Okay, I admit it. I'm relationship deficient. Ever since my late teens I have simply made one wrong choice after another in men. Most from my late teens/early 20s were the usual goofs that most women date at that age - no ambition, wanting to get laid and high all the time, etc. I guess those really don't count. After that, I went from alcoholic to married man to bi-polar to a whole bunch in between.
In other words, I was a complete fuck up when it came to relationships. Thankfully, I never actually married one of these fuck ups!!
Now, I think I've finally met a man who seems like real relationship material. No, he's not perfect, but then neither am I and I don't think I could deal with perfection. But he's fun to be with, we share so much in common, we click sexually, he's got more common sense than anyone I've met with the exception of my father, he's got a good job, and he even has a car! (Well, okay, it's a truck, but he's originally from Texas, so what do you expect?) We've been dating now, as of today, for exactly 8 months. (yah!) Anyway....
Quite soon after we started dating (like within a month or so??) he brought up the subject of "where do we go/what is this relationship." I was caught off guard and still sorting out my feelings for this man, so I suggested we just take things as they come and see where it goes. He hasn't brought the subject up again, though he did admit to me (about 3 months ago) that he was fearful of telling me loved me because of past relationship problems. (Seems I'm not the only one with a screwed up past) About 2 - 3 weeks after telling me this, he sat me down and told me he loved me. I almost started crying, and admitted that I had come to love him as well.
Now, (finally!) for the main question. I am feeling the need to find out where this relationship might be heading. I get the feeling that he might be having the same thoughts, but then I've been so wrong about interpreting thoughts and feelings in the past, I'm really afraid to go there. Yet, I would like to know. I don't know if marriage is in the picture at this time, but I am feeling that I would like the relationship to become serious. He has told me that his close friends and the family members that I've met so far (two of his sons, both adults, and his mother) have all told him to not let me get away. He hasn't brought up the status of the relationship, and I'm wondering if that's because he feels all is well or because of my rather flippant remark early on. Either way, I'm feeling the "Talk" needs to take place and I'm supposing I will have to initiate it. But how does one do this? Is it something that is lead up to? Or does one just blurt it out? Is this appropriate dinner conversation? Or is it best left for that "after sex afterglow when a man will say or do or agree to anything"?
I know this probably sounds really stupid, but the only time I've ever told a man my feelings before he revealed his to me, I got burned pretty badly. I swore then that I would never, ever tip my hand before a man made the first move. This may have been the bane of more than one relationship, but I've kept my pride intact. (For what that was worth)
Okay. Long post, I know. (But then, those of you that know me know this is no surprise!) I'm open to opinions, suggestions, personal experiences, questions, dos/don't dos, anything and everything. Thanks, all of you!
In other words, I was a complete fuck up when it came to relationships. Thankfully, I never actually married one of these fuck ups!!
Now, I think I've finally met a man who seems like real relationship material. No, he's not perfect, but then neither am I and I don't think I could deal with perfection. But he's fun to be with, we share so much in common, we click sexually, he's got more common sense than anyone I've met with the exception of my father, he's got a good job, and he even has a car! (Well, okay, it's a truck, but he's originally from Texas, so what do you expect?) We've been dating now, as of today, for exactly 8 months. (yah!) Anyway....
Quite soon after we started dating (like within a month or so??) he brought up the subject of "where do we go/what is this relationship." I was caught off guard and still sorting out my feelings for this man, so I suggested we just take things as they come and see where it goes. He hasn't brought the subject up again, though he did admit to me (about 3 months ago) that he was fearful of telling me loved me because of past relationship problems. (Seems I'm not the only one with a screwed up past) About 2 - 3 weeks after telling me this, he sat me down and told me he loved me. I almost started crying, and admitted that I had come to love him as well.
Now, (finally!) for the main question. I am feeling the need to find out where this relationship might be heading. I get the feeling that he might be having the same thoughts, but then I've been so wrong about interpreting thoughts and feelings in the past, I'm really afraid to go there. Yet, I would like to know. I don't know if marriage is in the picture at this time, but I am feeling that I would like the relationship to become serious. He has told me that his close friends and the family members that I've met so far (two of his sons, both adults, and his mother) have all told him to not let me get away. He hasn't brought up the status of the relationship, and I'm wondering if that's because he feels all is well or because of my rather flippant remark early on. Either way, I'm feeling the "Talk" needs to take place and I'm supposing I will have to initiate it. But how does one do this? Is it something that is lead up to? Or does one just blurt it out? Is this appropriate dinner conversation? Or is it best left for that "after sex afterglow when a man will say or do or agree to anything"?
I know this probably sounds really stupid, but the only time I've ever told a man my feelings before he revealed his to me, I got burned pretty badly. I swore then that I would never, ever tip my hand before a man made the first move. This may have been the bane of more than one relationship, but I've kept my pride intact. (For what that was worth)
Okay. Long post, I know. (But then, those of you that know me know this is no surprise!) I'm open to opinions, suggestions, personal experiences, questions, dos/don't dos, anything and everything. Thanks, all of you!