hey kids,
So I just got back from blowing a guy. He never said a word to me; he just took off his clothes and ordered me to blow him. After I messages him for some time afterwards, he ordered to me to blow him again. He fucked my face like he had a purpose.
I seem to have the recurring desire with sex-- I like to be used, and to make my partner happy, but I don't desire to get off. In fact, I hate cumming. I take some pleasure from feeling my partner in me, but I don't let meself reach the normal climax.
Back in college, I had a relationship with this boy. He would call me up, anytime of day, and tell me that he was coming over. I would prepare by lubing up my ass, and wait for him by covering my head, and bending over my bead. He would come in my room, not saying a word, slip on a condom, fuck me, then leave. We did this many times, sometimes it would be a few minutes, sometimes 20. He had a decent cock (I would guess 7"), and it might hurt a bit; I would NEVER cum, but it turned me on greatly.
I had several relationships like this-- most with men, some with women. I wonder if I'm diseased, or if I should just enjoy it and let it go.
Btw, I met a guy recently who I relate to much. He had something similar where the guy would watch porn while fucking him, then kick him out. I thought that it was fucking hot!!! Anyways, maybe WE can figure each other out.
much love...
So I just got back from blowing a guy. He never said a word to me; he just took off his clothes and ordered me to blow him. After I messages him for some time afterwards, he ordered to me to blow him again. He fucked my face like he had a purpose.
I seem to have the recurring desire with sex-- I like to be used, and to make my partner happy, but I don't desire to get off. In fact, I hate cumming. I take some pleasure from feeling my partner in me, but I don't let meself reach the normal climax.
Back in college, I had a relationship with this boy. He would call me up, anytime of day, and tell me that he was coming over. I would prepare by lubing up my ass, and wait for him by covering my head, and bending over my bead. He would come in my room, not saying a word, slip on a condom, fuck me, then leave. We did this many times, sometimes it would be a few minutes, sometimes 20. He had a decent cock (I would guess 7"), and it might hurt a bit; I would NEVER cum, but it turned me on greatly.
I had several relationships like this-- most with men, some with women. I wonder if I'm diseased, or if I should just enjoy it and let it go.
Btw, I met a guy recently who I relate to much. He had something similar where the guy would watch porn while fucking him, then kick him out. I thought that it was fucking hot!!! Anyways, maybe WE can figure each other out.
much love...
