Where's my trophy for the stupidest person award?

[sweetjen35]

I'm feeling like the biggest idiot right now. All I want to do is find something that makes life better. Be something that makes life better for someone. My heart is too big for my body; I have too much compassion for those who are hurting. I always end up hurting myself.

I've been told by those who know me well that I have a light that shines from within. I'm tired of people putting it out.

I have GOT to learn to care LESS!!!!

Rant over. Tears may take a little longer to dry.

 

[NEOhio1972]

Not at all Jenn. Shine like never before. If nothing else, it just pisses off those who make you cry

 

[Jonny G]

I'm feeling like the biggest idiot right now. All I want to do is find something that makes life better. Be something that makes life better for someone. My heart is too big for my body; I have too much compassion for those who are hurting. I always end up hurting myself.

I've been told by those who know me well that I have a light that shines from within. I'm tired of people putting it out.

I have GOT to learn to care LESS!!!!

Rant over. Tears may take a little longer to dry.

Passes you a hanky

 

[Bushmaster73]

I'm feeling like the biggest idiot right now. All I want to do is find something that makes life better. Be something that makes life better for someone. My heart is too big for my body; I have too much compassion for those who are hurting. I always end up hurting myself.

I've been told by those who know me well that I have a light that shines from within. I'm tired of people putting it out.

I have GOT to learn to care LESS!!!!

Rant over. Tears may take a little longer to dry.

Poor gal...if you need one, you'll always have a shoulder to cry on.

 

[Choirg1rl]

I'm so sorry you're hurting, Jen. x

I don't know what prompted this post, but for what it's worth, I think I understand how you feel. I'm the kind of person that makes myself very vulnerable, because I'm naturally quite empathetic. I'm also quite exuberant and tend to throw myself into things. To quote Jane Eyre, I'd always rather be happy than dignified. I've thought about this quite a lot, because being open in that way can make it easy to be hurt. But the conclusion I've come to is that, ultimately, if I suppress my natural inclinations in order to avoid pain, I'm also sucking a lot of the joy and color out of life.

If someone hurts you, they are to blame, not you. It's good to be a bit circumspect, but it's also good to care. It doesn't make you stupid. xx

 

[hockeyplayer269]

I'm so sorry you're hurting, Jen. x

I don't know what prompted this post, but for what it's worth, I think I understand how you feel. I'm the kind of person that makes myself very vulnerable, because I'm naturally quite empathetic. I'm also quite exuberant and tend to throw myself into things. To quote Jane Eyre, I'd always rather be happy than dignified. I've thought about this quite a lot, because being open in that way can make it easy to be hurt. But the conclusion I've come to is that, ultimately, if I suppress my natural inclinations in order to avoid pain, I'm also sucking a lot of the joy and color out of life.

If someone hurts you, they are to blame, not you. It's good to be a bit circumspect, but it's also good to care. It doesn't make you stupid. xx

I have to agree with this... It's easy for us to say that we should just care less... And to want to care less... But it never really happens that way. We still care, we still open ourselves up to that pain... And ultimately, it's a positive sign of who we are.

Which isn't to say we should be cautious to the extent possible, to avoid that pain. Maybe guarded optimism is what it is.

50-60 years from now, at the twilight years of your life, would you rather say you wish you had cared a little more, been a little more open and hopeful? I think if I can look back on my life and think to myself I was a good person - yeah, some people or things hurt me, but I didn't let it change me or bring me down, that's probably not a bad thing.

 

[shadow_anon2u]

Hugs to you.

Now, more my style....I know of plenty of out of the way places to hide a body if you feel the need to remove a stressor in your life.

 

[sweetjen35]

Thank you for all the kind messages. I read each of them as well as the PM's and wish I could respond to every one but I need to bury myself under the covers and cry myself to sleep--off to a world where wonderful dreams can exist even if they never come true. ((Hugs)) to each of you.

 

[barefootgirl69]

Thank you for all the kind messages. I read each of them as well as the PM's and wish I could respond to every one but I need to bury myself under the covers and cry myself to sleep--off to a world where wonderful dreams can exist even if they never come true. ((Hugs)) to each of you.

*pulls blanket up, leaves a and a glass of wine*

Get some rest and then come back, don't let things keep you from the people/place where you can find compassion, a laugh, a hug, and someone willing to hide a body.

 

[Runnerwrites]

Echoing the thoughts of everyone here. Your vulnerability and your desire to make the world a better place make you who you are. May the kindness of friends and strangers be healing to you.

 

[Just_Jen]

I'm feeling like the biggest idiot right now. All I want to do is find something that makes life better. Be something that makes life better for someone. My heart is too big for my body; I have too much compassion for those who are hurting. I always end up hurting myself.

I've been told by those who know me well that I have a light that shines from within. I'm tired of people putting it out.

I have GOT to learn to care LESS!!!!

Rant over. Tears may take a little longer to dry.

...Didnt you hear?...your runner up this year....

That title and award belongs to me ...

....I wanna tell you it gets better but Im still waitin on the better

...Rant on...let the tears flow....and when you're ready stand up, dust yourself off and keep going... cause its what we do...its who we are...the strength and light that you possess wont allow you to do/be anything less

 

[Prince Albert]

Big Hugs, Cuddles, Nuzzles Kisses To You!!!@

 

[UrbanBohemian]

Well, as others have said the key is not to care less. What you have to do is roll with the hits. We all get burned now and again but you can't let that get the best of you. People tell me they like to help others because it will come back to them. I don't believe that. First of all, if Karma is real then why do so many dictators and horrible, horrible people live long and prosperous lives? Why is Paris Hilton loaded with so much cash she couldn't spend it if she tried and you and I are, well, not? See? So it doesn't necessarily come back to you. What you have to do is try to put some joy out into the world to make it a better place. We can't do things because we expect to be compensated for it. We have to do them either because we want to or because we think it's right.

So honestly the thing to do is just take the bad with the good and just do what you can. It's part of life. There are good things in life, great things, bad things, and very bad things. It's all part of living. Of course you need to have boundaries and not go too far but within that you can't just shut yourself off because that's going to drive you nuts.

 

[LadyVer]

If you're human, stupidity at some point is guaranteed. That's just the way it is.

 

[LWulf]

It's easy to care less, but I don't think you would like yourself anymore if you did.

You have to harden your heart and not make it so fragile. To do this, you have to learn how to accept that that people can be careless about others. By "others" I mean you.

I think there may be a little naivete on your part too that you need to overcome.

In closing, you are not an idiot, because of others. Not for nothing, but you are an idiot, because YOU allow others to take advantage of you. However, even then, nobody is capable of seeing 360 degrees around them. So, in other words, everyone is a fool or idiot, sometime and gets caught flat footed.

In that regard, don't beat yourself up too badly, you are in good company with everyone else on the planet.

 

[ArthurW]

I heard you but it makes me laugh. You think your the only one no you would have to share the a Trophy with many of us. Just smile and remember a dummy like me or anyone else. You are a treasure that's all. Have fun.

 

[Peppadance]

I'm feeling like the biggest idiot right now. All I want to do is find something that makes life better. Be something that makes life better for someone. My heart is too big for my body; I have too much compassion for those who are hurting. I always end up hurting myself.

I've been told by those who know me well that I have a light that shines from within. I'm tired of people putting it out.

I have GOT to learn to care LESS!!!!

Rant over. Tears may take a little longer to dry.

Been there! Done that! Being vulnerable is what gives life it's juice!
Relax a bit, forgive yourself for being so hard on yourself... I can't count the times I've been stupid before.