The "Fuck you cancer!" thread

[cascadiabound]

I posted here almost two years ago about my husband who has ALS - or Lou Gehrig's disease. I don't think I've been back since then - I'm a Lit lurker.

ALS is always terminal, there's no cure and no treatment to slow it down. When I met my husband, he weighed 225. He's now immobile, in a wheelchair 24/7 and weighs 160. I feel lucky in that he can still talk with me, he can still eat by mouth and doesn't need any help breathing.

I was his submissive prior to the diagnoses. I now feel like a slave to his disease.

So it's not cancer. But it's still a big fat FUCK YOU....

Much love and many blessings to all of you living with illness.

Hugs to you cookie cat. Such a huge FUCK YOU to ALS.
I hope you are getting some respite too.

~cb

 

[cookiecat]

Thanks, cascadiabound.

 

[DeepGreenEyes]

I posted here almost two years ago about my husband who has ALS - or Lou Gehrig's disease. I don't think I've been back since then - I'm a Lit lurker.

ALS is always terminal, there's no cure and no treatment to slow it down. When I met my husband, he weighed 225. He's now immobile, in a wheelchair 24/7 and weighs 160. I feel lucky in that he can still talk with me, he can still eat by mouth and doesn't need any help breathing.

I was his submissive prior to the diagnoses. I now feel like a slave to his disease.

So it's not cancer. But it's still a big fat FUCK YOU....

Much love and many blessings to all of you living with illness.

I remember your post.

I'm so sorry. My friend died a few weeks ago of ALS. I can't know what you know, but I saw what it did to his body and their world.

The disease shares a drink with Cancer, frigid laughing at a dark table in dark room in a forgotten part of town.

I hope you will post here whenever you need to vent or yell or moan. Please take care.

FYALS

 

[cookiecat]

I remember your post.

I'm so sorry. My friend died a few weeks ago of ALS. I can't know what you know, but I saw what it did to his body and their world.

The disease shares a drink with Cancer, frigid laughing at a dark table in dark room in a forgotten part of town.

I hope you will post here whenever you need to vent or yell or moan. Please take care.

FYALS

Thanks. I'm sorry about your friend. I'd never heard of ALS prior to husband getting the diagnoses but now, I feel like everyone knows someone who has/had it.

It is an ugly, ugly disease. A slow withering away.

It's good to have support, I appreciate the welcome to a club no one really wants to be in.

 

[cmslt2326]

FUCK you Cancer FUCK you

Found out today my Dad has stage 3 brain tumour that's aggressive, he had surgery on the 28th of April to remove part of it, but sadly it was to big to remove all of it without causing serious complications. So now he has to go for radiotherapy 5 days a week for the next 3 months... And if that fails cemo.. I feel like I've been kicked in the tits (I don't have a dick)

Soo fuck you cancer you fucking life wrecker, you have turned my life upside down I hate you...

So sorry to hear this. The treatments for BC can be rough because it can affect cognitive skills.....Praying for your dad and for you.

 

[cmslt2326]

Thanks. I'm sorry about your friend. I'd never heard of ALS prior to husband getting the diagnoses but now, I feel like everyone knows someone who has/had it.

It is an ugly, ugly disease. A slow withering away.

It's good to have support, I appreciate the welcome to a club no one really wants to be in.

It is such a tough disease on both the patient and the family taking care of them....I am so sad to hear your story and I wish you and your husband strength...

 

[cmslt2326]

Update

on my Breast Cancer. Thank you sooo much for the support I have gotten on this site. I have not posted for a bit but I do frequently read other's posts and it just reminds me how nasty this disease is not only for the patient but for the family and friends it affects as well....FYC

I am just over halfway done my 33 radiation treatments and completely finished my 20 weeks of chemo. I must admit I am exhausted and have had enough of hospitals and Drs. but otherwise I am doing ok. Some tissue breakdown has temporarily slowed my treatments but all things considered it is still much better than the chemo side effects. This thread was a life saver when I reached that point where I really was not sure I could continue the fight. My cancer is fairly aggressive and I have a 50/50 chance of it returning within 2 years so I am busy sucking every drop of joy out of every day. For so many who posts on here I send nothing but positive vibes and well wishes to you. Please stay strong and come visit us here if you need to talk.

THANK YOU ALL!!

 

[cmslt2326]

Fuck you cancer for taking my mom and my son within one month of each other.

Deepest sympathy....squeezing you tight as I pray for some peace for you and your family in the wake of such huge losses...Hugs

 

[cmslt2326]

FUCK YOU CANCER for taking my mom away!

So sorry....hard to lose your Mom no matter how old you are...praying for you!

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[OralDave]

My friend from my old area died yesterday.

So sorry to hear. Life is fragile, always.

 

[cmslt2326]

Cmslt, good to hear from you, I thought of you very recently.

Hi Elle (and possibly Gianbattista). Thanks, nice to hear from you too. Sorry to hear you lost another to this disease. I keep praying they will find a cure....

 

[scotluvsoral]

I posted here almost two years ago about my husband who has ALS - or Lou Gehrig's disease. I don't think I've been back since then - I'm a Lit lurker.

ALS is always terminal, there's no cure and no treatment to slow it down. When I met my husband, he weighed 225. He's now immobile, in a wheelchair 24/7 and weighs 160. I feel lucky in that he can still talk with me, he can still eat by mouth and doesn't need any help breathing.

I was his submissive prior to the diagnoses. I now feel like a slave to his disease.

So it's not cancer. But it's still a big fat FUCK YOU....

Much love and many blessings to all of you living with illness.

FUCK YOU ALS!!!!!!! Having a safe place to dump is such a blessing! Hang in there!

 

[scotluvsoral]

on my Breast Cancer. Thank you sooo much for the support I have gotten on this site. I have not posted for a bit but I do frequently read other's posts and it just reminds me how nasty this disease is not only for the patient but for the family and friends it affects as well....FYC

I am just over halfway done my 33 radiation treatments and completely finished my 20 weeks of chemo. I must admit I am exhausted and have had enough of hospitals and Drs. but otherwise I am doing ok. Some tissue breakdown has temporarily slowed my treatments but all things considered it is still much better than the chemo side effects. This thread was a life saver when I reached that point where I really was not sure I could continue the fight. My cancer is fairly aggressive and I have a 50/50 chance of it returning within 2 years so I am busy sucking every drop of joy out of every day. For so many who posts on here I send nothing but positive vibes and well wishes to you. Please stay strong and come visit us here if you need to talk.

THANK YOU ALL!!

Positive energy and thoughts and prayers coming your way! Hang tough!!! FUCK YOU CANCER!!!

 

[cookiecat]

It is such a tough disease on both the patient and the family taking care of them....I am so sad to hear your story and I wish you and your husband strength...

Thank you for your kind message.

I am just over halfway done my 33 radiation treatments and completely finished my 20 weeks of chemo. I must admit I am exhausted and have had enough of hospitals and Drs. but otherwise I am doing ok. Some tissue breakdown has temporarily slowed my treatments but all things considered it is still much better than the chemo side effects. This thread was a life saver when I reached that point where I really was not sure I could continue the fight. My cancer is fairly aggressive and I have a 50/50 chance of it returning within 2 years so I am busy sucking every drop of joy out of every day. For so many who posts on here I send nothing but positive vibes and well wishes to you. Please stay strong and come visit us here if you need to talk.

THANK YOU ALL!!

Blessings to you! Am glad you found this thread. All support is good support!

My friend from my old area died yesterday.

Such a heartache.

FUCK YOU ALS!!!!!!! Having a safe place to dump is such a blessing! Hang in there!

Thank you!!

 

[Oldenburg]

Gianbattista he was going soo well, then we had his results from his biopsy and he's just gone down hill.. I had to rush him to the doctors last week to have his catheter put back in as he was in sooo much pain.. So he now has that in indefinitely..

My dad is having a very bad day today, he told us he's dying and he feels there something brewing He's crying a lot which is very understandable, it breaks my heart to see him how he is now.. There is nothing I can say or do than just to hold him and tell him everything is going to be alrigth... I'm preying soo hard it's going to be.. And it never helped when my friend said he was a shadow of his former self yesterday..

I found out last week my uncle ( My dads brother) is fighting bladder cancer and he might have to have his bladder removed


It sooo nice to have a place where I can moan about it...

G xx

 

[LallyH]

Gianbattista he was going soo well, then we had his results from his biopsy and he's just gone down hill.. I had to rush him to the doctors last week to have his catheter put back in as he was in sooo much pain.. So he now has that in indefinitely..

My dad is having a very bad day today, he told us he's dying and he feels there something brewing He's crying a lot which is very understandable, it breaks my heart to see him how he is now.. There is nothing I can say or do than just to hold him and tell him everything is going to be alrigth... I'm preying soo hard it's going to be.. And it never helped when my friend said he was a shadow of his former self yesterday..

I found out last week my uncle ( My dads brother) is fighting bladder cancer and he might have to have his bladder removed


It sooo nice to have a place where I can moan about it...

G xx

(((((Hug)))))

I'm so sorry you're going through this, but I'm glad you've found this thread where you can rage against the world. I know that it's not easy to do when you're trying to look after everyone, but you do need to take care of yourself too

 

[Oldenburg]

(((((Hug)))))

I'm so sorry you're going through this, but I'm glad you've found this thread where you can rage against the world. I know that it's not easy to do when you're trying to look after everyone, but you do need to take care of yourself too

Thank you

I'm just as worried about my Mom... My Mom and I are the ones at home with dad 24/7 I've stopped jogging as I feel guilty for leaving my mom and her own with my dad...

I would not wish this on my worst enemy... My life has changed in the matter of 4 weeks

Just nice to have a vent and let it all out...

Thank you I feel slightly better..

G x

 

[cmslt2326]

Positive energy and thoughts and prayers coming your way! Hang tough!!! FUCK YOU CANCER!!!

Thank you sweetheart...I am well and have great support but I appreciate every sweet comment you have left for me...you're the best

 

[cmslt2326]

Gianbattista he was going soo well, then we had his results from his biopsy and he's just gone down hill.. I had to rush him to the doctors last week to have his catheter put back in as he was in sooo much pain.. So he now has that in indefinitely..

My dad is having a very bad day today, he told us he's dying and he feels there something brewing He's crying a lot which is very understandable, it breaks my heart to see him how he is now.. There is nothing I can say or do than just to hold him and tell him everything is going to be alrigth... I'm preying soo hard it's going to be.. And it never helped when my friend said he was a shadow of his former self yesterday..

I found out last week my uncle ( My dads brother) is fighting bladder cancer and he might have to have his bladder removed


It sooo nice to have a place where I can moan about it...

G xx

Attitude is everything in fighting Cancer....praying his spirits lift and he gets renewed strength for his fight. So sorry he is hurting...this is sooo tough....

 

[ninaH]

hai, guise.

so i read this thread often. i am a cancer survivor & i've been cancer free for some time now. reading these stories is heartbreaking. i remember the paralyzing fear & the sudden clarity that comes with the illness - you're filled with regret & thinking about all those things you might WON'T get to do.

that fear is still with me and my inability to accept my own mortality often keeps me awake on many nights... like right now, for example.



i'm sending many good vibes & prayers to all of you and your families.

do not let the despair to take over; always focus on the hope.

 

[scotluvsoral]

Attitude is everything in fighting Cancer....praying his spirits lift and he gets renewed strength for his fight. So sorry he is hurting...this is sooo tough....

Amen

 

[DeepGreenEyes]

Thanks. I'm sorry about your friend. I'd never heard of ALS prior to husband getting the diagnoses but now, I feel like everyone knows someone who has/had it.

It is an ugly, ugly disease. A slow withering away.

It's good to have support, I appreciate the welcome to a club no one really wants to be in.

It is an extraordinarily cruel disease. Cellfucker is cellfucker, but ALS has a sadistic cruelty that is all its own. To inhabit one's body as the bricks go up to form a prison. It's horrible. I hope that as a caregiver you are not alone. I hope that you can find ways to deal with the toll this takes on you.

on my Breast Cancer. Thank you sooo much for the support I have gotten on this site. I have not posted for a bit but I do frequently read other's posts and it just reminds me how nasty this disease is not only for the patient but for the family and friends it affects as well....FYC

I am just over halfway done my 33 radiation treatments and completely finished my 20 weeks of chemo. I must admit I am exhausted and have had enough of hospitals and Drs. but otherwise I am doing ok. Some tissue breakdown has temporarily slowed my treatments but all things considered it is still much better than the chemo side effects. This thread was a life saver when I reached that point where I really was not sure I could continue the fight. My cancer is fairly aggressive and I have a 50/50 chance of it returning within 2 years so I am busy sucking every drop of joy out of every day. For so many who posts on here I send nothing but positive vibes and well wishes to you. Please stay strong and come visit us here if you need to talk.

THANK YOU ALL!!

What an amazing post. I marvel at the courage and attitude you are bringing to this shitstorm.

Can I get a "FYC," brothers and sisters!???

My friend from my old area died yesterday.

I'm sorry. Losing any friend leaves a hole in your chest.



FYC.

Thank you

I'm just as worried about my Mom... My Mom and I are the ones at home with dad 24/7 I've stopped jogging as I feel guilty for leaving my mom and her own with my dad...

I would not wish this on my worst enemy... My life has changed in the matter of 4 weeks

Just nice to have a vent and let it all out...

Thank you I feel slightly better..

G x

Hey. I went through some of this this year, with my parents. I need to say this: Do. Not. Stop. Exercising. Or. Doing. Things. For. You.

(You test out at overwhelmingly submissive on your test-y thing in your sig, so maybe if I say it in just the right authoritarian D voice you'll be lulled into compliance. )

Seriously. When you neglect yourself, you're doing more harm to your ability to help your family. Please don't do that.

hai, guise.

so i read this thread often. i am a cancer survivor & i've been cancer free for some time now. reading these stories is heartbreaking. i remember the paralyzing fear & the sudden clarity that comes with the illness - you're filled with regret & thinking about all those things you might WON'T get to do.

that fear is still with me and my inability to accept my own mortality often keeps me awake on many nights... like right now, for example.



i'm sending many good vibes & prayers to all of you and your families.

do not let the despair to take over; always focus on the hope.

Thank you for this. I hope you're doing OK physically. Coming to terms with mortality is something I'm particularly struggling with now, too. I guess it's always been the great struggle of humans. I think modernity makes it harder. There aren't fixed stars and village elders who help us learn how to transition through life stages. I hope you can find the things meaningful to you.

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]