it's hard, it's so, so hard. in a lot of ways, i want him back. in other ways i think let him contact me, i'll let him get me that ticket if he comes back. then i'll miss the flight and stand him up. because i know that is so going to hurt him. duh. i just feel a huge emptiness. reminds of the song 'breathe' by Breaking Benjamin. livin' the dream... sigh.He dumped you in a bad way, you are screaming out for some sort of understanding and closure.
In your perspective everything in the relationship was rosy, which makes it all the bigger shock.
This guy isn't going to give you closure, and tbh, if he has the balls to contact you again, do you really want to waste more of your time on him? I have a feeling you will be met with more lies.
Be nice to you, do things to help you heal. Do all those things that you didn't do, because you were stuck in front of the computer conversing with him.
3 years is a long time.
It will take time to find yourself again.
Don't rush to fill the empty space with another relationship.
Live for you!