not, and not just because they're a friend, but because they LOVE me.......
My parents? Dad? HA. Dad doesn't even love Mom. Mom? She's nice, but when I leave the house, for good, I don't really think she's going to miss me all that much. My brother? He's got a girlfriend.
I have friends, but I just want someone to hold me, to be held BY me, to kiss me, let me wrap my tongue around theirs, moan, to share my life with, to grok, to grow closer (Sorry, re-reading unabridged Stranger in a Strange Land).
Am I a bad person for wanting this? Am I a loser for not finding this?
My friend hurt me......It wasn't her fault, she shouldn't blame herself, it's mine for caring too much about her. If she reads this, I hope she doesn't get sad, or depressed. It's NOT your fault.
Is there anyone out there that truly and honestly wants a prince in their life? I smell good, most of the time, don't smoke, rarely drink......I feel like I am a loser, simply because I never find someone in my life that actually truly accepts me as is.
I've tried everything. I ever, heaven help me, tried an online dating service. Met somone, she spent a night getting to know me better, and became a lesbian.
I don't know......there never seems to be a time or a person that actually wants ME, not just......someone.
I just want to know that there is some REASON behind all this. Religion would help, if I wasn't too cynical and doubting to find one that fits me, so I end up agnostic.
*sighs* Maybe there is something I can do......As soon as I find out what it is, maybe I will be happy.
Sad, depressed, lonely......I remain,
Nathon.