Taking a chance

[sexysquid90]

Well, I have been here on Lit for some time, but this is the first time I will publicly talk about a big fantasy or desire of mine. I started having it after seeing a porn picture of a very well dressed woman controlling a man. Not what most think about when it comes to BDSM, but she definitely was having her way with him.

I am not a small man (6' and 190 lbs lean). My years in the service have exposed me to quite a bit of danger and I don't deny enjoying it. Yet what I seek is to be the bodyguard of a strong, sexy woman but also her boy toy or sexual submissive. To be someone who is there to protect her, but also please her as she wants (within our limits).

And I do have limits. I am straight, do not want to be feminized or sodomized. While I don't mind some in the moment pain (biting, scratching or spankings 'in the moment'), I don't like structured administered pain for the sake of pain.

What I like is to be both the dangerous person in the room who is obedient to a beautiful woman.

I am sure I will get some negative feedback on this; I seem to draw such attention. But I would love to talk with anyone about this.

 

[StrayKat]

No negative feedback and not looking, just a bump for you because I love calamari

 

[sexysquid90]

No negative feedback and not looking, just a bump for you because I love calamari

lol

Thank you.

 

[CordeAmare]

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[sexysquid90]

What kind of submission are you looking for? Would you like to be teased? Tied up?

I'm a female submissive, but I'm exploring my dominant side. A lot of femdom does seem to be feminisation + pegging to be frank, both of which I'm not very interested in. But I'd like to know more about what kinds of submission you like? Or want to try?

I haven't tried submitting, so I am trying to convey what has been a fantasy into prose. It isn't always easy.

I would like to be there for her orders, to do as she directs. I would have to be "ready" when the whim strikes her. I would do whatever she asked within our agreed limits of play.

I like the idea of being her boy toy, there to protect her, but she also likes to show off--in private--to her friends my submission to her. No sharing or anything, but she enjoys bragging about my submission to her.

Bondage? Light bondage.
Teased? Definitely.
Required to please her whenever/however? Definitely.

I'm sorry if I'm not articulating it properly.

 

[sexysquid90]

Just one bump, Vasily.

 

[StrayKat]

I am guessing you probably like light humiliation and serving to a point.
But for something like what you are looking for you need a bit more talk and connecting, and I have to warn you, online people tend to only look for a fling really.
Finding someone who may be interested in getting to know you can prove to be a hard task. I hope you are aware of that.

 

[sexysquid90]

I am guessing you probably like light humiliation and serving to a point.
But for something like what you are looking for you need a bit more talk and connecting, and I have to warn you, online people tend to only look for a fling really.
Finding someone who may be interested in getting to know you can prove to be a hard task. I hope you are aware of that.

I am aware about both, but at least I risked.

I sincerely thank you for your bump and comments.

 

[sexysquid90]

To those who posted on my thread, thank you for giving me the chance to at least voice this. I will now put this thread to fall in the round file of Lit Forums.

 

[StrayKat]

Giving up already?

 

[sexysquid90]

Giving up already?

I don't give up on many things, but this thread has fallen faster than a brick dropped from space. After being fired from a rail gun. Mounted on the nose of a speeding comet.

*shrugs*

If it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be. I knew it would be tough, but I had hoped for more than deafening silence outside of the friendly advice from you.

 

[StrayKat]

I am sorry to hear that but maybe you should give it a bit more time. I know it is a bit hard for a guy to find appropriate woman here, but trust me it is equally hard for a woman. Most people seem to want just a fling.
I have been around almost 10 years and in all that time I found maybe 6 people I could actually connect to on anything more than superficial level.

But they were all worth the waiting

 

[Shin_Su_eun]

Well, I hate seeing people give up on things, especially if it's something near and dear to them. Let me at least give you a bump to put you back up and perhaps put you in view of the one you're looking for

 

[beardedmariner]

Coming from someone who knows it's almost impossible. Bump for you and good luck.

 

[BellaBestia]

don't give up so soon.

 

[sexysquid90]

Thank you all for the bumps.

Am I giving up on ever realizing this? Hell, no! I will always seek a beautiful madam who seeks protection and other services.

I just don't think a threat at Lit will be how I find it.

 

[gonewrong]

Actually a threaT might just work. But it'd have to be a good one.

You couldn't get away with, say, threatening bodily harm or to make love to her skull until she shuts her stupid mouth because a dominantly inclined lady quite likely gets that stuff on regular basis. It would have to be something truly nasty. You'd have to threaten, say, to track her IP, find her place, sneak in while she's gone - and destroy all her shoes. Yes, I said ALL her shoes. Even the sexy stilettos.

It might work. Just sayin'.

 

[breakstoys]

This is so worth a bump. A warrior in Her service... Quite an appealing notion. If I didn't already have one... Keep looking, I just know there must be other women out there who can appreciate this dynamic .

 

[Shin_Su_eun]

Thank you all for the bumps.

Am I giving up on ever realizing this? Hell, no! I will always seek a beautiful madam who seeks protection and other services.

I just don't think a threat at Lit will be how I find it.

And one more bump for you

 

[sexysquid90]

Thank you

I am grateful for every bump. I just wish I had one bite.

 

[Shin_Su_eun]

I am grateful for every bump. I just wish I had one bite.

Giving you a bump so that maybe you'll get some bites

 

[sexysquid90]

Bump?