Hello. Hi. This is my first time here. Can someone tell me how to submit a story?

[SusanJillParker]

Hate to say it but therapy CAN help better than this. Strangers do not come here to help you through your many issues. This takes professionals. There is no shame seeking help for the level of abuse tou did suffer and contibue to suffer

Diagnosed with PTSS, I've had therapy for years. Writing is my therapy now. Writing stories allows me to get all of my issues out.

I was never ashamed of talking to someone. I found it helpful. Now, I'm my own therapist. The best thing I ever did was to stay away from my abusers and never contact them again for fear that, now as an adult, I might do them some harm. None of them are worth spending the rest of my life in prison.

Thank you.

 

[SusanJillParker]

There's a difference between fact and commonly accepted belief. No poster on this board knows whether the persona presented under the name Bostonfictionwriter or that under SJP is the truth, or whether either of them are.

Off-topic derogatory statements about SJPs gender will be removed from the public board, because I see them as no different than the same sort of derogatory statements SJP sometimes makes about other posters' gender or sexuality, which is equally unknown beyond what any member chooses to reveal or craft for themselves.

Other than the few cases where members know each other in the real world, this is true for everyone you interact with on the internet. The persona presented to you could be a complete fiction, and that fiction could be crafted for malicious reasons.

Buyer Beware.

Buyer Beware (lol)?

I'm not selling anything (lol).

The reason why I mentioned my abuse was because for years, I couldn't even talk about it. Now, after all of the therapy that I've had, it's as if what happened to me, happened to someone else.

I'm truly not here for attention. I'm here to have some fun. For the record, I am a woman. I was born female and I like men, especially older men.

Being that I grew up with four, much older brothers and was much the Tomboy, many of my inferences, reactions, and memories are male. Being that I grew up poor and didn't have any older sisters, I'd was forced to wear my brother's old clothes to school. That was as much of a scarring memory as my ability to not speak for years after one of my abusers tried to drown me an in icy pond in February.

Believe me or not, but the abuse that I suffered, endured, and survived is the reason why I write here. Why else would I write here when there are so many other things that I can write about and so many other places where I can write?

I can't imagine a day without writing. I write 8 to 12 hours a day, every day. Writing is my passion. Writing stories is who I am. Without my writing, I'd be curled in a ball and hiding from the world. With writing a lifelong apprenticeship, by the time I'm 80-years-old, I'll be a wicked good writer. Maybe when I'm dead, I'll be famous (lol).

Without my writing, I'd be drinking again and would be a drunk. I haven't had a drink in more than 15 years. Writing soothes my soul. Writing makes me whole. Writing makes me complete. I write because I must write.

Believe me or not, it doesn't matter if you believe anything that I've written here. What does it matter? It doesn't matter. It is what it is. I'm not here for you. I'm here for me.

 

[Zeb_Carter]

You need to find a sense of humor Zeb. C'mon. Belly up to the bar and I'll buy you a drink.

As I thought, the post was just deleted.

As for a drink with you...no thank you. The circle of people I share a drink with is rare and small.

 

[SusanJillParker]

As I thought, the post was just deleted.

As for a drink with you...no thank you. The circle of people I share a drink with is rare and small.

Actually, Zeb, I haven't had a drink in 15 years. I was diagnosed an alcoholic by the time I was 21, legal drinking age (lol). Ain't that a hoot. Before my drinking could even get started, it was over, thank God.

They found my unconscious body on the street and I spent a weekend in detox. That was the chance that I needed to stay sober.

Now, coffee is my preferred beverage, Starbucks French Roast, black with no sugar.

Maybe I can buy you a cup of coffee sometime. Only, even though I love dogs, you'll need to leave the dog at home.

 

[Zeb_Carter]

Actually, Zeb, I haven't had a drink in 15 years. I was diagnosed an alcoholic by the time I was 21, legal drinking age (lol). Ain't that a hoot. Before my drinking could even get started, it was over, thank God.

They found my unconscious body on the street and I spent a weekend in detox. That was the chance that I needed to stay sober.

Now, coffee is my preferred beverage, Starbucks French Roast, black with no sugar.

Maybe I can buy you a cup of coffee sometime. Only, even though I love dogs, you'll need to leave the dog at home.

The circle of friends I would drink coffee with is even smaller and last I looked, you weren't in it.

 

[Zeb_Carter]

Could someone tell me how this violates the "new" rule here in the AH...if it's here long enough for everyone to read.

Originally Posted by Zeb_Carter
WFT? In all my years here I have seen some idiotic things, but this thread takes the cake. It wasn't funny. It wasn't humorous. It was a pathetic attempt to gain attention. Oh well, this post will most likely be delete.

 

[TxRad]

Could someone tell me how this violates the "new" rule here in the AH...if it's here long enough for everyone to read.

It doesn't but if you have a ton of stories on the site you're golden. That's what some here were told in any case.

 

[SusanJillParker]

It doesn't but if you have a ton of stories on the site you're golden. That's what some here were told in any case.

Being that I'm a natural blonde and have a ton of stories on the site, you may call me Goldie Locks.

Thank you for kissing my ring.

Have a wonderful day insulting me and making up bad things about me.

And by the way, I know Sr71plt is your alt (lol).

 

[SusanJillParker]

The circle of friends I would drink coffee with is even smaller and last I looked, you weren't in it.

Sorry but you've left me no choice.

I scratched you off of my list to receive a Christmas fruitcake.

"No fruitcake for you."

 

[TxRad]

Have a wonderful day insulting me and making up bad things about me.

And by the way, I know Sr71plt is your alt (lol).

I made no mention of you at all. I was answering someone else, who had a question.

SR is my alt? That's the silliest thing I've heard today.

 

[eric60red]

Yes but why do you ask?

 

[sr71plt]

There's a difference between fact and commonly accepted belief. No poster on this board knows whether the persona presented under the name Bostonfictionwriter or that under SJP is the truth, or whether either of them are.

Yes, I know for a fact and have stated why (I was in contact with his publisher when he was posting as BOSTONFICTIONWRITER). There are those of us who have traced him through the years as well. There isn't any doubt at all that "Susan" is the many-alted Freddie.

His posts have gone to the sick manipulation of posters who have been abused females by claiming he has been as well. As stated earlier, he mocked a respected erotica writing in the greater field here over a dead baby. Many of us watched him do it.

When you permit him to post these sick posts and erase the posts of those pointing out the FACT that he is a he, not a she, you are enabling the sickness.

If folks start (well, actually, continue) signing off the AH because of this Freddie infestation, it's as much because of your moderation as it is because of Freddie's insanity.

(And, guess what, hotshot, if you don't believe "Susan" is Freddie--which I think you do--I should be able to talk about the nonexistent/nonposting Freddie all I want here.)

 

[sr71plt]

It doesn't but if you have a ton of stories on the site you're golden. That's what some here were told in any case.

Not really. I have over 800 stories on the site and still Laurel says I'm a troll when I point out the obvious that a lot of functions around here aren't functioning and there needs to be a cleanup (starting with making the contact buttons work).

 

[Zeb_Carter]

It doesn't but if you have a ton of stories on the site you're golden. That's what some here were told in any case.

Then why was it delete three times so far?

 

[Zeb_Carter]

Sorry but you've left me no choice.

I scratched you off of my list to receive a Christmas fruitcake.

"No fruitcake for you."

Great...I hate fucking fruitcake.

 

[SusanJillParker]

Great...I hate fucking fruitcake.

I can swap out the fruitcake for chocolate chip cookies, as long as you don't mind the smell of them (lol). Trust me, the chocolate chips are, um, real dark chocolate (lol).

 

[loquere]

Great...I hate fucking fruitcake.

If you hate it, just stop putting your dick in it then.

 

[SusanJillParker]

Wow! That sounds like a personal threat to me. A threat is a threat is a threat (lol).

Sorry but that was a joke was a joke was a joke.

So, you do have a sense of humor after all...unless...you were telling the truth...the whole truth...and nothing but the truth?

 

[loquere]

Wow! That sounds like a personal threat to me. A threat is a threat is a threat (lol).

Sorry but that was a joke was a joke was a joke.

So, you do have a sense of humor after all...unless...you were telling the truth...the whole truth...and nothing but the truth?

I was being serious, the guy needs to stop having sex with fruitcake if he hates it so much. I stopped liking sex with my wife so we parted ways, simple as that.

 

[Zeb_Carter]

If you hate it, just stop putting your dick in it then.

But it feels so good when I take it out.