The Transformation that Didn't Happen...

Well, hell, it's Poppy. I am alive and not going through the Transformation as yet...well at least not how I thought it was happening anyway. Sighs...such is life at times. One perhaps assumes too much.

Thanks to smartandsexy I am adding this...I thought it was clear that this is as much an apology post for how things happened as an explanation.

I AM VERY SORRY FOR HOW THIS ALL AFFECTED EVERYONE IT DID...whether that made them worried, or more suspicious of others, or whatever. It was NOT intended as a ploy or attention-seeking thing...it was me, in trouble, acting out my troubles. So again, I am VERY SORRY for the trouble it caused anyone else.

I just wanted to let those people who sent well wishs know that I'm okay for now and KravMaga likely DID save my life. There is no denying that. I come here now immediately to take responsibility for this whole regrettable situation especially at this time of year. Yes, he has reacted emotionally...Under the circumstances of his life these days, who wouldn't...who couldn't. Give him a fucking break. He did RIGHT here and deserves a bit more understanding. He was prodded and poked into much of the defensiveness, which I understand, as I've been through it here as well.

I would also like to add a special thanks to Bronzeage...a well-timed call this morning that inspired me to come forth right away and make this post. He, too, has been a good friend and advisor on many things here for me and we were aware he was trying to reach me by phone. So thank you, Bronzeage...again...you demonstrate your value as both a friend who can be compassionate yet forthright and kick some butt. I may have just run away for a while if you hadn't called.

It looks like a fucking minefield here from what I've skimmed. Oh my.

For what it's worth, dolf pretty much has the picture. I am very ill, got very scared again, got drunk and started to believe this "transformation" was at hand. As there are many people at Lit I do value...several more than were on the list BTW, I made a fumbling effort to let you know.

So...Merry Fucking Christmas after all. Happy New Year, too. Well wishes to all here. Thanks to those especially who sent well wishes for my recovery...these worked.

The rest...well bash me into humiliation for surviving.

I am out of the loop, but I love ya and hope you are doing well.

Ha.

waste of a human.

Hi Poppy...


Boy... things got tense while you were away...

I'll just say I'm glad you are doing okay and I'm leaving before the flaming bullshit begins. Have a great holiday Poppy!

So, are you spending Christmas with your sister now?

Hopefully the transformation won't come for some time yet. I'm glad you are okay.

I ignored all the fuss, which is my way. It might be more enjoyable for you to do the same.

Happy holidays.

My response in all of this stands. One post in one thread...

I am sorry to know that you are ill but am glad to know you'll live another day

And like Butterscotch, I'm outta here before the shit starts to stir awake...

Good advice! Thank you all. Enjoy your holidays!

out of the loop as well
and as usual,,clueless as to what this is about
BUT good to know you are okay

I'm also glad you're okay, & hope you have a great Christmas, Poppy (sharing joy & laughter with friends & family, better health, appreciation for today, blah, blah, blah.)

I do wish you all the best. Really.


That said, I still don't like you (your on-board persona, character, whatever), but I won't get into all that here. You're still part of the Lit community, & you're likely a damn good person (behind what type I've personally witnessed on the all pages.)

I'm glad that Krav was physically able to help.

Too bad all the emotions had to spill over, & I'm sure he burned some bridges; I'm indifferent to whether he's a good guy or exposed himself badly -I didn't get involved in the whole drama as I've seen these things play out before. If it indeed happened as stated, again, I'm glad that he was able to make that call. I can't really say what all's real & what it isn't -but I am certain the people behind it all are, & I wish them all the best on a very human level, & as part of our community.

Merry Christmas to you, Poppy

Merry Christmas to all

Poppy, I sent you a pm and have been mostly out of the loop. I was and have been genuinely concerned about your well being but refrained to comment in any of the threads for the most part because I was certain that my interaction would only escalate things in a negative way. If you are so inclined, I would like to know how you are and if you are well. If you deem it as personal and none of my biz then I will understand as well. In any event, I'm glad that you are OK. Your friend.

Peace...

A couple days ago you were at death's door awaiting your 'transformation'.

Today you're posting on Lit..

If you were actually that close to death it's a good chance you would still be in a hospital.

I don't buy it.

I stayed out of it too as I usually do. But I'm glad to know you are better and I hope you can enjoy the holidays and stay well for a long time to come.

I thought she was bringing a William Burroughs story to life.

Ulaven_Demorte said:

A couple days ago you were at death's door awaiting your 'transformation'.

Today you're posting on Lit..

If you were actually that close to death it's a good chance you would still be in a hospital.

I don't buy it.

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OK...CLEAR AS A BELL.

It was not true...I just believed it was during that time period. But it could have happened had I continued the behaviors I was involved in those two days.

Believe me, the rest of the details will not be shared on the Boards here. THAT would only compound my craziness. I'm supposed to be trying to get better.

poppy1963 said:

OK...CLEAR AS A BELL.

It was not true...I just believed it was during that time period. But it could have happened had I continued the behaviors I was involved in those two days.

Believe me, the rest of the details will not be shared on the Boards here. THAT would only compound my craziness. I'm supposed to be trying to get better.

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wow, now I can relax and stop worrying....

Oh and what the fuck is a "transformation" ?

poppy1963 said:

OK...CLEAR AS A BELL.

It was not true...I just believed it was during that time period. But it could have happened had I continued the behaviors I was involved in those two days.

Believe me, the rest of the details will not be shared on the Boards here. THAT would only compound my craziness. I'm supposed to be trying to get better.

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I'm glad your ok for now Poppy hun, truely i am.

But making the other topic in the first place with just bits of info and not being totally clear is what got Krav into all this shit in the first place.

Another Festivus Miracle!!

Beco said:

Oh and what the fuck is a "transformation" ?

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It's when a robot turns into a garbage truck or something like that.

Was that really your sister posting?



Poppy I really am glad you are ok.

Luminatri said:

I'm glad your ok for now Poppy hun, truely i am.

But making the other topic in the first place with just bits of info and not being totally clear is what got Krav into all this shit in the first place.

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I understand that you are correct in some ways about that...but it would have happened no matter what. That is the nature of part of this Board. Thank you for your well wishes, Luminatri.

Krav did a fine job of describing the situation while keeping some things private. He's not even aware of all the dimensions of the situation. And I don't mind that he referred to me by my first name...I've shared that on the Boards as well at times.

Lasher said:

It's when a robot turns into a garbage truck or something like that.

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Oh, okay.....

Beco said:

Oh, okay.....

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I learned that from TeeVee.