Anguish Unearthed

[thelittledeadgirl]

This is a thread started for cathartic outpourings of REAL anguish, not for personal attacks against fellow posters (terminology? ah well posters it is). Vent your problems, angst, frustration and fury so it's out of your system when you have to go back and deal with the real world in a semi-civil manner.

I am hoping to see some good ranting and raving, but one thing I do not want to see is personal attacks against an individual or individuals, especially individuals who like to relax in these rooms. That kind of stuff just makes me sad and confuzzled, whereas a good rant can be enjoyed by all.

If you want to bitch out another person, don't do it here. (Sorry to repeat myself but I feel a need to stress that point). Now in the manner of Rick Mercer, let the pointless ranting begin!

 

[thelittledeadgirl]

Pushy Anti-smokers

Aaaaaargh! I am so sick of being singled out and targeted for abuse, lecturing and disapproval by nosy busibodies with a personal vendetta against smoking. For pete's sake, if the worst pollutant going into our air really was cigarette smoke, we'd all be breathing a lot easier! Where I live, we have a ridiculous by-law that decrees that all smokers must smoke outside, and furthermore must be at least 10 feet away from any exits and entryways when they smoke. Fine! I'll go smoke in the middle of the road, but as a courtesy to me, since I am a non-driver (I walk everywhere), could all the cars please go drive on the sidewalk (10 feet away from me) so that I don't suffer respiratory problems due to second-hand exhaust fumes? All this crap and bullshit I keep hearing from pushy control freaks with a bug up their bonnets about what they consider a bad habit makes me just want to slaughter said people!
Don't you think I made an informed decision about smoking? I'm a nurse goddamnit! I know all about COPD and CB and Asthma and lung cancer, etcetera, etcetera, ad infinitum and I choose to smoke! Leave me alone! Smoking is my comfort, my deep breathing excercise, my excuse to step away for a moment of serenity and every time I do this some asshole feels compelled to "shouldn't" me to death and lecture me about my lifestyle! At this point, if I don't end up dying from some problem that can be at least tenatively linked to smoking, I want the executor of my estate to sue Health Canada for false advertising on my post-humous behalf!
My lovely nanny-state government doesn't seem to feel the need to abide with the Kyoto accord, doesn't legislate emissions regulations and gives big industries extension after extension on the subject of complying with regulatory emission standards. Inco has had 4 5-year extensions in a row because "they can't afford to update their technology to meet current emission control standards." And they're on a crusade against smoking?!? Smoking! We allow industrial pollutants, car exhaust, polytheurine products and numerous other safety hazards to exist undisturbed because smokers are an easy target for scape-goating. As long as smokers can be blamed for all our health problems there is no compulsion to clean up our air in other ways. I'm tired of being a scape-goat, I know it's a bad habit but I've been doing it for 2 decades and I enjoy every aspect of smoking except for the naggers.

Pushy, naggy, hypocritical, polluting anti-smokers can suck my sweet, sweet exhale! Fuck off and asphyxiate on the exhaust from your own tailpipe!

 

[Fira]

*smiles a little ironically at the resident ghoul...well, spirits ARE supposed to know the minds of men...and women too, i suppose*

Anguish...*nods thoughtfully*

Anguish is being punished unintentionally by someone that has no clue they are punishing you. Feeling your heart and soul ripped from you because they honestly don't know WHY you are reacting the way you are. For this submissive, my idea of anguish is not being allowed to please the one I'm with. Even if I have been allowed my release...I want/need his for it to feel complete. Anything less is punishment. To allow me my release and deny me his is worse than denying me mine to begin with.

Anguish is loving someone beyond all reason...and having them turn away from you, quit talking to you, or walk away without an explanation. Even worse...it's them expressing similar feelings and having them turn away because they are afraid of what MIGHT happen.

Anguish is going through life wondering to yourself of the "what if's" and the "what might have been's" because you were too scared to step outside of your comfort zone at the time it all "could have been".

*sighs softly, wiping away a tear*

Anguish is flying off the handle too soon. Making snap judgments about a situation and blowing up before thinking. Of sending messages to the other person that you can't take back. Especially when you've had a chance to calm down before these messages are claimed by the recipient.

These are all my definitions of anguish...

 

[yeishia]

No offense intended!

Double post!

 

[yeishia]

No offense intended!

I am not one to rant in public; I save it for my shower as a rule or the ears of my doggies who agree with every word I utter.

If I were to rant it would be against all of these negative threads that are cropping up on Lit; I do hope this is not the start of a trend, everyone having both a both a lounge and a personal vent thread going.

I came away to Lit, a place of fantasy to write and role play. It is a fantasy escape for me. If I want a liberal dose of reality I can turn on the T.V news, open a newspaper or listen to my next door neighbors argue.

The negative aspects of the real world can only follow us here if we allow them to. The air here is clean and pollutant free, the alcohol doesn’t give one a hangover, I cant get pregnant.... can't get an S.T.D!

Added to that the wonderful caring friends we can make, and perfect lover and/or Master(Mistress) we can interact with......what more could one want?

Please don’t spoil the fantasy

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

Okay *takes a breath*

1) a broken hot water service that is spilling out water all over my roof and a landlord that is yet to send someone to fix it.

2)sickness...to have a healthy house hold were everyone is well would be grand.

3) a dog that barks at thin air at all hours of the night and morning and is almost impossible to shut up

4) never ending house hold chores........I just don't want to do them *pouts like petulant child* you know just some days to wake up and have it done for you would be so nice.

 

[Bsquad]

Knowing the pain of the people you love and care about. The pain of friends, of Loves, of best friends, knowing that it is there, and not being able to help, not being able to take it all away.

That is anguish for me.

 

[VampiricTouch]

I am sick and tired of dealing with family that tries to impose their own sense of morality upon me, believing that they know what is best regardless of the circumstance. I am responsible, and I have shown that I am responsible for the past 3 fucking years.

Do I appreciate their opinion? yes. Do I want their opinion? Most of the time yes. But I do not appreciate opinion that is badly founded without any basis for research besides their own personal sense of morality.

I do NOT appreciate their ridiculous tenacity for NOT listening when I try to explain WHY I make the decisions I've made, and that they are well thought out and reasonable. I do NOT appreciate twisting my arguments into some belief that I -schemed- for this chain of events to happen.

IF at the end of listening to my arguments, they feel I've not thought about some aspect of the problem, I'd be happy to hear it, and take it into consideration. But please. STOP thinking that they have every fucking right to tell me what to do with the life that I LIVE.

 

[Ausus_girl13]

Of seeing a friend post and knowing that you missed them. Pouts

 

[Firmhanded_Daddy]

-Chuckles-

I understand what you mean LDG. Though I do agree with people having to smoke outside and away from main entrances and exits from buildings, I think it's extremely hypocritical to single out one problem when there are many other glaring issues such as emissions standards, and other things which cause equal, or greater problems.

I'm sure they could link just about everything to cancer now adays. Hell I'm waiting for the study that says excessive masturbation causes it. If that was the case I'd have died a LONG time ago

anyway onto the topic at hand.

I'm not much of the sort of person to drag my RL issues onto the boards here, but I am gonna have to side with Bsquad on this one. Seeing someone you love suffer and knowing you cannot be there to embrace and soothe them... that's anguish to me.

btw.. can I get my brain back? It's been a while.

 

[fuckmeat]

A little Bill Hicks, just for you.

Aaaaaargh! I am so sick of being singled out and targeted for abuse, lecturing and disapproval by nosy busibodies with a personal vendetta against smoking. For pete's sake, if the worst pollutant going into our air really was cigarette smoke, we'd all be breathing a lot easier! Where I live, we have a ridiculous by-law that decrees that all smokers must smoke outside, and furthermore must be at least 10 feet away from any exits and entryways when they smoke. Fine! I'll go smoke in the middle of the road, but as a courtesy to me, since I am a non-driver (I walk everywhere), could all the cars please go drive on the sidewalk (10 feet away from me) so that I don't suffer respiratory problems due to second-hand exhaust fumes? All this crap and bullshit I keep hearing from pushy control freaks with a bug up their bonnets about what they consider a bad habit makes me just want to slaughter said people!
Don't you think I made an informed decision about smoking? I'm a nurse goddamnit! I know all about COPD and CB and Asthma and lung cancer, etcetera, etcetera, ad infinitum and I choose to smoke! Leave me alone! Smoking is my comfort, my deep breathing excercise, my excuse to step away for a moment of serenity and every time I do this some asshole feels compelled to "shouldn't" me to death and lecture me about my lifestyle! At this point, if I don't end up dying from some problem that can be at least tenatively linked to smoking, I want the executor of my estate to sue Health Canada for false advertising on my post-humous behalf!
My lovely nanny-state government doesn't seem to feel the need to abide with the Kyoto accord, doesn't legislate emissions regulations and gives big industries extension after extension on the subject of complying with regulatory emission standards. Inco has had 4 5-year extensions in a row because "they can't afford to update their technology to meet current emission control standards." And they're on a crusade against smoking?!? Smoking! We allow industrial pollutants, car exhaust, polytheurine products and numerous other safety hazards to exist undisturbed because smokers are an easy target for scape-goating. As long as smokers can be blamed for all our health problems there is no compulsion to clean up our air in other ways. I'm tired of being a scape-goat, I know it's a bad habit but I've been doing it for 2 decades and I enjoy every aspect of smoking except for the naggers.

Pushy, naggy, hypocritical, polluting anti-smokers can suck my sweet, sweet exhale! Fuck off and asphyxiate on the exhaust from your own tailpipe!