I completely understand this. This was part of my process for realizing I've repressed a side of me I didn't remember. I'm bi and I was when I was younger, but forgot about those experiences.I get very aroused when I'm high, it's like every sensation is amplified and my orgasms seem to go on forever. I wish my boyfriend was more into it, but every now and then I will treat myself to an extended masturbation session while high that can last for hours and usually involves several orgasms. I also find that I have the naughtiest thoughts while high and sometimes I will write them down, then delete them when I'm sober again because I'm embarrassed by my own thoughts!