I Finally Did It

[nostuff]

I finally had a gay encounter.

Three, actually, in one evening.

Though I’ve identified as a straight male for most my life, I developed a curiosity in recent years about man sex. OK, it was more than curiosity. It was a serious desire for cock, and it inspired all sorts of fantasies. Even when having sex with my wife, I dream of being fucked by a man.

But I was always afraid to act. For years, I struggled with my fears, and it wasn’t until last fall that I pulled together enough courage to follow through on my desires.

The opportunity came when I found myself in another city for a convention, and I looked up a bathhouse not far from the downtown area. My wife need never know. Even then, I debated what I would do, and it wasn’t until my last night in town that I forced myself into a decision.

I called a Lyft.

Months later, I’m still trying to sort through the experience. Here’s what I know:

1) I like sucking cock (I sucked the first two guys), but I’m a bit of a size queen. I was disappointed that my men weren’t bigger.

2) I like having another man give me a blowjob (the second and third guys). The one did OK. The third fellow had great technique, but he cut things short. Both seemed more interested in getting fucked than in giving head.

3) I don’t care for fucking men’s asses. I fucked the second and third guys (yes, I used condoms; I’m not suicidal), and it did nothing for me.

4) I’m not exclusively gay. Though I want more cock, I could never ignore a beautiful woman. I guess that makes me bi.

What don’t I know?

1) What’s it like to be fucked? This is what I really wanted, and I still want it. Doggy style, and maybe taking a second cock in my mouth at the same time. But somehow, I ended the night with my cherry intact.

2) Would I have enjoyed myself more if I’d had more experience? Let’s face it, I went in with a lot of fear and conflict. Glad I did it, but I was tense.

3) Will I do it again? I want to, and my job takes me to several big cities every year. But this virus is a serious problem (again, I’m not suicidal).

 

[honestWithWifie]

Congrats. I'm envious.

 

[Hitchiker69]

Congratulations, you are now a genuine cock sucker. Welcome to the club. I'm glad you like it.
That was a big, bold step to do 3 in one night. A break through. It will be a lot easier to do it again. This virus can't last forever, and there are gay clubs in every city.
I love getting fucked up the ass, I suspect you will, too.

 

[fitandfresh]

Wow!

Soooooo envious.....used to travel a bit with overnights but never found one of these "nice" places. Now retired opportunities are strictly limited.....now have to just think of what might have been and j/o to lit and messages.

 

[nostuff]

Congratulations, you are now a genuine cock sucker. Welcome to the club. I'm glad you like it.
That was a big, bold step to do 3 in one night. A break through. It will be a lot easier to do it again. This virus can't last forever, and there are gay clubs in every city.
I love getting fucked up the ass, I suspect you will, too.

Thanks, Hitch. I think I earned my stripes, but somehow, it just wasn't enough.

The big surprise is that I didn't expect to enjoy sucking cock (gawd, how I love just saying, "sucking cock"). I thought, instead, it would be a requirement that would lead to getting my ass fucked. Just warming up, you might say. But yeah, I really liked it. I think it would have been absolutely incredible had the cocks been bigger. Well, as I said, I discovered I'm a size queen.

Obviously, I still dream what it would be like getting my ass fucked. Yes, I've fucked myself with various toys, and I've taken my wife's finger. But I seriously doubt that's anything like a real cock with a real man, his strong hands spreading my cheeks or grabbing me by the hair (I want it bareback, but that's not going to happen). The thought of being so dominated makes me quiver.

Soooooo envious.....used to travel a bit with overnights but never found one of these "nice" places. Now retired opportunities are strictly limited.....now have to just think of what might have been and j/o to lit and messages.

Damn shame, Fit, but I understand completely. I've let so many opportunities pass me by, because of so many fears. Fear of being discovered (even if I was 500 miles from home), fear of catching a disease and bringing it home, fear from having no real grasp of the environment I was entering. And all these things were running through my brain right up until I knelt down in front of the first guy and opened my mouth.

Hell, they were running through my brain even after I'd sucked my second cock and fucked my first ass. So many things I wanted to do but just couldn't. Overcoming all those years of learning that gay sex is evil and unnatural is hard to do.

 

[Missile844]

I finally had a gay encounter.

Three, actually, in one evening.

Though I’ve identified as a straight male for most my life, I developed a curiosity in recent years about man sex. OK, it was more than curiosity. It was a serious desire for cock, and it inspired all sorts of fantasies. Even when having sex with my wife, I dream of being fucked by a man.

But I was always afraid to act. For years, I struggled with my fears, and it wasn’t until last fall that I pulled together enough courage to follow through on my desires.

The opportunity came when I found myself in another city for a convention, and I looked up a bathhouse not far from the downtown area. My wife need never know. Even then, I debated what I would do, and it wasn’t until my last night in town that I forced myself into a decision.

I called a Lyft.

Months later, I’m still trying to sort through the experience. Here’s what I know:

1) I like sucking cock (I sucked the first two guys), but I’m a bit of a size queen. I was disappointed that my men weren’t bigger.

2) I like having another man give me a blowjob (the second and third guys). The one did OK. The third fellow had great technique, but he cut things short. Both seemed more interested in getting fucked than in giving head.

3) I don’t care for fucking men’s asses. I fucked the second and third guys (yes, I used condoms; I’m not suicidal), and it did nothing for me.

4) I’m not exclusively gay. Though I want more cock, I could never ignore a beautiful woman. I guess that makes me bi.

What don’t I know?

1) What’s it like to be fucked? This is what I really wanted, and I still want it. Doggy style, and maybe taking a second cock in my mouth at the same time. But somehow, I ended the night with my cherry intact.

2) Would I have enjoyed myself more if I’d had more experience? Let’s face it, I went in with a lot of fear and conflict. Glad I did it, but I was tense.

3) Will I do it again? I want to, and my job takes me to several big cities every year. But this virus is a serious problem (again, I’m not suicidal).

Wow, what an inspiring story. I admire you jumping in with both feet and going for 3! I'm with you in that doing another ass isn't really for me, but I gladly did it last fall with a long standing friend after an evening of candid discussions over too many brandies. We both realised that we had the same fantasy: to suck a cock and to take in in the ass... So we helped each other out, so to speak. I enjoyed watching his reactions, although giving didn't do it for me, and Christ did it hurt to start with when he entered, but despite that the scene was so hot (mentally, if not entirely physically)v that I can't wait until the next opportunity. Sadly that won't be this year: he lives in VA and I'm UK so we only met every 9 months or so.
But thanks for telling your storyv as it was hot

 

[nostuff]

... just remember to always be safe and not let your desires cloud your judgement.

Kate

Thanks for the advice, Kate. I appreciate it.

The third fellow I encountered was very insistent that I lose the condom as I fucked him, and I've no doubt I would have enjoyed myself much more had I listened. I also suspect it affected his enthusiasm when I asked for a blowjob. But I've gotten this far in life without any STD's, and I don't plan to start now.

With that said, I can't stop fantasizing about being fucked bareback (I love watching videos of men breeding). It just sounds so intimate and intense. Alas, bareback will never be anything more than a fantasy, barring some medical advance that I can't foresee.

But that leads to a question: Is it safe to go bare for blowjobs? I know going raw is high risk for anal, but I've read conflicting information on oral. And I've always thought it odd to see videos where the guys forgo condoms for oral, then put them on for anal.

 

[anniebaby10]

Thanks for the advice, Kate. I appreciate it.

The third fellow I encountered was very insistent that I lose the condom as I fucked him, and I've no doubt I would have enjoyed myself much more had I listened. I also suspect it affected his enthusiasm when I asked for a blowjob. But I've gotten this far in life without any STD's, and I don't plan to start now.

With that said, I can't stop fantasizing about being fucked bareback (I love watching videos of men breeding). It just sounds so intimate and intense. Alas, bareback will never be anything more than a fantasy, barring some medical advance that I can't foresee.

But that leads to a question: Is it safe to go bare for blowjobs? I know going raw is high risk for anal, but I've read conflicting information on oral. And I've always thought it odd to see videos where the guys forgo condoms for oral, then put them on for anal.

You can get HPV and Herpes 2 from oral sex. HPV can lead to esophogeal cancer later in life and Herpes 2 never goes away. It would act like a cold sore around your mouth and lips but you could then pass it to another person with oral sex or even kissing if you were asymptomatic.

 

[nostuff]

Thanks, Annie. Most people (i.e., me) tend to focus exclusively on AIDS. Important to remember other bugs are out there as well.

 

[nostuff]

I’ve been giving a lot of thought to where I might find my next hookup.

Another bathhouse is an obvious answer. Having already done it once, there’s a certain comfort that flows from familiarity. Ironically, I also like the anonymity.

Then there’s the odd fact that nobody in the bathhouse pressured me (who would have thought there would be no pressure in a house full of naked gay men?).

But bars outnumber bathhouses, and I’ll bet I can find a gay bar next time I’m in Nashville. I don’t believe that city has a bathhouse.

And while this might sound silly, the idea of being picked up in a bar by another man is a bit scary, for several reasons. One, I’ve never before been in a gay bar, at least not knowingly, so I really don't know what to expect.

Another possible difference is that being picked up in a bar suggests a commitment of sorts, meaning going home with somebody. The beauty of the bathhouse was the ability to have multiple encounters in the course of the evening. If there was something about a guy I didn’t like, I could just move on to the next.

Perhaps I'm just overthinking?

 

[nostuff]

I was asked on the fetish forum what inspired me to finally take the gay plunge. Here's how I replied:


It was all about overcoming my fears.

I accepted my desire for cock several years ago, but I’ve always been obsessed with the possible consequences of acting on those desires. I have a marriage to protect and a network of family, friends and associates who I fear would be less than understanding. Lots of very conservative people in my circle.

For example, long before developing any interest in cock, a couple of gay guys invited a bunch of us at a party to go dancing at a gay bar. I thought the whole thing amusing and declined the invitation. But when I told the story to my brother and his wife, they were aghast. I can only imagine what they would have said if I had actually gone dancing.

Despite my fears, my desire for cock had only grown. And to make matters worse, I kept having little encounters that caused me regret.

I remember two waiters at a restaurant who struck me as obviously gay, and I just know I could have spent the night with them if I had said something. Then there was the guy working at a small alternative theater where I ducked in to get out of the rain. Again, obviously gay, and I’ve no doubt he would have fucked me.

But I always hesitated, because I wanted to be anonymous.

Now, jump to October 2019. I’m at a convention hundreds of miles from home, and out of curiosity, I look up the address for a local bathhouse. Turns out, it’s just a short ride from downtown. I’m thinking about that bathhouse every day of the convention, wondering if I can go there and maintain my anonymity. The convention ends, and I’ve got one more night in town before catching my flight home.

Now or never, I keep telling myself. The chances of being recognized are infinitesimal, and I tell myself I can always leave if things get uncomfortable. So I decide to go, except I chicken out. And I spend the whole afternoon deciding to go, then chickening out.

It’s early evening now, and I leave my hotel to take a walk and find dinner. The whole time, I thinking about experiencing my first cock. Wondering if I have the balls to actually take a cock in my mouth, what would it feel like, how would it taste, would I freak out. Could I fuck a man’s ass? Would I be brave enough to let a man fuck mine?

At that point, I decided to begin taking a series of small steps. When I stepped out of the restaurant, I decided to call a ride. When my Lyft arrived, I decided to go to the bathhouse instead of my hotel. When I got to the bathhouse, I decided to go in. When I went in, I decided to take a room and undress. After I undressed, I hesitated, so I focused on the TV screen playing a video of two men fucking. Finally, I decided to walk around the bathhouse, then I decided to park myself on a bunk in the basement to see what would happen.

And then it happened. This small, geeky fellow climbed up beside me on the bunk, and I spread my legs, wondering whether my invitation was enough. I watched as his hand pushed aside the towel I was wearing, and I felt his hand on my prick. As he stroked me, I reached under his towel and for the first time touched another man’s cock.

We sat there silently stroking each other for how long I don’t know. Frankly, I didn’t know what to say, until I heard the question: Top or bottom?

I paused for a moment, then replied: Bottom.

Just do it, I told myself, so I slid off the bunk, dropped to my knees and gazed at what was about to become my first cock. I opened my mouth and leaned forward, feeling the head and shaft slide past my lips and against my tongue.

My first gay sex.

I wish I could say that was the end of my fear, but all night, there was a voice inside my head. Despite that little voice, I was able to muster enough courage to experience three men. And now, I want to do it again. And again and again.

 

[Hitchiker69]

I'm a size queen, too. I love cocks that are bigger than mine, which is average size. I've been with older
guys who couldn't get hard, and a smaller guy who only had about 4". I can really lose myself in the passion when I'm
sucking a large hard cut cock. It has the same appeal to me as a nice pair of boobs do. I can't resist. I just have to suck it

I love fucking asses. Probably my best orgasm EVER was with a slim, slightly built guy with a tiny ass. I was banging
away at him, with his face down and loving it. But when I rolled him over, and grabbed his ass with both hands the sensations
were overwhelming. I was surprised how incredibly intense it felt to drive deep in his petite tight ass. I came in less than a minute.

I love taking a cock up my ass, but it has to be the right guy. I don't like being used as his cum dumpster. But if he treats
me right, like he's seducing me, I'm all his ...a complete slut, giving him my ass enthusiastically and
passionately

 

[nazrat77]

I finally lost my cherry last saturday night
I responded to an add on doublelist. Dude advertised a 6" dick, and since i wanted kind of a smaller fof my first, i went for it. I had a great time! He was completly gentle with me, and after he got his nut I blew him until he was hard again and he did me again
He claimed to be straight and wouldn't get me off, but I didn't mind. I got what I came for.
On thr way home, i cruised sniffies and found a guy who invited me over for a blow job. And he was damn good at it! I shot my wad down his throat in no time. I offered to take care of him, but he didn't want to get off. Said he had to do his wife when she got home from work.

All in all, it was a fun evening!

 

[nostuff]

I finally lost my cherry last saturday night
I responded to an add on doublelist. Dude advertised a 6" dick, and since i wanted kind of a smaller fof my first, i went for it. I had a great time! He was completly gentle with me, and after he got his nut I blew him until he was hard again and he did me again

Damn, Naz!!! Fucked in the ass twice the first time out? I am so jealous.

 

[tml20]

Thanks for sharing your experiences

I finally had a gay encounter.

Three, actually, in one evening.

Though I’ve identified as a straight male for most my life, I developed a curiosity in recent years about man sex. OK, it was more than curiosity. It was a serious desire for cock, and it inspired all sorts of fantasies. Even when having sex with my wife, I dream of being fucked by a man.

But I was always afraid to act. For years, I struggled with my fears, and it wasn’t until last fall that I pulled together enough courage to follow through on my desires.

The opportunity came when I found myself in another city for a convention, and I looked up a bathhouse not far from the downtown area. My wife need never know. Even then, I debated what I would do, and it wasn’t until my last night in town that I forced myself into a decision.

I called a Lyft.

Months later, I’m still trying to sort through the experience. Here’s what I know:

1) I like sucking cock (I sucked the first two guys), but I’m a bit of a size queen. I was disappointed that my men weren’t bigger.

2) I like having another man give me a blowjob (the second and third guys). The one did OK. The third fellow had great technique, but he cut things short. Both seemed more interested in getting fucked than in giving head.

3) I don’t care for fucking men’s asses. I fucked the second and third guys (yes, I used condoms; I’m not suicidal), and it did nothing for me.

4) I’m not exclusively gay. Though I want more cock, I could never ignore a beautiful woman. I guess that makes me bi.

What don’t I know?

1) What’s it like to be fucked? This is what I really wanted, and I still want it. Doggy style, and maybe taking a second cock in my mouth at the same time. But somehow, I ended the night with my cherry intact.

2) Would I have enjoyed myself more if I’d had more experience? Let’s face it, I went in with a lot of fear and conflict. Glad I did it, but I was tense.

3) Will I do it again? I want to, and my job takes me to several big cities every year. But this virus is a serious problem (again, I’m not suicidal).

Loved reading your account of your first gay experience. We seem very much alike. I too travel quite a bit and think about cock often.

Thanks for sharing!

 

[nostuff]

Do you ever get to North Dakota/Minnesota?

The only time I've been to either state, I was just changing planes in Minneapolis. Damn shame. You sound exactly what I'm looking for, and I bet having your cock up my cherry ass would be heaven.

 

[bi_cpl_with_crossdresser]

Happy for you.

Glad you were able to put your fear behind you and go for it.

 

[nostuff]

Glad you were able to put your fear behind you and go for it.

Thanks, Bi. Fear is very powerful. But then, so is cock. I denied it a long, long time, but I finally reached the point where I could no longer deny my desire.

A pity that Covid then got in the way, but I'm hoping we're near the point where I can experience cock again. I'm ready to have a man in my mouth again and to finally have him penetrate my ass.

 

[Bigboobbabe]

My husband had his first cock in an xxx theater with me.
As guys lined up to cum on my tits, he kept them hard with hand and mouth.

He has been sucked to completion, but has not received a hot load from the source.

We had a few MFM and he sucked his best friend while his friend devoured my pussy and juices,

I enjoyed watching and hope we can resume after CoVID.

 

[nostuff]

My husband had his first cock in an xxx theater with me.
As guys lined up to cum on my tits, he kept them hard with hand and mouth.

Gawd, that's so hot! But I would have stolen at least a couple of those loads and kept them for myself.

 

[westwalesman]

I've tried to take a cock up my arse a couple of times but it was so painful I had stop before the head was in.I've dreamed about a man fucking me many times but the reality was different from the fantasy

 

[ChrissyCD64]

I finally had a gay encounter.

Three, actually, in one evening.

Though I’ve identified as a straight male for most my life, I developed a curiosity in recent years about man sex. OK, it was more than curiosity. It was a serious desire for cock, and it inspired all sorts of fantasies. Even when having sex with my wife, I dream of being fucked by a man.

But I was always afraid to act. For years, I struggled with my fears, and it wasn’t until last fall that I pulled together enough courage to follow through on my desires.

The opportunity came when I found myself in another city for a convention, and I looked up a bathhouse not far from the downtown area. My wife need never know. Even then, I debated what I would do, and it wasn’t until my last night in town that I forced myself into a decision.

I called a Lyft.

Months later, I’m still trying to sort through the experience. Here’s what I know:

1) I like sucking cock (I sucked the first two guys), but I’m a bit of a size queen. I was disappointed that my men weren’t bigger.

2) I like having another man give me a blowjob (the second and third guys). The one did OK. The third fellow had great technique, but he cut things short. Both seemed more interested in getting fucked than in giving head.

3) I don’t care for fucking men’s asses. I fucked the second and third guys (yes, I used condoms; I’m not suicidal), and it did nothing for me.

4) I’m not exclusively gay. Though I want more cock, I could never ignore a beautiful woman. I guess that makes me bi.

What don’t I know?

1) What’s it like to be fucked? This is what I really wanted, and I still want it. Doggy style, and maybe taking a second cock in my mouth at the same time. But somehow, I ended the night with my cherry intact.

2) Would I have enjoyed myself more if I’d had more experience? Let’s face it, I went in with a lot of fear and conflict. Glad I did it, but I was tense.

3) Will I do it again? I want to, and my job takes me to several big cities every year. But this virus is a serious problem (again, I’m not suicidal).

What is it that you didn't like about fucking the guys butts? To me an ass is an ass, male or female, and I love fucking them all, as well as getting mine fucked. Bareback all the way for me though.

 

[nostuff]

I've tried to take a cock up my arse a couple of times but it was so painful I had stop before the head was in.I've dreamed about a man fucking me many times but the reality was different from the fantasy

You've just described my biggest fear, that I'll eventually have a man ready to fuck me, only to discover that the pain is more than I can endure. But I'll never know until I try. The fantasy, meanwhile, is very intense.

What is it that you didn't like about fucking the guys butts? To me an ass is an ass, male or female, and I love fucking them all, as well as getting mine fucked. Bareback all the way for me though.

I can't dispute your logic, but fucking a man's ass just didn't work for me.

Why not?

Beats me. Perhaps it's because society has taught me I'm not supposed to penetrate other men. Or perhaps I was just born to bottom.

 

[tristantrotsky]

Follow Your Impulse

I'm a size queen, too. I love cocks that are bigger than mine, which is average size. I've been with older
guys who couldn't get hard, and a smaller guy who only had about 4". I can really lose myself in the passion when I'm
sucking a large hard cut cock. It has the same appeal to me as a nice pair of boobs do. I can't resist. I just have to suck it

I love fucking asses. Probably my best orgasm EVER was with a slim, slightly built guy with a tiny ass. I was banging
away at him, with his face down and loving it. But when I rolled him over, and grabbed his ass with both hands the sensations
were overwhelming. I was surprised how incredibly intense it felt to drive deep in his petite tight ass. I came in less than a minute.

I love taking a cock up my ass, but it has to be the right guy. I don't like being used as his cum dumpster. But if he treats
me right, like he's seducing me, I'm all his ...a complete slut, giving him my ass enthusiastically and
passionately

The thing to bear in mind is that sex is not a competition.
It is not a tick-box list that you work through - 'done that', 'done that'...
Let it happen naturally. Follow your instinct. Do what feels good, do what feels right for you at that moment.
And it will happen as it should...

 

[Subguy59]

Hi, first post here.
I still hide my bisexuality because I know my wife would leave plus I’m a construction worker and that wouldn’t go over well.
In my 20’s and 30’s I would secretly have encounters where I was the bottom.
Even during my first marriage. Every time I would feel shame for awhile, then the cycle would start all over again.

Now after 27 years of Monogamous marriage and hiding my bisexuality.
I joined silver daddies and contacted a member. First try, I couldn’t believe it, He was gorgeous, a 34 yo bodybuilder.
He sent me pics of himself, god he is beautiful.
What the hell did he want with me. He still wanted to at least to meet. I was so nervous but He convinced me to meet him at a store parking lot, what a nice guy he is, he calmed me down and convinced me he was just into older guys.
So the next week we meet up again and went for a ride in my truck and found a quiet spot.
I felt up his package then rolled out his dick from under his sweats. Dam he has this gorgeous uncut cock, I just had to suck it and I think I was horrible at it, but I did get a mouthful of young cum.
It was so great I just couldn’t believe my luck I savored that taste all the way home.
I was determined to be better the next time. I practiced with anything I could find, mostly bananas until I could push them into my throat.
Then the next time I met with him I was much better, I was able to take him all the way to his balls. His load tasted so good and I was so proud of myself.
I just wanted to tell someone, anyone. But I have no one I can tell.
I’ve contacted him since but he wants my ass and I’m all for it but with Covid-19 and hosting problems, we can’t seem to work it out.

I hate the fact I’m not good at articulating what’s in my mind.
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