Savannah_Seishun
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- Jul 8, 2021
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Hi everyone, just registered yesterday so I'm pretty much brand new here. First and foremost I have a bunch of questions about being an author, but I figured I might as well let this be my introduction too, while I'm at it.
At this point I should probably warn you that walls of text are very much my element. I will attempt to keep this relatively concise, but don't be surprised if I fail.
Without retelling my entire life story, let's just say that I'm kind of a mess, way too introverted for my own good, and I spend more time online and less time in actual real life than I should. However, even if the lifestyle itself is far from healthy, it has resulted in a lot of sexting throughout the years. I have been praised and told that I should try writing more than once, and as you can probably tell, I really enjoy writing.
The first time the idea of being an erotica author caught my interest was about a year ago, when I found a subreddit about it and started doing some research. I was pretty into it for a week or so. I worked on four different short stories, trying out different kinds of settings and scenarios, just experimenting pretty much.
I abandoned the first one because it was honestly just not good. I was happy with the third and fourth ones, but didn't finish them. I managed to finish the second story though, and I liked it quite a bit. I followed some guidelines from both Reddit and other sources, trying to learn how publishing my stories on Amazon works, just the basics, nothing fancy. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm still happy with the story, I'd like to think I'm a decent writer, but the cover and the title make me cringe just thinking about them. I can partially blame that on the templates I followed, but either way, that's not important right now.
So, I published that story, even had a few readers, which felt good. I think I made, like...$0.5 or something along those lines? I didn't stick with it and keep writing though, and while my main reasons for that mostly had to do with how I'm pretty terrible at sticking with things long-term and other mental health shit, there were some parts of it that I, well...had issues with. I'd like to ask you guys about those things today to see what your perspective looks like, regardless of whether you feel that there are alternative ways of writing that would fit me better, or those things are just part of what being an author is like, and I should just get used to it.
Now then, it's about time that I get to the point. The subreddit and other sources that I learned from put a considerable amount of focus on the monetization aspect of being an erotica author. The truth is, I didn't mind that so much. While I enjoy creativity for creativity's sake, I could definitely use some change. Like I mentioned earlier, I'm basically a shut-in mess who has struggled to make ends meet for a long time now, and knowing that my writing is something productive in my life would definitely help, even do we're just talking $3-5 a month. Things like reading fiction, watching movies, watching porn and so on, basically anything that momentarily ignores problems rather than attempting to fix them, tends to come with a constant inner dialogue of negativity that I'd rather not invite.
The problem with the "Disregard creativity, let's make some green"-approach that I learned there was that the "optimal" approach to the Amazon market seemed to be blatantly soulless, to the point of looking like a parody. It would look something like this:
1. Find a popular genre that isn't too horribly oversaturated, preferably one that you can tolerate writing in the long run. For example, let's say that your niche of choice is "Young inexperienced secretary falls for handsome dominant sadist billionaire CEO". Yes, that sounds exactly like what you think it sounds like. No, it's not a parody, just a normal example of those niche markets.
2. Keep writing very similar stories in the genre you chose. A lot of them. Practice makes perfect and you'll become a better author over time.
3. Give them hilariously generic titles that look more like search engine optimization than authorship. The example in point 1 is not a joke, they really do look like that. I think that the purpose of it is to help readers figure out at a glance whether or not your niche is the one they enjoy. It also makes it easy to follow series of short stories that continue the same narrative, which is how you find your hardcore long-term fans, aka consistent customer base.
4. Make book covers using free images that can legally be used for commercial purposes. Once you've established yourself as an author and sell enough to afford it, pay someone to make better covers for you.
At this point I'm painfully aware of how whiny and excuse-y all that sounds, but let's just say that it really didn't seem like my thing. It reminded me a lot of the summer I spent many years ago as a "Recruiter", pestering people on the streets just trying to live their lives, doing my best to pressure them into signing up for a monthly $10 donation to some vague charity cause that I personally couldn't care less about. Needless to say I couldn't stomach it for very long at all. Having an income that I personally earned felt great, but nowhere near great enough to justify the how terrible it felt to make a living by making life worse for other people.
To you, this might sound like the ego of a delusional inexperienced author thinking they're God's gift to fap fiction and generic stories are below them, but I hope and would like to think that that's not it. I just feel like I would feel like shit if I spent my days endlessly shoveling more and more generic, soulless, minimum effort, maximum monetary efficiency stories onto Amazon. I hope that makes sense.
So, what do I think that I should write? A common newbie mistake that I was warned about was the temptation to just transform all of my personal fantasies into written stories. I get that you probably have to do that to some extent in a way, in that you probably shouldn't write stories that you have zero interest in, or even would be repulsed by. Seems like the kind of thing that you learn to balance with experience.
This might sound odd, but for me, erotica, porn and just sexuality in general has slowly become more and more personal over time. I've learned that I have an admittedly pretty dysfunctional habit of being in my own head a lot. To put it bluntly, plenty of inner dialogue and not nearly enough actual action. Unsurprisingly, this led to a pretty strong interest in psychology, an urge to understand, both my own mind and people in general.
Often when I read or listen to erotic stories, watch porn or even when sexting, I think about the fantasies and scenarios, what it is about them that is arousing and attractive to me, and why that is. I find stuff like that fascinating. There's a good example that happened many years ago but still hasn't left my memory to this day. I was hanging out in a group voice chat with a couple of friends, which was pretty much a daily habit back then. Porn and masturbation habits came up as a topic, and one of my friends told us something that seemed a bit unusual to me. He would always get off in the evening right before going to bed, every day, without fail. Just a quickie, no edging, sometimes not even really much arousal. Just a daily habit that he had to do in order to be able to fall asleep. That alone probably isn't all that rare, plenty of people are habitual masturbators and do it more to soothe themselves mentally than to deal with actual horniness. The second thing he told us was more unique and much more interesting though.
Like most of that social circle, he spent most of his waking time in front of his computer, and like pretty much all of us, he had a habit of having "Background noise" on his second monitor. He would hang out in the voice chat with the rest of us, either just talking or playing games at the same time. Some people also listened to music ik the background. I personally found music distracting for some reason. I preferred playing YouTube videos on my second monitor, not really paying much attention to them at all, but it felt nice I guess. So what did this guy use as his "background noise", rather than something like music or YouTube? Porn. Specifically, lesbian porn. Most of us were surprised by that and asked him more about it. Apparently, he never really masturbated "off-schedule" so to speak, his bedtime ritual took care of that. But for some reason, a reason that none of us, himself included could figure out, he really enjoyed playing videos of women having sex on his second monitor for pretty much 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.
I'm not saying that there's anything wrong with that, and even if there was, I feel like shaming is rarely if ever helpful at all. It absolutely fascinated me though. What was it in his mind, about his life, about his mindset, that made him so into watching, but not masturbating to or even getting that aroused by this? It's not like it was foreplay for the bedtime thing and he sat there with a hard-on the entire day. To him, it was just a nice thing to have in the back and barely pay attention to, like music or YouTube videos.
That was a hell of a tangent. I got a little carried away, sorry about that. My point is, even if I'm not interested in "writing for myself" and using it as some form of psychoanalytic mental masturbation, I'm still super interested in the personal, psychological aspect of it all. I have my reasons for wanting to avoid using my own interests as my main source of inspiration. As I mentioned earlier, I want this to be creative and hopefully even a tiny bit productive. I have more than enough experience when it comes to masturbation for masturbation's sake, and the self-loathing that my mind likes to couple it with. In addition to that, I want to learn to write about a variety of fantasies, scenarios and genres. I may have plenty of kinks but they're a drop in the ocean compared to all the kinks that I don't have. If I only ever write about things I'm personally into, that would leave a lot of unexplored territory.
That being said, I would still love to approach writing from this more personal, psychological angle. I've been thinking about taking suggestions and/or doing commissions. I think that it would be a lot of fun to write stories that real, individual people can enjoy and feel more personally attached to than they would to something less bespoke.
I realize that this might be a very bad idea from a monetary perspective though, especially as a beginner. If you write something with wider appeal, you get a lot of readers and potentially customers with every story. Writing something personally written to interest a single individual probably means that it's less likely to appeal to others, I imagine.
The second issue with this personalized approach is establishing myself as an author. The Amazon crowd focused a lot, and I mean a looot on that particular part. Sticking to a niche, serialized stories, mailing lists, discounted story bundles, that kind of stuff. I mean, that mentality makes a lot of sense if efficiency is your game and Amazon is your playing field, and it seems like a very effective way to build awareness of your existence as an author. That market doesn't make any sense for something more personalized though. The first thing that comes to my mind is, of course, Patreon. I can imagine for example having a basic tier that just gives people free access to all my stories and maybe letting people vote on ideas for future stories or something along those lines, and possibly doing personal commissions on a per story basis in addition to that.
The thing is, understandably, no one in their right mind would ever subscribe to that Patreon. Why would anyone ever subscribe to an author who has very little if anything at all when it comes to experience and reputation alike. That simply wouldn't work.
So, what I'm thinking right now is that I'll probably just start writing and publishing submitting stories for free here on Literotica for now, just to get started with writing again, practicing and improving. Maybe let people suggest stuff for free if they like my work. Then focusing on actually making any money off of it all in the future, if I both manage to stick to the habit of writing consistently, and actually turn out to be pretty good at it.
All my rambling thoughts aside though, I'm still basically very new to all this, I have no idea whether or not all this makes sense, for all I know, I may be completely off the mark here. If you managed to get through my wall of text, I'd love to hear any comments, suggestions or advice that you have, anything is appreciated.
At this point I should probably warn you that walls of text are very much my element. I will attempt to keep this relatively concise, but don't be surprised if I fail.
Without retelling my entire life story, let's just say that I'm kind of a mess, way too introverted for my own good, and I spend more time online and less time in actual real life than I should. However, even if the lifestyle itself is far from healthy, it has resulted in a lot of sexting throughout the years. I have been praised and told that I should try writing more than once, and as you can probably tell, I really enjoy writing.
The first time the idea of being an erotica author caught my interest was about a year ago, when I found a subreddit about it and started doing some research. I was pretty into it for a week or so. I worked on four different short stories, trying out different kinds of settings and scenarios, just experimenting pretty much.
I abandoned the first one because it was honestly just not good. I was happy with the third and fourth ones, but didn't finish them. I managed to finish the second story though, and I liked it quite a bit. I followed some guidelines from both Reddit and other sources, trying to learn how publishing my stories on Amazon works, just the basics, nothing fancy. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm still happy with the story, I'd like to think I'm a decent writer, but the cover and the title make me cringe just thinking about them. I can partially blame that on the templates I followed, but either way, that's not important right now.
So, I published that story, even had a few readers, which felt good. I think I made, like...$0.5 or something along those lines? I didn't stick with it and keep writing though, and while my main reasons for that mostly had to do with how I'm pretty terrible at sticking with things long-term and other mental health shit, there were some parts of it that I, well...had issues with. I'd like to ask you guys about those things today to see what your perspective looks like, regardless of whether you feel that there are alternative ways of writing that would fit me better, or those things are just part of what being an author is like, and I should just get used to it.
Now then, it's about time that I get to the point. The subreddit and other sources that I learned from put a considerable amount of focus on the monetization aspect of being an erotica author. The truth is, I didn't mind that so much. While I enjoy creativity for creativity's sake, I could definitely use some change. Like I mentioned earlier, I'm basically a shut-in mess who has struggled to make ends meet for a long time now, and knowing that my writing is something productive in my life would definitely help, even do we're just talking $3-5 a month. Things like reading fiction, watching movies, watching porn and so on, basically anything that momentarily ignores problems rather than attempting to fix them, tends to come with a constant inner dialogue of negativity that I'd rather not invite.
The problem with the "Disregard creativity, let's make some green"-approach that I learned there was that the "optimal" approach to the Amazon market seemed to be blatantly soulless, to the point of looking like a parody. It would look something like this:
1. Find a popular genre that isn't too horribly oversaturated, preferably one that you can tolerate writing in the long run. For example, let's say that your niche of choice is "Young inexperienced secretary falls for handsome dominant sadist billionaire CEO". Yes, that sounds exactly like what you think it sounds like. No, it's not a parody, just a normal example of those niche markets.
2. Keep writing very similar stories in the genre you chose. A lot of them. Practice makes perfect and you'll become a better author over time.
3. Give them hilariously generic titles that look more like search engine optimization than authorship. The example in point 1 is not a joke, they really do look like that. I think that the purpose of it is to help readers figure out at a glance whether or not your niche is the one they enjoy. It also makes it easy to follow series of short stories that continue the same narrative, which is how you find your hardcore long-term fans, aka consistent customer base.
4. Make book covers using free images that can legally be used for commercial purposes. Once you've established yourself as an author and sell enough to afford it, pay someone to make better covers for you.
At this point I'm painfully aware of how whiny and excuse-y all that sounds, but let's just say that it really didn't seem like my thing. It reminded me a lot of the summer I spent many years ago as a "Recruiter", pestering people on the streets just trying to live their lives, doing my best to pressure them into signing up for a monthly $10 donation to some vague charity cause that I personally couldn't care less about. Needless to say I couldn't stomach it for very long at all. Having an income that I personally earned felt great, but nowhere near great enough to justify the how terrible it felt to make a living by making life worse for other people.
To you, this might sound like the ego of a delusional inexperienced author thinking they're God's gift to fap fiction and generic stories are below them, but I hope and would like to think that that's not it. I just feel like I would feel like shit if I spent my days endlessly shoveling more and more generic, soulless, minimum effort, maximum monetary efficiency stories onto Amazon. I hope that makes sense.
So, what do I think that I should write? A common newbie mistake that I was warned about was the temptation to just transform all of my personal fantasies into written stories. I get that you probably have to do that to some extent in a way, in that you probably shouldn't write stories that you have zero interest in, or even would be repulsed by. Seems like the kind of thing that you learn to balance with experience.
This might sound odd, but for me, erotica, porn and just sexuality in general has slowly become more and more personal over time. I've learned that I have an admittedly pretty dysfunctional habit of being in my own head a lot. To put it bluntly, plenty of inner dialogue and not nearly enough actual action. Unsurprisingly, this led to a pretty strong interest in psychology, an urge to understand, both my own mind and people in general.
Often when I read or listen to erotic stories, watch porn or even when sexting, I think about the fantasies and scenarios, what it is about them that is arousing and attractive to me, and why that is. I find stuff like that fascinating. There's a good example that happened many years ago but still hasn't left my memory to this day. I was hanging out in a group voice chat with a couple of friends, which was pretty much a daily habit back then. Porn and masturbation habits came up as a topic, and one of my friends told us something that seemed a bit unusual to me. He would always get off in the evening right before going to bed, every day, without fail. Just a quickie, no edging, sometimes not even really much arousal. Just a daily habit that he had to do in order to be able to fall asleep. That alone probably isn't all that rare, plenty of people are habitual masturbators and do it more to soothe themselves mentally than to deal with actual horniness. The second thing he told us was more unique and much more interesting though.
Like most of that social circle, he spent most of his waking time in front of his computer, and like pretty much all of us, he had a habit of having "Background noise" on his second monitor. He would hang out in the voice chat with the rest of us, either just talking or playing games at the same time. Some people also listened to music ik the background. I personally found music distracting for some reason. I preferred playing YouTube videos on my second monitor, not really paying much attention to them at all, but it felt nice I guess. So what did this guy use as his "background noise", rather than something like music or YouTube? Porn. Specifically, lesbian porn. Most of us were surprised by that and asked him more about it. Apparently, he never really masturbated "off-schedule" so to speak, his bedtime ritual took care of that. But for some reason, a reason that none of us, himself included could figure out, he really enjoyed playing videos of women having sex on his second monitor for pretty much 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.
I'm not saying that there's anything wrong with that, and even if there was, I feel like shaming is rarely if ever helpful at all. It absolutely fascinated me though. What was it in his mind, about his life, about his mindset, that made him so into watching, but not masturbating to or even getting that aroused by this? It's not like it was foreplay for the bedtime thing and he sat there with a hard-on the entire day. To him, it was just a nice thing to have in the back and barely pay attention to, like music or YouTube videos.
That was a hell of a tangent. I got a little carried away, sorry about that. My point is, even if I'm not interested in "writing for myself" and using it as some form of psychoanalytic mental masturbation, I'm still super interested in the personal, psychological aspect of it all. I have my reasons for wanting to avoid using my own interests as my main source of inspiration. As I mentioned earlier, I want this to be creative and hopefully even a tiny bit productive. I have more than enough experience when it comes to masturbation for masturbation's sake, and the self-loathing that my mind likes to couple it with. In addition to that, I want to learn to write about a variety of fantasies, scenarios and genres. I may have plenty of kinks but they're a drop in the ocean compared to all the kinks that I don't have. If I only ever write about things I'm personally into, that would leave a lot of unexplored territory.
That being said, I would still love to approach writing from this more personal, psychological angle. I've been thinking about taking suggestions and/or doing commissions. I think that it would be a lot of fun to write stories that real, individual people can enjoy and feel more personally attached to than they would to something less bespoke.
I realize that this might be a very bad idea from a monetary perspective though, especially as a beginner. If you write something with wider appeal, you get a lot of readers and potentially customers with every story. Writing something personally written to interest a single individual probably means that it's less likely to appeal to others, I imagine.
The second issue with this personalized approach is establishing myself as an author. The Amazon crowd focused a lot, and I mean a looot on that particular part. Sticking to a niche, serialized stories, mailing lists, discounted story bundles, that kind of stuff. I mean, that mentality makes a lot of sense if efficiency is your game and Amazon is your playing field, and it seems like a very effective way to build awareness of your existence as an author. That market doesn't make any sense for something more personalized though. The first thing that comes to my mind is, of course, Patreon. I can imagine for example having a basic tier that just gives people free access to all my stories and maybe letting people vote on ideas for future stories or something along those lines, and possibly doing personal commissions on a per story basis in addition to that.
The thing is, understandably, no one in their right mind would ever subscribe to that Patreon. Why would anyone ever subscribe to an author who has very little if anything at all when it comes to experience and reputation alike. That simply wouldn't work.
So, what I'm thinking right now is that I'll probably just start writing and publishing submitting stories for free here on Literotica for now, just to get started with writing again, practicing and improving. Maybe let people suggest stuff for free if they like my work. Then focusing on actually making any money off of it all in the future, if I both manage to stick to the habit of writing consistently, and actually turn out to be pretty good at it.
All my rambling thoughts aside though, I'm still basically very new to all this, I have no idea whether or not all this makes sense, for all I know, I may be completely off the mark here. If you managed to get through my wall of text, I'd love to hear any comments, suggestions or advice that you have, anything is appreciated.