A Lesson Learned (Closed to Luna_Wolf72)

[Luna_Wolf72]

I led her through the quiet halls, my mind debating the essential things she needed to learn. Body comportment, pride in self and body, cultivation of silence. These things would make her more attractive to her future partner and any good submissive learned to be centered. To maintain poise, no matter the provocation. I needed to impart these things to her, like I needed air to breathe or to be in control.

I could feel the mask of dominance settling over me like a well missed lover. The slight quirk of full lips, the crinkling at the corners of my eyes. My body movements slowed, became more forceful. By the time we reached the room, with it's tasteful plaque that gave the room number, I was in full control of myself, of my thoughts. I pushed aside the curtain and went inside, only turning to face her when I was well within the confines of the private space.

The room was well appointed~a large couch, cushions for kneeling, an ornate spanking bench, a small toy chest. I didn't plan on making use of anything here. It was too soon and I do not think of BDSM as a way to get sex. Being a Top, a good Top, is my calling, my vocation. I do not use it as a way to get my cunt pleasured. It is far more important than that.

My eyes sought hers and I waited a beat as I saw the slow track of her tear. That worried me. She was too scared of learning something new. She had an ideal and that could be the thing that stopped her from learning. I gave a small head shake and spoke, for the first time since I had taken her from the table.

"You look worried, unsure. Obviously you trust me well enough to come with me. That is a plus. I am unsure though, whether or not that sense of trust is enough for you. No matter. You have agreed to learn. This is the place where I will teach. You will have two sets of lessons. The first set will impart to you the ability to take pleasure in your physical attributes~ your height, your smallness, your skin. You are entirely too shy and I propose to break that habit for you."

My voice trailed into silence as I debated my next words. Turning from her, I moved to the couch and sank into it's softness.

"That set of lessons will keep you calm, help you mentally and make you more receptive to your permanent Dominant, if and when you find him or her. The second set of lessons is for me, about me, and ultimately...about you and the quality, duration, TYPES of services you feel comfortable in giving to me. They will vary in intensity and will sometimes make absolutely NO sense to you. That is to be expected. After all, you will be learning to please, and be pleased by, someone completely new to you. When you find your true Dominant, those lessons will make it easier for you to tell them clearly what your limits are, what you need to be happy. Do you understand?"

My eyes focused upon her face, watching the way she breathed, the flush of her skin. She was listening, intently. I knew then, that she would at least try anything I asked, if only so she could learn. It was enough, more than enough to start.

"So our first lesson for today~undressing. Disrobe for me~all the bits~ so that I may see you. I won't touch you right away..."

 

[Sasha25]

"So our first lesson for today~undressing. Disrobe for me~all the bits~ so that I may see you. I won't touch you right away..."

I gave a brief nod, deciding to be silent for now. I reached up, pulling aside the straps of my dress, and starting to push it down my body. I'm not sure why I chose to take it off this way. I could have easily pull it up and over my head. As I shrugged down over my hips, I stepped out of my heels. I knew Lorena was watching every move, analyzing, learning about me.

It was that though, with my dress hitting the floor, that I disconnect my mind from something that I had been thinking about from the beginning. The wasn't the end. I had wanted my first experience in this world to lead directly to my last, to find the One person I needed right away, and not have to learn, not have to struggle, not have to suffer disappointment in any way. It was silly to think that I would find Her right away, but it was the romantic part of me.

This wasn't romantic. I gathered my dress and placed it over a small chest, neatly, then I reach behind for the hook of my bra. I had to start now to think of Lorena as a teacher, myself the student. This was most certainly sexual, but not loving or romantic. I had to harden myself. Whether Lorena meant for that to be a lesson, I don't know, but I was learning it.

I stiffened a little as I pull my bra away to place on top of my dress. I took my shoes and set them by the bench, so there was a neat pile of clothes. I turned to Lorena, met her analyzing eyes, then stood up straight, chest slightly out, legs straight and a few inches apart, chin up, but eyes down, towards her feet. Something from a story I read once made me adopt that pose, and I held it, trying to keep my breathing calm.

My thoughts kept rushing through my mind, the possibilities, the thoughts of connection that I want to form, but had to push away. The picture of the Master of Ceremonies flashed before me and the possibility of a Master struck me. That was new. Was it that he was male, or that he was obviously a commanding Master? I didn't know, but it shook me inside a bit.

I stood in silence before Lorena for a few minutes, looking down. I wasn't uncomfortable, naked before her. I was never unhappy with my body. I always preferred dresses and cute jeans, but naked, I always thought that my body was a little boyish. So slender, with small breasts, my shoulder a little wide, my limbs gangly. Perhaps I dress the way I did to accent the feminine side. Often times I would spend time in the evening, before bedtime, standing before a mirror, looking at myself, looking at the curve of my breast, the slight roundness of my tummy, my jaw, my shoulders. I liked myself, mostly.

My mind had wandered, so I was unaware of a change in the room, a change in Lorena. I heard a snap, and my attention jerked upwards.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

I watched as she stripped, noting her movements, checking for any hint of discomfiture or unease. There wasn't any, that I could see. She moved methodically, mechanically~almost a robot, something not alive. That pissed me off. I knew that she expected to be swept off of her feet, saved from her dreary little life. She thought that someone would take one look at her and KNOW. She assumed that she wouldn't have to learn, to strive. She thought she would just have to be.

I knew then that this was going to be a very long road, something more than I was prepared to give. However, I had offered and a good Top always kept their word. I was a damned good top, so I would turn her into an excellent prospect as a submissive, or I would die trying.

She had assumed some sort of programmed stance~eyes down cast, arms by her sides, head up. I didn't like it. I didn't like the idea of her withdrawing so completely into her own mind that she hadn't noticed me move, she hadn't really seen me approach her. That pissed me off, thoroughly. I maintained my control, but only just. This little girl had a rude awakening coming...better from me than from the next one, the one she would ultimately give herself to.

A hand shot out and connected *Crack* with her left ass cheek, hard enough that there was a bright red hand print when I drew away. I took one step to her left and moved until I was just before her. My voice was cold. Winter cold and bare of EVERY emotion except disappointment.

"If you are going to withdraw from me because this doesn't fit into your predetermined little fantasy land, then this whole exercise will be a waste of my time. I don't LIKE to have my time wasted. I had assumed that we were going to go through this with a healthy liking of one another~as teacher/student and also as lovers and friends. However, I refuse to deal with a robotic woman. I refuse to cater to your whims, your fantasies. THIS is reality.

No self respecting Dominant is going to want you the way you are now. No training, no stability, no sense of pride, no imagination. No dominant will tolerate you expecting them to fix you. This is not your personal little fantasy land. There are others involved and sooner or later, there will be one who needs you to be as perfect as possible, for them. This will NOT cut it."

I turned my back on her and moved away, brain whirling. I wasn't sure why I wanted to help her but damned if she wasn't making this more difficult than it should be. I actively disliked her, right now. 'Fuck that. she is new. Get it together, Lorena.' I nodded once, agreeing with my inner voice and turned around to face her again.

"Arms behind your back please. Left hand gripping right wrist. Legs shoulder distance apart. Shoulders back, straighten your spine. Head up, eyes forward. LOOK AT ME!"

My voice was a whip crack in the silence of the room. I waited to see what she would do. If she ran, if she balked? That would be the end of my attempt to help her. I didn't need the aggravation.

 

[Sasha25]

I didn't just jerk, or gasp when Lorena smacked me. I HOWLED. It's like she smacked away all the walls that I had tried to put up, all the protection and comfort. I felt the sting radiate out from the spot; the heat grew as the moments passed.

But the pain of the sing was nothing compared to Lorena's next words.

"If you are going to withdraw from me because this doesn't fit into your predetermined little fantasy land, then this whole exercise will be a waste of my time. I don't LIKE to have my time wasted. I had assumed that we were going to go through this with a healthy liking of one another~as teacher/student and also as lovers and friends. However, I refuse to deal with a robotic woman. I refuse to cater to your whims, your fantasies. THIS is reality.

No self respecting Dominant is going to want you the way you are now. No training, no stability, no sense of pride, no imagination. No dominant will tolerate you expecting them to fix you. This is not your personal little fantasy land. There are others involved and sooner or later, there will be one who needs you to be as perfect as possible, for them. This will NOT cut it."

I had never been spoken to so harshly in my life. There was no holding back, no checking. It was sheer disappointment, and zero understand. I couldn't help the tears that came after it. Her words were far worse than the smack had been. I had already felt like I had been stripped bare, physically and emotionally and now she I had no defense to what she said. Even worse, I knew it was all true.

I tried to run for it, but my feet were rooted to the spot. While my mind railed against it, demanded that I remove myself to the safety of my apartment, some deeper, inner part of me stayed still.

"Arms behind your back please. Left hand gripping right wrist. Legs shoulder distance apart. Shoulders back, straighten your spine. Head up, eyes forward. LOOK AT ME!"

I adjust my body faster than I though possible into the position she demanded. Left hand grabbing right wrist. Feet shoulder length apart. Shoulder back. Head up, and I met her eyes.

Fire. That's the only think I could think of. An intensity inside her look was on that I couldn't have fathomed before that moment. The old phrase "if looks could kill" certainly came from some place. Lorena could kill an army, I guess. It didn't stop the tears from flowing down my cheeks and dripping off my chin. I stayed still, though.

She had broken me, or, perhaps, broken my first set of barriers. I had not question now that I wasn't finished. I didn't know if it was right or now, and I knew that I was risking more punishment, but I had to say something.

"I'm sorry, Lorena. I put of barriers. I do that. I won't any more. I'll listen. I'll learn. I want to learn. Please." My voice was soft and raspy. I didn't have to put any sincerity behind the words, but I truly meant them, and I didn't have the emotional energy to try an lie or add any bravado.

I didn't see any softening. I didn't expect to, I just hoped. I wondered now if I had been ignorant enough that the woman I was with now, was a ruthless as those in the house last night.

Or did I still have it wrong. Did they act that way because I was in the wrong? Probably. Definitely. I'm the student here, the child, the ignorant one. I had to accept that now, or else I was going to go back to my dreary life.

I said again quietly,

"Please."

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

She moved quickly, very quickly. Her body lengthened, her small, perfectly shaped breasts stood up proudly, her shoulders rose. Her eyes met mine. She looked...whipped, hurt, upset...but hopeful. That was a good look. The best look. It meant that she was willing to try it my way. She spoke then, while tears dripped from her chin.

"I'm sorry, Lorena. I put up barriers. I do that. I won't any more. I'll listen. I'll learn. I want to learn. Please."

I nodded, not speaking yet. I debated saying another word but knew that my silence would do far more harm than good. She needed reassurance, a soft hand to go with the harsh truths I had given her. Before I could give her that, she spoke again. One word. Soft. Despairing.

"Please."

I moved to stand before her, my hands rising to brush tears away with gentle finger tips.

"I know I spoke harshly. It seemed to be the only way to drag you into the world I live in. Honestly, that is only a hint of what you will find~from me, at times, from others, from your love when you find her. Truth is harsh. It has to be, to cut through bullshit."

My fingers finished their self appointed tasks and I allowed my hands to return to my sides as I stared into her eyes. Eventually, I allowed my eyes to travel down ward, taking in the small swell of her hips, the length of her toned legs, the perfect arch of her feet. She was beautiful, at least to me. I wanted her to KNOW it, in a way that I couldn't begin to describe.

So up on tip toe, just a bit, to brush one soft kiss upon a pretty mouth, made even more gorgeous by the hint of vulnerability. I finished and moved away.

"Thank you. You may dress. After, join me on the couch for a moment so we can work on a game plan for you...and for me. I need to know what you want, what you need to feel fulfilled. Some of that, I will learn by watching...but to start? We will learn together, by talking."

I sank into the softness of the couch, my eyes never leaving her as she moved to do as I asked.

 

[Sasha25]

"I know I spoke harshly. It seemed to be the only way to drag you into the world I live in. Honestly, that is only a hint of what you will find~from me, at times, from others, from your love when you find her. Truth is harsh. It has to be, to cut through bullshit."

I nodded. The truth does hurt, a lot of the time. Lorena's fingers made the truth easier to manage, and I learned that truth, pain, a smack, anything can be handled if it's followed, even a day later, by a gentle touch. Of course, her gentle touch couldn't make the sting on my bottom go away. Wow, Lorena knew her stuff, that was for sure.

I watched as she lifted onto her toes and kissed me softly. I couldn't help but whimper a little. The fact that she stood on tiptoe was sweeter than the actual kiss. I adored her for that, as much as I hated her moments before for hurling the truth at me.

"Thank you. You may dress. After, join me on the couch for a moment so we can work on a game plan for you...and for me. I need to know what you want, what you need to feel fulfilled. Some of that, I will learn by watching...but to start? We will learn together, by talking."

As Lorena moved to the couch, I turned and took my bra and put it on. I didn't hurry, but moved efficiently, not wanting to keep her waiting. I paused for a moment to wipe my remaining tears away, keeping my face turned, then I pull on my dress, taking another moment to make sure it was properly in place. I slipped on my heels, then moved to sit next to her. I turned my body towards hers, holding my thighs together and placing my clasped hands on my lap. I tried to look proper but relaxed, and kept my eyes open and on Lorena's face.

I said, quietly,

"Learning together. That's what I really want, deep down. It isn't so much about the romance, or the woman, or me. It's learning and exploring together. I haven't ever done that with anyone. Sleeping with a lover isn't necessarily learning much."

I stopped, knowing I was babbling, but I wanted Lorena to know my thought. She had finally said something that really clicked into place, something that proved to me that she was the right one I needed. For now.

I had to keep things in perspective. Lorena was the beginning.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

Watching Amanda dress was much better than watching her strip. She had gotten the point, for now, and was moving naturally with no hesitations or misgivings. All in all, I was pleased by the mutual understanding we were starting to build. I pretended to not notice as she rid herself of the remaining tears. No woman wants to look as if someone abused her, even when it was the truth. I hadn't abused her but I had been harsh. I knew it. Still and all, I was well pleased by what my harshness had garnered.

Her feet brought her to the couch and she sank gracefully into it's softness, turning slightly, legs together, hands on her lap, eyes trained upon my face~with the same intense look that I was giving to her. I smiled, attempting appear open to conversation and her voice~husky, sweet~ filled the silence.

"Learning together. That's what I really want, deep down. It isn't so much about the romance, or the woman, or me. It's learning and exploring together. I haven't ever done that with anyone. Sleeping with a lover isn't necessarily learning much."

I nodded my agreement at her words. After all, that was basically what I wanted her to realize~we were NOT at cross purposes. I felt it was my job to make her the best possible submissive she could be. I had decided to help on the spur of the moment, but ever since I had made the decision, I had felt it was correct, the right thing, the ONLY thing, I could do. I took a moment, to assemble my thoughts...and then spoke, my eyes trained upon her face.

"We will be learning together. There are many things that I want to know about you~your daily rituals, your schedule, what you eat, where you work, what you enjoy. Those are just the basics, the things that get brought up in casual and newly intimate conversations. Then there are the other things~do you thrive under pain or micro-management? Do you like heat or cold placed in or on sensitive areas? What about pinching, binding, blindfolds?? Learning those sorts of things takes time and dedication.

Conversely, you will be learning about me~what I like, what I need, what I want. Your submission will ultimately be based around your wants/needs and your Dominant's wants/needs. If you have a basis for what you like/dislike?? It will make it easier for you to find someone who will guide you, love you and fit you. Rushing into it headlong leaves you lost, confused, unsure and ultimately heart broken.

So then, once we leave here~I have two tasks for you. The first one is simple~start a daily journal. Note anything of interest~thoughts, emotions, worries, fears. you can use it to chart your lessons or to vent when I am pushing too fast or not fast enough. I will be glancing through it every few weeks but strive to be as honest as possible anyway. Nothing you write will offend me and may help.

The second task is also simple. Think of a word that you will easily remember in the midst of a scene. Something that reminds you of safety. That way, if and when things become too intense, you can use THAT word as your safe word. That will be my stop sign, when you have had too much. We will work on a caution word later."

I stopped speaking and looked at her, watching as she processed everything I had said. After a few more moments, I spoke again.

"I believe that our time is up for now. I will escort you out to your car and see you safely on your way. Do not forget the journal please. You have my number..."

Voice trailed off...I cleared my throat, tried again.

"After today, you will be in training under me. We will discuss the need for something more formal, if you'd like, but NOT until you have had time to process all the information, all the thoughts and feelings you've dealt with, today. Call me, when you awaken...please. Your journey, your real journey began today...but the first step, starts tomorrow, as soon as you awaken."

I arose from the couch and held out one small hand to tug her up, to her feet.

"You ready?"

 

[Sasha25]

A journal and a word. The former was rather easy, as I already kept a journal, though I wrote in it rather in frequently. I decided immediately that I would set aside a time during the day that I would write in it, so that I would never forget. My mind always went to organization, and I hoped it would be a benefit during my training.

The word. One came to mind right away. Blanket. My safe spot was always curled up at home, under my favorite blanket, drinking coffee. I almost said so to Lorena and interrupted, but she was still speaking and I knew I needed to listen.

Once she finished, I just watched her eyes, thinking. Already, this felt like a class I was taking at school, though a very different one. I had several lessons today, and I hoped that I hadn't acted too badly.

"I believe that our time is up for now. I will escort you out to your car and see you safely on your way. Do not forget the journal please. You have my number..."

I nodded, but I couldn't help but look disappointed. I wanted to learn more; I wanted to prove myself more. However, I knew that Lorena was fitting me into her schedule and that I was new to her. Patience was something I also had to learn and I guessed that Lorena knew that too.

"After today, you will be in training under me. We will discuss the need for something more formal, if you'd like, but NOT until you have had time to process all the information, all the thoughts and feelings you've dealt with, today. Call me, when you awaken...please. Your journey, your real journey began today...but the first step, starts tomorrow, as soon as you awaken."

"I will call you first thing tomorrow morning, Lorena." I almost mentioned that I was often up early to run or workout, but that seemed impertinent. I was told to call when I awoke, so I would. No questions. I was in training now and I had to follow instructions, not question her.

"You ready?"

I nodded, took her hand and stood. I grabbed my clutch, holding her hand and a bit lost in though. I was aware that I had a bright smile on my face. We walked back out into the hallway, and out front to the valet.

"I'm parked a block away, Lorena." I started walking towards the sidewalk. We walked in silence, the sounds of street and our heels pushing on my thought, my eyes down on the ground. We arrived at my car and I opened it.

"I will speak to you tomorrow morning, Lorena. Thank you for seeing me today. I'm very glad I showed up at that party last night. I realize now that I was disrespectful to the owner of the house and the guests last night. I hope that maybe one day I could go back and apologize."

I didn't know where that came from, but it was a thought that made sense now. I kissed Lorena's cheek and got into the drivers seat.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

I watched her, as we walked. He face was happy, not withdrawn or sullen. It was a very good look for her. I kept her hand in mine, as I thought and debated and planned. Her last statement, the brush of lips across my cheek, brought my attention to her, once more.

"You will have time to apologize, Amanda. That will be one of your first official appearances. A submissive in training, under me? You will not have to deal with that sort of welcome again. Yet, owning your mistakes and learning from them is very important. This thing will not be rushed, but an official introduction is deserved so that you will know those I keep company with."

Silence as I handed her into her car and waited as she settled herself behind the wheel. Once she was strapped in and the car started, I leaned into the window and whispered into her ear, my lips touching the sensitive skin.

"Home. Write today. Think. Talk to you in the AM."

I stepped away from the car and allowed my feet to lead me back to the club and my own ride. Today promised to busy with phone calls and arrangements.

xXx​

By 9 that evening, the wheels were in motion for a small get together in two weeks time, to be held in the private party room of the club. I had paid the deposit and handled all the arrangements for decorations, party toys and invitations. Only my true friends, and the owner of the house Amanda had brazened her way into, were invited. That meant only a small mixed group~12 couples in all their permutations. AT most, 40 people. Master of Ceremonies would be there with my gift for the girl~ a consideration/training collar.

I went to bed that night, completely content for the first time in months. It was good to be needed, to help, to be in control. I hadn't realized how much I had missed it. A solemn word to myself, 'Don't become too attached. You are a way station, you will not keep her.' and then I drifted off, mind filled with plans.

 

[Sasha25]

I drove home in a daze, and I couldn't honestly say that I remembered anything about it. When I got home, I look at my apartment, seeing it in a completely different light. I had not dedicated space to write, and since I would be writing every day, it seemed necessary to have a spot. I took one of the chairs from the kitchen and placed it before the small table I used by the front door, then cleaned off the papers and random items that had lived there for months.

I went to my bedroom and retrieved my diary, flipping through it, seeing it half filled with things that were old or unimportant now. I wanted to start fresh. I knew I had a spare, new diary someone, and after some quick searching I found it, simple brown leather with parchment pages. I breathed in the leather and shivered. Leather. Would leather be a part of my new training? Would I be bound in it? Would I have a leather collar? I smiled. Such possibilities. I needed to write them all down.

I grabbed a pen from my junk drawer and made sure it worked properly, then I sat at my desk. I signed the first page at the top and added the date.

"Today is the first day of something new for me. I just left my first date with Lorena, if such an outing is called a date. It wasn't romantic of course, but I definitely felt a connection to her. Frankly, I could easily hate her right now, with the way she broke me down, but I realized in the end that I was the one in the wrong. I intruded on a private party, disrespected the host and guests, and Lorena showed me that. Lorena also showed me that I need to get rid of all the allusions I have submission and my part in it. All of that is unformed now. The only truth of submission that I know now is that Lorena is going to teach me. That is the starting point.

I will call her every day in the morning. It will be at the same time every since I get up at 5 am every morning. Eventually I will have to apologize to those that I insulted by invading their party. I'm very scared of that, but I trust that Lorena will prepare me properly for what that happens. I'm nervous about this entire journey that I've started, but inside, I can find that feeling that I'm on the right path, and I will constantly focus on that if I need to."

I set my pen down and looked at the diary for a moment. I felt suddenly tired, and slightly achy. It had been a very eventful day, and I needed a nap. I check the clock and it was the middle of the afternoon. I had work tomorrow, so taking a nap and then being restless at night didn't seem like a good idea.

I went to my bedroom, and removed by dress. It was then I noticed that I only had my bra on underneath. Lorena had taken and kept my panties. I shuddered and felt instant arousal. She had smelled them. My hand slid down my tummy and cupped my sex. Was she smelling them again now? Probably not, but the thought...

I quickly pulled off my bra, and fall down on my bed, legs dangling over the side. The feeling of exhaustion increased as I laid down, but I needed the pleasure too, and I rubbed over my sex, finding myself very warm, my flesh slick. Was that from just now, or from being with Lorena and I hadn't noticed? I slide a finger inside and stamped the ground with my foot. Yes, I needed this. Badly. Who knows how often I'd be able to do this without permission? I had to write that down later. I had to be honest.

Those thoughts flew around in my head as I dug into my sex with curled fingers. It wasn't my usual style of pleasuring, but it felt delicious. I dug and pulled, my other hand balled into a fist. The pads of my fingers pushed on my clit just in the right way. I stamped the floor again as I jerk in pleasure. Lorena's eyes were suddenly in my mind staring at me. My hand stopped.

"Did I say you could masturbate?" Her voice was accusatory. I felt horrified. Had I made another mistake?

She grabbed my wrist and pushed me down on the bed. She stared at me. I felt so afraid and exhilarated. She was binding my wrists, then my ankles.
I jerked and found myself in bed, naked, hand between my legs, curled up into a ball. Had I orgasmed and fell asleep, or fell asleep while touching myself? I sat up and rubbed my eyes. It was already past 6, and I was starving. I grabbed a robe from my closet and ate some fruit from the fridge. I was still exhausted, and I had a full day of work the next day.

I walked through my apartment, seeing it rather tidy, debating whether or not to go back to the journal. I decided to write my dream, or whatever it was in in the journal, so Lorena would know about it.

"I went to my room to change, and felt compelled to masturbate after thinking about lunch. I started, but I think I fell asleep during the middle, and I dreamed that Lorena was watching me, upset that I had touched myself without permission. She bound me to my bed then I woke up suddenly."

I looked down and noticed dried arousal on my sex and gasped.

"I think I did orgasm at some point, but I'm not sure what from, my hand or the dream."

I couldn't write any more, because my brain felt like must. I needed sleep. So I went back to bed, slipped on a cotton tank and cotton shorts and crawled into bed. I had enough awareness to turn on my alarm, and quickly fell asleep.

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I awoke to the sound of the morning DJ raving about some contest. I rubbed myself. 5:01 am. I jerk up and almost fell out of bed. I stumbled to find my purse pulling out my phone. I looked up Lorena's number from the call list and dialed my heart pounding.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

My alarm went off at 4:30. I hated that. Work though. Gym. All needed. My head was foggy from the heavy sleep I had just awakened from, but I did not dawdle. Rising with a creaking of various joints, I stripped out of my silk boxers and black beater and went for a shower. The hot water stung my flesh, needling me awake. Soon enough, I was clean and ready for whatever the day brought on.

By 5, I was dressed and seated at the table, drinking my morning protein shake and eating an apple. My cell phone was next to me and I knew that Amanda would be calling soon. We hadn't discussed her schedule but I figured she was an early riser and with all the emotional turmoil she had dealt with yesterday, it was a given that she had gone to bed as early as I had. Therefore, it was no surprise when my phone rang a few moments later. I finished chewing and answered, my voice still husky with sleep.

"Good morning, Amanda. I am very happy that you are awake and calling. You have half an hour. Get showered, eat something and meet me on the corner by Gold's gym~the one in the East end."

I didn't give her time to speak, only issued my request and said goodbye. I wanted to see how she would do with time management. After draining my glass, I cleaned up the slight mess and headed out into the predawn gloom. Jogging was my usual mode of transport to the gym and I needed to finish waking up, anyway. I reached the aforementioned corner and stopped, at exactly 5:30. Amanda had a few more minutes before she would be considered late. I marched in place, to keep my body warm and muscles loose, and waited for her.

 

[Sasha25]

"Good morning, Amanda. I am very happy that you are awake and calling. You have half an hour. Get showered, eat something and meet me on the corner by Gold's gym~the one in the East end."

I actually said "Eek!" as I drops the phone, ran to take a quick shower, wolfed down a breakfast bar and threw on my work out clothes. I grabbed something for work, just in case, and sped out the apartment, diving into my car and driving hastily. If Lorena called me enough times like this, I would get a speeding ticket. No. I'd get up earlier. I was warned now.

I almost got lost, but at 5:29, I parked close to the corner and saw her. Quickly stuffing my car key in my sock I ran up to her panting. I guessed that a workout would be involved. I hoped I was right.

I smiled as I approached her. She looked awake and alert. Despite her shorter form, there was such an athletic look about her, athletic with curve. I was a little jealous actually.

"Good morning Lorena. What are we going to start with today?" I was still sleepy, but I tried not to sound it.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

I glanced at my watch, surprised and delighted by her promptness. Her hair was still slightly damp and her eyes still looked slightly dazed, but she was here, on time and mostly ready for the day. A definite reward was in order for later.

"Very nice. This will be a four day a week addition, for the next 6 weeks. I am paying for Zumba classes, for you. They will give you a healthy work out, teach you dance steps and help your posture. You slump sometimes and I want that corrected. The classes are one hour long and very fun. I used to do them all the time~though now I prefer Tae-bo and weights."

Hand reaches for hers and tugs her into motion. Gold's gym is about a block away and I lead us there at a brisk trot. She moves loosely. very centered, long strides. Initially I had planned on ballet for her posture but threw that idea out. Zumba was way more fun and it would help to break her shyness as well as helping with all the other aspects I had noticed in her body carriage.

We entered the gym, with it's state of the art facilities, and I made my way to the counter to check in and pay for the Zumba class that would be starting at 6 am. I also paid for a three month membership for Amanda, since I wasn't sure what gym she usually used. This way she could have access here while the classes were going on and if she liked my gym better, she could opt in for the year and pay for it herself.

Turning toward her, I gave a bright smile and pointed to the far wall, with a line up of women waiting to enter. "That is where you are headed. My work out is usually over by 7. You should be done by then, as well."

Rising up on tip toe, hand going to the length of her hair, tugging.

"Go, have fun. I will meet you here, when you finish."

I turned then and meandered away, heading for the bank of treadmills, elliptical machines and stair climbers...

 

[Sasha25]

"Very nice. This will be a four day a week addition, for the next 6 weeks. I am paying for Zumba classes, for you. They will give you a healthy work out, teach you dance steps and help your posture. You slump sometimes and I want that corrected. The classes are one hour long and very fun. I used to do them all the time~though now I prefer Tae-bo and weights."

Zumba. I had heard of the those classes, but I had never been much of a dance, so I was afraid to look foolish. Well, looking foolish, here I come, I though dryly as I jogged with Lorena to the Gold's Gym. I was used to a much less imposing Curves gym, though lately I had been going very infrequently, preferring to walk and run, rather than to any weights or machines.

I opened my mouth to protest when Lorena paid for three months. I know at a gym like this three months was expensive. We hadn't talked about money, and I didn't want to be a financial burden. Lorena moved so quickly and decisively I had not time to protest, so I just accepted. I hoped inside that I would find some way to repay her monetarily.

"That is where you are headed. My work out is usually over by 7. You should be done by then, as well."

I nodded, a little dumbstruck for a moment, but then she grasped my hair, firm, but not harsh and say softly,

"Go, have fun. I will meet you here, when you finish."

"I will, Lorena, enjoy your work out." I watch her walk away, shaking my head for a moment, then I went over to the line of woman who were my new classmates. Some smiles, other yawned, many just ignored. I just smile benignly and waited, my stomach fluttering a bit. I half-wondered if this was a beginners class, but the women in line looked fit.

At 6 exactly, the door opened and a beautiful woman, long lard hair tied back greeted us and we filed in. She was wearing a sports bra and shorts in yellow and green, and it seemed like I could see every muscle, well define, on her arms, legs and stomach. I found a place in the back as the music started and did my best to follow the steps. The music was wonderful and I found myself really getting into the workout. After about 20 minutes my body was screaming at me, but I couldn't let up. The last few minutes of the work out were the most physically demanding of my life, but after it was done, as tired and sweaty as I was, I felt exhilarated.

I walked, or rather waddled back to the door, where the instructor was bidding the class good by. She seemed cheery, and smiled. She asked me my name, noticed that I was new and offered her support. She said I did pretty well for a beginner, but that it would be some time before I got used to the rigor, if this was my first class. I could only nod and mumble; I didn't have the strength for much else.

I went out to the area of the main desk, with a towel around my neck, when I spotted Lorena, also smiling and sweaty approaching.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

I saw Amanda, standing just by the counter and had to force the low wolf whistle away. She looked good, all flushed and sweaty. That was always a happy thought~a naked, sweaty, flushed and whimpering submissive?? Sweet! Giving myself a stern talking to, I headed for her side and grinned up at her. My hands were busy, drying my face with my own towel, wiping the rivulets of sweat from my chest and arms.

"You look like you had a blast! Told you it was fun!"

I placed her hand on my wrist and sauntered over to the counter to buy a water. After I opened the bottle and took a long gulp, I turned to her once more.

"I can see that you are fretting over cost. Don't. All told I spent about 125 bucks and that included the class. Since it was something I wanted for you and you did not ask for it, I take the monetary hit, not you. That is how it will be while we deal. Understand? If you decide you want something for me...or for yourself and I haven't offered nor approved it, you take the hit. OK?"

We headed out into the early morning sunshine.

"I jogged over, I will jog back. I assume you have work today? Go on home and get ready. Call me once your day is over, I will be bringing you to my house this evening."

No more words, I pressed a kiss to her cheek and jogged away.

xXx​

Work was hectic, crazy busy but not for me. I had gotten everything caught up yesterday with no deadlines for anything until the middle of next month and most of that work was finished as well. So I took it easy, making phone calls, plotting courses for future sales. All in all, I felt relaxed and happy by the time 5 pm rolled around. I was more than ready to get on with my night.

Home

Dinner was started, shower was finished. All I needed now was for Amanda to call.

 

[Sasha25]

"I can see that you are fretting over cost. Don't. All told I spent about 125 bucks and that included the class. Since it was something I wanted for you and you did not ask for it, I take the monetary hit, not you. That is how it will be while we deal. Understand? If you decide you want something for me...or for yourself and I haven't offered nor approved it, you take the hit. OK?"

I nodded. It seemed fair, though I still felt a little guilty having her pay after only a day of knowing her. As we walked out, I watched her drink water. The sweat on her skin only added to her beauty. I gripped her wrist until she dismissed me.

"I jogged over, I will jog back. I assume you have work today? Go on home and get ready. Call me once your day is over, I will be bringing you to my house this evening."

I smiled, kissed her cheek in turn and watched her run away. God, she was gorgeous. My eyes followed her bottom as she ran, and I moaned under my breath.

When I got into my car, I checked the clock. I had time to run home for a quick shower. I flew home, got right into the shower and scrubbed. Dressing quickly, but choosing my best bra and panty set in pink, under a black dress, and grabbing a banana, I went to work. Soreness has set in by the time I sat at my desk, and getting up for coffee mid-morning was hell.

I was surprisingly productive considering my physical aching, and while I got a few chuckles from coworkers, they were impressed when I told them about my class in the morning. None of them exercised so early. At the end of the day, I went to my car and debated going home first before calling. I wasn't sure exactly what the "end of the day" meant, so I too a guess.

Sitting in my office parking lot, I took out my phone and dialed. I felt tired, but I found my voice strong when I heard Lorena's hello.

"My day is over, Lorena. May I come over?"

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

I was surprised when my phone rang a little after 6. I hadn't expected Amanda to call until after she had gotten home. I answered the phone, a smile evident in my voice.

"Good evening Amanda. have you gone home to change? Tonight is going to be instruction. I want you comfortable. So go home, shower, change. Wear loose fitting clothing that can be easily removed. Don't eat, as you shall be dining with me. You have one hour. My address is..."

I gave her the address to my home and hung up the phone, a pleased grin covering my face. She was very prompt and very determined to learn. I liked that. Hell, I liked her. Gathering up my books, I put them back into their respective places and went to check on dinner. The pot roast should be done by the time she arrived and the potatoes were simmering well enough.

This was going to be FUN.

 

[Sasha25]

"Good evening Amanda. have you gone home to change? Tonight is going to be instruction. I want you comfortable. So go home, shower, change. Wear loose fitting clothing that can be easily removed. Don't eat, as you shall be dining with me. You have one hour. My address is..."

"Yes, Lorena, I'll be right over." I had a little time, so I didn't fly home, but went home under the speed limit. I quickly tossed my purse onto the couch and went right into the shower, leaving clothes on the floor in my bedroom.

I scrubbed my body, washing my hair. I decided to do a cursory shave as well, making sure my body was a smooth as possible. With wet hair clinging to my face and neck, I picked a white cotton t-shirt. Since I knew the clothes were coming off, I didn't bother with a bra. I didn't really need one anyway. I decided against panties too, and just pulled on some black yoga pants. Slipping into comfortable sandals, I grabbed my purse, and got right back into the car. I could see that I was going to be early. I debated waiting, but instead I just went right over to Lorena's address, and knocked on her door.

My heart was hammering. Instruction. I wasn't sure exactly what that meant, but the ideas were coming fast. Kneeling, posture, positions, restraints. I shivered and I could feel my nipples brush my t-shirt.

I tensed slightly as Lorena opened the door. She was smiling. Wow, what a beautiful smile she had. She was firm, and commanding, and hadn't let me speak much. But my heart pounding wasn't just from training. It was HER.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

I had just finished filling a bowl with ice cubes and placing it on the stand by the wrist restraints when I heard a knock on the door. Glancing at the clock hanging on the far wall, I gave a small grin. I knew it was Amanda and she was almost 20 minutes early. I absolutely love people who show up early.

A final check through, making sure everything was in place~the candles, the ice, the silver wheel, the feather. This was going to be the true beginning of her training~reactions to heat, cold, tickling, pricks. I wanted to see what she responded favorably to, what she didn't.

This was going to be a long night...for both of us. My feet carried me to the front door and I pulled it open with a wide grin. I was dressed comfortably in a gray beater and a pair of baggy sweats. I looked like what I was~ a boi at home.

"Come in. I am glad you got here so quickly. My kitchen is to your left, dishes are in the cupboard to the right of the stove, silver ware is in a drawer next to the stove, same side. Please set the table and then have a seat, dinner will be ready in about 10 minutes."

While I was giving orders, I had grabbed her and tugged her inside, divesting her of her purse and other things she wouldn't need. At the end of my request, I turned her toward the kitchen and swatted her butt lightly. Then I turned right, heading back to the living room and through that~ into my playroom, where I had set up all that I had planned on using. Things looked perfect but I blew out the candles anyway and shut the door...didn't want to terrify her just yet.

My feet led me back to the kitchen. I turned off the oven and grabbed some pot holders to take the roast from the oven. The mashed potatoes were perfect, no lumps~smooth and creamy, the corn buttery and golden. I dished everything up and placed it on the table before grabbing the ice water from the fridge.

"First I feed you....then we play."

 

[Sasha25]

How is it possible to be a Goddess in a cotton tank and sweats? Lorena. My mouth opened to compliment her, but she cut across me.

"Come in. I am glad you got here so quickly. My kitchen is to your left, dishes are in the cupboard to the right of the stove, silver ware is in a drawer next to the stove, same side. Please set the table and then have a seat, dinner will be ready in about 10 minutes."

She pulled me into the apartment and my purse was taken and sat aside, out of sight. As she swatted me I nodded and went right to the kitchen. It smelled amazing and my stomach rumbled in hunger. I moved slowly, a bit sore still, but I found the plates and silverware, and set them out as ordered as I could. Thank goodness for the etiquette class I took a few years back. I added glasses and the table was set.

I hesitated as I looked at the chairs. Do I sit? Do I stand? What was the proper thing to do? I had a feeling that this would be part of my training, but I too a shot. I stood by the table, feet slightly apart, hands clasped in front of me, and watching as Lorena's dished up the food.

"First I feed you....then we play."

I couldn't help but grin. Good food and play. Her eyes locked on mine as I grinned and my smile faltered, but she smiled in turn and I relaxed a bit. I had convinced myself that every moment with Lorena I was being tested and trained, so I stood waiting until she gave me permission to sit. I hoped I wasn't pushing and guessing too much. I just wanted to learn quickly and do things right.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

Once Amanda sat down, I served up the food. I am not one for quiet conversation until after plates are emptied but she applied herself to the portions in front of her and said not a word. I felt a sense of lightness then. She was almost a perfect compliment to me~yin to my yang. It pleased me to have her fit so easily.

Eventually, dinner was eaten and the table cleared. I put away the left overs and had her load the dishwasher for me. She did a good job, filling it just as I would have. I added the little soap packet and told her to push the button to start it. The quiet thunder of the machine, rumbled through out the kitchen. With a sigh, I beckoned for her to leave the kitchen and followed behind, cutting off the lights as I went.

Soon enough, we were in my living room.

"Sit down, Amanda. I would like to tell you what to expect so that you are not scared."

I sank into my favorite black leather recliner and waited for her to have a seat. Once she had done so, I resumed speaking.

"Tonight is going to be sensation play. No blind, no gag...so you will see what I am using and where. I want you to be completely honest with me concerning everything we do. Words will be how I know what you like, what you don't, what you are willing to explore, what turns you off. After all, it is YOUR body that I shall be playing with."

I grinned at her then~wide and wicked. She had tensed up slightly while i explained but her color was high and her eyes were sparkling. I knew she wouldn't back down. She wanted this too much.

 

[Sasha25]

There was no other word for it. Dinner was amazing. I often cooked, but nothing as wonderful as the meal that Lorena had made. I secretly hoped it would be awhile before I had to cook for her, though at the same time, I hoped that she would teach me cooking as well.

I found I didn't feel like saying much. It wasn't a conscious decision, it just felt like the right things to do. If I liked something I ate, I smiled at Lorena. I felt very relaxed, and took my time with the meal.

When it was finished, Lorena packed away the leftovers and she motioned for me to take care of the plates. I filled the dishwasher and she game over to add the soap packet. She brushed against me and I smiled and blushed. It felt like an incredibly intimate moment for some reason, being together in the kitchen like that.

"Sit down, Amanda. I would like to tell you what to expect so that you are not scared."

Once in the living room, I took a seat on the loveseat opposite her recliner. It struck me that she was sinking down into a comfortable throne.

"Tonight is going to be sensation play. No blind, no gag...so you will see what I am using and where. I want you to be completely honest with me concerning everything we do. Words will be how I know what you like, what you don't, what you are willing to explore, what turns you off. After all, it is YOUR body that I shall be playing with."

Lorena had said much, but two things really registered with me. Be completely honest and she was going to be playing with my body. I tensed as I nodded, but the tension was sexual. My thighs closed as I could feel the heat grown between them. My mind flew to cold and heat, pain and pleasure, feathers, silk, hairbrushes and a hundred other things. I couldn't help it; I moan softly. I saw her eyes widen and her smile grow.

She rose again, offered her hand which I too. She gripped mine tightly as she lead me towards a different room with the door closed. She opened it and I saw only shadows, but I was suddenly guided into it with another swat of my bottom. Lorena moved past me and started to light candles.I had intended to look around but she was facing me and I heard one word:

"Strip."

I pulled off my shirt and pushed down my pants, leaving them on the floor. Even in the small amount of light, her eyes narrowed, so I took my discarded clothes, folded them and set them down right by the door. I returned to facing her and she was surveying me, as if deciding what to do next. My eyes were wide, my nipples stiff and my sex was wet. And Lorena knew it.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

I hustled her into my play space and had her remove those things that blocked my view of her body. She was still just as willowy and pale as I recalled. She was less shy this time around though and that brought a pleased smile to my lips. I had started speaking almost immediately~correcting her stance, watching as she realigned herself to my specifications.

"Legs hip distance apart, hands on the back of your neck please, head up. Look at me with those pretty baby blues. Good girl. Shoulders back. Oh, you are so pretty."

I had dropped into my accustomed role, Toppy trainer extraordinaire, and it felt good. Eventually, one hand began to trace over flesh~nails scraping the tender belly and well defined arms as I walked my way around her. My hands are very small and it is such a turn on for me to see a female trembling because of them. Amanda wasn't trembling, not yet, but she would....soon.

"All right. Let's get started. I would like you over by the wall. You will see a set of wrist restraints hanging down. Please stand between them."

I waited until she had done so and then strode forward and snapped each soft leather cuff into place. Now she was nude and unable to defend herself if I were to become abusive. I wouldn't, but she needed to be aware of the amount of trust she was giving to me, practically a stranger.

"You have allowed me to cuff you. That means if I wanted to hurt you, I could and you couldn't stop me. THAT is why playing with responsible dominants is so very important. Only go with those you have seen outside of a scene, those who are reputable and well spoken of by others."

A momentary silence as I allowed my words to sink in. Then a final word of caution.

"Remember I asked you to think of a word, something that made you feel safe and easily remembered in the heat of a scene? Could you give me your word now? It is important that I know it so that if something is too intense and you yell it out, I will know what you mean and stop, right then."

 

[Sasha25]

I barely had a chance to look around the space, seeing the flash of chains, the scent of metal and leather, and the candles before I hear the soft, husky voice.

"Legs hip distance apart, hands on the back of your neck please, head up. Look at me with those pretty baby blues. Good girl. Shoulders back. Oh, you are so pretty."

I quickly moved to get into that position, my hands on the back of my neck, feeling my small hairs there on end as my excitement increased. I felt very exposed, particularly my breast, thrust outwards. Her caresses were divine. I knew we were just starting and that I would be feeling many things, but I could tell Lorena wanted to enjoy my body, and that was very thrilling.

"All right. Let's get started. I would like you over by the wall. You will see a set of wrist restraints hanging down. Please stand between them."

I turned and saw the cuffs hanging, walking towards them. A shot of fear stabbed my stomach. Trust. Did I trust her? I did, at least enough to be in her apartment, but the cuffs looked serious, well-made, professional. I stood in between them and I had not time for another though as my wrist were placed in the cuffs, and they were closed. I breathed hard and I my body shook. I had a moment of panic that I tried not to let get past my eyes.

"You have allowed me to cuff you. That means if I wanted to hurt you, I could and you couldn't stop me. THAT is why playing with responsible dominants is so very important. Only go with those you have seen outside of a scene, those who are reputable and well spoken of by others."

She was brutally honest and I appreciated it. She was right, she could hurt me. I wondered if she was tempted. Everything that I knew about her told me she didn't want to hurt me, not in a sadistic way, but I knew so little about her. Would she suddenly change now that I was in her space, and cuffed? I didn't think so.


"Remember I asked you to think of a word, something that made you feel safe and easily remembered in the heat of a scene? Could you give me your word now? It is important that I know it so that if something is too intense and you yell it out, I will know what you mean and stop, right then."

I blurted out, rather awkwardly,

"Mountain. My safe word is mountain." I had been thinking about the word since Lorena had mentioned it. I loved walking in the mountains and felt very calm and peaceful when I thought of them. "I won't forget it."

Lorena nodded and repeated the word, then gave me a rather wicked smile. She turned giving me a view of her glorious backside, and gather some items from another part of the room.

"Let's get started." She laughed, and I trembled.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

I turned away from her and took a deep breath. This was the moment that I had been both wishing for and dreading. 'Buck up, girl and get it together. Been a while but you know how to do this. She isn't yours. You are training but she is not yours. That makes it easier. Physical, only.' The lecture didn't help because I suspected the words weren't quite true. Not for me.

No matter. I picked up the bowl of ice and one white candle. Then I turned to face her, showing her the first step.

"Most everyone has played with ice. I figured we could start there. This candle is low heat. If you tolerate that well enough, we will move up to the regular ones. I plan on switching from one to the other on various places. When I ask you to describe what you feel, please do so. Concise sentences, so that I can gauge your reactions."

I set the candle and bowl on a near by table and grabbed a handful of ice cubes. Then I stood as close to her as I could and went to work. One piece of ice trailed from her throat to her pubis. I stopped once I reached that spot and began traveling from left to right, tracing cold wetness from hip to hip. The warmth of the room made the ice melt rather quickly but the goose bumps rose on her skin in orderly little ranks, nevertheless. The sight pleased me.

I shook the water from my hand and used another cube, this time concentrating only on her nipples. I went from pale peak to pale peak, circling them in ever widening circles until the nipples themselves were hard and rigid. The ice melted as I played and my concentration was such that if she made a single sound, I did not hear it.

One cube left. I knew where it needed to go.

"Open you legs please."

That cube was slipped inside of her warmth.

"Close your legs and tighten your walls, so that it does not fall out."

I stepped back and stared at her for a momet, weighing her reactions against an internal checklist.

"How do you feel? Are you comfortable? Shall I continue?"