In a unloved relation for 7 years, I feel strong urge to love and to be loved. Anyone been throught it?

[IndianUser40M]

Dear Erotic fellows,
I am 40 year old Indian man. I am been married for 7 years but all these I never felt any love from my partner. (I think she would also report the same). Both are nice human being but there is a clear disconnect of vibe.
Somehow after certain age I started feeling urge to love and to be loved to the depth of my heart.

Its difficult to explain in words, but its like as a typical man, I am even ready to put my sexuality on the line to feel loved and content.
I used "typical man" to show the amount of thirst that has build up in me.It ready to loose anything to feel full and content.

I started this journey from being "sad" and "Self blaming" during initial years of my relation.I was convinced that I am the one to blame for ruining 2 lives.

But around 3 years back I started exploring sprituality (Perks of being Indian, its around every street corner).

Now I am come to realisation that I cannot make anyone happy untill unless they chose to be happy themselves.Hence for last 3 years I am working on myself and exploring my physical, mental and spiritual thirst/need and way to satisfy that thirst.

Being Indian brings alot of shyness and introvert behaviour in us. Hardly any of us can confess our true sexual desires or fantasies.
To be honest its diffcult because of the sexual fantasies are immoral to start with

I would like to know from all people here
1. have you come out of your closet? (Have you expressed you sexual inclinations or desires to your partner?)
2. To the experts here : How to know about my sexuality more? Who am I during sex? what my identity during sex? How to know about things that could make me feel like in heaven?

I hope to read many responses.

 

[dave50x]

Have you had sex with a man? I enjoy it. Older, married white male here. 70 yrs old. Wife of 42 yrs stopped all sex 11 yrs ago.

 

[Bobbylanka]

Have you had sex with a man? I enjoy it. Older, married white male here. 70 yrs old. Wife of 42 yrs stopped all sex 11 yrs ago.

Dear Erotic fellows,
I am 40 year old Indian man. I am been married for 7 years but all these I never felt any love from my partner. (I think she would also report the same). Both are nice human being but there is a clear disconnect of vibe.
Somehow after certain age I started feeling urge to love and to be loved to the depth of my heart.

Its difficult to explain in words, but its like as a typical man, I am even ready to put my sexuality on the line to feel loved and content.
I used "typical man" to show the amount of thirst that has build up in me.It ready to loose anything to feel full and content.

I started this journey from being "sad" and "Self blaming" during initial years of my relation.I was convinced that I am the one to blame for ruining 2 lives.

But around 3 years back I started exploring sprituality (Perks of being Indian, its around every street corner).

Now I am come to realisation that I cannot make anyone happy untill unless they chose to be happy themselves.Hence for last 3 years I am working on myself and exploring my physical, mental and spiritual thirst/need and way to satisfy that thirst.

Being Indian brings alot of shyness and introvert behaviour in us. Hardly any of us can confess our true sexual desires or fantasies.
To be honest its diffcult because of the sexual fantasies are immoral to start with

I would like to know from all people here
1. have you come out of your closet? (Have you expressed you sexual inclinations or desires to your partner?)
2. To the experts here : How to know about my sexuality more? Who am I during sex? what my identity during sex? How to know about things that could make me feel like in heaven?

I hope to read many responses.

Have you thought of sharing her?

 

[muycurioso]

I feel I only can get love IF I can deliver the criteria she wants. Only a mother can love a man unconditionally (her son). Even that is not guaranteed. A man is mainly visible on how he looks and how much money he makes (or will earn). Simple - if you think your wife loves you unconditionally, quit your career and either take a min wage job or no job. See what happens.