Future Regrets?

[Saint Peter]

That is reassuring advice, coming from a guy named Saint Peter.

Consider the source.

 

[thør]

How can you define the right road if you never take the wrong road?

Regrets, future and past, provide footing and perspective.

Engineer's who have never made a mistake have no experience.

 

[Peregrinator]

Absolutely, there are happy memories. But, there were two roads diverged and I took the wrong fucking one. I know that my life would be completely different had I chosen the other. I honestly, regret very little because I learn from choice and consequence. Lately, I have been feeling a deep mourning for the person I could have been.

I completely understand that last. I could have been so many things...some of them possibly even great. As I age, I am constantly mindful of doors that close. You...you are just a lovely, beautiful person. I know a bit about you and am trying to figure out which fork in the road you're referring to here.

 

[Peregrinator]

You kept bringing it up and I responded. I know it's your religion and I'm done talking with you about it. If you don't read the .pdf, I will consider you a closed-minded coward though.

No need to consider me those things, unless it makes you feel all special or something. Of course I read it, Schatzi. I also read the bios of the authors and three separate refutations of it.

 

[Peregrinator]

AJ? So you're on a first name basis? Or he has another old account? Vetteman?

This place is interesting in that it has a deep history. It's a bit like starting Game of Thrones on season 4. The red wedding already went down so everyone is depressed but you have no idea why.

Or maybe it's more like an arsenic lake. A lake with no outlet, and through evaporation and errosion ends up poisoned by heavy metals as rainflow washes poison into the lake, while evaporation concentrates it. There was a time it was thriving and vibrant. The signs are there. But over time the healthier people move on, and you're left with a bunch of political junkies more interested in winning an argument through willpower than dialogue. And through sheer process of elimination they're all that remain. Like rain evaporating out of the lake and leaving the arsenic behind.

My question is, why come back? Leaving makes sense. You're the rainwater. But what brought you back? Hmm, you work with the elderly. Enjoy a good lost cause?

He's had several. I think that was the first one, but it's sort of a nickname now. He doesn't make a secret of it, or lie about his former names. I can't recall if he ever gave a reason. In any case, it's shorthand. Vetteman is a different person, the consensus being that he now posts as Rightguide or whatever. The style is identical, except that as Vetteman every fourth post contained the word "pusillanimous," and many years back it was possible to have a friendly conversation with him without also being a member of the rightwing echo chamber on here. He devolved over the years into a rigid fountain of talking points. Put everyone who disagreed with him on ignore.

Those are both apt descriptions, in fact. And your metaphor would work superbly if I came back to try to dilute the toxins or some similar philanthropic reason. I came back because I missed the place. Ishmael once described it as being like a corner bar. All sorts of people come in, with all sorts of opinions and attitudes. It was my first real internet home, and it's still fun. There are old friends here I haven't talked to in ages.

I work with everybody, so long as they need emergency medical care. Elderly is one segment. Anyone who dials 911...disaster relief, search and rescue, expedition medicine.

 

[Peregrinator]

How does zen therapy work? I mean, other than what you just described.

What does that look like?

Sounds cool.

...there's an app, no wait, a thread for that. It really is interesting. The thread gives some descriptions and the name of the creator, who has published a bunch of books. There are training centers scattered here and there as well.

http://forum.literotica.com/showthread.php?t=589136&highlight=Constructive+living

 

[Peregrinator]

How can you define the right road if you never take the wrong road?

Regrets, future and past, provide footing and perspective.

I agree completely. Like all discomfort, they give us a message about choices and stuff. Great point, Pete!

 

[thør]

I agree completely. Like all discomfort, they give us a message about choices and stuff. Great point, Pete!

I choose to be anal about full level C PPE last week. The latentcy period for rads is too short for my future plans.

 

[Peregrinator]

I choose to be anal about full level C PPE last week. The latentcy period for rads is too short for my future plans.

I am glad to hear this. I've never been a maverick about ppe in any of the situations I've been in that required it, including my climbing helmet. What a dumb way to sicken or die.

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[Radiohead]

Petey is good, wise and funny people. I smelled it on him.

Ewww.

 

[MelissaBaby]

Petey is good, wise and funny people. I smelled it on him.

I took loads of roads that hD dead ends or were just interesting routes with little efficiency, they all taught me something, even if I might in retrospect not take them Gain. I think it's ok to have a few regrets.

Here is the thing; when I was younger than you I was forced down a road with no choice. This one I do resent. I hVe fought it every step of the way, with good success most of the time. The other roads you can do a u turn on, or find routes back. The ones you get forced on; they are shits. Even when you are winning you know that the gps is trying to get you back on that route and you head in that general direction. Still life is too short to worry much about this either; what ever is past is past, we can create more regrets or fewer as we move forward. At older than Melissababy I am not going to say 'well, I am to late to bother'. . Well, not for longer than a mopey morning

Your lovely post deserves a response, but all I've got for you is nods and smiles.

So, have a few of these.

 

[MelissaBaby]

Ewww.

I don't know what she smelled on him, but it wasn't me.

 

[Saint Peter]

I don't know what she smelled on him, but it wasn't me.

booze and testosterone

 

[Saint Peter]

Engineer's who have never made a mistake have no experience.

machinist: "Are you sure this is what you want??"

Pete: "Probably not."

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[RobDownSouth]

I took loads of roads that hD dead ends or were just interesting routes with little efficiency, they all taught me something, even if I might in retrospect not take them Gain.

*laughing* Your left pinky finger wandered into Caps Lock territory (or else is having issues with the "a" key)....

 

[Peregrinator]

I'm realizing that a lot of my future regrets are going to be based on my lifelong suck at practicing. If I'd only spent ten or fifteen minutes a day on...a whole list of stuff...

 

[neci]

i have a feeling most of my future regrets will mirror past regrets, unless the risk/reward balance changes.