AAAag! Separation....

[John Roberts]

I am absolutely going bonkers....it is late at night...I can't sleep, I have no one to talk to, my hearts desire wants me to leave....I know, quit my whinning but I hurt!!!! This is the second time around with this woman, it hurt the first time, but GEEEZ! I thought I was tougher......


Sister Night

Life nurtures and tears us down.
Love found and love lost.
The blindness brought by despair
brings to sight nothing but darkness.
I reach for the sun but the clouds and rain
chill my soul colouring the light gray,
happiness is someone else's reality.
Breathe life into me my love
let me bask in your glow.
Let joy take us however briefly
before slipping quietly into the night.
The abyss beckons, stark, cold and dark.
No light reaches there, no hope
Love abandoned, friendship lost
lying in a pit of our devising
the light up there appears farther
and farther away.
A beautiful face, a kind word falls on ears
going deaf and eyes that can no longer see
the beauty of the world.
Take me sister night, infold me into your loving arms and silence my crying heart.

JR

 

[Suzi]

I know just how you feel

My honey, airborne92, lives about 2 hrs from me and helps out his parents alot (they both work lots of hours at their jobs). He is also going to be back in college this fall...right now I will be lucky if I see him twice a month once school starts *sniff*. Makes me wanna bring the kids down to their cousins in Lewiston on the weekend so I can go camp out where airborne is at, just so I can spend some "quality time" with him *sigh* It really sucks when we both have similar um.....drives...*blushes*

 

[John Roberts]

Re: I know just how you feel

My honey, airborne92, lives about 2 hrs from me and helps out his parents alot (they both work lots of hours at their jobs). He is also going to be back in college this fall...right now I will be lucky if I see him twice a month once school starts *sniff*. Makes me wanna bring the kids down to their cousins in Lewiston on the weekend so I can go camp out where airborne is at, just so I can spend some "quality time" with him *sigh* It really sucks when we both have similar um.....drives...*blushes*

Oh, man! Necessity is certainly playing a hand in your life.....
I am sorry, the seperation thing is bad....mine looks like a downward spiral...with no hope at the end....We really do make each other crazy in a live in sitiation, to complicate things we have a wonderful 18 month old boy, other wise I could make a clean break....nope...there is going to be tugging on the heart strings for a while....

Does it look like there is an end to your separation? I hope so.
And by the way thanks for responding Suzi
JR

 

[Guest]

Hang in there, John.
I know it doesn't feel like it, right now. But, it will be a minute amount easier, with time.
Do what you need to, to take care of yourself. Vent. Cry. Whine. Whatever.

Be well.

 

[Suzi]

Is there hope for an end to this separation with us?

I hope to gods so! We plan to marry in a year or two I have two little girls of my own already

 

[John Roberts]

Hang in there, John.
I know it doesn't feel like it, right now. But, it will be a minute amount easier, with time.
Do what you need to, to take care of yourself. Vent. Cry. Whine. Whatever.

Be well.

Thanks Raindancer, I really appreciate the support people here at LIT have given me. I am just a bunch of screaming nerves right now.....I have to be strong for my little boy....he is so sweet, I can't believe he came out of this mess...18months old and doing his alphabet and counting to 20..
JR

 

[alexandraaah]

Hey John...I don't have much insight into your situation, but I did read your sigline and it struck me that part of pulling yourself out of this might be to embrace those fears.

Just a thought.

Good luck.

 

[John Roberts]

Re: Is there hope for an end to this separation with us?

I hope to gods so! We plan to marry in a year or two I have two little girls of my own already

I am envious....you have so much to look forward to.
I am very happy for you.
I have stuff to look forward to too, it is just shrouded in time and personal angst right now.
How old are you're girls?
JR

 

[John Roberts]

Hey John...I don't have much insight into your situation, but I did read your sigline and it struck me that part of pulling yourself out of this might be to embrace those fears.

Just a thought.

Good luck.

Hello Alexandraaah,
You are very perceptive, I can at times be a very fearful person,
I am fearful as I have never connected with anyone as much as I have with this woman....will it happen again?...will I feel that magical, warm,fuzzy feeling with anyone else again?....I certainly hope so, and probably....

JR