Bistro Bijou

[UnderYourSpell]

If we all clap our hands right now, perhaps...

bj

Is that like 'I believe in fairies'?

 

[Angeline]

Huh! Mine says “Manufactured by the Vibratron Vibrator Manufacturing Company of North America, A Wholly Owned Subsidiary of the God, I Bet Men Wished They Had Ones As Big As This Home Improvement Products Company of Northern Saskatoon, Canada” there is some fine print too, but know about my poor vision… just can’t read anything smaller than 4” letters.

You should see Amy’s though… she has the Big model!

Oh. I got confused.

My computer says Boston Red Socks on the side. My vibrator says Dior.

 

[Angeline]

If we all clap our hands right now, perhaps...

bj

*I do believe in Tzara! I do believe in Tzara!*

:wistful:

 

[normal jean]

.................

 

[Safe_Bet]

one last hug

j

Hugs back, sweetie.

 

[Tzara]

From the bottom of my heart...

You be well, J.

 

[Tzara]

*I do believe in Tzara! I do believe in Tzara!*

:wistful:

I do too, actually. Unsurprisingly.

What worries me is what you believe.

I've never even been to Orono!

Well, except for that one time. But I can explain that. And they said they would expunge the record.

 

[Angeline]

From the bottom of my heart, I apologize for the misery and distress I have instigated here for so many of you.

I do have problems and went to my doctor today, and after a verrry short discussion with my hubby and kids, we have decided it's best if I go back to the hospital. I know the stigma attached to my "problem." Annie, God bless you sweet LAdy, well, she recognized it and she is a God send, she should be worshiped I know she will have a set of wings when Heaven calls her home. ( if that is what she believes, if not, I apologize for making assumptions.)

I apologize to BJ...hell, she is just being herself. And who am I to judge, who cares if I dont like what she does, its her life and she ios happy. I wish I were.

anyway, I come to you all, embarrassed, humiliated and so immensley sorry. Sometimes I get in a manic rage is what the doctor calls it and I told angleine what set if off and I blamed the wrong person.

I'm sorry. I wi sh I could be funny, care free and happy, make everyone feel like a king or queeen, buut theres something eating away at my soul and I am ready for it to end, but others see it differently.

I wish and pray that you wont hate me. I am not that person, and maybe they will pump me full of happy pills and teh good ol Maria will come back. I miss her too ya knowl It hurts not knowing what or who ou are and I never meant to take it out on you kind people here. I dont deserve half the decency you have shown me since I melted down the other day.

please forgive me, and if you cant, I understand that too.

i really do love you all, its me I have the problem with.

one last hug

j

I was ok with you two days ago.

I do too, actually. Unsurprisingly.

What worries me is what you believe.

I've never even been to Orono!

Well, except for that one time. But I can explain that. And they said they would expunge the record.

That explains the flyer with that poem of yours in the post office.

 

[Anschul]

Let's see...where to start...

Firstly, let's take care of T-Zed:
http://i277.photobucket.com/albums/kk67/freddheadpix/patron-1.jpg

No kidding? Muff diving is a science? Damn, wait till I tell Amy!

Well now, aren't you, SB a nice addition to the madness? Welcome to BJ's...you are welcome to stay here and be who you be for as long as you wish to be her!

And, congratulations, by the way.
May I contribute this? http://i222.photobucket.com/albums/dd219/hols77/cake.jpg
It's all marzipan! Wunderbar!

Hey Tzara, I'm back for a moment after having saved the world, although soon I must go home. I do data recovery, even from drives out of which the Magick Smoke has escaped.

If you want me to take a look, send me a PM and we can work out the logistics.

Snood

Sierra-November-Oscar-Oscar-Delta, be careful what offers you make. I might be next in line.

If we all clap our hands right now, perhaps...

bj

There's no place like Seattle...There's no place like Seattle...There's no place like Seattle...There's...

Except maybe someplace dry...

From the bottom of my heart, I apologize for the misery and distress I have instigated here for so many of you.

I do have problems and went to my doctor today, and after a verrry short discussion with my hubby and kids, we have decided it's best if I go back to the hospital. I know the stigma attached to my "problem." Annie, God bless you sweet LAdy, well, she recognized it and she is a God send, she should be worshiped I know she will have a set of wings when Heaven calls her home. ( if that is what she believes, if not, I apologize for making assumptions.)

I apologize to BJ...hell, she is just being herself. And who am I to judge, who cares if I dont like what she does, its her life and she ios happy. I wish I were.

anyway, I come to you all, embarrassed, humiliated and so immensley sorry. Sometimes I get in a manic rage is what the doctor calls it and I told angleine what set if off and I blamed the wrong person.

I'm sorry. I wi sh I could be funny, care free and happy, make everyone feel like a king or queeen, buut theres something eating away at my soul and I am ready for it to end, but others see it differently.

I wish and pray that you wont hate me. I am not that person, and maybe they will pump me full of happy pills and teh good ol Maria will come back. I miss her too ya knowl It hurts not knowing what or who ou are and I never meant to take it out on you kind people here. I dont deserve half the decency you have shown me since I melted down the other day.

please forgive me, and if you cant, I understand that too.

i really do love you all, its me I have the problem with.

one last hug

j

YAY!!!!! Thank you, muse...


And one other thing...BJ, I just love it when you get in my whey. And you can be fraiche with me any time you want!

 

[Tzara]

From...

Quoted as excuse to maybe get to you, since you are wiping all your posts.

Jule. Sweet.

You just get well, OK? I, for one, need some more of your froggy poems. Because, well, I like frogs and their jumpliness.

I know, not a word. So I am neological machine. This is a crisis?

Maybe it's that I'd just like to jump—

or hop on?—

or simply fuck (Oh, oh. That may be too bold.)
the wonderful femininity that swirls here about me.

You are one with that wonder full thingie, y'know.

As I said before, you be well, OK?

And come back, hey?

Because else I'd miss you.

 

[LadynStFreknBed]

From the bottom of my heart, I apologize for the misery and distress I have instigated here for so many of you.

I do have problems and went to my doctor today, and after a verrry short discussion with my hubby and kids, we have decided it's best if I go back to the hospital. I know the stigma attached to my "problem." Annie, God bless you sweet LAdy, well, she recognized it and she is a God send, she should be worshiped I know she will have a set of wings when Heaven calls her home. ( if that is what she believes, if not, I apologize for making assumptions.)

I apologize to BJ...hell, she is just being herself. And who am I to judge, who cares if I dont like what she does, its her life and she ios happy. I wish I were.

anyway, I come to you all, embarrassed, humiliated and so immensley sorry. Sometimes I get in a manic rage is what the doctor calls it and I told angleine what set if off and I blamed the wrong person.

I'm sorry. I wi sh I could be funny, care free and happy, make everyone feel like a king or queeen, buut theres something eating away at my soul and I am ready for it to end, but others see it differently.

I wish and pray that you wont hate me. I am not that person, and maybe they will pump me full of happy pills and teh good ol Maria will come back. I miss her too ya knowl It hurts not knowing what or who ou are and I never meant to take it out on you kind people here. I dont deserve half the decency you have shown me since I melted down the other day.

please forgive me, and if you cant, I understand that too.

i really do love you all, its me I have the problem with.

one last hug

j

As someone with bipolar disorder, been there, done that, J. I never get rages with my manic episodes, I just write a novel instead of sleeping. LOL Anyway, I wish you well. Take care.

 

[Tzara]

Let's see...where to start...

Firstly, let's take care of T-Zed:
http://i277.photobucket.com/albums/kk67/freddheadpix/patron-1.jpg

I hope you are not expecting the bottle back.

Yes, that was a question.

 

[sassynyc]

Tz, do these appearances mean your tech woes are over, and you're back in on the 30/30? The raft is dangerously adrift.

 

[Tzara]

Tz, do these appearances mean your tech woes are over, and you're back in on the 30/30? The raft is dangerously adrift.

No, it means, m'dear, that I own several computers. Recovery procedures on the mothership are going from bad to worse.

But, hey. Those are old poems. I be rocking forward, albeit somewhat disconsolately, waving my pennant rather feebly in your direction.

Do you see it? Can you glimpse my, um, affection?

I know. It's a long way to New York. I thought I'd try, anyway.

 

[sassynyc]

Yes, I can see your, um, affection all the way from the left coast.
Question: How often do you recommend backing up your work. I just did backup last week. Since the 30/30, I'm adding something new everyday, but figured I'd wait 'til the 30 is completed before backing up again.
Suggestions?

This stuff is probably plenty obvious to you, but I am quite the tech neophyte, so I figured I'd ask.

 

[Homburg]

From the bottom of my heart, I apologize for the misery and distress I have instigated here for so many of you.

*snip*

please forgive me, and if you cant, I understand that too.

i really do love you all, its me I have the problem with.

one last hug

j

MIS, my beloved gal, is bipolar. Not just plain old bipolar. No, she's juvenile diagnosed bipolar, with rapid cycling. She's fortunate that she has some supremely competent medical help, and that her folks were persistent in working to find someone that could help her, and she is as regular as clockwork in taking her meds, much to her credit.

Yet she still has problems, and has relapses when the meds just don't do it. And I love her anyway, and do everything I can to keep her from going to far when it happens. But it doesn't matter what I do, or how forgiving _I_ am, she is the one that always has the hardest time forgiving herself for what happened while she was having problems. It hurts me so bad to see her going through that, despising herself for something she can't control.

You don't know me personally, and I'm no expert anyway, but, please, listen to me. Look around you and see that people forgive you, and they understand that you aren't really in control, and not making good decisions when this happens. If everyone else can forgive you, especially those who faced the brunt of it, maybe, just maybe, you might think about forgiving yourself.

I hope you come back when you're feeling more clear of this. *hugs*

 

[UnderYourSpell]

From the bottom of my heart, I apologize for the misery and distress I have instigated here for so many of you.

I do have problems and went to my doctor today, and after a verrry short discussion with my hubby and kids, we have decided it's best if I go back to the hospital. I know the stigma attached to my "problem." Annie, God bless you sweet LAdy, well, she recognized it and she is a God send, she should be worshiped I know she will have a set of wings when Heaven calls her home. ( if that is what she believes, if not, I apologize for making assumptions.)

I apologize to BJ...hell, she is just being herself. And who am I to judge, who cares if I dont like what she does, its her life and she ios happy. I wish I were.

anyway, I come to you all, embarrassed, humiliated and so immensley sorry. Sometimes I get in a manic rage is what the doctor calls it and I told angleine what set if off and I blamed the wrong person.

I'm sorry. I wi sh I could be funny, care free and happy, make everyone feel like a king or queeen, buut theres something eating away at my soul and I am ready for it to end, but others see it differently.

I wish and pray that you wont hate me. I am not that person, and maybe they will pump me full of happy pills and teh good ol Maria will come back. I miss her too ya knowl It hurts not knowing what or who ou are and I never meant to take it out on you kind people here. I dont deserve half the decency you have shown me since I melted down the other day.

please forgive me, and if you cant, I understand that too.

i really do love you all, its me I have the problem with.

one last hug

j

You knew I wouldn't leave you no mattter what. I am just glad it did some good ... I was flying blind you know!! I didn't know if what I was saying was the right thing I just gave you love.

 

[Tzara]

Yes, I can see your, um, affection all the way from the left coast.
Question: How often do you recommend backing up your work. I just did backup last week. Since the 30/30, I'm adding something new everyday, but figured I'd wait 'til the 30 is completed before backing up again.
Suggestions?

This stuff is probably plenty obvious to you, but I am quite the tech neophyte, so I figured I'd ask.

Sorry, I was off working on the system last night and didn't see this until now.

Anything that you put on Lit, either via submissions to New Poems or just posted on the forum threads is stored on Lit's servers. So in some way it's as if you've backed it up offsite. (This assumes Lit itself doesn't crash or go away, of course.) So you should be fine waiting until you finish your 30/30 before backing up.

I haven't lost any recent poems for that reason. They're still here on Lit. I may have lost some older ones that I don't have hard copies of, unless they were in my last backup, which most of them should be.

 

[LadynStFreknBed]

The Biggest Difference

You know what I think the biggest difference is between this forum and the AH? Here, poets gather and encourage each other as they strive to perfect their own art. The AH is riddled with competitive spirit. This is not meant as an insult to the AH. I've been active there and will be in the future. Competition is not inherently bad. It can be fun unless egos trip others' efforts. I'm just as guillty of letting my ego get the best of me at times... and nothing good comes from that.

Among poets, I see more of a kindred spirit fostering the betterment of every poet here. For I think that poets recognize that a poetic gift improved by one is a prize for all.

I also realize the downside of the poetic spirit. I know I am "guilty" of this, and I think many others can relate- poets feel deeply. This is a blessing and a curse. Sometimes emotions get the best of me. Being bipolar certainly doesn't help.. or does it? But, concerning recent drama, I'd rather be exposed to an occassional emotional outburst than a clash of egos. It's to be expected in a group of poets. LOL

bj and NJ, I hope you don't think that I'm making light of what transpired. I hope everything has been either cleared or accepted as personal differences. My point is that this is a place of growth- a place of philosophy and emotions. With the good comes the bad, as with all things in life. Here, I see much more good than bad. I hope that continues to be the case.

-Sheila

 

[Sara Crewe]

I hope you are not expecting the bottle back.

Yes, that was a question.

He was expecting you to share.

Wow.

Oink. Oink.

 

[Safe_Bet]

You know what I think the biggest difference is between this forum and the AH? Here, poets gather and encourage each other as they strive to perfect their own art. The AH is riddled with competitive spirit. [...]

[...] Among poets, I see more of a kindred spirit fostering the betterment of every poet here. For I think that poets recognize that a poetic gift improved by one is a prize for all. [...]

Brava. Nothing but the truth.

That's why I have put my stories on SOL and ASSTR. Other authors might jack your scores on SOL, but at least they don't 'count coup' by how often they flame one another.

As for PF&D, I've only written one story since I've been back (yea, I know – my flipping poems READ like stories = shut up, already!), because I REALLY like this community of poets. I'm enjoying writing poetry (almost exclusively) because of the people and the ‘feel’. Honest feedback that might temporarily piss me off, but which DOES help me improve: Check. Nice people: Check. High level of expertise: Check. Am I learning from them: Check. Made me feel ‘welcome’ from the get go: Check. Serious, hurtful bullshit: No check. People that say “You suck, but we won’t help you get better”: No check.

I guess what I’m saying is Thanks. You all are pretty alright, for a bunch of arrogant, egotistical, Bs/SOBs.

 

[Angeline]

You know what I think the biggest difference is between this forum and the AH? Here, poets gather and encourage each other as they strive to perfect their own art. The AH is riddled with competitive spirit. This is not meant as an insult to the AH. I've been active there and will be in the future. Competition is not inherently bad. It can be fun unless egos trip others' efforts. I'm just as guillty of letting my ego get the best of me at times... and nothing good comes from that.

Among poets, I see more of a kindred spirit fostering the betterment of every poet here. For I think that poets recognize that a poetic gift improved by one is a prize for all.

I also realize the downside of the poetic spirit. I know I am "guilty" of this, and I think many others can relate- poets feel deeply. This is a blessing and a curse. Sometimes emotions get the best of me. Being bipolar certainly doesn't help.. or does it? But, concerning recent drama, I'd rather be exposed to an occassional emotional outburst than a clash of egos. It's to be expected in a group of poets. LOL

bj and NJ, I hope you don't think that I'm making light of what transpired. I hope everything has been either cleared or accepted as personal differences. My point is that this is a place of growth- a place of philosophy and emotions. With the good comes the bad, as with all things in life. Here, I see much more good than bad. I hope that continues to be the case.

-Sheila

I think it's very competitive here, too, but the poet-people always seem to overcome it and reach out to each other when they need it the most. Actually I don't know if that's diff from the AH because I'm hardly ever there, but it is what I most love about the people here.

 

[Anschul]

I hope you are not expecting the bottle back.

Yes, that was a question.

As the guy who made the Dorito's commercials once said, "Go ahead, finish it. We'll make more."
And then we'll come and pick you up off the floor.

You know what I think the biggest difference is between this forum and the AH? Here, poets gather and encourage each other as they strive to perfect their own art. The AH is riddled with competitive spirit. This is not meant as an insult to the AH. I've been active there and will be in the future. Competition is not inherently bad. It can be fun unless egos trip others' efforts. I'm just as guillty of letting my ego get the best of me at times... and nothing good comes from that.

Among poets, I see more of a kindred spirit fostering the betterment of every poet here. For I think that poets recognize that a poetic gift improved by one is a prize for all.

I also realize the downside of the poetic spirit. I know I am "guilty" of this, and I think many others can relate- poets feel deeply. This is a blessing and a curse. Sometimes emotions get the best of me. Being bipolar certainly doesn't help.. or does it? But, concerning recent drama, I'd rather be exposed to an occassional emotional outburst than a clash of egos. It's to be expected in a group of poets. LOL

bj and NJ, I hope you don't think that I'm making light of what transpired. I hope everything has been either cleared or accepted as personal differences. My point is that this is a place of growth- a place of philosophy and emotions. With the good comes the bad, as with all things in life. Here, I see much more good than bad. I hope that continues to be the case.

-Sheila

What she said!!! In triplicate!!!
What she said!!! What she said!!!

Brava. Nothing but the truth.

That's why I have put my stories on SOL and ASSTR. Other authors might jack your scores on SOL, but at least they don't 'count coup' by how often they flame one another.

As for PF&D, I've only written one story since I've been back (yea, I know – my flipping poems READ like stories = shut up, already!), because I REALLY like this community of poets. I'm enjoying writing poetry (almost exclusively) because of the people and the ‘feel’. Honest feedback that might temporarily piss me off, but which DOES help me improve: Check. Nice people: Check. High level of expertise: Check. Am I learning from them: Check. Made me feel ‘welcome’ from the get go: Check. Serious, hurtful bullshit: No check. People that say “You suck, but we won’t help you get better”: No check.

I guess what I’m saying is Thanks. You all are pretty alright, for a bunch of arrogant, egotistical, Bs/SOBs.

Compliment gratefully acknowledged.

 

[Tzara]

I think it's very competitive here, too, but the poet-people always seem to overcome it and reach out to each other when they need it the most. Actually I don't know if that's diff from the AH because I'm hardly ever there, but it is what I most love about the people here.

We certainly have had our share of "You're an idiot" "No, you're an idiot" screaming matches. But I think most people who hang around here for any length of time are pretty welcoming of different opinions and styles.

Besides, reading Rilke (as I am doing now) is a humbling experience for the ego of anyone attempting to write poetry.

But I do have to say that the AH doesn't seem that bad to me, not that I spend that much time there. A lot of the people there seem very helpful to others.

 

[unpredictablebijou]

Rilke?

*pokes head around kitchen door to eavesdrop*

hi all. I'll be back here writing porn if anyone needs me.

bj