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[fuckmeat]

My SRP Profile​

Gender: I only play female characters.

Age: For human characters, I can do anything from 18-30.

Orientation: I can play heterosexual, bisexual or lesbian characters.

Power Exchange: I play very submissive, masochistic women... after a fashion. They usually start out rebellious and stubborn because I really love nonconsent. I do not domme or switch, it is just an alien concept to me. I also have no interest in playing vanilla girls. When it comes to power exchange, the more extreme the better so far as I am concerned. I love humiliation/objectification and have few limits, as you'll see below.

Race: I've only played white girls thus far, being white myself. I have no aversion to playing people of other races. It would be an interesting challenge. I worry that I'd end up creating a stereotype though or somehow fail to do a character's ethnic/cultural background justice.

Bodytype: I am slim and petite with small breasts and so I generally play girls of a similar build. Playing busty girls just makes me start wishing for the boob-job fairy to pay me a visit and playing tall girls is weird, not least because I like my character to be far smaller and weaker than my co-writer's.

Alternate species/fantasy races/furries/mutations: I'm not really into the whole futuristic, gene mutation scenarios, nor am I drawn to nuclear fallout zones. I will play fantasy races such as elf, fairy, vampire, witch, sorceress, angel/demon or anything in the Tolkein/Pratchett vein. I have zero interest in furry characters and lycans are similarly unappealing to me. I'm also not interested in weird and wonderful alien creatures, sentient plantlife or anything with tentacles.

Settings: I love historical settings, often with some mysticism thrown in. I also love generic fantasy style settings that are medieval with some artistic licence/fantasy race characters. I also love gritty, realistic contemporary settings. Futuristic/sci-fi stuff is hit and miss for me. I'm very flexible about setting if an idea grabs me though.

Likes/kinks: My sexual nature is submissive and masochistic. I also really enjoy RPs featuring nonconsent and dark, violent storylines. My kinks include (but are by no means limited to) coercion/blackmail/abduction/slavery/captivity, rough sex/rape/sexual violence, domestic violence/battery/torture/knives/cutting/implements/spanking/etc, tattoos/branding/marks/collars/bondage, humiliation/objectification/psychological torture/etc, choking/asphyxia, golden showers/spitting/facials/etc.

Hard limits: Minors, scat, animals/furries/whatevers, necro, vomit, drinking piss, foot worship, graphic gore, atrocious SPG, rushed/unedited posts and finally - switching.

Availability: Edited: I am recently bereaved, my partner of four years lost her battle with leukaemia. This means that my availability and mood fluctuates a great deal. Sometimes I really need the escapism and will throw myself into roleplaying, other times I'm either unable to spend much time online or unable to string a sentence together when I do. So I respectfully ask for patience when I drop off radar for a day or two or flit about the other forums instead of SRPing.

 

[fuckmeat]

My Threads

Currently Active​

Dual Depravity ~ A kinky non-con incest packed romp with The_PG.

Massacre State Asylum ~ A decadently psychotic group thread with some of our most talented female writers.

The Summoner's Song ~ With fr33ks33k. An antique Stradivarius violin is unwittingly used by a modern day musician to open a rift into hell, summoning a demoness.

Dancing Upon Death's Myst ~ With The_PG. A depressed and suicidal teen is drawn inexorably to a burgeoning young sadist with an hitherto unexplored kink for snuff.

Alliance ~ With The_PG. Firefly's River Tam is captured by an Alliance operative, who intends to finish her transformation into a walking weapon. He will become her personal handler, training and keeping her subservient while using her as an outlet for his own depraved desires.

The Legend Of An Age ~ With The_PG. Tolkein-eqsue meeting of two civilizations; Elven and Vampire.

Dormant
Temporarily shelved for one reason or another and therefore still closed.​

A Bitch By Any Other Name ~ With Erlind. Joker dumps Harley and quits Gotham for new pastures. Chance takes him to London, where he seeks out fresh opportunity in the form of an established gangster's daughter.

Shadows Of Sherlock Holmes ~ With Commendatore. A rather intimate look at certain less palatable facets of Holmes' character.

The Runner ~ With Commendatore. A spoiled and arrogant rockstar sets about utterly destroying a young MTV runner, just for shits and giggles. There are many fates worse than death and he will prove to be only one of them.

Bienvenidos A Miami! ~ A Jason Bourne-esque RP with The_PG. A young British wife and mother's life is derailed when an American black ops agent with amnesia requires a hostage. Very soon she knows to much to simply be allowed to return home. The Omega project however, doesn't know nearly enough and fully intends to get his answers or die trying.

Blitzkreig ~ Originally started with LitShark but taken on by The_PG after LitShark left lit (try saying that 3 times fast). A dark look into the character traits that make soldiers of men and leave those soldiers unable to cope as mere men once they return home after a long absence. Travis comes home from an extended tour of duty with mental health issues that cause him to mistrust and abuse his faithful wife, Kat.

Inactive
Dead threads that could be recast or restarted with someone new.​

Never Be Enough ~ With SapperJack, a newbie who vanished on me. Was intended to be a vampiric romp in a Willow/Spike vein but never got that far.

The Toy ~ Very regrettably, I flaked on talented newcomer Braschi, because of things that were happening in my RL. It would have been a very powerful thread.

 

[fuckmeat]

Idea unclaimed

Something in the reign of Henry II or that of his son; Richard and John. A Norman heiress in a keep near the hotly contested Welsh borderlands. Her father dies suddenly and such is the dowry of her land that she is required to travel to the Tower Of London where the king will decide who will marry her and manage her estates. En route however, her travelling party is ambushed by a Welsh baron who forces her into wedlock and promptly takes control of her lands. This being me, I'm imagining a lot of domestic violence, rape and humiliation. She is devoutly Catholic and he is Pagan, lots of scope for humiliation there, including his determination to educate her beyond what the church narrowly proscribes to be an approved and sinless method of procreation. He despises everything she represents but marriage to her is vital if he is to hold her lands. She will be 18 or thereabouts and he will be a battle veteran in his 30s. Despite her rank, she is nothing more than expensive chattel and he will not let her forget that. I'm also thinking of pregnancy, as he'll need heirs.

 

[fuckmeat]

Idea Unclaimed

a novice druid priestess, one who has not lost her virginity in some pagan rite. she is selected to be the high priestess's handmaiden, unaware that the Lady of Avalon requires much more than domestic service from her chosen assistant and successor.

the novice must learn how to become the priestess of the oracle, to allow a higher spiritual being to occupy her body and deliver prophecies at certain festivals. the training for this involves intense work on pain threshold and the ability to totally submit to a higher being, lying dormant in one's own mind to make way for the goddess. the girl must learn that her inescapable destiny is to be utterly worthless in her own right, nothing but a vessel. all notion of pride, self preservation or self esteem must be utterly crushed for it this offends the goddess morrigan and encourages the conscious mind to resist the goddess's intrusion.

fortunately for the current high priestess, such training of another fulfils all her own dominant and sadistic sexual desires.

to the world beyond the druid temple and its priestesses, even to the other priestesses and novices themselves, the high priestess is a beatific creature of light and love, a living icon whose prophecies are repeated the length and breadth of pre-Roman Britain. only to her assistant can she unveil this side of herself. if her assistant fails the training process, she must be executed so that sacred lore and secrets are safeguarded; not the least of which is what being priestess of the oracle entails.

 

[fuckmeat]

Idea Unclaimed

Something in the vein of Orwell's 'Nineteen Eighty-Four'...

Nineteen Eighty-Four (sometimes written 1984), by George Orwell, published in 1949, is a dystopian novel about the totalitarian regime of the Party, an oligarchical collectivist society where life in the Oceanian province of Airstrip One is a world of perpetual war, pervasive government surveillance, public mind control, and the voiding of citizens' rights. In the Ministry of Truth (Minitrue), protagonist Winston Smith is a civil servant responsible for perpetuating the Party's propaganda by revising historical records to render the Party omniscient and always correct, yet his meager existence disillusions him into rebellion against Big Brother, which leads to his arrest, torture, and conversion.

Read the wiki page here

Some fun 1984 quotes...

BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING YOU
WAR IS PEACE
FREEDOM IS SLAVERY
IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH

The Ministry of Peace concerns itself with war, the Ministry of Truth with lies, the Ministry of Love with torture, and the Ministry of Plenty with mass starvation.

The Party seeks power entirely for its own sake. We are not interested in the good of others; we are interested solely in power. Not wealth or luxury or long life or happiness: only power, pure power. What pure power means you will understand presently. We are different from all the oligarchies of the past, in that we know what we are doing. All the others, even those who resembled ourselves, were cowards and hypocrites.

We know that no one ever seizes power with the intention of relinquishing it. Power is not a means; it is an end. One does not establish a dictatorship in order to safeguard a revolution; one makes the revolution in order to establish the dictatorship. The object of persecution is persecution. The object of torture is torture. The object of power is power.

There will be no curiosity, no enjoyment of the process of life. All competing pleasures will be destroyed. But always— do not forget this, Winston— always there will be the intoxication of power, constantly increasing and constantly growing subtler. Always, at every moment, there will be the thrill of victory, the sensation of trampling on an enemy who is helpless.

If you want a picture of the future, imagine a boot stamping on a human face— forever.

To die hating them, that was freedom.

"You asked me once," said O'Brien, "what was in Room 101. I told you that you knew the answer already. Everyone knows it. The thing that is in Room 101 is the worst thing in the world."

 

[fuckmeat]

Interrogation...

Violent, torturous mindrape

I don't have a context for that, I'm just fantasising about it a lot. 24 always gets me hot for interrogation.

Mistress once accused me of lusting after men and harbouring intentions to get cock somehow. She drew out and pulled apart every passing thought I'd had about male friends and acquaintances, went through my internet history, demanded to know what I'd been fantasising about until even I thought I must have crossed a line somewhere. Then she went through why men are so revolting, sprayed herself with men's deodorant and took her strap on to me, along with a pan-scourer to represent stubble. By the time she was done I wanted nothing to do with men for a while. Had she kept it up on a regular basis I reckon she could have brainwashed me lesbian.

I have a fantasy of that wet flannel and water drowning technique, but using piss instead.

 

[kittenofdeath]

Interrogation...

Violent, torturous mindrape

I don't have a context for that, I'm just fantasising about it a lot. 24 always gets me hot for interrogation.

Mistress once accused me of lusting after men and harbouring intentions to get cock somehow. She drew out and pulled apart every passing thought I'd had about male friends and acquaintances, went through my internet history, demanded to know what I'd been fantasising about until even I thought I must have crossed a line somewhere. Then she went through why men are so revolting, sprayed herself with men's deodorant and took her strap on to me, along with a pan-scourer to represent stubble. By the time she was done I wanted nothing to do with men for a while. Had she kept it up on a regular basis I reckon she could have brainwashed me lesbian.

I have a fantasy of that wet flannel and water drowning technique, but using piss instead.

I have verry few words to describe just how much fun I had imagining that.

 

[fuckmeat]

Why thankyou kitten

Idea Unclaimed

A girl who is a dominant's much loved submissive, indulging in light (for me anyway) forms of BDSM play. The Dom/me has a long standing enmity with some other guy/girl in the local scene/club/community, who abducts the girl. The girl is brutalised, objectified and humiliated until her self worth and hope of release has been pulverised into dust. pics, vids and other evidence are sent to torment her owner. Her owner tries to get her back through various means including bribery. Eventually, after a protracted and intense period, she is returned to him/her, a broken and battered shell of her former self. The harsh treatment and abject humiliation have awakened dark new kinks in the girl though. She is no longer content as her owner's cherished pet, she has a consuming need to be an abused and contemptible slave. After failing to adjust back into her old life and role, she runs away from her owner to throw herself at the feet of his/her rival. The rival Dom/me had never treated anyone as badly as that girl and would never have done so were it not for the feud with her owner. It awakened a new thirst for extreme dominance and sadism however. He/she can't believe the girl has chosen to come back and becomes determined to enjoy making the silly little bitch regret it, while rubbing his/her old enemy's face in it of course.

 

[fuckmeat]

stalking. something not cliched. something really dark and menacing, psychologically damaging.

... something.

 

[Corruptive_Influence]

stalking. something not cliched. something really dark and menacing, psychologically damaging.

... something.

A stalker eh?

How about this...

Harry is bored with Sally. He's been browsing kinky porn online and grown tired of regular sex. He tries a few kinky things with her but she's not interested. Things deteriorate and he dumps her. Harry avoids her for a few weeks, because he doesn't want her whining that they can make it work or whatever, or to give her false hope. When he get in touch, she seems over the split. He's shocked and a little pissed off. Suddenly his whiny bitch of a woman is self reliant and back on the market again. Harry doesn't like it and begins regretting his decision. He starts stalking her and it escalates from there. At first he tries to scare her so she'll run back into the arms of her ex. When that doesn't work, he decides to terrify her until he takes her by force and starts breaking her into the kind of submissive slut he wants.

Thoughts?

 

[chronicle_tenko]

In the vein of Big Brother then....

Woman gets hired for the obscenely slow and boring night shift at a local porn store. After weeks of not even seeing customers, and of doing the same tasks over and over, drinking the same coffee over and over. She is going to the bathroom and notices something strange. A small red glow.

She thinks nothing of it. Collects her check from her boss, and keeps going. Then one night, she is opening a new inventory box, and sees herself. There is video of her in the changeroom at work. On the toilet. Even at home, and on dates, and of course in her own bed getting fucked.

When she demands to know what's going on, she gets no answers from her boss. Nor anyone else. People tell her she's crazy and that the woman looks nothing like her. She pushes further and further, but the camera's are always rolling. Her antics at work become haphazard, as she tries to prove the cameras are on, her boyfriend becomes abusive, and his sex, a humiliating exercise in pain. And no one believes her.

Until the pressure of being watched and recorded seemingly her entire life finally breaks her.

I don't know, really. It's just something off the top of my head, that didn't seem too cliche. I fear it wouldn't work too well, for a thread. Though if it had a more apple pie ending, it could easily be American Cinema.

 

[fuckmeat]

A stalker eh?

How about this...

Harry is bored with Sally. He's been browsing kinky porn online and grown tired of regular sex. He tries a few kinky things with her but she's not interested. Things deteriorate and he dumps her. Harry avoids her for a few weeks, because he doesn't want her whining that they can make it work or whatever, or to give her false hope. When he get in touch, she seems over the split. He's shocked and a little pissed off. Suddenly his whiny bitch of a woman is self reliant and back on the market again. Harry doesn't like it and begins regretting his decision. He starts stalking her and it escalates from there. At first he tries to scare her so she'll run back into the arms of her ex. When that doesn't work, he decides to terrify her until he takes her by force and starts breaking her into the kind of submissive slut he wants.

Thoughts?

Sounds delicious. I have a number of threads that have gone quiet recently. I just know though that if I throw myself into something new, every capricious motherfucker will instantaneously post.

Dominant men.

 

[fuckmeat]

In the vein of Big Brother then....

Woman gets hired for the obscenely slow and boring night shift at a local porn store. After weeks of not even seeing customers, and of doing the same tasks over and over, drinking the same coffee over and over. She is going to the bathroom and notices something strange. A small red glow.

She thinks nothing of it. Collects her check from her boss, and keeps going. Then one night, she is opening a new inventory box, and sees herself. There is video of her in the changeroom at work. On the toilet. Even at home, and on dates, and of course in her own bed getting fucked.

When she demands to know what's going on, she gets no answers from her boss. Nor anyone else. People tell her she's crazy and that the woman looks nothing like her. She pushes further and further, but the camera's are always rolling. Her antics at work become haphazard, as she tries to prove the cameras are on, her boyfriend becomes abusive, and his sex, a humiliating exercise in pain. And no one believes her.

Until the pressure of being watched and recorded seemingly her entire life finally breaks her.

I don't know, really. It's just something off the top of my head, that didn't seem too cliche. I fear it wouldn't work too well, for a thread. Though if it had a more apple pie ending, it could easily be American Cinema.

Ooh you're evil and bad. It's a highly original idea, thanks for posting it.

 

[ForceFucker]

Why thankyou kitten

A girl who is a dominant's much loved submissive, indulging in light (for me anyway) forms of BDSM play. The Dom/me has a long standing enmity with some other guy/girl in the local scene/club/community, who abducts the girl. The girl is brutalised, objectified and humiliated until her self worth and hope of release has been pulverised into dust. pics, vids and other evidence are sent to torment her owner. Her owner tries to get her back through various means including bribery. Eventually, after a protracted and intense period, she is returned to him/her, a broken and battered shell of her former self. The harsh treatment and abject humiliation have awakened dark new kinks in the girl though. She is no longer content as her owner's cherished pet, she has a consuming need to be an abused and contemptible slave. After failing to adjust back into her old life and role, she runs away from her owner to throw herself at the feet of his/her rival. The rival Dom/me had never treated anyone as badly as that girl and would never have done so were it not for the feud with her owner. It awakened a new thirst for extreme dominance and sadism however. He/she can't believe the girl has chosen to come back and becomes determined to enjoy making the silly little bitch regret it, while rubbing his/her old enemy's face in it of course.

I Really like this theme.

Would you be averse to finding a setting with greater plot density? Perhaps an historical setting. Or even a modern one wherein the rivalry may be bit more juicy than two poser doms bitching at one another?

It would be fun to develope this. Imagine the humiliation she would have to endure when she chose to return

 

[fuckmeat]

I Really like this theme.

Would you be averse to finding a setting with greater plot density? Perhaps an historical setting. Or even a modern one wherein the rivalry may be bit more juicy than two poser doms bitching at one another?

It would be fun to develope this. Imagine the humiliation she would have to endure when she chose to return

PM sent.

 

[Vail_Indigo]

It was her senior year, and Cassie decided it was time to stop being the little shy nerd. The girl in the corner, the wallflower.
For her 18th birthday that summer, her mother had given her a credit card to go buy clothes.
On the first day of school, her top was cut low, skirt high, legs wrapped in nylon, and heels it had taken her a month to learn to walk in.
She had been hoping to attract the attentions of her peers, maybe a boy.
But it was her teacher, the almost equally quiet woman who taught history, who's eye she caught, who's fire she set ablaze. And suddenly, that woman would have what she wanted, like a lioness upon vulnerable prey.
It would not be pretty

 

[fuckmeat]

It was her senior year, and Cassie decided it was time to stop being the little shy nerd. The girl in the corner, the wallflower.
For her 18th birthday that summer, her mother had given her a credit card to go buy clothes.
On the first day of school, her top was cut low, skirt high, legs wrapped in nylon, and heels it had taken her a month to learn to walk in.
She had been hoping to attract the attentions of her peers, maybe a boy.
But it was her teacher, the almost equally quiet woman who taught history, who's eye she caught, who's fire she set ablaze. And suddenly, that woman would have what she wanted, like a lioness upon vulnerable prey.
It would not be pretty

Ooh I love this. I know next to nothing about the American school system though.

To make it more intense, it could be a boarding school perhaps? Or do you like the idea of snatching stolen moments in detention sessions and lunchbreaks?

 

[fuckmeat]

Btw...

Forcefucker and corruptive_influence have both gone quiet on me, which means the ideas they expressed interest in remain unclaimed.

 

[chronicle_tenko]

Well I don't think gender matters for this one. But I was still thinking about your stalker thread. Then I came up with this. It is a little different, but I hope you like it. And incidentally it's an open idea.

You have a Police sergeant, (or investigator), who is in charge of a specific branch of Internal Affairs. Who one day A case comes up about a young Vice Officer being used for hooker stings. (Officer is dressed as a hooker and sent to walk the streets as a prostitute in order to bust johns.) Procedure is not perfectly followed with a john, who the VO shoots dead. It's open and shut a case of self defense, as the VO was about to be raped, and the John had a knife.

Still IA comes in and decides to take a special interest in the little pretend hooker. Planting bad evidence, threatening her career, and generally using his power, and influence to have her followed, make her life difficult, and hurt her, until she finally breaks down, and he makes her into his little subservient bitch on the force.

Your more standard sexual games can be played, with a big dose of humiliation. This can be full of secrets, as most police are usually pretty tight to each other. And he can use her to expose a number of things, further making his career, on her back.

 

[Vail_Indigo]

Ooh I love this. I know next to nothing about the American school system though.

To make it more intense, it could be a boarding school perhaps? Or do you like the idea of snatching stolen moments in detention sessions and lunchbreaks?

Pesonally, I like the idea of the depravity, and then going home each day

That said, I'm already...um..**** in 2 1/2 SRPs, which is about all I can handle.

 

[fuckmeat]

Well I don't think gender matters for this one. But I was still thinking about your stalker thread. Then I came up with this. It is a little different, but I hope you like it. And incidentally it's an open idea.

You have a Police sergeant, (or investigator), who is in charge of a specific branch of Internal Affairs. Who one day A case comes up about a young Vice Officer being used for hooker stings. (Officer is dressed as a hooker and sent to walk the streets as a prostitute in order to bust johns.) Procedure is not perfectly followed with a john, who the VO shoots dead. It's open and shut a case of self defense, as the VO was about to be raped, and the John had a knife.

Still IA comes in and decides to take a special interest in the little pretend hooker. Planting bad evidence, threatening her career, and generally using his power, and influence to have her followed, make her life difficult, and hurt her, until she finally breaks down, and he makes her into his little subservient bitch on the force.

Your more standard sexual games can be played, with a big dose of humiliation. This can be full of secrets, as most police are usually pretty tight to each other. And he can use her to expose a number of things, further making his career, on her back.

Ooh I really like this one. Lots of scope.

 

[fuckmeat]

Pesonally, I like the idea of the depravity, and then going home each day

That said, I'm already...um..**** in 2 1/2 SRPs, which is about all I can handle.

sighs quietly, biting down on a pout, inhaling the heady scents of her proximity

S'ok Ma'am. This girl can wait until you have a space in your schedule. I know how in demand your brand of toppyness is.

Perhaps I should try to top you instead? It'd be good for a laugh at least. Or perhaps a masochistic teacher who abuses a student so she can groom her into a proficient top.

As usual, with you Ma'am, the possibilities are endless.

 

[Vail_Indigo]

sighs quietly, biting down on a pout, inhaling the heady scents of her proximity

S'ok Ma'am. This girl can wait until you have a space in your schedule. I know how in demand your brand of toppyness is.

Perhaps I should try to top you instead? It'd be good for a laugh at least. Or perhaps a masochistic teacher who abuses a student so she can groom her into a proficient top.

As usual, with you Ma'am, the possibilities are endless.

I had assumed that you never top LOL!

 

[fuckmeat]

I had assumed that you never top LOL!

I don't. But if I can twist it into service because I know it's what you want... who knows?

 

[Vail_Indigo]

I don't. But if I can twist it into service because I know it's what you want... who knows?

something to keep in mind then
Its been a long time since I played the victim