"Stop! Just stop! Please! No more!"

[My I]

Well at least you're admitting you're both names rather than pretending to be two separate people. Better off in one sense because you were really bad at alting. But worse in another because now we know you were doing it to pimp your own stories including commenting on them.

As long as you're having fun I guess that's what counts, but I just don't get the point of alting.

LOL Where the fuck have YOU been?? I pretty much admitted it in Elloelle's first post and why I was doing it and several posts since then.

Just to clear things up for you: My original account here was under the name Dranoel and started in 2000. In 2003 I opened an account as RidemeCowgirl for the sole perpose of writing Anal Sex is for Buttholes. (And to poke some fun at some members here here who claimed they could immediately spot an alt and know who it was. They didn't) Both accounts were closed in 2004 for many reasons as well as another account that I posted one controversial story under.

I started this account in 2004 for the purpose of posting another controversial piece but have since reposted other stories from the Dranoel account as well as some new material. And a few months ago I found the missing piece of the Debbie sequel so I started Elloelle (LOL).

All clear for you now?

As for why alts? Sometimes I write things that I know are gonna piss some people off. I'd rather not have the enemies I made on those pieces crapping on other works of mine. But since I have also posted some of those controversial pieces on this account (Agnes of God) and really don't care if the trolls eat everything.

 

[ChloeTzang]

As for why alts? Sometimes I write things that I know are gonna piss some people off. I'd rather not have the enemies I made on those pieces crapping on other works of mine. But since I have also posted some of those controversial pieces on this account (Agnes of God) and really don't care if the trolls eat everything.

I thought abou that as well for my LW stories but I didn't and I'm glad I didn't coz I've had readers email me to say they've followed my stories into genres they don't usually read and enjoyed them. That more or less convinced me just to keep writing under the one name regardless of what I write. First time, interracial, LW, incest, mature/bdsm so far. Noir/first time/incest next. Although the Noir is a bit suspect coz it's a first attempt.

I do find the writing in different categories pushes my writing envelope. The competitions are good for that too so I get where Susan is coming from there.

 

[SusanJillParker]

LOL Where the fuck have YOU been?? I pretty much admitted it in Elloelle's first post and why I was doing it and several posts since then.

Just to clear things up for you: My original account here was under the name Dranoel and started in 2000. In 2003 I opened an account as RidemeCowgirl for the sole perpose of writing Anal Sex is for Buttholes. (And to poke some fun at some members here here who claimed they could immediately spot an alt and know who it was. They didn't) Both accounts were closed in 2004 for many reasons as well as another account that I posted one controversial story under.

I started this account in 2004 for the purpose of posting another controversial piece but have since reposted other stories from the Dranoel account as well as some new material. And a few months ago I found the missing piece of the Debbie sequel so I started Elloelle (LOL).

All clear for you now?

As for why alts? Sometimes I write things that I know are gonna piss some people off. I'd rather not have the enemies I made on those pieces crapping on other works of mine. But since I have also posted some of those controversial pieces on this account (Agnes of God) and really don't care if the trolls eat everything.

After being bashed, stalked, and harassed by a few of the AH regular troublemakers, I kept changing my names.

I've written stories under 15 different names. Always hoping that I'd have a clean slate, but because I continued competing in the Survivor contests each year, the moderators took pride in outing me to those bashers and, stalkers that I had changed my name to stop their from being harassed.

Now, that the Survivor contest is no more, I'm back to writing stories under my real name, my birth name, Susan Jill Parker.

 

[SusanJillParker]

I started a new story. Requiem for a Heavyweight. The story is about a retired boxer who is too old to fight. An engineer approaches him with an idea how he can restore his boxing career with modern technology.

Presently, the story is about 150,000 words. I plan to break it into chapters.

I surprised myself by how much I know about boxing. My four brothers were all boxers, heavyweights. When there wasn't porn movies on the TV, there were professional fights, boxing, wrestling, and MMA fights.

My brothers always had a heavy bag and a speed bag in the garage. The showed me how to wrap my hands and how to hit the bags.

"I coulda been a contender (lol)."

Only, there weren't women fighters back then in the way there are now.

 

[Elloelle]

I started a new story. Requiem for a Heavyweight. The story is about a retired boxer who is too old to fight. An engineer approaches him with an idea how he can restore his boxing career with modern technology.

Presently, the story is about 150,000 words. I plan to break it into chapters.

I surprised myself by how much I know about boxing. My four brothers were all boxers, heavyweights. When there wasn't porn movies on the TV, there were professional fights, boxing, wrestling, and MMA fights.

My brothers always had a heavy bag and a speed bag in the garage. The showed me how to wrap my hands and how to hit the bags.

"I coulda been a contender (lol)."

Only, there weren't women fighters back then in the way there are now.

(from wikipedia) Women's boxing goes back at least to the early 18th century, when Elizabeth Wilkinson fought in London. Billing herself as the European Championess, she fought both men and women. In those days, the rules of boxing allowed kicking, gouging and other methods of attack not part of today's arsenal.

Show 'em your boobs to distract 'em and then kick 'em in the willie. That's a win every time.

 

[sr71plt]

Show 'em your boobs to distract 'em and then kick 'em in the willie. That's a win every time.

I'm sure "Susan" would give you a real shock showing you Freddie's man boobs.

 

[Elloelle]

I'm sure "Susan" would give you a real shock showing you Freddie's man boobs.

And I'm sure you could give HER a real shock if you showed you have real balls. But you don't so no shock value there. Sorry. You asked for it.

 

[sr71plt]

And I'm sure you could give HER a real shock if you showed you have real balls. But you don't so no shock value there. Sorry. You asked for it.

Not really. You and your lame duo act are the fools here--on the subject of Freddie, among others.

Pranksters like you come and go like the breeze here. And how quaint that you've double favorited yourself on your profiles.

 

[My I]

Not really. You and your lame duo act are the fools here--on the subject of Freddie, among others.

Pranksters like you come and go like the breeze here. And how quaint that you've double favorited yourself on your profiles.

May be, but it takes two of us to be lame. You're just lame all by yourself. And why shouldn't I be my own favorite? I like me.

I DON'T like frauds. And you are a fraud.

 

[SusanJillParker]

I'm sure "Susan" would give you a real shock showing you Freddie's man boobs.

Obviously, there's something seriously wrong with you. Obviously, pretend pilot, you're not all there. You're not playing with a full deck. Are you drunk again?

It's not enough for you that I have written over an again that I'm a woman. That's not enough for you. You don't want to believe that. You're just here to stir up shit.

Yet, every time you start trouble and make a disrespectful post, the moderator is never around to discipline you in the way that she punishes me by deleting my posts and closing my threads. Why is that? Why do you get away with posting shit on this board and no one else can?

I'm not bothering you. I mind my own business. Yet, here you are again starting trouble with me. What's wrong with you? Get help.

Listen, I understand that you're angry because you're alone, lonely, and was born a fag, but that's not my problem. In the way that you lie about flying SR71 planes, I'm not lying about being a woman.

I'm a woman. I was born a female on July 26, 1972.

Tell me, why would Laurel send prize money checks in the name of Susan Parker?

How could I cash them with Susan Parker endorsed on the back if I wasn't Susan Parker?

Tell me, oh, miserable one, in this homeland security time after 9/11, how could I get a PO Box without showing my Susan Parker identification. I couldn't get one unless I am Susan Parker, genius.

As I said to you before, PM me. I'll give you my PO Box address and you can send me a check made out to Susan Parker for a dollar. I'll cash it and will return your dollar so that you can finally rest assured that I'm truly a woman and not a man...and you truly are an asshole.

Yet, you don't want proof. You just want to start trouble. You have no life. This is what you do for fun.

I'm done with you, pretend pilot. I have you on ignore and that's where you'll stay.

 

[TxRad]

Freddie, freddie, freddie, your oh so logical line about you getting checks in the name of Susan and such doesn't work. How did you cash your checks as freddie and your 14 or 15 other male alts? You can call yourself what you want but we have no way of knowing what name Laurel has.

You've been given a simple way out of this whole mess. Post a new AV picture of the woman in your AV with the word "Hi" and the date on it. Not the same photo even if it wouldn't work. Your Photoshop skills are worse than scouries was. You won't take it, you can't so give up the bullshit. Especially the abused woman crap. That's what gets you in trouble or haven't you figured that out.

If you want to wear a dress and pretend you're a girl. No one has a problem with that. The rape and abuse claims are something else again. Especially after the dead baby fiasco you were the main participant in. What goes around comes around.

 

[sr71plt]

So what's the problem if Susan wants to be Susan.

Because of what "Susan" then does with it--and this has already been explained on this thread. Freddie takes his posts to the extreme (e.g., in forcing one of the most prominent authors in erotica off the site in what is known here as the dead baby attacks) and, in his current persona claiming (as recently as yesterday, in a post that stopped the Mothers Day greetings thread dead in its tracks) to have been sexually abused by every man in sight, including brothers. This is hurtful to those here who actually have experienced that. He is insidious. Perhaps the current political atmosphere has deadened your sensitivities, but there are some things that go beyond the pale--even on an erotica site, and sometimes especially on an erotica site. Freddie is insidious and this will continue to be pointed out even if you have no sensitivities for anyone else but yourself.

 

[SusanJillParker]

Instead of making readers uncomfortable with the topics of emotional, physical, and sexual abuse, I write what I write for two reasons. Being that I can only write what I know, I'm cursed to write about emotional, physical, and sexual abuse. I'm sorry that what tragically happened to me makes you feel uncomfortable. Yet, just as I had to get over it, I hope you will get over it too or just don't read what I write.

Writing is my therapy. Where my psychological and group therapy left off for all that happened to me, writing has helped me more than any therapy that I endured. If it wasn't for writing poetry and short stories, I would have lost my mind. I would have turned to drugs, alcohol, or prostitution in the way that my mother did.

As much as it was a curse as it was a blessing, I was born beautiful. I even have a story by that name, Born Beautiful, Rachel's Story about a woman living in Munich, Germany who was emotionally, physically, and sexually abused by her father and brother.

As much as it was a curse, I was born, blonde with blue eyes, a shapely figure, and big tits. My looks opened lots of doors for me that would have remained closed. Yet, I had to put up with all the leers, the stares, the comments, the gropes, and the inappropriate touches and feels from men. Nonetheless, I survived. I did what I needed to do to find my own way.

In the way that I was attacked in my own home, I'm attacked here by three, old, angry men who don't like women. They repeat the same shit over and again. It gets tiring after a while. One would think that if these three men were good writers that they would write what they needed to write in a different way or not write anything at all. Matter of fact, most of the men who post to this board 24/7 and who have tens of thousands of posts don't like women. Many of the men, especially these three men, have chased away dozens of women.

Yet, after all that I've been through and had to endure, I don't scare easily. Someone would have to put a gun to my head, which has happened to me a few times before, for me to bolt. I'm here to stay. I tell the truth. Someone has to come forward and tell the story of how men emotionally, physically, and sexually abuse women every day.

Because I'm a gifted (and modest) writer and because of all that I have to overcome, I'm that voice. If you don't like what I write, don't read it. For whatever reason Sr71plt, TxRad, and LoveCraft68 throw stones at all that I write. I hope what happened to me never happens to anyone that they love.

Yet, no matter, I have them all on ignore, except for lifting the ignore ban on LoveCraft recently to participate in the 007 thread.

I write stories. I'm a novelist. In the way that writing helped me through my darkest times and my saddest hours, instead of succumbing to all the shit that was dumped on my head, after dropping out of high school, I earned my GED and went to night school. For five, long years, through the summers while my friends partied, I attended Norteastern University full-time nights while working full-time days. It was a proud day when I graduated with a BS degree in English, the first in my family to graduate college.

I graduated magna cum laude, with a 3.65 gpa and had two minors, creative writing and English Literature. After taking every writing course that Northeastern offered but for business writing and technical writing, I had extra credits to have a good start on my MFA degree. Yet, unless I was going to teach writing, earning that degree would be a waste of my time and my money.

Believe what I write or not. I don't care. I don't bother anyone. I keep to myself. I mind my own business. Most times I post to the thread that I started. Yet, just as Sr71plt attacked me by posting shit about me, TxRad attacked me yet again in the same way. Obviously, they have more of a problem with me than I have a problem with them. That's their problem. Get over it.

"Eat shit and die, assholes! May you all die of painful cancer."

Obviously, all that I can do is to ignore their comments. Yet, their comments demonstrate how angry these men truly are and how much they truly hate women. They'll tell you differently, but they all really hate women. Why? I have no idea. Maybe because they always wanted to have sex with their mothers or maybe because they had sex with their mothers. Who knows? I don't know and I really don't care.

"Get a life."

TxRad and LoveCraft will tell you that as the self-anointed protectors of women that they are saving other women from my supposed lies. They don't even believe that I'm a woman (lol). I am a woman. Born a woman, I've offered them proof of my gender but they refuse and refute any proof that I offer. They'd rather continue starting shit with me. They actually want me to post a photo with today's newspaper.

"Fuck them! Why should I?"

That's okay. I forgive them because they are too fucked in the head to understand. Yet, just as I forgive them for being the mean assholes and insensitive bastards that they are and always will be, God will never forgive them for all the terrible words they have written about me.

"Are we done here boys or do must you continue to embarrass yourself by attacking women?"

 

[sr71plt]

There is no "Susan." This is a malicious middle-aged man named Freddie who has been posting insidious posts under various names for a decade. Let me know when you've figured that out.

 

[TxRad]

Just read the second part of my comment again.



I know, 'some problems' is too weak for what I intended to say - my fault. The point I was trying to make is, both sides of this discussion hurt. Wouldn't a single link to another thread be sufficient, instead of discussing the same points over and over again?

And then - you won't get rid of Susan this way, and poking only fans up the flames. Notify the Moderator for inappropriate messages and otherwise ignore her, whenever possible; certainly in her own thread.

Check out the Mother's Day greetings thread for an example of what freddie does. It has nothing to do with him wanting to play a woman. Have at it. If you notice, no one said anything about freddie in this thread until he started the bullshit about being abused. Like JBJ, he has to have attention and that is his way of getting it.

I'd love to bring up a few of his early posts but a lot of that has disappeared. One thread was taken down by Laurel and wiped completely off the site well enough that google doesn't even have any of it. That's how bad it was. Know your history or it will keep coming back repeatedly. One of the reasons freddie has had 15 male alts over the years.

 

[SusanJillParker]

Actually, the truth is that I do indeed have 15 alts and every one of them have stories attached. I write stories. I don't post tens of thousands of posts 24/7 on the forum boards. I have a life.

The only alt as a male was my first alt, BostonFictionWriter. Afraid to death to post erotica on a porn board and as we now all can see for good reason, I posted under my brother's name, Freddie, for 2007 and 2008. He cashed the prize winning checks for me.

From 2009 forward, all of my alts have been women. AndTheEnd in 2009 was under Susan, my real name.

I had 3,000 forum board posts under BostonFictionWriter, most of them to the Survivor contest thread. In 6 years, I barely have 2,000 forum board posts under SusanJillParker, my real name, my birth day, and most of those were to the Survivor contest.

None, not one, of my other 13 other alts have any Forum Board posts. Go check and let me know if you find any.

Are we done or do you still have more lies to tell NHrad? Why not tell the truth? Why not come clean. Why not tell everyone that you're not a man but a dyke woman from New Hampshire instead of Texas? Why not tell everyone who you really are, Scouries?

Who's lying now, Scouries? Not me. I don't lie. I have too much natural born misery within me to lie.

Thank you for posting to my thread. Have a miserable fucking day, asshole.

 

[TxRad]

Actually, the truth is that I do indeed have 15 alts and every one of them have stories attached. I write stories. I don't post tens of thousands of posts 24/7 on the forum boards. I have a life.

The only alt as a male was my first alt, BostonFictionWriter. Afraid to death to post erotica on a porn board and as we now all can see for good reason, I posted under my brother's name, Freddie, for 2007 and 2008. He cashed the prize winning checks for me.

From 2009 forward, all of my alts have been women. AndTheEnd in 2009 was under Susan, my real name.

I had 3,000 forum board posts under BostonFictionWriter, most of them to the Survivor contest thread. In 6 years, I barely have 2,000 forum board posts under SusanJillParker, my real name, my birth day, and most of those were to the Survivor contest.

None, not one, of my other 13 other alts have any Forum Board posts. Go check and let me know if you find any.

Are we done or do you still have more lies to tell NHrad? Why not tell the truth? Why not come clean. Why not tell everyone that you're not a man but a dyke woman from New Hampshire instead of Texas? Why not tell everyone who you really are, Scouries?

Who's lying now, Scouries? Not me. I don't lie. I have too much natural born misery within me to lie.

Thank you for posting to my thread. Have a miserable fucking day, asshole.

Until you came up with "susan" all your alts were male.

Calling me names won't help your case when dozens of people have met me and talk to me. Some have even been to my home. Lies are your stock in trade.

Scouries? You're the closet thing to scouries we have around. He either decided to say fuck it finally or he's you having another try at disrupting things like always. He tried being a woman at the start and that didn't work out. You went through 15 male alts, outing yourself one way or another each time and now you're trying to be a female.

Poor freddie, still screwing things up and doing it in such a lady like way. No one said a thing about you being freddie until you started in on the rape and abuse bullshit again. Leave that out and you can say anything you want.

The newbies might not know you but some of the regulars here sure do.

Yeah, i have a lot of posts. I also have a lot of friends here. Can you say the same thing? Has anyone except your alts met you? I don't think so.

 

[SusanJillParker]

Why do I have 15 alts?

I have 15 alts, NHRad, because you and your loyal following chased my stories around the board to make sure you all down voted them with a one vote.

On three separate occasions, NHRad, you and your loyal following erased all my red H's by giving me enough bashing one votes to drop my scores.

You and your loyal following, NHRad, because you and your loyal following wrote shit, shit, shit in the comments section of all my stories when I wrote as BostonFictionWriter.

You, NHRad, or one of your minions hacked my Facebook page and outed me as a woman instead of a man. Then, you posted personal information about me on the forum boards that Laurel kindly deleted.

Being that I was outed for who I truly was, a woman, I went ahead and wrote stories under my real name, SusanJillParker. Now, instead of calling me Susan, the woman who I am, you call me Freddie, the man that I'm not.

All of this has nothing to do with me and has more to do with you. You just hate women. All of this has nothing to do with me and has more to do with you. Perhaps you're jealous because I'm a prolific writer and your not. Perhaps you're jealous because I've won Green E's and you haven't. Perhaps you're jealous because I've won more than twice the contest money of any other writer, $3,300 at my last count.

Perhaps, you're jealous because there's something mentally wrong with you. I tend to agree with the latter reason over any of the former reasons.

Get help NHRad. There's no embarrassment in seeking therapy. There's no shame in committing yourself in an insane asylum. I pray for your recovery.

The first step is to admit that you're a lesbian woman and not a heterosexual man. The first step is to look around you and admit that you're from Derry, New Hampshire and not from Texas. The first step is to embrace who you truly are...Madam Scouries. The first step is for you to acknowledge that you were the one who started the dead baby thread, Madam Scouries. It was you who instigated and chased dozens of women writers from Literotica and from the forum boards.

"Shame on you, Madam Scouries. Shame on you."

Thank you for allowing me to clarify all of this confusion.

 

[TxRad]

Why do I have 15 alts?

I have 15 alts, NHRad, because you and your loyal following chased my stories around the board to make sure you all down voted them with a one vote.

On three separate occasions, NHRad, you and your loyal following erased all my red H's by giving me enough bashing one votes to drop my scores.

You and your loyal following, NHRad, because you and your loyal following wrote shit, shit, shit in the comments section of all my stories when I wrote as BostonFictionWriter.

You, NHRad, or one of your minions hacked my Facebook page and outed me as a woman instead of a man. Then, you posted personal information about me on the forum boards that Laurel kindly deleted.

Being that I was outed for who I truly was, a woman, I went ahead and wrote stories under my real name, SusanJillParker. Now, instead of calling me Susan, the woman who I am, you call me Freddie, the man that I'm not.

All of this has nothing to do with me and has more to do with you. You just hate women. All of this has nothing to do with me and has more to do with you. Perhaps you're jealous because I'm a prolific writer and your not. Perhaps you're jealous because I've won Green E's and you haven't. Perhaps you're jealous because I've won more than twice the contest money of any other writer, $3,300 at my last count.

Perhaps, you're jealous because there's something mentally wrong with you. I tend to agree with the latter reason over any of the former reasons.

Get help NHRad. There's no embarrassment in seeking therapy. There's no shame in committing yourself in an insane asylum. I pray for your recovery.

The first step is to admit that you're a lesbian woman and not a heterosexual man. The first step is to look around you and admit that you're from Derry, New Hampshire and not from Texas. The first step is to embrace who you truly are...Madam Scouries. The first step is for you to acknowledge that you were the one who started the dead baby thread, Madam Scouries. It was you who instigated and chased dozens of women writers from Literotica and from the forum boards.

"Shame on you, Madam Scouries. Shame on you."

Thank you for allowing me to clarify all of this confusion.

LOL. I'm not the one using oversized crazy fonts.

Like I said, more lies and bullshit. Keep it up freddie, you're the best at showing people who and what you are. Keep up the good work.

Have a good day, ya hear.

 

[SusanJillParker]

LOL. I'm not the one using oversized crazy fonts.

Like I said, more lies and bullshit. Keep it up freddie, you're the best at showing people who and what you are. Keep up the good work.

Have a good day, ya hear.

Listen here, Scouries, since when it Times Roman a crazy font?

I'm not the one who goes around the board attacking people. Sr71plt attacked me and then you joined it.

I mind my own business. I don't bother anyone. I post to my own thread. Yet, here you are again starting the same shit. You can't help yourself.

I write stories. Yet, even if your tens of thousands of forum board posts, and with Sr71plt tens of thousands of forum posts, and with LoveCraft68 tens of thousands of forum posts, according to you, somehow I'm the one who starts all the trouble. According to you, I'm who disrupts the board with my measly 1,900 posts of which were posted to the Survivor contest.

I suspect you've been drinking too much New Hampshire moonshine NHRad.

Listen, Madam Scouries, stop dressing and masquerading as a man. Everyone knows that you're a woman. Everyone knows that's not your picture. Everyone knows you for the phony, troublemaker that you are.

Now, go away and post another dead baby thread. Seemingly, that's what you're good at doing to stir up more shit.

 

[SusanJillParker]

LOL. I'm not the one using oversized crazy fonts.

Like I said, more lies and bullshit. Keep it up freddie, you're the best at showing people who and what you are. Keep up the good work.

Have a good day, ya hear.

Listen here, Scouries, since when is Times Roman a crazy font?

I'm not the one who goes around the board attacking people. Sr71plt attacked me and then you joined it.

I mind my own business. I don't bother anyone. I post to my own thread. Yet, here you are again starting the same shit. You can't help yourself.

I write stories. Yet, even if your tens of thousands of forum board posts, and with Sr71plt tens of thousands of forum posts, and with LoveCraft68 tens of thousands of forum posts, according to you, somehow I'm the one who starts all the trouble. According to you, I'm who disrupts the board with my measly 1,900 posts of which were posted to the Survivor contest.

I suspect you've been drinking too much New Hampshire moonshine NHRad.

Listen, Madam Scouries, stop dressing and masquerading as a man. Everyone knows that you're a woman. Everyone knows that's not your picture. Everyone knows you for the phony, troublemaker that you are.

Now, go away and post another dead baby thread. Seemingly, that's what you're good at doing to stir up more shit.

 

[TxRad]

Poor freddie, his line of last resort is to call me scouries. Please, how absurd can you get. Keep twisting and turning, it won't help a bit.

 

[ChloeTzang]

And then - you won't get rid of Susan this way, and poking only fans up the flames. Notify the Moderator for inappropriate messages and otherwise ignore her, whenever possible; certainly in her own thread.

This goes back a long long time Ruben, years back, and there's a long history to this that predates us and no one is going to change their views. Just leave it.

 

[Down4fun91]

[ Nothing Here ]

 

[SusanJillParker]

SO would it be safe to say that slow burner stories are more of your taste?

Yes, absolutely.

I write erotica with a very long fuse. I don't write pornography with a big bang and nothing else.

I'm more of a novelist than a short story writer. I develop my characters instead of just allowing them to have sex without imagery, description, and dialogue. Too many writers would rather write stroke stories instead of stories that can be chewed and remembered.

Thank you for your post.