Look Back in Anger....

[lesbiaphrodite]

...Ah well, the subject line is a wee bit misleading. Let's say that I'm not really looking back "in anger," just with a certain amount of wonder. I remember the first post I ever made on this board way back in 2007. It was hilarious in the way I wrote it (as a novice and someone totally unfamiliar with discussion boards) and the way it was received. Oh me. The title was something about "ennui," if I'm not mistaken and I was bemoaning the horrid state of my nerves and my, well, "ennui." Boy, I got slammed for that and was told all manner of things about myself....about how I must be a boring person to be bored or heaven knows what all. I don't remember. In any case, I come to the board this morning with the same feeling I had back then. I'm bored.

And you know what? It is that very boredom that caused me to begin writing in the first place. It's why I continue to write even now. Boredom motivates me to create what I cannot find (or perhaps a better way of saying it would be, "cannot sustain") in life. The discussion board is a godsend for many reasons, not the least of which is that it offers me a place to come and whine or laugh or talk when I'm in between fits of creativity.

How the world turns, yet remains so much the same....

Here's to ennui!

 

[Handley_Page]

It is good to see you back in charge of your mind after the chaos of recent times.

 

[lesbiaphrodite]

It is good to see you back in charge of your mind after the chaos of recent times.

Yes, dear friend, spring comes once again soon and I find myself returning to myself once more. It's been a long, long winter.

 

[JAMESBJOHNSON]

Its always tough to convince people that whatever theyre experiencing aint gonna last forever. Wealth, poverty, good times, bad times, come and go like the tide. Like dogs, people believe that whatever's going on right now is gonna last forever.

 

[fsa52]

Its always tough to convince people that whatever theyre experiencing aint gonna last forever. Wealth, poverty, good times, bad times, come and go like the tide. Like dogs, people believe that whatever's going on right now is gonna last forever.

Everybody can see that it's temporary for everyone else, but when it's you whatever it is, good or bad, it feels like an eternity.

 

[PoppingTom]

"Heaven is a place, where nothing, nothing ever happens" ("Heaven" by Talking Heads)

 

[JAMESBJOHNSON]

Everybody can see that it's temporary for everyone else, but when it's you whatever it is, good or bad, it feels like an eternity.

And thats why its so diffuclt to convince people that theyre not as special as they believe; God doesnt play favorites when he rewards or shits on people.

 

[lesbiaphrodite]

Wise words, JBJ. I was watching a film the other night and had a very similar thought. It was a production of Thomas Hardy's Tess of the D'urbevilles, which is, as you know about fate and how it has a way of coming into our lives and bringing both beauty and sorrow. The trick is to understand that both are temporary. That's what I try to do, but when the bad times come (and they ALWAYS do), it's hard to remember.

And btw JBJ, I love you, guy. You're one of the few people who says what he actually thinks, whether it's good or bad. I don't always agree with you, nor you with me, but I really do cherish you.

 

[JAMESBJOHNSON]

LES

I have no stranglehold on truth or wisdom, and struggle like everyone else; but I do find that a wee bit of honesty goes a long way towards correcting my views or correcting the views of others.

What a wonderful world it would be if dog shit and gum let you know where they lurked.

 

[lesbiaphrodite]

LES

I have no stranglehold on truth or wisdom, and struggle like everyone else; but I do find that a wee bit of honesty goes a long way towards correcting my views or correcting the views of others.

What a wonderful world it would be if dog shit and gum let you know where they lurked.

LOL. Yup. I hear ya on that one, sweet man. It's a strange, strange world we live in. We'd all do a lot better if honesty were more the norm, but I don't see that happening in this lifetime or the next or the next....lol.

 

[PoppingTom]

We'd all do a lot better if honesty were more the norm, but I don't see that happening in this lifetime or the next or the next....lol.

Could it be that I got a completely other view of honesty than you got?

Not every word that hurts you must be honest. Not every word that strokes you must be a lie. I'm always stand to every word I say.

 

[lesbiaphrodite]

Could it be that I got a completely other view of honesty than you got?

Not every word that hurts you must be honest. Not every word that strokes you must be a lie. I'm always stand to every word I say.

Good point, Tom. Good point indeed. No, I definitely don't see it as that clear-cut. Honesty walks a fine, fine line. It can be horrible (the truth) or it can be exquisite (the truth). But, either way, it is always what I'm after. I have told my share of lies over the course of my life, so I am no saint at the alter of honesty. I just prefer it.

Bull-shit detection is something that I've acquired. I'm sure you have too.

 

[JAMESBJOHNSON]

POPPIN JAY

The pain is never in the knife, the pain is always in you.

 

[Trinique_Fire]

...Ah well, the subject line is a wee bit misleading. Let's say that I'm not really looking back "in anger," just with a certain amount of wonder. I remember the first post I ever made on this board way back in 2007. It was hilarious in the way I wrote it (as a novice and someone totally unfamiliar with discussion boards) and the way it was received. Oh me. The title was something about "ennui," if I'm not mistaken and I was bemoaning the horrid state of my nerves and my, well, "ennui." Boy, I got slammed for that and was told all manner of things about myself....about how I must be a boring person to be bored or heaven knows what all. I don't remember. In any case, I come to the board this morning with the same feeling I had back then. I'm bored.

And you know what? It is that very boredom that caused me to begin writing in the first place. It's why I continue to write even now. Boredom motivates me to create what I cannot find (or perhaps a better way of saying it would be, "cannot sustain") in life. The discussion board is a godsend for many reasons, not the least of which is that it offers me a place to come and whine or laugh or talk when I'm in between fits of creativity.

How the world turns, yet remains so much the same....

Here's to ennui!

This made me smile and cringe all in the same moment. I just did this the other day (looking back at my old posts). I was eighteen or nineteen and just appeared to be an utter immature goof.

On second thought, it was more like I was a puppy with no owner or direction.

Sheesh.

 

[voluptuary_manque]

This made me smile and cringe all in the same moment. I just did this the other day (looking back at my old posts). I was eighteen or nineteen and just appeared to be an utter immature goof.

On second thought, it was more like I was a puppy with no owner or direction.

Sheesh.

Need an ear scratch and a tummy rub?

For some reason last night I found a sensation of The Blues creeping up on me. I still had it this morning. However, a hearty breakfast and this empathetic thread have put a wry smile on my face and readied me to go out and do battle with the weeds in the vegetable garden before the rain starts again. Spring planting next weekend and I can hardly find the dirt! Sound the trumpets, ready the troops, combat commences.

 

[Trinique_Fire]

Need an ear scratch and a tummy rub?

I still have no owner, but at least I have direction and maturity.

 

[voluptuary_manque]

I still have no owner, but at least I have direction and maturity.

And baby!

Few things provide maturity faster than offspring--at least for most of us.

 

[Trinique_Fire]

And baby!

Few things provide maturity faster than offspring--at least for most of us.

If you know any potential owners, let me know.

 

[TheeGoatPig]

I had been in about a dozen or more forums before coming here, so my internet persona was pretty solid already. I might have taken some time to adjust to the unique personality of this particular corner of the internet, but I wasn't all that out of place when starting here.

 

[Stella_Omega]

Could it be that I got a completely other view of honesty than you got?

Not every word that hurts you must be honest. Not every word that strokes you must be a lie. I'm always stand to every word I say.

Hear, hear.

 

[JAMESBJOHNSON]

Internet personna?

IRL I'm not the rabid dog people think I am. I may hope you choke on my hospitality but I'm as sweet and pleasant as can be up to the moment I strangle you. Florence King sez Southern men are like this. Its true.

 

[Stella_Omega]

Internet personna?

IRL I'm not the rabid dog people think I am. I may hope you choke on my hospitality but I'm as sweet and pleasant as can be up to the moment I strangle you. Florence King sez Southern men are like this. Its true.

Yes, IRL you are successful and somebody loves you.

You only pretend to be a miserable ugly pile of shit.

I'm sure you have your reasons.

 

[lesbiaphrodite]

This made me smile and cringe all in the same moment. I just did this the other day (looking back at my old posts). I was eighteen or nineteen and just appeared to be an utter immature goof.

On second thought, it was more like I was a puppy with no owner or direction.

Sheesh.

You make me smile so much with your post, Trinique.

I know what you mean, sweet girl. It's a strange feeling to look back in time and see what strange words and ideas were circulating in the gray matter upstairs back then. Just a few years ago, but still, my gray matter has changed a lot since then (for the better, I hope ).

xo

 

[JAMESBJOHNSON]

Yes, IRL you are successful and somebody loves you.

You only pretend to be a miserable ugly pile of shit.

I'm sure you have your reasons.

There's no pretend to it. In the tub I sing and play with my duck; here I dont. I like nuthin better than crawling under a car and getting greasy, but not all the time.

But it wouldnt surprise me to learn that youre a Methodist Bishop 24/7.

 

[Stella_Omega]

There's no pretend to it. In the tub I sing and play with my duck; here I dont. I like nuthin better than crawling under a car and getting greasy, but not all the time.

The evidence here says that you shit on the table 24/7. You can claim you have a rubber duckie somewhere else, but here you make the room smell like shit.

I am sure you have a reason for that.