What is your source of emptiness

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What is it that you are lacking and just feels out of reach but yet feels to be well within the reach of everyone else?
 
What is it that you are lacking and just feels out of reach but yet feels to be well within the reach of everyone else?

That is a thought-provoking question.

I suppose the ability to just let go. I have control issues. Can't drink to excess, can't use drugs, sedation makes me panic. Seems so easy for others and I just can't.
 
That is a thought-provoking question.

I suppose the ability to just let go. I have control issues. Can't drink to excess, can't use drugs, sedation makes me panic. Seems so easy for others and I just can't.
Have you tried really good wine? You can sip it and not realize you're loosening up. It's the perfect anesthesizer. Did I spell that correctly?
 
I’ll answer flippantly for now and say my balls.

This will change.

I’ll answer your substantive question after some consideration.
 
Have you tried really good wine? You can sip it and not realize you're loosening up. It's the perfect anesthesizer. Did I spell that correctly?

I can have a drink, but it stops at one. Even if I enjoy the flavor, the environment, the circumstances.
 
That is a thought-provoking question.

I suppose the ability to just let go. I have control issues. Can't drink to excess, can't use drugs, sedation makes me panic. Seems so easy for others and I just can't.
I can't not drink to excess. The emptiness comes the next morning.
 
Source of emptiness: The idea that millions of people are having sex...and I am not.
 
Currently, it’s my tummy; I forgot to eat lunch, so I need to take care of that now. :cool:

As for the rest of that, FFS, it's a porn chat forum... who's got time for existential thinking and angst??? ;):D:D
 
What is it that you are lacking and just feels out of reach but yet feels to be well within the reach of everyone else?

My answer is close to “SR”….so many peeps looking for more, many very beautiful women musing or pining….. looking wanting….

Not so much just regular sex (although if you pressed me for it I’d consent), actually real intimacy that is connected to non-possessive sex. And to have access to that kind of intimate sex regular instead of a like once in a lifetime kinda thing.
 
The ability to just let go of what doesn’t serve me. I don’t want to spend time wishing for things that aren’t and start enjoying what I have. The grass is not greener on the other side. I want my grass greener because I take care of it. Man is it hard to do.
 
What is it that you are lacking and just feels out of reach but yet feels to be well within the reach of everyone else?

Seems to be the inability to stop people, whom I did not choose, from interfering in my life circumstances. Because we want to be kind and help others it seems that others, and their problems, often suck the joy out of life.
 
I love who I am overall, but wish I had more actual drive towards going for what I truly want. I feel like life has just kicked my ass so many times over the years that I've taken on the attitude of "fuck it, what's the point?" I've gotten better the last year though. I'm moving things forward. I'm in a better place. My future's so bright I gotta wear shades. 😎

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🦆
 
Broken promises are my source of emptiness. I’m currently trying to fill that with other things!
 
Lightness. The ability to have fun. Waking up in the morning feeling happy. Just not being serious.

I feel like almost all that I can do these days is serious. I've lost my lightness, my ability to just...well, I was going to say flirt, but I've always been wretched than that.

I have some happy things in my life, but I've been on the Life is Serious and Critical Track for so many years that it's hard to shake off that mantle and just enjoy.
 
Not being good enough. This is something that I need to seriously work on because it effects many aspects of my everyday life. Before I do anything, I run through so many scenarios in my head all with different outcomes but the scenario that has the biggest impact is the one where I fail. I am not good enough at my job, as a mother, as a partner, as a friend. People will tell me I am good enough but that doesn’t stop me thinking it. It worries me so much that when I do envisage the fail scenario, it leaves me feeling hollow inside.
 
I love who I am overall, but wish I had more actual drive towards going for what I truly want. I feel like life has just kicked my ass so many times over the years that I've taken on the attitude of "fuck it, what's the point?" I've gotten better the last year though. I'm moving things forward. I'm in a better place. My future's so bright I gotta wear shades. 😎

👍👍😁😁 I can identify and I am so happy for you that it’s getting so bright 😎 🕶
 
Feeling like I don’t know how to make and keep real friends, not just acquaintances. The inability to be vulnerable with people one on one. I can say this to a whole message board but wouldn’t be able to if talking to just one person.
 
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