MissTaken
Biker Chick
- Joined
- Jun 30, 2001
- Posts
- 20,570
A year at lit.
It has been the most difficult year for me in terms of my real life challenges.
It has been the most important year of my adult years in terms of exploring who I am, finding my inner strength and believing in my myself.
And yes, it was a year ago, that I first began my exploration into BDSM. I read a story, "The Weekend", by JackCummings. I found myself not only arouse, but memerized by the physical and psychological elements of the story. "The Weekend" was my first taste of BDSM. The story hung with me for several days until I sought out Jack and joined him in a chat room. There, my journey began.
The first few months were slow and intensive. I read everything I could find. I even sat quietly in BDSM chat rooms and observed the interaction. I followed the monster thread until I felt comfortable enough to enter. I was welcomed! I was welcomed warmly and with respect by these wonderfully kind, intelligent and at times, intense people. My fears fled, one at a time.
After these months of silent introspection, finally, it seemed I should begin a search. I wanted to live this fantasy that needed to be reality. It became real life last fall and sadly, ended in January. The whole while I was on the monster thread, pm ing with my lit friends and ultimately, kept my wits about me and moved forward. Real life began again this spring. Again, real life wasn't what I KNEW BDSM should be!
How did I know? How did I know that these men were taking advantage and weren't who I wanted in my life? Because of my research and my friends here!!!
I am thankful to you and I thank God that I began and continue my exploration here, at lit, where I am safe. I wish all women and men, new to the lifestyle had the benefit of honest and open communication, the benefit of years of experience and the love and concern of friends such as you.
I hope that in a small way I have added or helped others. I hope in some small way that I do and continue to give back to lit what I have gleaned from it.
And the message here, a warm THANK YOU to all who post here, new and old! You have been an instrumental part of my life for 12 months and I can't imagine having entered my journey without lit.
It has been the most difficult year for me in terms of my real life challenges.
It has been the most important year of my adult years in terms of exploring who I am, finding my inner strength and believing in my myself.
And yes, it was a year ago, that I first began my exploration into BDSM. I read a story, "The Weekend", by JackCummings. I found myself not only arouse, but memerized by the physical and psychological elements of the story. "The Weekend" was my first taste of BDSM. The story hung with me for several days until I sought out Jack and joined him in a chat room. There, my journey began.
The first few months were slow and intensive. I read everything I could find. I even sat quietly in BDSM chat rooms and observed the interaction. I followed the monster thread until I felt comfortable enough to enter. I was welcomed! I was welcomed warmly and with respect by these wonderfully kind, intelligent and at times, intense people. My fears fled, one at a time.
After these months of silent introspection, finally, it seemed I should begin a search. I wanted to live this fantasy that needed to be reality. It became real life last fall and sadly, ended in January. The whole while I was on the monster thread, pm ing with my lit friends and ultimately, kept my wits about me and moved forward. Real life began again this spring. Again, real life wasn't what I KNEW BDSM should be!
How did I know? How did I know that these men were taking advantage and weren't who I wanted in my life? Because of my research and my friends here!!!
I am thankful to you and I thank God that I began and continue my exploration here, at lit, where I am safe. I wish all women and men, new to the lifestyle had the benefit of honest and open communication, the benefit of years of experience and the love and concern of friends such as you.
I hope that in a small way I have added or helped others. I hope in some small way that I do and continue to give back to lit what I have gleaned from it.
And the message here, a warm THANK YOU to all who post here, new and old! You have been an instrumental part of my life for 12 months and I can't imagine having entered my journey without lit.
*Smoooooch*
