So I'm a guy in college in the USA. I'm bi/gay and for the past 3-4 months I've been in a long distance relationship with a Dominant guy a couple states away. Yeah I can understand how that might sound like a silly thing, being it was online. But it was rather intense and serious and I was devoted to him. There were buttons he didn't really hit for me and there were things that I couldn't do for him, but overall he was a great influence on my life. He was a friend and a leader. I began losing weight, changing to a healthier lifestyle. I felt better about myself. I felt so alive and fulfilled. And it's over. Some things are happening in his life and he is no longer able to be my dom. We parted on fairly good terms and we're still talking as friends. but it leaves me in a dilemma. I've known for a long time that I'm a truly submissive person, both in and out of the bedroom. And I had become very dependent upon him to guide and lead me. To keep me on track. And now I feel completely lost. Like someone yanked the plug on me. Yeah this is a lot to digest. I'm just curious if anyone has any advice on how to keep going. How to do what i need to do in life without him there to help me. BDSM has become so much a part of my daily life and now I just feel like a shell.