Reverie

[wistfulwench]

It's been almost three years...

And you've given me so much. We both had other priorities in life, but we created our own secret place, and lived another small life together.

You made me want to be so much more than I was. I wanted to be the person you thought I was at first. You dared me to do things I never thought I could do, and you came with me and gave me courage and comfort.

Is this inevitable? Why cannot I be satisfied with just the sweet kindness and affection (and why do I want even more of that, too)? Why do I want what we had, all over again? You know I have sought it in others, caught glimpses, fooled myself. You have spoiled me and still... made me better than I was.

I long to return down the rabbit hole with You.

 

[Vay]

Sounds like the fantasy folks only dream of. It's hard to let go when you've had a taste.

Hope you find your way down the rabbit hole again.

 

[Terranim]

This is beautiful and tragic.

I hope some other leads you back to Wonderland soon enough. For now, I am sorry you must be trapped in the colorless world we live in.

 

[ArthurW]

I hope you find the person your talking about. Have you tried the name they used to see if they are still around.

 

[Bigman57]

I hope the door reopens for you

 

[basic_desires]

It sounds all too familiar...

It's been almost three years...

And you've given me so much. We both had other priorities in life, but we created our own secret place, and lived another small life together.

You made me want to be so much more than I was. I wanted to be the person you thought I was at first. You dared me to do things I never thought I could do, and you came with me and gave me courage and comfort.

Is this inevitable? Why cannot I be satisfied with just the sweet kindness and affection (and why do I want even more of that, too)? Why do I want what we had, all over again? You know I have sought it in others, caught glimpses, fooled myself. You have spoiled me and still... made me better than I was.

I long to return down the rabbit hole with You.

I hope you will find what you are searching for. But keep in mind, it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

 

[Pink_Milkmaid]

It's been almost three years...

And you've given me so much. We both had other priorities in life, but we created our own secret place, and lived another small life together.

You made me want to be so much more than I was. I wanted to be the person you thought I was at first. You dared me to do things I never thought I could do, and you came with me and gave me courage and comfort.

Is this inevitable? Why cannot I be satisfied with just the sweet kindness and affection (and why do I want even more of that, too)? Why do I want what we had, all over again? You know I have sought it in others, caught glimpses, fooled myself. You have spoiled me and still... made me better than I was.

I long to return down the rabbit hole with You.

Been there. Offering hugs. It gets better.

 

[wistfulwench]

Thank you for all the kind and thoughtful replies. I'm actually just in a nostalgic mood, not unhappy. Grateful, greedy...

And analytical, and I'm curious as to what others think. I think that very intense relationships eventually will morph into something that is still beautiful and good (if we are lucky, which I have been). The intensity cannot be sustained in that way; it becomes something very special in its own way. But we are somewhat hardwired biologically to seek another incarnation of what we had before.

 

[Vay]

But we are somewhat hardwired biologically to seek another incarnation of what we had before.

You got that right! Ten years ago I met awonderful woman on here who I had incredible fun with. It was one of the best friendships/relationships I ever had, and I've been trying to find another like her ever since.

 

[BSwett060]

It's been almost three years...

And you've given me so much. We both had other priorities in life, but we created our own secret place, and lived another small life together.

You made me want to be so much more than I was. I wanted to be the person you thought I was at first. You dared me to do things I never thought I could do, and you came with me and gave me courage and comfort.

Is this inevitable? Why cannot I be satisfied with just the sweet kindness and affection (and why do I want even more of that, too)? Why do I want what we had, all over again? You know I have sought it in others, caught glimpses, fooled myself. You have spoiled me and still... made me better than I was.

I long to return down the rabbit hole with You.

Hello wistful,

It seems like you had a wonderful, beautiful relationship a while ago. I'm glad that you were able to experience it once, and I sincerely hope that you find it again, this time stronger, deeper and lasting.

 

[ratherabsurd1]

Thank you for all the kind and thoughtful replies. I'm actually just in a nostalgic mood, not unhappy. Grateful, greedy...

And analytical, and I'm curious as to what others think. I think that very intense relationships eventually will morph into something that is still beautiful and good (if we are lucky, which I have been). The intensity cannot be sustained in that way; it becomes something very special in its own way. But we are somewhat hardwired biologically to seek another incarnation of what we had before.

I believe that we are not a hardwired as one might think. The mind has the capacity to do and be so much more. It at least takes two to listen and savor the person and the relationship. I am probably going to be considered a nut for putting my opinion out here