I want to be in a relationship with 2 men.

[firew0man]

I'm female, 23, and I've been thinking about this for a long time. Although I'm really confused about a lot of things - why I am like I am, for instance - I have always been sure that I don't like women sexually, so I can't really call myself a bisexual.

I do, however, love gay men. There is just something about them that makes me want to be a man and be gay at that. I often think about it, and actually wish sometimes that I'd wake up as a man, and then I'd be gay, and then I'd be perfectly happy. But I'm not, I'm still a woman, with unusual desires (are they, really?)

Anyway, I have lots of gay friends and consider them some of the best people I've met in my life, and we often hang out together and discuss a lot of stuff, from gay porn to ice skating to Karl Lagerfeld and haute coutoure to other more 'manly' stuff. No one is ever flamboyant; actually it seems like on the outside, I am hanging out with a lot of straight men in my life, although a voiceover would say, "but they are all gay". I don't know if it just happens that we have the same interests together, or maybe I *was* gay in my past life. But I enjoy their company sometimes even better than when I am with my female friends.

I get off on a lot of gay porn and erotic stories depicting gay relationships. Sometimes I even feel envious. I don't know how accurate gay relationships are portrayed in films or books these days, but allow me to say that I want something like that for myself someday.

So lately, I've been thinking that I really want to be in a relationship with two men. I browse this forum a lot to read what other people say about MMF connections, however, most of them are original husband + wife relationship with another guy being involved. What I want is to meet two men who already are in a relationship, and are just looking for the right woman to complete them. I want to be that woman.

I don't know. Am I weird? Am I foolish for wanting something like this? Is this even possible? I just believe that two guys who love each other is really pure and beautiful, and to be part of it is something I've always dreamed about. Two men loving each other, and both of them loving me, in return. And my role as a woman, as a female body, is recognized completely, in that they enjoy being with me sexually, too. I want to be able to have sex with both men, and with one man while the other is fucking the one who's fucking me, or both are fucking me in my cunt and my ass, and many more. I want to fall asleep in bed with their arms wrapped around me, or with their arms wrapped around each other and me embracing either one, I don't know, maybe we'll take turns.

I want to be in a real relationship with two other men, who worry about me, take care of me, desire me, and who I love back fiercely in return.

*sigh* It's late, I'm alone in my bedroom drinking from my secret beer stash. I don't know if I'm making sense. But I'm hoping this reaches out to someone out there who would understand.

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UPDATE: Based from the discussions here so far, the best way for me to go about it is to find two bi men who are already in a relationship. Or find a bi man for myself and get involved with him, before approaching another bi guy to invite into our relationship.

Let me be clear that I am indeed looking for bi men so I can join in the sexual equation, of course, as I don't think two gay men will welcome me, nor do I want to invade that

 

[Fireman69r]

hi where are you bsaed to make this fantasy come true?

 

[texharley]

I'm female, about to turn twenty-three in a few days, and I've been thinking about this for a long time. Although I'm really confused about a lot of things - why I am like I am, for instance - I have always been sure that I don't like women sexually, so I can't really call myself a bisexual.

I do, however, love gay men. There is just something about them that makes me want to be a man and be gay at that. I often think about it, and actually wish sometimes that I'd wake up as a man, and then I'd be gay, and then I'd be perfectly happy. But I'm not, I'm still a woman, with unusual desires (are they, really?)

Anyway, I have lots of gay friends and consider them some of the best people I've met in my life, and we often hang out together and discuss a lot of stuff, from gay porn to ice skating to Karl Lagerfeld and haute coutoure to other more 'manly' stuff. No one is ever flamboyant; actually it seems like on the outside, I am hanging out with a lot of straight men in my life, although a voiceover would say, "but they are all gay". I don't know if it just happens that we have the same interests together, or maybe I *was* gay in my past life. But I enjoy their company sometimes even better than when I am with my female friends.

I get off on a lot of gay porn and erotic stories depicting gay relationships. Sometimes I even feel envious. I don't know how accurate gay relationships are portrayed in films or books these days, but allow me to say that I want something like that for myself someday.

So lately, I've been thinking that I really want to be in a relationship with two men. I browse this forum a lot to read what other people say about MMF connections, however, most of them are original husband + wife relationship with another guy being involved. What I want is to meet two men who already are in a relationship, and are just looking for the right woman to complete them. I want to be that woman.

I don't know. Am I weird? Am I foolish for wanting something like this? Is this even possible? I just believe that two guys who love each other is really pure and beautiful, and to be part of it is something I've always dreamed about. Two men loving each other, and both of them loving me, in return. And my role as a woman, as a female body, is recognized completely, in that they enjoy being with me sexually, too. I want to be able to have sex with both men, and with one man while the other is fucking the one who's fucking me, or both are fucking me in my cunt and my ass, and many more. I want to fall asleep in bed with their arms wrapped around me, or with their arms wrapped around each other and me embracing either one, I don't know, maybe we'll take turns.

I want to be in a real relationship with two other men, who worry about me, take care of me, desire me, and who I love back fiercely in return.

*sigh* It's late, I'm alone in my bedroom drinking from my secret beer stash. I don't know if I'm making sense. But I'm hoping this reaches out to someone out there who would understand.

Okay I am bisexual and what you just described is most bisexual men's dream. however you want 2 gay men in a relationship. the gay men I know do not want to have sex with women and are not interested in women. YOu probably will have to find a bi male and get in a ralationship with him first then the two of you can search for that right second man.

 

[sunandshadow]

I can definitely sympathize with that - being a mostly straight woman who prefers gay erotica, when I am attracted to a man at least half the time he turns out to be gay, and I occasionally fantasize about being a gay man and think mmf pairings are really hot. I don't have any useful advice about putting together a threesome, but I can say I've read some hot mfm erotic romance novels recently if you want recommendations.

The Fallon Mates series by Jory Strong is great, and Alien Overnight by Robin L. Rotham was also good. On the other hand these both exemplify a strange trait of threesome romance novels to be actually a bit homophobic, these both go slightly out of their way to give the heroes an opportunity to protest that they are 100% straight and only interested in the woman, not each other. I do have one book sitting on my shelf where the two men are explicitly bi, but I haven't read that one yet because it doesn't look like the story and prose will be that good - maybe it will surprise me though.

 

[iswallowloads]

I agree with Tex. I think your best bet will be to find two bi guys. But it definitely won't be easy to find two that want a relationship like that. While a lot of bi men would probably love to tag team you, and mess around with each other, finding two that also want to be in a three way committed relationship might be hard. One might get jealous of the other, or even you.

But you should definitely look for what you want. Be patient and honest and you'll find it. Good luck.

 

[firew0man]

Okay I am bisexual and what you just described is most bisexual men's dream. however you want 2 gay men in a relationship. the gay men I know do not want to have sex with women and are not interested in women. YOu probably will have to find a bi male and get in a ralationship with him first then the two of you can search for that right second man.

yeah that's what I thought so, too. i was thinking, of course this wouldn't work with gay men, of course. so i have to find myself a bisexual man then. but I got to ask you, since you yourself are bisexual, do you have relationships involving a woman and a man at the same time? or is it always one at a time?

 

[firew0man]

I can definitely sympathize with that - being a mostly straight woman who prefers gay erotica, when I am attracted to a man at least half the time he turns out to be gay, and I occasionally fantasize about being a gay man and think mmf pairings are really hot. I don't have any useful advice about putting together a threesome, but I can say I've read some hot mfm erotic romance novels recently if you want recommendations.

The Fallon Mates series by Jory Strong is great, and Alien Overnight by Robin L. Rotham was also good. On the other hand these both exemplify a strange trait of threesome romance novels to be actually a bit homophobic, these both go slightly out of their way to give the heroes an opportunity to protest that they are 100% straight and only interested in the woman, not each other. I do have one book sitting on my shelf where the two men are explicitly bi, but I haven't read that one yet because it doesn't look like the story and prose will be that good - maybe it will surprise me though.

thanks for the heads up and I'm happy to find someone who feels the same way I do. and will definitely check out these titles. i've been reading a lot of Carol Lynne lately, and one story - Twin Temptations (sounds ominous! haha) definitely stood out to me because it's the kind of relationship I've been envisioning for myself.

 

[firew0man]

I agree with Tex. I think your best bet will be to find two bi guys. But it definitely won't be easy to find two that want a relationship like that. While a lot of bi men would probably love to tag team you, and mess around with each other, finding two that also want to be in a three way committed relationship might be hard. One might get jealous of the other, or even you.

But you should definitely look for what you want. Be patient and honest and you'll find it. Good luck.

yeah. that might be a problem. are bi men never into a relationship that involves a woman and a man at the same time? that's what I asked Tex awhile ago. I mean, sexual encounters, yes, but an actual relationship? is it possible?

anyway. yeah. my head's pretty messed up right now thinking about this.

 

[Etoile]

What tex said is exactly right.

Whether or not someone wants to be in a poly relationship is going to depend on the individual. It's also going to depend on what you want. Are you sure you want a poly relationship, or do you just want to be with a guy who loves to fuck other guys, but only has a relationship with you?

You can never say never when it comes to relationships. I'm sure plenty of bi men are in relationships with both. Sometimes they know about each other, sometimes not. You could be of the "know each other" variety.

I really think finding a guy who shares your interests (that is, someone who wants an MMF ongoing relationship) is the place to start, and then finding the third person comes next.

 

[gaymm]

Maybe not exactly what you are looking for, but Tyra Banks did a show on gay men who "hate" being gay. This particular clip is about an openly gay man (who despite the show's title, doesn't hate being gay) married to a woman, and they share their experiences. I would have to say that it is very unusual.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJ2DNJ_r18U&feature=related

I empathize with your feelings, and have to say be patient. You may find some men or man who would be open to sharing. Most likely the scenario would be as above...with you allowing your man to be with other men and then on occasion being part of their love making.

But I must say as a gay man, (and and similarly for many, many, gay men that I know - even some who have been with women), I would not want a woman involved with our relationship, sex or lovemaking. One, I just am not interested or aroused by women, it's not ewww, but it can kill a mood. While I have friends who are women, I am most comfortable, natural, open and at ease with other gay men.

best wishes
chris

 

[firew0man]

What tex said is exactly right.

Whether or not someone wants to be in a poly relationship is going to depend on the individual. It's also going to depend on what you want. Are you sure you want a poly relationship, or do you just want to be with a guy who loves to fuck other guys, but only has a relationship with you?

You can never say never when it comes to relationships. I'm sure plenty of bi men are in relationships with both. Sometimes they know about each other, sometimes not. You could be of the "know each other" variety.

I really think finding a guy who shares your interests (that is, someone who wants an MMF ongoing relationship) is the place to start, and then finding the third person comes next.

Thanks for the input. I want to be with two men. I don't know if that's selfish or egotistic or just plain crazy. I just have this notion in my head that to be part of a threesome is something that I would really enjoy -- not just sex but the relationship as a whole.

But yes, now that I think about it maybe I should just start with being with a bi man first, yeah? I sound so silly now when I think about it. Maybe I'm just naive or too idealistic about it. I have had monogamous relationships with guys who were willing to be part of a threesome, but it's only just to share me. Like one time my ex wanted a threesome with another girl, and I agreed, only if the next time it'll be him and another guy with me. And the whole time it was just them sharing me, and nothing sexual happened between the guys. It's always been like that, and it's just now that I'm coming to terms really of what I want. So this is a bit confusing to me, too.

But thanks for this. Made me think.

 

[firew0man]

Maybe not exactly what you are looking for, but Tyra Banks did a show on gay men who "hate" being gay. This particular clip is about an openly gay man (who despite the show's title, doesn't hate being gay) married to a woman, and they share their experiences. I would have to say that it is very unusual.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJ2DNJ_r18U&feature=related

I empathize with your feelings, and have to say be patient. You may find some men or man who would be open to sharing. Most likely the scenario would be as above...with you allowing your man to be with other men and then on occasion being part of their love making.

But I must say as a gay man, (and and similarly for many, many, gay men that I know - even some who have been with women), I would not want a woman involved with our relationship, sex or lovemaking. One, I just am not interested or aroused by women, it's not ewww, but it can kill a mood. While I have friends who are women, I am most comfortable, natural, open and at ease with other gay men.

best wishes
chris

Hello. Yeah yeah I totally get you about gay men not wanting to share their guy with a woman. Of course. I've discussed this with my gay friends too and they said exactly the same thing you did -- so maybe I should clarify that maybe what I need are two bi men, and not two gay men. I just so love my gay friends and have been with them the longest that I blend in so well, that sometimes they joke around and say that the only thing missing from me is a penis haha.

But I can't do anything about it, I'm still a woman who loves men, but I think now I'm coming to terms that what I really want is a man who loves both men and women. I mean, sure, I could *settle* for a guy who loves me, and only me, and I think I could live with that...only there's a part of me that wants this really really really bad. Am I weird or what?

 

[alaskabibear]

Actually I think what you desire is very desirable. However, as with all love it will be hard to find. In other words, it's really hard to find just one other person that clicks with you and you with them...trying for three just makes it harder. But the "fantasy" is a nice one and one I share with you (except from a mans point of view). If you really want to try to find this, you should look more into "poly" relationships. There's a couple of web forums similar to Lit. but dedicated to this subject. But be sure to guard your heart - two is hard...three is even harder (and you'll get some good advice on this on the poly web sites).

I've set a link to a couple of stories I've put here on Lit. They are under my pen-name of yukonnights. And even though the three way love affair deals more with the two men than with the woman, it does reflect the same type of relationship you and I desire. Perhaps your post shall "inspire" me to try and write a sequel from the woman's point of view. Best of wishes to your quest.

stories;http://www.literotica.com/stories/memberpage.php?uid=838252&page=submissions

 

[DS_Curious]

I had a girlfriend with the same desires. It initially scared the hell out of me. But the more we talked about it, the comfortable I became with it. After a while, I also got turned on too. Now I wish we were still together.

FirewOman, I understand and hope you find what you're looking for!

 

[firew0man]

Actually I think what you desire is very desirable. However, as with all love it will be hard to find. In other words, it's really hard to find just one other person that clicks with you and you with them...trying for three just makes it harder. But the "fantasy" is a nice one and one I share with you (except from a mans point of view). If you really want to try to find this, you should look more into "poly" relationships. There's a couple of web forums similar to Lit. but dedicated to this subject. But be sure to guard your heart - two is hard...three is even harder (and you'll get some good advice on this on the poly web sites).

I've set a link to a couple of stories I've put here on Lit. They are under my pen-name of yukonnights. And even though the three way love affair deals more with the two men than with the woman, it does reflect the same type of relationship you and I desire. Perhaps your post shall "inspire" me to try and write a sequel from the woman's point of view. Best of wishes to your quest.

stories;http://www.literotica.com/stories/memberpage.php?uid=838252&page=submissions

Yeah. *sigh* now I'm all wistful. I guess it's good that I opened up about this here, and got feedback from you guys. I might be dreaming for the impossible...maybe I shouldn't hope too much and then just be happy being with a guy. The least I could hope for is for him to let me lick and finger his ass haha.

Thanks for the stories, @alaskabibear, I'll read them in a bit =)

 

[firew0man]

I had a girlfriend with the same desires. It initially scared the hell out of me. But the more we talked about it, the comfortable I became with it. After a while, I also got turned on too. Now I wish we were still together.

FirewOman, I understand and hope you find what you're looking for!

Thanks, dear. Why did it scare you? I'm just curious. Does the thought of sharing your girlfriend scare you, or is it more because you'll be in bed with another man whom you might get involved with, too?

 

[DS_Curious]

Thanks, dear. Why did it scare you? I'm just curious. Does the thought of sharing your girlfriend scare you, or is it more because you'll be in bed with another man whom you might get involved with, too?

It scared me because it pushed my boundaries and made me question my sexuality. As we explored in our discussions, I would often find myself turned on when she would describe in detail what turned her on. I also began to think about the things she wanted me to do when I would masturbate. It became a big turn-on for me over time.

Sharing my girlfriend wasn't scary for me. I know she really cared for me and I was secure in my relationship with her. I wasn't afraid of losing her.

Now, it's something I wish I could make happen. I want to experience the pleasure of a MFM and all that it would entail. Plus it would be a huge turn on to please her by doing as she desires.

Feel free to PM me if you want to...

 

[texharley]

yeah that's what I thought so, too. i was thinking, of course this wouldn't work with gay men, of course. so i have to find myself a bisexual man then. but I got to ask you, since you yourself are bisexual, do you have relationships involving a woman and a man at the same time? or is it always one at a time?

I am more than willing to share my wife with another man but hse is not so I am living a straight life due to not wanting a divorce. I could live in a MMF commited ralationship.

 

[firew0man]

It scared me because it pushed my boundaries and made me question my sexuality. As we explored in our discussions, I would often find myself turned on when she would describe in detail what turned her on. I also began to think about the things she wanted me to do when I would masturbate. It became a big turn-on for me over time.

Sharing my girlfriend wasn't scary for me. I know she really cared for me and I was secure in my relationship with her. I wasn't afraid of losing her.

Now, it's something I wish I could make happen. I want to experience the pleasure of a MFM and all that it would entail. Plus it would be a huge turn on to please her by doing as she desires.

Feel free to PM me if you want to...

So are you pretty much into guys now, too, or are you just turned on when in the context of a threesome? Would you do sexual things with a guy with a woman present (MFM, MMF...)?

Before when I was younger, I used to get turned on a lot with girl-on-girl action, that's my favourite kind of porn to watch then. I get really wet thinking about women going down on me but have never wanted to eat pussy myself. My friend told me that if I'm going to be like that in actual sex I'd be a selfish tease. Anyway I used to think about my sexuality too, if I was becoming a lesbian or what.

Today though I only want men. And men wanting men. haha.

 

[firew0man]

I am more than willing to share my wife with another man but hse is not so I am living a straight life due to not wanting a divorce. I could live in a MMF commited ralationship.

I see. Do you see men from time to time though? Wish I could find a guy like you!

 

[p3bbls]

Wow.. Good luck

 

[DS_Curious]

So are you pretty much into guys now, too, or are you just turned on when in the context of a threesome? Would you do sexual things with a guy with a woman present (MFM, MMF...)?

Before when I was younger, I used to get turned on a lot with girl-on-girl action, that's my favourite kind of porn to watch then. I get really wet thinking about women going down on me but have never wanted to eat pussy myself. My friend told me that if I'm going to be like that in actual sex I'd be a selfish tease. Anyway I used to think about my sexuality too, if I was becoming a lesbian or what.

Today though I only want men. And men wanting men. haha.

FW, I am really only interested in a relationship with a F that wants a MFM lifestyle. I'm not, nor would I be, into a MM relationship. Don't get me wrong, I still love women! I would do sexual things with a woman present. I would love to... especially at her direction. What would you like to see? What would turn you on?

I get turned on by FF porn... love it! So you love it when someone goes down on you... have you fantasized about going down or being forced to go down on a woman? Are you submissive or more dominate? Last, do you taste yourself (lick your fingers or other)? If so, do you like it?

So today, you only want men wanting men... would a bi-MFMF interest you? Or is it a MFM that you desire most?

 

[firew0man]

I know where you are coming from and there are guys out there for you. I have a significant other who wont be apart of my bi-life. I do know a few bi-guys that would be interested in having a similar relationship to what you offer, however cant find the right woman. I agree with the others though, you would have to start with a poly relationship with a bi-guy and go from there!!

Godd luck

I do hope I can find my two bi guys in my near future.

 

[jdee1]

Count me and my cock in!

 

[firew0man]

FW, I am really only interested in a relationship with a F that wants a MFM lifestyle. I'm not, nor would I be, into a MM relationship. Don't get me wrong, I still love women! I would do sexual things with a woman present. I would love to... especially at her direction. What would you like to see? What would turn you on?

I get turned on by FF porn... love it! So you love it when someone goes down on you... have you fantasized about going down or being forced to go down on a woman? Are you submissive or more dominate? Last, do you taste yourself (lick your fingers or other)? If so, do you like it?

So today, you only want men wanting men... would a bi-MFMF interest you? Or is it a MFM that you desire most?

I have been involved in MFM situations before, but I can't say that I've been in a *relationship*. I think it's really hot and it turns me on so much, and I get wet right now just thinking about it. What would make it hotter for me, is for the two men to get involved with each other, too. That's what I really want, for them to desire each other as much as they desire me individually.

As for FF porn, yeah I used to get turned on by it so much before. I've also had my share of orgies, and at times, have had women going down on me, but I've never eaten pussy. Outside of that I've no interest in women -- I've kissed a lot and sucked on breasts but it really doesn't do anything to me. So I guess I just like cock. And yes I've tasted myself and liked it.