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cookiecat
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Glad you could share here. Was this cathartic for you? It's odd how you can find safety and freedom in sharing with strangers, but not strangers.
The thing with loss, with grieving is you had to have a pretty amazing relationship in order to feel that deeply. What a gift you had to feel that for someone. To share those D/s bonds, you got to have what a lot of people only imagine.
Time, desire, maturity - all these give you a new perspective. Here you are. There aren't many people on the bdsm boards, so not sure you'll find a big community?? That being said, I've made friends, I've leaned on this group when I've been sad, I've learned a few new things. Hopefully, you will too.
Keep your toes dipped in the kinky waters. See where it takes you.
Welcome to this side of Lit.
The thing with loss, with grieving is you had to have a pretty amazing relationship in order to feel that deeply. What a gift you had to feel that for someone. To share those D/s bonds, you got to have what a lot of people only imagine.
Time, desire, maturity - all these give you a new perspective. Here you are. There aren't many people on the bdsm boards, so not sure you'll find a big community?? That being said, I've made friends, I've leaned on this group when I've been sad, I've learned a few new things. Hopefully, you will too.
Keep your toes dipped in the kinky waters. See where it takes you.
Welcome to this side of Lit.
SissySalina
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Seems you have had a winding path, glad you found this place in a hope that it straightens out the path forward.
Some folks say it is the environment that makes the person other say it is the person that chooses and makes their environment, this sissy says it is the interaction between the two that tells about the person.
Thank you for sharing.
Some folks say it is the environment that makes the person other say it is the person that chooses and makes their environment, this sissy says it is the interaction between the two that tells about the person.
Thank you for sharing.
RustyIron
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Adrina, omg, Thank you for telling your story, that must have taken some courage to write.
We don't often get to appreciate how hard some people have done it for so long, it paints a very clear picture of your past, and the demons you have battled along the way. It does tend to put some perspective around what we perceive to be issues in our own life, which pale in comparison.
I can't even begin to understand how difficult it has been for you and what you have been through. I am so sorry that you have had such a rough time.
Thanks again for sharing your story. I am so glad you did.
We don't often get to appreciate how hard some people have done it for so long, it paints a very clear picture of your past, and the demons you have battled along the way. It does tend to put some perspective around what we perceive to be issues in our own life, which pale in comparison.
I can't even begin to understand how difficult it has been for you and what you have been through. I am so sorry that you have had such a rough time.
Thanks again for sharing your story. I am so glad you did.
13Fantasies
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I'm glad you are able to tell your story, even though it must hurt to relive. -Hugs-
AngusBridie
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Listening to you , I've picked up on bits of pieces of this along the way. I hope you find love , peace and the compatibility you seek within another as I've often been a big believer that sexual compatibility is a real thing.
I've been rather reluctant to open here on Lit myself but my
goes out to you on this and your story, best wishes to you truly
I've been rather reluctant to open here on Lit myself but my
goes out to you on this and your story, best wishes to you truly
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Dreamliner
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That took courage Adrina. To open up here shows you have a need to talk and find like minded people in a non judgmental environment. Congratulations, take care, enjoy your exploring.
MelissaBaby
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My dear friend.
I wish I had the knowledge and experience to address your specific issues, but while bdsm holds some interest for me, it is outside the scope of things on which I can give advice.
I am, however, as you well know, an expert of the subjects of daddy issues, self medication, and most pertinently, catharsis through expression.
When I began posting my memoirs on Lit (Yes, I usually say my novel, but this is a time and place for honest expression) many people warned me that I was making myself too vulnerable, that I was endangering myself. What they did not understand was that it was my silence that endangered me. I had far less to lose by openly presenting myself, warts and all, than I did by holding it all in until the pressure built to a boiling point.
That is not to say that you should feel the need to share to the extent that I have. You will know how much you should say, what is right will feel right. You have taken a big step here. If it was far enough, I am glad you got what you need from it. If more steps are needed, there are people who will walk beside you.
Thank you for what you have given of yourself. I will hold it in my heart.
I wish I had the knowledge and experience to address your specific issues, but while bdsm holds some interest for me, it is outside the scope of things on which I can give advice.
I am, however, as you well know, an expert of the subjects of daddy issues, self medication, and most pertinently, catharsis through expression.
When I began posting my memoirs on Lit (Yes, I usually say my novel, but this is a time and place for honest expression) many people warned me that I was making myself too vulnerable, that I was endangering myself. What they did not understand was that it was my silence that endangered me. I had far less to lose by openly presenting myself, warts and all, than I did by holding it all in until the pressure built to a boiling point.
That is not to say that you should feel the need to share to the extent that I have. You will know how much you should say, what is right will feel right. You have taken a big step here. If it was far enough, I am glad you got what you need from it. If more steps are needed, there are people who will walk beside you.
Thank you for what you have given of yourself. I will hold it in my heart.
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Wild_Honey_66
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Welcome Adrina!
Wild_Honey_66
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This reminds me of a quote...
'And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.' ~ Anäis Nin
Sounds as though perhaps you are ready to heal and bloom?
neci
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people tell their stories everywhere.
this is good a place as any.
there is a magical illusion of safety, but you threw that out coming in here. it is partially why you are here. you have a beautiful voice. your notes are crystal clear. i wish you peace and joy upon your journey.
this is good a place as any.
there is a magical illusion of safety, but you threw that out coming in here. it is partially why you are here. you have a beautiful voice. your notes are crystal clear. i wish you peace and joy upon your journey.
snugglestruggle
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For everyone still carrying their pain
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LanguageOfLove
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Me, here, now
Wow, thank you for sharing your story! That was beautifully written and profound. I can relate to growing up in that type of atmosphere, you learn to protect yourself however you can.
I hope that by sharing your story, you can put all of those "demons" to rest and let the light shine through. That took a lot of courage to post that and I'm sure a lot of others can relate to a lot of what you posted.
Letting it go is a wonderful thing... You just did that.
L.O.L = Language of Love
Wow, thank you for sharing your story! That was beautifully written and profound. I can relate to growing up in that type of atmosphere, you learn to protect yourself however you can.
I hope that by sharing your story, you can put all of those "demons" to rest and let the light shine through. That took a lot of courage to post that and I'm sure a lot of others can relate to a lot of what you posted.
Letting it go is a wonderful thing... You just did that.
L.O.L = Language of Love
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MelissaBaby
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You are exactly correct. Holding this inside had become the real danger. I have been carrying this around with me for a long time. It is not my habit to so publicly expose my inner world and the pain I have endured. But it was time for a reckoning.
In the last day as I have sat digesting what I have written, what I have felt and having it out there in black and white for all the world to see... I have felt more centered, more at peace than I have for a very long time. That is not to say there is no more pain associated with this chapter in my life. No amount of words can erase or alter the history or the trauma of this loss. But I believe a fundamental shift in my world has occurred. And I am grateful.
I even feel just the slightest glimmer of hope. Which I haven't felt for a very long time.
Thank you.
It is believed that consciousness can only exist with language, that we can not think or understand, what we can not articulate. But I think we only really articulate our thoughts by sharing them.
(I think a lot, that's why I never shut up.
)By putting your words before us, you put your thoughts in order in your own mind. It's like a self induced moment of clarity.
You are strong, my sister. You are beautiful and brave.
Do You Realize?
MelissaBaby
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This reminds me of a quote...
'And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.' ~ Anäis Nin
Sounds as though perhaps you are ready to heal and bloom?
A beautiful quote. Perfect.
Wild_Honey_66
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Thank you!
I keep having to check to make sure we are still in BDSM and not on the GB.
It's wonderful to see all of you here supporting Miss Adrina.
MelissaBaby
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It's wonderful to see all of you here supporting Miss Adrina.
She has been incredibly supportive to me.
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I went looking for you thinking you had gone silent only to find the exact opposite has taken place.
I can let go of the worry and watch you spread your wings.
I can let go of the worry and watch you spread your wings.
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Adrina,
Sharing your story with us also shared your bravery and grace. You remind us of the risk and pain we find in living our lives, while also so beautifully showing us what strength looks like.
Facing your own past and path and reflecting on your love, loss and hopes in such an honest way is something we could all learn from.
I hope that the process helps the healing and blooming as others have said, and that you are able to welcome everything your heart desires into your life. However it works out, you've shown this little corner of the internet-forum-land some real character and beauty.
Sharing your story with us also shared your bravery and grace. You remind us of the risk and pain we find in living our lives, while also so beautifully showing us what strength looks like.
Facing your own past and path and reflecting on your love, loss and hopes in such an honest way is something we could all learn from.
I hope that the process helps the healing and blooming as others have said, and that you are able to welcome everything your heart desires into your life. However it works out, you've shown this little corner of the internet-forum-land some real character and beauty.
