Ellafun
Just Visiting This Planet
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As I watch our fearless leader stagger down the hallway, I start to giggle. Giggling turns into uncontrollable laughter, and I find myself laughing so hard that I start to cry. The laughter is contagious, and soon everyone around me is laughing, too. It's a good, healthy release of emotion.
What they don't know is that I'm scared to death, and the laughter is my only defense at this point. If I don't keep laughing, I'm just going to curl up in a ball and cry myself to pieces. I keep trying to remind myself that I'm lucky to be alive; but after that thought, the one that always follows is, "What the hell do I have to live for?"
Right now, I have people counting on me. As long as I have people to help in this Bunker, I have a reason to be here. Some days that's all I have to grasp.
Something is wrong. I can feel it in the atmosphere between Chain & Whip. They haven't said anything, other than to mention that some sort of "vermin" is in the cornfield. I guess I'll get a chance to see for myself when I go out tomorrow to get the last of our summer corn. I want to look for some squash and apples, too. Time to start canning for the colder months. And god knows, I need to get out in the sunshine for a little while.
What they don't know is that I'm scared to death, and the laughter is my only defense at this point. If I don't keep laughing, I'm just going to curl up in a ball and cry myself to pieces. I keep trying to remind myself that I'm lucky to be alive; but after that thought, the one that always follows is, "What the hell do I have to live for?"
Right now, I have people counting on me. As long as I have people to help in this Bunker, I have a reason to be here. Some days that's all I have to grasp.
Something is wrong. I can feel it in the atmosphere between Chain & Whip. They haven't said anything, other than to mention that some sort of "vermin" is in the cornfield. I guess I'll get a chance to see for myself when I go out tomorrow to get the last of our summer corn. I want to look for some squash and apples, too. Time to start canning for the colder months. And god knows, I need to get out in the sunshine for a little while.