a moment of doubt at the cross-roads

[sufisaint]

here I sit at the cross road....I left Corporate America 3 months ago very unhappy with my job and the people there and decided to be true to my dream and move up in the mountains and completely start my life over...took all my savings, every cent, cashed in my retirement fund the whole nut, ( I did leave my daughter's college trust fund alone), I am putting my house up for sale down here and trying to get it ready so it can be enough to begin the house and buy a airstream trailer to live in...I thought i would have it done by now but I am a month behind schedule. Its going to be a gamble...if the housing market stays good, I sell quick, I should be ok. But right now I am down to my last $1,000 dollars and I have about $2000.00 a month payments to make and just got a Car insurance bill, i forgot about and a Cobra bill for health insurance....I have to choose my car over my health....I will not get fined or have my car taken away if don't have health insurance.... Over the past 10 years I have forgotten what a luxury it truly is to get a bill, write a check and just pay it. Up until now i had no doubts, but with no jobs insight, I have been sending resumes out ect...it get tempting to give up. I guess all I am asking is that some of you out there give me some good thoughts and even prayers....Trust me I know How lucky and blessed I truly am and do not equate this need with those who have sick friends and relatives, or even those who are going through tough times out of things of their control. My heart truly goes out to them and once again I am reminded how hard financial burdens can be...Just needed some encouragement...Certainly not pity......This is my doing...Thanks

 

[Chuckus]

Don't know you, but it will work it out...........one way or another. Keep at it and do what you set out to do.

Good Luck.

 

[sufisaint]

Thanks...

 

[Chuckus]

You bet, I gotta hand you a "pat on the back" to doing what YOU want to. I wish you all the best and hope it makes you happy and you TRULY find what your looking for. Good Luck.

 

[intrigued]

Theres so much I want to say, and I'm short on time...this is one of those times we neeed the rocker, the front porch, an evening sky, and a little wine.
I will write more in a bit, maybe a PM, but until then, you know you did the right thing. You know you did.
Also, until I return, do you have anything you can sell?

I'm thinking of you, and have been for awhile now.

 

[sufisaint]

only two things really...my harley and my corvette that i reconditioned.....I am not much of a materialist but they both have a value to me that goes beyond money...they cannot be replaced by new ones...I know this is not true deperation....its making a dream come to reality...finally

 

[ma_guy]

Man!

I don't really know you but... You're living my dream! Can't do anything but give you a thumbs up and wish you the very best!



(Send pics of the new digs!)

 

[T.H. Oughts]

The road to making dreams come true is never easy. I gave up a steady business to write my non-fiction books. It was tough at first making ends meet but I got there with 4 books selling in seven different countries now. Now I have a wonderful monster that I would not give away.

Hang in there...

 

[sufisaint]

Thanks...its always great to hear others who dreams have come true..

 

[MechaBlade]

Good luck.

 

[sufisaint]

thanks...

 

[peachykeen]

you know what, at least you're trying for your dream. most people never walk the tightrope, especially without the safety net. Good luck.

 

[IrishWolfhound]

I can only echo everyone else's sentiments.

Every time I have had the opportunity (job dislocations, etc) instead of starting over I fled back to safety and security.

I always look at that other road and wonder...

 

[sufisaint]

This is the first time for me to totally abandon security....but I thought it was time for me to totally surrender...stop relying on all my little plans of compromise which have always succeeded but have never made me truly happy....thanks for the words...it does help...

 

[sufisaint]

pitifully but shamelessly bumping myself......

 

[RosevilleCAguy]

Thanks...

Keep the faith.

I walked from my own law practice rather than die the slow death of doing something I hated and did not beleive in.

I ain't got the fancy cars and the $2000.00 suits, but I got my sanity.

It will work out.

 

[TheDR4KE]

All the best with it. Been through the move on from good income to pursue a dream thing a few times now with my wife, and it always worked out much better afterwards. No regrets.

Good luck to you!

"Follow your bliss" - Joseph Campbell.

Quack

the D

 

[lookin_in_maine]

here I sit at the cross road....I left Corporate America 3 months ago very unhappy with my job and the people there and decided to be true to my dream and move up in the mountains and completely start my life over...took all my savings, every cent, cashed in my retirement fund the whole nut, ( I did leave my daughter's college trust fund alone), I am putting my house up for sale down here and trying to get it ready so it can be enough to begin the house and buy a airstream trailer to live in...I thought i would have it done by now but I am a month behind schedule. Its going to be a gamble...if the housing market stays good, I sell quick, I should be ok. But right now I am down to my last $1,000 dollars and I have about $2000.00 a month payments to make and just got a Car insurance bill, i forgot about and a Cobra bill for health insurance....I have to choose my car over my health....I will not get fined or have my car taken away if don't have health insurance.... Over the past 10 years I have forgotten what a luxury it truly is to get a bill, write a check and just pay it. Up until now i had no doubts, but with no jobs insight, I have been sending resumes out ect...it get tempting to give up. I guess all I am asking is that some of you out there give me some good thoughts and even prayers....Trust me I know How lucky and blessed I truly am and do not equate this need with those who have sick friends and relatives, or even those who are going through tough times out of things of their control. My heart truly goes out to them and once again I am reminded how hard financial burdens can be...Just needed some encouragement...Certainly not pity......This is my doing...Thanks

I have "walked away" twice before in my life and both times things turned out so much better then I could have ever dreamed. I believe that if you truly desire something that you can make any dream come true.

Be strong and true to your dream and it will see you through. Don't let doubt or fear lead you astray.

Funny that just a short while ago, something happened that has galvanized me into "walking away" again. Back to Montana, where I am supposed to be, but it's taken me a few years to realize that. Best of luck to you traveller, maybe we'll see each other somewhere on the journey.....

 

[juicylips]

<snip>...Just needed some encouragement...Certainly not pity......This is my doing...Thanks

After reading this thread I feel even more an asshole for being so nonchalant about your posting in my thread yesterday.

If you need encouragement...please take mine. I wish you only the very best.

JL

 

[unclej]

i cut the security cord over ten years ago and i guess i'm about as close to living "the dream" as anyone can get. i wake up every day and end every day with a heartfelt thank you to whatever powers might be listening.

there will be plenty of times when you doubt that you did the right thing and there will be plenty of new skills to learn but the quality of your life is going to change so much for the better that there will soon come a time when you can't believe that you ever bought into the other lifestyle at all.

good luck and keep the faith.

 

[Cheyenne]

Yup, I'm the practical voice of reason, as usual. If you cashed out your savings and your retirement plan, and you are already down to your last $1,000 and depending on selling your house to get cash to live on, what are you going to do for a means to support yourself once your dream comes true? Even on a mountaintop, you need money to buy things.


Practical things aside, I hope you find what you're looking for.

 

[LadyG]

Good Luck!

I don't know you but I applaud your guts! Hope it all works out the way you want it to!

 

[sufisaint]

A heartfelt thank you to eveybody. I went to bed last night..what little slept i did get..pretty down and than last night that I am really just letting my fears of doubt in...Noone has even sent me a late payment notice...I am not being foreclosed...these are all just phantom thoughts in my head...I am going to press on today..do alot of painting today and keep the course. Encouragement does help... especially since I am alone. As for once I am up there, I only need money for food , taxes and a few things. Ultimately I will open my own business, I am looking into selling and installing solar panels and wind generators. In the meantime, I would be happy doing anything, working at convience store, just to be free. I just cannot sit in front of a computer 10 hours a day making someone else a ton of money while co-workers talk and smear each other behind their backs so they can one day be the boss...(who's comment in a meeting two days after Sept. 11 was "well it was not uptown where all the executives work...the WTC was just full of worker bees" it took everything I had not get up in that meeting and punch him in the face.

(edited for dyselixic spelling errors)

 

[*bratcat*]

 

[T.H. Oughts]

Dreams can be hard to put into action, that's why not everyone has the balls to do it...

If you have to sell your nice car to make ends meet for now then do it. I gave up things to make my dreams come true. In the end when you are living as you wish in a nice comfort zone then you will realise the car was nothing compared to the dream of living on your mountain....

I have been doing some work away from my studio for another person the last 4 weeks. I know now why I became self employed and followed my dream....

Hang in there you can do it....