Am I the only one?

[Jw75766]

I know many of us come to lit for a plethora of reasons. I've realized I'm different here than I am in the real world. Not that my intentions or who I am at my core are different but how I'm able to express myself through writing instead of relying on verbal communication which I often struggle to articulate my thoughts and feelings in a semi coherent manner.
If anyone met me in person, they'd probably think I'm an imposter here because of the different mannerism I would display. I'm very introverted, very shut in. I internalize every emotion, suppressing much of my feelings.
Here, I feel free to express myself. I can put into words the emotions and thoughts I simply do not know how to speak out. For whatever reason, I can write my feelings incredibly accurate but when I try to speak them, I stumble and cannot find the words, I lose my train of thought.
I guess my question is, am I alone in this? Are there more people out there who can create beautiful images through words but sound like a basic simpleton (ok, maybe that's harsh but I'm a very self critical person) in person? Would love to hear your thoughts.

 

[Doughboy48]

I was just thinking this the other day about myself. My thoughts were about when I text people vs seeing them in person. It is much easier for me to text and have a good conversation than have that same conversation in person. I don’t necessarily struggle with talking, but I am more introverted so the words don’t flow as easily. We aren’t alone in this. The other part I have been thinking is in my life I live this very conservative Christian lifestyle for the most part but then have this “secret” life where I want to explore my sexual desires that would be outside or looked down upon that group. That’s why I am here because I can express those thoughts, ideas and feelings and know for the most part I’m not going to be ridiculed for them.

 

[DeeDeeX2]

I totally agree that I can express myself with much more clarity as I have additional time to sort through my thoughts and craft the words appropriately.

 

[Jw75766]

I was just thinking this the other day about myself. My thoughts were about when I text people vs seeing them in person. It is much easier for me to text and have a good conversation than have that same conversation in person. I don’t necessarily struggle with talking, but I am more introverted so the words don’t flow as easily. We aren’t alone in this. The other part I have been thinking is in my life I live this very conservative Christian lifestyle for the most part but then have this “secret” life where I want to explore my sexual desires that would be outside or looked down upon that group. That’s why I am here because I can express those thoughts, ideas and feelings and know for the most part I’m not going to be ridiculed for them.

You're frighteningly similar to me then. I love that I can come here and be a self of mine I'm not free to express elsewhere.

 

[Jw75766]

I totally agree that I can express myself with much more clarity as I have additional time to sort through my thoughts and craft the words appropriately.

Some people can verbalize beautifully, others can write amazing. While some others are just expressive in their emotions and commitments to others. All are special and precious!

 

[cocokittysurprise]

I am typically more verbose in person than I am on here.

 

[Jw75766]

I am typically more verbose in person than I am on here.

Interesting, people communicate more fluently in different ways. I'm wondering, are you extroverted in person? Might be a reason why. I am very introverted and spend a lot of time on my head and not speaking much. Probably just the way different brains process communication.

 

[Jw75766]

I can very much relate to the OP. In person I’m too worried something is off putting so I beat around the bush or never truly say what I’m thinking, because I feel the response has already been determined.

Online I’m very open, outgoing, and up front and the only dumb question is the one that isn’t asked.

My only concern writing is, tone of conversation can easily be misinterpreted depending on the readers current mood. That's something I'm always worried about.

 

[cocokittysurprise]

Interesting, people communicate more fluently in different ways. I'm wondering, are you extroverted in person? Might be a reason why. I am very introverted and spend a lot of time on my head and not speaking much. Probably just the way different brains process communication.

Not really. I don't get enjoyment from spending time around a lot of people, but I'm also not a wallflower/shy/socially awkward, which are all things people associate with or incorrectly attribute to introverts.

I, too, spend a lot of time in my head, but I'm adept at communicating said thoughts to others; it's a necessary skill for my job. Someone in my circle once told me that I was an introvert with a loud personality, and I tend to agree.

 

[Redmandeadman]

I was just thinking this the other day about myself. My thoughts were about when I text people vs seeing them in person. It is much easier for me to text and have a good conversation than have that same conversation in person. I don’t necessarily struggle with talking, but I am more introverted so the words don’t flow as easily. We aren’t alone in this. The other part I have been thinking is in my life I live this very conservative Christian lifestyle for the most part but then have this “secret” life where I want to explore my sexual desires that would be outside or looked down upon that group. That’s why I am here because I can express those thoughts, ideas and feelings and know for the most part I’m not going to be ridiculed for them.

Would love to hear some of your desires