The "Fuck you cancer!" thread

[cascadiabound]

Exactly.

I have been away traveling a bit. When I returned home I found I could not open this thread until now as I was so fucking angry about what my cancer has taken away from me. In the larger picture my loss has been small and my struggle light compared to the fight of so many others, but I was pissed all the same.

This thread helps me, so until such time as it is "no longer relevant" I will return to find comfort and offer what support I can.


PS: Fuck You Cancer!

Oh Shank...
I am angry with you for what you have lost.
Sending you hugs.

And a great big FYC

cb

 

[Blue]

Perhaps it's worth mentioning that the last 2 years have been something of a golden era for cancer research over a multitude of different strains. Especially the announcement of a new successful prototype therapy that you might have heard of which trains the immune system to destroy overgrown tumours, or a less publicised one which suggests genetically modifying humans by adding cancer-repelling genes from elephants and sharks.

I give it just under a century until most forms of cancers are eliminated. Might need another FYC thread before then though.

 

[Oldenburg]

Well my dad went to have his mask/cage made for his radiotherapy, and we where told his brain tumour is rare....

I feel like my head is going to pop, soooo much info to take in...

 

[LallyH]

Well my dad went to have his mask/cage made for his radiotherapy, and we where told his brain tumour is rare....

I feel like my head is going to pop, soooo much info to take in...

*hug*

You need to get some rest and allow yourself time for all the information to sink in and for your brain to process it all. You may find you have questions, so maybe make a list to take back to the hospital next time you go?

I understand how tough this all is and how unpleasant the treatment can be. Please do try to find time for yourself to unwind and take a step back from it all - it keeps you stronger

 

[Oldenburg]

My husband has ALS and I'm his full-time and only caregiver. It's such a tough thing to do. I totally, totally understand the guilt about leaving - you want to be there for every moment.

You're a good daughter for staying with your mom and supporting your dad.

Much love and support.

Thank you..

I'm meant to be going out for the day on the 19th June ( Father's Day) my friend has had the tickets for about 3 months and I have to let her down I feel sooo guilty it's unreal... But I can't miss Father's Day who knows how many I have left ( that's the first time I've said this out loud ) he's my dad I will only ever have one... And the thought of leaving my mom at the moment, I just can't she herself is an emotional wreck. Since coming from the hospital today it seems everytime I've turned around she has been crying.... I totally know how she feels but I just want to comfort her and my dad..

Man being a grown up fucking sucks, I feel very down myself today....

But I have to be strong for my parents...

Forgot to add on my last post my dads radiotherapy starts in 1 month... Anybody have any information about it ( don't want to read it on the Internet as its so vast) I would like first hand experience of it?

G x

 

[scotluvsoral]

Thank you..

I'm meant to be going out for the day on the 19th June ( Father's Day) my friend has had the tickets for about 3 months and I have to let her down I feel sooo guilty it's unreal... But I can't miss Father's Day who knows how many I have left ( that's the first time I've said this out loud ) he's my dad I will only ever have one... And the thought of leaving my mom at the moment, I just can't she herself is an emotional wreck. Since coming from the hospital today it seems everytime I've turned around she has been crying.... I totally know how she feels but I just want to comfort her and my dad..

Man being a grown up fucking sucks, I feel very down myself today....

But I have to be strong for my parents...

Forgot to add on my last post my dads radiotherapy starts in 1 month... Anybody have any information about it ( don't want to read it on the Internet as its so vast) I would like first hand experience of it?

G x

Being a grown up does suck sometimes! Just when your kids are gettng out of the house, your parents start having age related illness or some other illness like cancer and you feel your world sort of crushing in on you (or at least I did) Be there for your parents and be as strong as you can be, but remember to have moments where you are the one being nurtured and cared for and when you don't have to be strong. Wish your Dad all the best of luck during his battle!!! Positive thoughts and prayers coming your way! FUCK YOU CANCER!!!!!!!

 

[Oldenburg]

Well my dad went for his last mask/cage fitting for his radiotherapy, it starts the 4th July..

My mom dropped a bombshell on me today, that my dads tumour is incurable like what the fuck I don't how to take it..

You Cancer can go fuck yourself, you are not taking my dad from me!!!!

 

[babslovesherdaddy]

Got good results for my daughter's body scan. Its all clear now. Yay!

 

[cascadiabound]

Well my dad went for his last mask/cage fitting for his radiotherapy, it starts the 4th July..

My mom dropped a bombshell on me today, that my dads tumour is incurable like what the fuck I don't how to take it..

You Cancer can go fuck yourself, you are not taking my dad from me!!!!

I am so sorry to hear this news.
*sigh*
Sending you hugs and strength for all of the days ahead. Hang on ~it's gonna be a rollercoaster.
Keep in mind a few things:
Incurable is not the same thing as untreatable
People surprise physicians every day. Sometimes outcomes are really different from what is predicted (both ways)
Love is the ultimate cure. Love your dad. Every day.
You have this time right now.
Be with him, but not at the cost of your own mental and physical health.
FYC

 

[TremulousGasp]

My heart, thoughts and love go out of all of us here,

It is heart breaking to watch the ones you love fight cancer and those that lost the battle. I wish nothing but support, love and strength for all here.

FUCK YOU CANCER!

My best friend (38 yrs old)- had 2 rare stomach cancers- time from diagnosis to death was 17 days.
it took 17 days to take away a 20 year best friend relationship -FUCK YOU CANCER!!!!

A loss of a Father-in-law-lung cancer
An Aunt - breast cancer
A Great Grandmother to ovarian cancer
Grand father to stomach and throat cancer.
My neighbor's daughter just recently lost the lower part of her leg to a rare cancer and it could pop back up at any time for the rest of her life!!! To watch her mother suffer the possibility of watching her daughter die was/is gut wrenching -
FUCK YOU CANCER!!!

I hate cancer, I hate what it does to their lives!!!! The anger and rage as watching them go through it, and there is NOTHING that you can do!!! NOTHING!

You can give them comfort, support and much much love!!!! that is something.

Thank you for this thread!

FUCK YOU CANCER! FUCK YOU TO HELL!!!!

 

[cmslt2326]

Grrrr

I absolutely hate radiation! I have three bad radiation burns and my skin has started to split open on my breast. It will not heal because you can not heal during ongoing radiation so it is an open, raw spot...
The worst burn is under my arm where my scar is and just today they told me they are going to "target" that area for more radiation. How crazy do I have to be to let them burn my burn spot even more?
I must admit this is taking a toll on my spirit...I am sick and tired of being sick, and tired...

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[cmslt2326]

Not crazy.....determined. How determined you have to be to let them. I believe you can be that determined. .

How is the sleeping and resting going? Would it help you to know that without the excuse of being blasted like you are I am sleeping for recouperating too a lot this week? We can dream of a time when its not necessary, huh? Ok?

Dreaming of a time when treatments are not necessary....sounds like fun...

Do we get to recuperate anywhere interesting???

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[cascadiabound]

Too much

I have had too much to find words to post so this will be terse.
But an extra big FYC this week
1) my 7 yo friend born with brain cancer who has already endured more than any child should have to will need to endure more as his tumor is growing again. FYC
2) mom's daily chemo is giving her terrible lichen planus and she can't tolerate eating hardly anything. The swelling and fatigue are about intolerable AND she has a toxic lung reaction besides. I'm counting the days until she can be done.
3) a recently retired coworker now fighting her third kind of cancer in her lifetime is going to die very soon I fear. She has the look. I've seen it all too often.

I cannot be comforted. It is too much.
FYC

 

[LallyH]

for all the above.

Sending care and thoughts

 

[cookiecat]

Sometimes there are no words, it's just too much.

Adding my

 

[cmslt2326]

I have had too much to find words to post so this will be terse.
But an extra big FYC this week
1) my 7 yo friend born with brain cancer who has already endured more than any child should have to will need to endure more as his tumor is growing again. FYC
2) mom's daily chemo is giving her terrible lichen planus and she can't tolerate eating hardly anything. The swelling and fatigue are about intolerable AND she has a toxic lung reaction besides. I'm counting the days until she can be done.
3) a recently retired coworker now fighting her third kind of cancer in her lifetime is going to die very soon I fear. She has the look. I've seen it all too often.

I cannot be comforted. It is too much.
FYC

I understand "too much"....lost my Grandmother, Grandfather, Mother, Father, 1 Brother and 1 Sister to this fucking disease before being diagnosed myself.

Some days there is just too much pain and I am genuinely sorry that you are watching so much suffering...Sending you BIG HUGS and an extra large FUCK YOU CANCER!!

 

[scotluvsoral]

I absolutely hate radiation! I have three bad radiation burns and my skin has started to split open on my breast. It will not heal because you can not heal during ongoing radiation so it is an open, raw spot...
The worst burn is under my arm where my scar is and just today they told me they are going to "target" that area for more radiation. How crazy do I have to be to let them burn my burn spot even more?
I must admit this is taking a toll on my spirit...I am sick and tired of being sick, and tired...

Not crazy.....determined. How determined you have to be to let them. I believe you can be that determined. .

How is the sleeping and resting going? Would it help you to know that without the excuse of being blasted like you are I am sleeping for recouperating too a lot this week? We can dream of a time when its not necessary, huh? Ok?

Dreaming of a time when treatments are not necessary....sounds like fun...

Do we get to recuperate anywhere interesting???

While we sleep?...anywhere we can dream of! Isn't that a great thing about it!

I have had too much to find words to post so this will be terse.
But an extra big FYC this week
1) my 7 yo friend born with brain cancer who has already endured more than any child should have to will need to endure more as his tumor is growing again. FYC
2) mom's daily chemo is giving her terrible lichen planus and she can't tolerate eating hardly anything. The swelling and fatigue are about intolerable AND she has a toxic lung reaction besides. I'm counting the days until she can be done.
3) a recently retired coworker now fighting her third kind of cancer in her lifetime is going to die very soon I fear. She has the look. I've seen it all too often.

I cannot be comforted. It is too much.
FYC

As hard as i work to be positive, there are times when I am overwhelmed with grief and sadness, when yet another friend or family member learns they are in the grips of this awful fucking disease. Every new indignity to a friend caused by treatment or condition made worse by treatment makes me cringe and then get angry. And then I think of the hundreds of survivors I will walk with each of the next two weekends and realize that battling this fucking monstrosity is the only good choice, because choice number two is accepting whatever comes our way. I watched 2 grandparents go out that way and I will not let another person I love go that way without trying EVERYTHING to get them fighting. A friend, the other day, texted us that whatever God's will was would be done. I wished I could say I was able to accept her belief...but I was genetically incapable of keeping my mouth shut and told her God did not give her or her husband cancer and it was her job to become a warrior and fight for herself, her family and friends! I felt bad for being so pushy, but later heard from both she and her son (and my daughter) that she needed that kick in the pants and it was time for a reset. Enough of my shooting off my mouth and preaching! Here is what i hope and pray and believe. I believe and pray that each of you will get through the down periods and come out swinging yet again... and that is how we beat this fucking soul sucker. Every day we find another day's courage to jump through all the hoops required of us and every day we believe in hope...we kick it's ass! Huge hugs and kisees and nothing but love, positive thoughts and prayers coming your way! BTW FUCK YOU CANCER!!!!!

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[scotluvsoral]

Scot, tbc, I do not have cancer. I never meant to imply I do. I just want to encourage cmslt. Because resting is something we have spoken of, and that is seething I also do. I am sorry if my post mislead any one!

I am delighted I was wrong and that you don't have the cell sucker!

 

[cmslt2326]

Scot, tbc, I do not have cancer. I never meant to imply I do. I just want to encourage cmslt. Because resting is something we have spoken of, and that is something I also do. I am sorry if my post mislead any one!

You always do encourage me (I am assuming this is Elle but if it is G that is good too) and I thank you for trying to keep me positive.

I still hate radiation but I REFUSE to let this fucker (Cancer) take me from my children and my family so onward I go.

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[cmslt2326]

As hard as i work to be positive, there are times when I am overwhelmed with grief and sadness, when yet another friend or family member learns they are in the grips of this awful fucking disease. Every new indignity to a friend caused by treatment or condition made worse by treatment makes me cringe and then get angry. And then I think of the hundreds of survivors I will walk with each of the next two weekends and realize that battling this fucking monstrosity is the only good choice, because choice number two is accepting whatever comes our way. I watched 2 grandparents go out that way and I will not let another person I love go that way without trying EVERYTHING to get them fighting. A friend, the other day, texted us that whatever God's will was would be done. I wished I could say I was able to accept her belief...but I was genetically incapable of keeping my mouth shut and told her God did not give her or her husband cancer and it was her job to become a warrior and fight for herself, her family and friends! I felt bad for being so pushy, but later heard from both she and her son (and my daughter) that she needed that kick in the pants and it was time for a reset. Enough of my shooting off my mouth and preaching! Here is what i hope and pray and believe. I believe and pray that each of you will get through the down periods and come out swinging yet again... and that is how we beat this fucking soul sucker. Every day we find another day's courage to jump through all the hoops required of us and every day we believe in hope...we kick it's ass! Huge hugs and kisees and nothing but love, positive thoughts and prayers coming your way! BTW FUCK YOU CANCER!!!!!

Scotluvsoral...YOU are amazing. You always remind me that fighting for all I am worth is the only option against this disease and you are constantly hugging me (lol). So my turn....take this HUGE hug and share it with some of your walkers....

 

[cascadiabound]

for all the above.

Sending care and thoughts

Sometimes there are no words, it's just too much.

Adding my

I understand "too much"....lost my Grandmother, Grandfather, Mother, Father, 1 Brother and 1 Sister to this fucking disease before being diagnosed myself.

Some days there is just too much pain and I am genuinely sorry that you are watching so much suffering...Sending you BIG HUGS and an extra large FUCK YOU CANCER!!

thank you all so much.
abnormal lab tests this week on my mom ~ and she is feeling worried. I think overly so... but time will tell.