LostGirlTink
Adorkable weirdo
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- Jan 6, 2017
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He said it would take a lot more than me being little to make him leave.
Now. You.
Please stop staying away. It's not that we will converge on you and pull out our notebooks and do therapy. But, sometimes just hanging out is a balm for your soul until you gather the strength you need, until you heal.
The part I bolded. Good.
It's important to be loved for yourself. I'm glad you have that. I'm glad he likes all of you. That's the way it should be. Yeah I know. I just tend to bare it all in this thread where I don't other places. I flit about and am playful and silly (which is an improvement over being said and self destructive all the time I think) everywhere but is really just a good mask. Here I feel like I just need to be honest.
Behind the mask I'm still really guarded and skeptical of everyone and everything. I have a whole new set of issues I didn't have before and I question the truth in everything. Where before I used to worry that someone wouldn't like me enough and would leave, now I worry that they'll like me too much and use that as an excuse to leave.
Or maybe none of it was real anyway... except to me, and in that case I worry that I am a horrible judge of character, something I never thought before, but that maybe I just can't tell when someone is full of shit, or when I don't matter.
Either way I'll adjust and I'll figure out how to live with that sooner or later I guess. And maybe I'll learn to let people back in? I don't know.
Maybe I just do lit "wrong" and I'm too complicated for what most people want anyway, or at least that seems to be the case.
Either way, I'm taking care of me the best I can and it's a good reminder that I don't NEED someone to take care of me, it's just wonderful when they want to.
And I'll finish putting myself back together again sooner or later. Until then I'll make myself come back and be honest from time to time.
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