Don't you wish

[StacyCD39]

You could just flip a switch and wake up the opposite sex?

I know I do. I'm sick of being inside this body. I really, really am. I'm tired of the whole gender performance bullshit (sorry to swear). I'm tired of performing the masculine gender because that's what I am physically when mentally I'm feminine, and I'm screaming to get out. I feel like I can't take it anymore.

I hate this masculine form and all the crap that goes with it, and society forces onto it.

I feel like...I'm trapped in a prison...a woman screaming for release that I know will never come. When I look down I don't like what I see. Don't get me wrong, I love penis, but, just not on me. I want a clit, a vagina, two voluptuous breasts, an ass that won't quit...a body that makes men cream their pants just at the sight of me, the mere thought of me on my knees, sinfully sucking them off, or naked on my back, being ravished...filled with their seed, their love.

http://lh6.ggpht.com/_GZQyupVwbSs/TM9iNqc0qfI/AAAAAAAAcaw/BzT1OoJru4M/s800/bb1b615f36f19454deec95bf7856f268.jpg

Like her. I would give anything, everything to be her. To be that beautiful, to feel that smooth and sexy...feeling the heat from my lover against my back..his pulsing cock twitching against me, begging, aching for release...submitting myself to him...

This sucks. I can't take it anymore.

[/rant]

 

[LucyH]

Too bad people can't trade bodies, eh?

 

[StacyCD39]

Too bad people can't trade bodies, eh?

Or that! I'd do it in a heartbeat!

 

[portmaritime]

A Cry for Help

Stacy,

The above is the most obvious cry for help I have ever heard. I'm not one tell you what to do but there are professionals who can counsel you before it gets so bad you'll do something hurtful. Get some help and PM me anytime you want to talk.

 

[StacyCD39]

Stacy,

The above is the most obvious cry for help I have ever heard. I'm not one tell you what to do but there are professionals who can counsel you before it gets so bad you'll do something hurtful. Get some help and PM me anytime you want to talk.

Oh no! I'm sorry to lead you to believe that I would do anything hurtful to myself! Of course I wouldn't...I just can't stand being stuck in this body anymore.

 

[Somehowyou]

Stacy,

The above is the most obvious cry for help I have ever heard. I'm not one tell you what to do but there are professionals who can counsel you before it gets so bad you'll do something hurtful. Get some help and PM me anytime you want to talk.

Ditto. I thought the same thing. To a degree, you have to except who you are and find someone who loves you for who you are. Love yourself first! The love from others will follow.

 

[portmaritime]

Thanks

Thanks for putting my mind at rest a bit. Stay positive, wish I were closer to help you out and treat you like you should be treated.

 

[Nikki_Gurl]

Oh, but Stacy, we do! Well, I guess I can call it a switch. I think it's internal. Just ask the few regular men who call on me, here in Los Angeles, to be their gurl. Nikki

 

[Trapper_Jock_Mcintyre]

I have to twist this on its side. I wish I could flip a switch and make some people into the opposite sex. For example, as much as I'd love to get down and dirty with them as women, after I'd flip the switch to make me male, I'd love to get to have gay male sex with k d lang, Ellen Degeneres, Kiera Knightley, and that girl at checkout at my local Safeway -- after aiming said same switch at them!

As to guys I'd love aim the switch at and make 'em female so I could have good ol' lesbian sex with -- Leonardo DeCaprio and model Andrej Pejic ( http://www.google.ca/search?tbm=isc...163l2139l0l3056l3l3l0l0l0l0l241l516l1.0.2l3l0 )

Trap

 

[Stella_Omega]

I don't think much of Andrej. As a girl, I wouldn't really look at her twice. Just another bland, perfectly symmetrical face on a skinny body...

 

[lustatopia]

I can't say that I feel your pain, because as a man I've never wanted to be a woman, although I have played the role of a woman during sex with men.

But you're not alone.

There are many many people feeling the same sense of existential betray by the universe. I know of many others who can't believe they were born into the wrong body. There are as many ways to manage this situation as their are souls who find themselves in it.

The best place to start is to realise that you are a miracle....

http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/abinazir/2011/06/15/what-are-chances-you-would-be-born/

Once you totally understand -- and you'll have to seriously sit down and contemplate this fact over and over for some time -- that you are absolutely unique and utterly impossible to reproduce... all sorts of possibilities follow.

After all, since it's a miracle that you were even born isn't probable that hidden somewhere in the fabricate of your life and relationships is a reason why you were brought into this world just so?

You don't have to believe in God or mystical stuff to reach this conclusion. You can look at nature. Go for a walk in the forest and you'll see every tree is exactly where it is for a reason if you look closely enough.

You were made you and you were made beautiful and strong for a reason. You're not a mistake. But no one can tell you what your reason is, or even who you are, that's something only you can work out for yourself.

The truth is that we are all just like you, individually searching for a meaning for our miraculous existence.

 

[Etoile]

I don't think much of Andrej. As a girl, I wouldn't really look at her twice. Just another bland, perfectly symmetrical face on a skinny body...

Psst...Andrej Pejic isn't a girl.

Edit: Er, wait, you seem to know that. Confused by your wording, sorry!

 

[bidaddy]

i like being a guy but it would be cool to be in a girls body for one night of hot sex just so i can experance all that a women feels. I know women have more erogenous zones than men and feel of a cock going into a pussy must feel alot differant for a women than a man. I would also like the experance because i love pleaseing my female lovers so anything i can learn from this could only help.

 

[SissyKatie]

I understand and sympathise completely Stacy. Although for much of my life I have had feelings mixed between it being harmless, and it being a lot of fun, it has taken me some time to realise how much hardship it has caused me. I know of course that many people have far worse problems to deal with, but the way we are does sometimes strike me as quite a unique and harsh cross to bear.

It has caused me difficulty in relationships, and even lost me the last one. That is an extreme dichotomy though, as she would not have found me, and indeed been attracted to me if not for sissy related posts I have previously made on here. Then she fostered that side of my personality, seemed to really bring it out more than I have previously experienced, and then used it against me in a way I could not possibly have foreseen, and as of now I have no idea if I will ever recover from it.

These days I have a greatly reduced social life because I prefer to be at home behind closed doors and dressed comfortably, rather than out with people and dressed uncomfortably. I am forced into exceptional secrecy in relation to family members, and almost daily now experience struggles between what I am and what is conventional.

I have had some help already, and after something of an emergency visit with a GP yesterday, I am on waiting list for more help. This should be a longer term solution as the last time was restricted in duration as it was a work provided thing.

I’m not in a good position to offer advice myself, but maybe knowing that you are not alone in your struggle helps a little. I do take a lot of comfort from reading messages on these boards from people similar to me, and from people sympathetic to us.

 

[infinity706]

i like being a guy but it would be cool to be in a girls body for one night of hot sex just so i can experance all that a women feels. I know women have more erogenous zones than men and feel of a cock going into a pussy must feel alot differant for a women than a man. I would also like the experance because i love pleaseing my female lovers so anything i can learn from this could only help.

Seriously, women don't have more erogenous zones. They just tend to get better explored. From what I've been told, vaginal and anal aren't all that different other than the lubricant thing, either. If you really want to try it the best you can, though, remember dick =clit and scrotum = vulva. Just push your balls up to the hollow on either side of your dick, get some lubricant, and play with your ball sack like a cunt. Considering they come from the same embryonic parts, it should give you an idea. It's not like you'd need a vagina since, just like the rectum, it doesn't feel anything and you can play with your oversized G-spot anally. Seriously, men's and women's bodies have all the same fun parts. They just look different. It's only the unneeded baby making parts that disintigrate.

 

[MichelleWhoIs]

I know I do. I'm sick of being inside this body. I really, really am. I'm tired of the whole gender performance bullshit (sorry to swear). I'm tired of performing the masculine gender because that's what I am physically when mentally I'm feminine, and I'm screaming to get out. I hate this masculine form and all the crap that goes with it, and society forces onto it.

I feel like...I'm trapped in a prison...a woman screaming for release that I know will never come. When I look down I don't like what I see. Don't get me wrong, I love penis, but, just not on me. I want a clit, a vagina, two voluptuous breasts, an ass that won't quit...[/rant]

I fully understand and sympathise with your thoughts and desires Stacy. For the longest time, I hated looking in the mirror and seeing someone who I never wanted to be. But over time, I finally made peace within myself. I hope that one day, you too will find that inner peace.

 

[Sara_Unknown]

Well Stacy, I'd cross off that CD in your name and replace it TG...but whoever you are and whatever the truth is...it's definitely worth finding someone(s) to talk with.

 

[Rolando2]

I have often wished that I was born a woman.

 

[StacyTG]

Well Stacy, I'd cross off that CD in your name and replace it TG...but whoever you are and whatever the truth is...it's definitely worth finding someone(s) to talk with.

This struck me as completely profound when I first read it. I've been really struggling with this lately, and I even went so far as to completely cut myself off from my other account and create this one.

I'm not a crossdresser. I'm transgendered. I accept that now. It's the body I'm in that I'm having the most trouble with.

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, Sara, for your suggestion.

And a heartfelt thank you for everyone showing support.

 

[StacyTG]

Maybe one day you can just be Stacy rather than StacyCD or StacyTG.

best of luck.

That would be wonderful.

Thank you.

 

[BillyBobJoeEd]

This struck me as completely profound when I first read it. I've been really struggling with this lately, and I even went so far as to completely cut myself off from my other account and create this one.

I'm not a crossdresser. I'm transgendered. I accept that now. It's the body I'm in that I'm having the most trouble with.

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, Sara, for your suggestion.

And a heartfelt thank you for everyone showing support.

I'm glad to see you change to this new name. I really ache inside for you when I see how much you want to be the same woman on the outside that you are on the inside. Are you getting some help in that direction? From what I see here, you're such a sweet person and I wish all the best things for you.

Feel free to PM me and keep me posted on your progress toward transition and womanhood.

 

[Wife of Bath]

I don't know how to say this without sounding like an asshole...but I just want you to know, you've made me immensely grateful for the struggles I have not been dealt.

I hope you find you way. I'm sure you will. Keep your head up.

 

[none2_none2]

Stella_Omega is someone worth holding in high regard. Stella tends to expose one to alternative views without judgement. Such is worth trying to emulate...

Some may never understand the trans phenomena. Probably for most because they like what they were born with. Others because gender roles are held with contempt because they have been used to repress -- just like can be said of racial stereotypes. Frustration with those rules is more widespread than the trans community. It may even go past the LGBT community.

Stacey, from your first post, you described the behavior of a man towards a woman in sex. If that is what you desire, all power to you. Just realize that it is not unique to heterosexual relationships.

 

[klippert]

I guess I'm the outcast....I am very comfortable with whom I am... I'm comfortable in my skin, though it's starting to sag here and there, belly has decided to fight against my wishes too get smaller....back pains more that usual.

I'm 42 male.....I don't wish to be anyone than who I am....Husband, farther, son and brother.....enjoying life.

I'm sympathetic for those who are uncomfortable in their own skin.....I can't analyze it, or have the magic wand.....That is a road one must travel. I've tried to surround myself with positive people.

Pulchritude...Look it up....it may at least put a smile on your face

 

[Stella_Omega]

No,klippert, you are not the outcast. You're the guy who is comfortable in society. That's exactly the opposite of "outcast."

None2... Dude. That's gotta be one of the most insensitive posts I've ever seen from you. It does not address Stacy's issue in any way. It seems like-- and I am sure this isn't true, because I know you are a good man-- but it SEEMS like you are trying to invalidate her identity.

What you say is true enough-- for some other context, and you could-- and I would if I were you-- post it as a new discussion. In a thread where a trans person expresses her pain and unhappiness and her pervasive sense of otherness, this post of your is completely hamfisted and inappropriate.

If I were you, I would delete it and leave an apology in its place. That would be my suggestion.