Bistro Bijou

[loststar]

well, looks like we lost them to the back room, well its a good thing I left lunch in there, and plenty of orange and apple juice, they need to keep their strenth up

 

[Anschul]

Thank you!

Yea! I did it. I actually wrote a haiku. LOL

-Sheila

LadyS, I'm with Leon. Great haiku. I loved following your comments on the haiku thread...it was almost as if I could watch you learn, as I am trying to learn, too. If the haiku I just read is any indication, you're learning fast. Great job. 14 days to PA (I, too will be in Central PA--ulp)

 

[LadynStFreknBed]

LadyS, I'm with Leon. Great haiku. I loved following your comments on the haiku thread...it was almost as if I could watch you learn, as I am trying to learn, too. If the haiku I just read is any indication, you're learning fast. Great job. 14 days to PA (I, too will be in Central PA--ulp)

Thank you! And, thank you for your comment on my haiku.

I really like central PA. I'm in the land of bologna... LOL
which is just east of chocolatetown..

Well, I'm trying to focus on my schoolwork today, but I need to go take a break. Besides, Ghost Hunters is on tonight. LOL

-Sheila

 

[unpredictablebijou]

LAWLZ

HERO OF THE DAY: LOSTSTAR

My comment about how I wish I could save that screen with J's flash on it but was too embarrassed to ask my geek made loststar pick up the phone. Now I HAVE IT. And I don't need to worry about the next power outage erasing it from my open firefox window.

angels look after fools and luddites.

an official bistro woot for the Shiny Object.

wOOt!

bj

 

[UnderYourSpell]

Was thst the first one that I saw or the second one that I missed?

 

[unpredictablebijou]

Was thst the first one that I saw or the second one that I missed?

That second one you missed is up right at this moment. I guess he decided to be brave for the grrrls. Woot for Jamison!

bj

 

[UnderYourSpell]

Ooooooooooooh

 

[sassynyc]

Thank you Champ. Sometimes I feel like I'm on the right path, other times I feel like I'm not doing right.

What it comes down to is that I am not used to these sorts of feelings. I, hell, I don't even know what to call this. I'm usually very sure of myself. Sure of what I do. If I am not sure, I examine the hell out of what I am doing/planning/feeling, and figure out where my issue is. Once I correct it, I am sure again and plunge on. I can't seem to do that here. I worry like crazy that I'm going to be bad for her.
I am sure that I love her. I am sure that she loves me. Bipolar, cranky, whatever, the love does not change. I guess that is the important thing to hold on to.

Crankiness and all, the fact that you're so vigilant in your concern for her happiness and well being is beyond a good thing. That can't possibly be bad for her. You're aware of all the kinks that need ironing out, and clearly working to that end. Imagine what it would be like for her if you were oblivious to all this, and never sought to improve your situation. Believe it or not, mere mortals like yourself are entitled to feel uncertainty from time to time. If you were positively sure of everything, what would be the point of this crazy dance we're all doing everyday? Try to remember that embedded in that uncertainty, is an opportunity for growth. Easier said than done, I know. But like the Shiny One's mantra for today says, life is a journey, not a destination.

Ok, that's my Dr. Joyce Brothers spiel for the day. Now back to your regularly scheduled programming.

*hugs, chin up*

 

[Homburg]

Crankiness and all, the fact that you're so vigilant in your concern for her happiness and well being is beyond a good thing. That can't possibly be bad for her. You're aware of all the kinks that need ironing out, and clearly working to that end. Imagine what it would be like for her if you were oblivious to all this, and never sought to improve your situation. Believe it or not, mere mortals like yourself are entitled to feel uncertainty from time to time. If you were positively sure of everything, what would be the point of this crazy dance we're all doing everyday? Try to remember that embedded in that uncertainty, is an opportunity for growth. Easier said than done, I know. But like the Shiny One's mantra for today says, life is a journey, not a destination.

Ok, that's my Dr. Joyce Brothers spiel for the day. Now back to your regularly scheduled programming.

*hugs, chin up*

Harrumph. I *like* being sure of myself. *grumbles*

Thank you though.

You guys rock.

 

[champagne2008]

Crankiness and all, the fact that you're so vigilant in your concern for her happiness and well being is beyond a good thing. That can't possibly be bad for her. You're aware of all the kinks that need ironing out, and clearly working to that end. Imagine what it would be like for her if you were oblivious to all this, and never sought to improve your situation. Believe it or not, mere mortals like yourself are entitled to feel uncertainty from time to time. If you were positively sure of everything, what would be the point of this crazy dance we're all doing everyday? Try to remember that embedded in that uncertainty, is an opportunity for growth. Easier said than done, I know. But like the Shiny One's mantra for today says, life is a journey, not a destination.

Ok, that's my Dr. Joyce Brothers spiel for the day. Now back to your regularly scheduled programming.

*hugs, chin up*

How'd you get so smart? This is brilliantly saying exactly what I wanted to but couldn't figure out how to express.

BTW Homburg, you rawk too.

 

[unpredictablebijou]

Harrumph. I *like* being sure of myself. *grumbles*

Thank you though.

You guys rock.

We have a little tool round my house that might interest you. It's one I actually developed within a sort of power exchange context, with people who deal with "trust issues" but we use it in conflict resolution and stuff too.

Three questions. Not so much 'do you trust me' because that's pretty meaningless. But these. Do you trust:

- my INTENT
- my SKILLS
- and my AFFECTION FOR YOU

These have to be carefully thought about before answering. It isn't just a riff for us; it's a way to stop and evaluate where we are.

In your case, being sure of yourself within new and unfamiliar contexts where you might (sorry to say) occasionally fuck up just a teency bit, just at first, you could just as easily ask these of yourself, and perhaps be a little less hard on yourself since you know that if nothing else, these are firmly in place. As in, 'okay, I may not know everything, but do I trust my own intent, skills and affection for them both?'

It's a least a damn fine place to start.

*waves hand as being One of Those Also: bipolar disorder runs - nay, fairly gallops - in my family. *

 

[champagne2008]

That second one you missed is up right at this moment. I guess he decided to be brave for the grrrls. Woot for Jamison!

bj

I cannot tell you how often I have drooled over that sexy bit of groin. Oh my

 

[sassynyc]

How'd you get so smart? This is brilliantly saying exactly what I wanted to but couldn't figure out how to express.

BTW Homburg, you rawk too.

Hangin' out with pervy, snarky, elitist poets in a quaint little corner in cyberspace.

 

[loststar]

I
rain of twilight
world drenched in sepia tone
power flowing through the air
mantra of the warrior
chant of adolecence
flowing through my brain
transforming me

desire ebbing and flowing
stories spinning in and out of reality
truth echoing in my heart
beating to the bass line

exploit my power
fill my pleasures
dip me in enchantments
suspend me here
for I can feel the storm coming



II
wet from the rain
wet from before
wet from the internal storm
ocean of my being crashing upon my shores
violent pounding of water
rising of the current

hope you know how to swim
I wont save you
no raft will survive
only the tenacity of human form
skill, strength, solid swimming
brutal wet wall coming down

no hate
it is gone
only violence
sheer utter unexplained torrents
wind howling pushing power further
destruction within my civilization
all the cultivation wiped out
only the wild will survive


dark
quiet
pool
reflect
what is left




III
pull me up
bring me back
I am transformed
yet only has the spark changed
it humms higher
and only these eyes shall know what happened here today

 

[LadynStFreknBed]

LadyS, I read the article and as most who are willing to leave their id's on their comments have left such positive feedback, I think you can rightfully delete anonymous comments such as this one.

I'm glad I left the negative coments up. I often do delete troll attack-like comments. But, i felt better about replying to the 1st one and leaving them up. Other readers stepped right up and shot them down-- not with nastiness, but with real information. I'm glad. Now, people who read my piece can also get more insight from the positive comments.

Oh, I heard back from Laurel. My illustrated poem that didn't work will repost tonight.

-Sheila

 

[Guest]

I cannot tell you how often I have drooled over that sexy bit of groin. Oh my

I painted it red once.

 

[normal jean]

I liked your av with the devil horns painted on. That was really hot

 

[normal jean]

hey anschul

I saw the lovely cock in your av, so I put mine up there for you.

 

[Guest]

I liked your av with the devil horns painted on. That was really hot

I wear that one for halloweenie and one other time when the AH had some AV week to wear one that showed your face.

 

[champagne2008]

I wear that one for halloweenie and one other time when the AH had some AV week to wear one that showed your face.

hehehehe.. nice nose

 

[UnderYourSpell]

*Stumbles out of backroom after deeeeeep and loooooong discussion with Leon* Oh hi guys what day is it?

 

[Anschul]

Thank you! And, thank you for your comment on my haiku.

I really like central PA. I'm in the land of bologna... LOL
which is just east of chocolatetown..

Well, I'm trying to focus on my schoolwork today, but I need to go take a break. Besides, Ghost Hunters is on tonight. LOL

-Sheila

I know where that is...I'm moving to Amish Central on the 16th. AA (wife) actually graduated from Lower D. high School a few years ago. How's the weather up there?

 

[Anschul]

hey anschul

I saw the lovely cock in your av, so I put mine up there for you.

...uhhhh....now I'm completely gender-confused...But I still love you beyond words...

 

[UnderYourSpell]

It's a cock-a-doodle-don't

 

[LadynStFreknBed]

I know where that is...I'm moving to Amish Central on the 16th. AA (wife) actually graduated from Lower D. high School a few years ago. How's the weather up there?

The weather's actually been decent, even though I hate summer. It hasn't been horribly hot.


-Sheila