A Journey In Vulnerability

[Elgirldani]

Damn, that is so patriotic, I just want to grab that flag and wave it around for all to see! Oh woops, I guess that exposes what was hiding behind it doesn't it?

Lol, this made me laugh this morning, so thank you for that

 

[Followmenow6969_2]

Hi guys

Just dropping in quickly before work today to say Happy July 4th to all of my fellow USAers, and happy Thursday to anyone not in the US, lol.

Today is always a special day for me, not only because it's a fun holiday to celebrate, but also because it's my mom's birthday! Looking forward to getting to spend the evening with her later, as well as the rest of the family.

Have a great day!

"Merica!" lol

Happy birthday Mom

 

[rulickable]

Hi guys

Just dropping in quickly before work today to say Happy July 4th to all of my fellow USAers, and happy Thursday to anyone not in the US, lol.

Today is always a special day for me, not only because it's a fun holiday to celebrate, but also because it's my mom's birthday! Looking forward to getting to spend the evening with her later, as well as the rest of the family.

Have a great day!

Made this vet stand and salute

 

[Youneverknow81]

:-d

 

[Elgirldani]

:-d

to you too

 

[Followmenow6969_2]

Good morning Beautiful....

I hope you're doing well

 

[Elgirldani]

"Merica!" lol

Happy birthday Mom

Made this vet stand and salute

Thanks

 

[Elgirldani]

Thanks for being real and vulnerable!! It can be easy to forget we are real people with emotions on here! Altough some aren't real, LOTS of posers and charlatans. It's okay to role play if that's stated, but posing as someone else is not cool. So, thanks for being lovely you, inside and out! Great poses by the way!
Horned God

Thank you, I try

 

[Elgirldani]

Good morning Beautiful....

I hope you're doing well

Sorry I'm just getting around to replying, I was actually sick all last week, but I'm doing better now.

 

[Elgirldani]

*I'm fine, don't worry...

Having been home a lot this past week with a cold, I've been reminded why I don't like having too much downtime... I think too much. About that conversation from two months ago that I wish had gone differently. About how I wish I was more assertive about the things I want and need. About how scared I still get thinking about the future. About how sometimes it feels impossible to move past this point. About how it would be if the major events in my life this year hadn't happened. Too many crazy thoughts, too many negative thoughts, too many, too much, too soon, too bad.

And the worst part... People would never know. I'm so good at pretending to be fine, at acting certain ways to distract myself(and the people around me). It's acting out, really. But not in a way that's easily recognizable as such. It's self destructive, but only to my soul, where no one can ever see the scars.

 

[Monkeywrench1986]

Having been home a lot this past week with a cold, I've been reminded why I don't like having too much downtime... I think too much. In About that conversation from two months ago that I wish had gone differently. About how I wish I was more assertive about the things I want and need. About how scared I still get thinking about the future. About how sometimes it feels impossible to move past this point. About how it would be if the major events in my life this yearh you the best. hadn't happened. Too many crazy thoughts, too many negative thoughts, too many, too much, too soon, too bad.

And the worst part... People would never know. I'm so good at pretending to be fine, at acting certain ways to distract myself(and the people around me). It's acting out, really. But not in a way that's easily recognizable as such. It's self destructive, but only to my soul, where no one can ever see the scars.

Great thread. Has been fun seeing you grow throughout. Keep doing you and you will find what you’re looking for. Cheers, I wish you the best.

 

[Cuppers]

hmm..

to be hones going braless and waking down the street

 

[Elgirldani]

Great thread. Has been fun seeing you grow throughout. Keep doing you and you will find what you’re looking for. Cheers, I wish you the best.

Thanks

 

[deliverer]

Having been home a lot this past week with a cold, I've been reminded why I don't like having too much downtime... I think too much. About that conversation from two months ago that I wish had gone differently. About how I wish I was more assertive about the things I want and need. About how scared I still get thinking about the future. About how sometimes it feels impossible to move past this point. About how it would be if the major events in my life this year hadn't happened. Too many crazy thoughts, too many negative thoughts, too many, too much, too soon, too bad.

And the worst part... People would never know. I'm so good at pretending to be fine, at acting certain ways to distract myself(and the people around me). It's acting out, really. But not in a way that's easily recognizable as such. It's self destructive, but only to my soul, where no one can ever see the scars.

There certainly is a lot there. Possibly the worst of it is the regret you tend to feel.
I appreciate the comparison and the contrast between the photo and the words.....

 

[Elgirldani]

There certainly is a lot there. Possibly the worst of it is the regret you tend to feel.
I appreciate the comparison and the contrast between the photo and the words.....

Thank you. A thoughtful response is always appreciated

 

[TANSTAAFL58]

Having been home a lot this past week with a cold, I've been reminded why I don't like having too much downtime... I think too much. About that conversation from two months ago that I wish had gone differently. About how I wish I was more assertive about the things I want and need. About how scared I still get thinking about the future. About how sometimes it feels impossible to move past this point. About how it would be if the major events in my life this year hadn't happened. Too many crazy thoughts, too many negative thoughts, too many, too much, too soon, too bad.

And the worst part... People would never know. I'm so good at pretending to be fine, at acting certain ways to distract myself(and the people around me). It's acting out, really. But not in a way that's easily recognizable as such. It's self destructive, but only to my soul, where no one can ever see the scars.

Powerful words and a fantastic picture. Be well...

 

[Followmenow6969_2]

Having been home a lot this past week with a cold, I've been reminded why I don't like having too much downtime... I think too much. About that conversation from two months ago that I wish had gone differently. About how I wish I was more assertive about the things I want and need. About how scared I still get thinking about the future. About how sometimes it feels impossible to move past this point. About how it would be if the major events in my life this year hadn't happened. Too many crazy thoughts, too many negative thoughts, too many, too much, too soon, too bad.

And the worst part... People would never know. I'm so good at pretending to be fine, at acting certain ways to distract myself(and the people around me). It's acting out, really. But not in a way that's easily recognizable as such. It's self destructive, but only to my soul, where no one can ever see the scars.

despite what fills our minds, life marches on..... sometimes for the better sometimes not

If you ever need to vent let me know, I may not have the answers but I will listen and talk


BTW this pic ROCKS

 

[Reed8]

We send our thoughts and prose out into the ether hoping that we can soothe and find answers. Inner layers and the past reveals where we have been and how we have grown. Throwing out the parts of us we don't want can allow peace and growth if we decide to discard them. Our parts fit together sometimes awkwardly but it makes us unique, special, and worthy to the whole scope. Keep launching your thoughts out there…answers and hope are abound.

btw.. love the new av pic

 

[rulickable]

We send our thoughts and prose out into the ether hoping that we can soothe and find answers. Inner layers and the past reveals where we have been and how we have grown. Throwing out the parts of us we don't want can allow peace and growth if we decide to discard them. Our parts fit together sometimes awkwardly but it makes us unique, special, and worthy to the whole scope. Keep launching your thoughts out there…answers and hope are abound.

btw.. love the new av pic

Is an awesome tush

 

[deliverer]

Thank you. A thoughtful response is always appreciated

I really like your AV.
Is that a photo you posted, or is it only being used for your AV?

 

[Elgirldani]

Powerful words and a fantastic picture. Be well...

despite what fills our minds, life marches on..... sometimes for the better sometimes not

If you ever need to vent let me know, I may not have the answers but I will listen and talk


BTW this pic ROCKS

We send our thoughts and prose out into the ether hoping that we can soothe and find answers. Inner layers and the past reveals where we have been and how we have grown. Throwing out the parts of us we don't want can allow peace and growth if we decide to discard them. Our parts fit together sometimes awkwardly but it makes us unique, special, and worthy to the whole scope. Keep launching your thoughts out there…answers and hope are abound.

btw.. love the new av pic

Is an awesome tush

Thank you all! Your kindness is definitely appreciated

 

[Elgirldani]

I really like your AV.
Is that a photo you posted, or is it only being used for your AV?

Thanks It’s a photo I posted a while back.

 

[EndlessNameless]

Having been home a lot this past week with a cold, I've been reminded why I don't like having too much downtime... I think too much. About that conversation from two months ago that I wish had gone differently. About how I wish I was more assertive about the things I want and need. About how scared I still get thinking about the future. About how sometimes it feels impossible to move past this point. About how it would be if the major events in my life this year hadn't happened. Too many crazy thoughts, too many negative thoughts, too many, too much, too soon, too bad.

And the worst part... People would never know. I'm so good at pretending to be fine, at acting certain ways to distract myself(and the people around me). It's acting out, really. But not in a way that's easily recognizable as such. It's self destructive, but only to my soul, where no one can ever see the scars.

I was in this rut a few months back. Being at work and doing other things kept my mind off of things. It's funny how negativity can creep up on you if your mind is idle. All I can say is try not to listen to it too much. I'm a massive over thinker. I hate making assumptions so I try my best not to do that.

I do hope you have someone to talk to and blow off steam if you're feeling this way. It's much better to just get it all out. Keep your head held high.

 

[Elgirldani]

I was in this rut a few months back. Being at work and doing other things kept my mind off of things. It's funny how negativity can creep up on you if your mind is idle. All I can say is try not to listen to it too much. I'm a massive over thinker. I hate making assumptions so I try my best not to do that.

I do hope you have someone to talk to and blow off steam if you're feeling this way. It's much better to just get it all out. Keep your head held high.

Thanks EN. I try to keep busy normally because it does help to keep my mind off of the things that worry me, but this past week it was hard to avoid because I was too tired for much activity. I don’t usually express my emotions very well; I’m a bottle it up-er. But I’m trying to be better about that and posting here helps.

 

[Followmenow6969_2]

Thanks EN. I try to keep busy normally because it does help to keep my mind off of the things that worry me, but this past week it was hard to avoid because I was too tired for much activity. I don’t usually express my emotions very well; I’m a bottle it up-er. But I’m trying to be better about that and posting here helps.

Vent away