Appealing?

You... overthink... never.

Tx
Thinking women are sexy! Don't forget it

txconfidential said:

Ha ha!

Honestly, I wasn't quite accurate when I typed "available and looking" before. Why? Because I don't think that "looking" is the best way to "find." Make sense?

So "Available and looking" isn't accurate. My husband and I are in the process of ending our marriage. And when you combine the lack of physical intimacy in our marriage, my sensual nature, and my tendency to overthink just about everything in my life... the answer to that question depends on my mood. And that means it's probably premature for me to be available.

See? Told you I overthink things.

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txconfidential said:

Ha ha!

Honestly, I wasn't quite accurate when I typed "available and looking" before. Why? Because I don't think that "looking" is the best way to "find." Make sense?

So "Available and looking" isn't accurate. My husband and I are in the process of ending our marriage. And when you combine the lack of physical intimacy in our marriage, my sensual nature, and my tendency to overthink just about everything in my life... the answer to that question depends on my mood. And that means it's probably premature for me to be available.

See? Told you I overthink things.

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....instead of looking at it as 'over thinking' you could look at it as thinking a few steps ahead of everyone else.

seamus221 said:

Wow !!
You got a sweet body thanks for sharing the two bush shots,was stiff in no time and can only imagine how tasty you would be!
As for a pin up style pic that was great of you to offer it for veiw as color or B/W.
So how did it feel posting these very personal shots of yourself?
I hope you got just as much of a thrill as you gave me!
As for a bare bush,it had its day and some hair to a full bush is sexy!
You really have a beautiful pussy and I enjoy seeing it hair or bare,yep I'm that easy.

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Thanks for the compliments, Seamus. I'm glad you like the photos.

How does it feel posting the photos? Good question. Wow... very good question.

Of course I love the response and comments -- they really put a smile on my face and a bit of swagger in my step. I guess I enjoy posting them because there are so many appreciative men (and a few appreciative women) and it's nice to be noticed and admired for just a bit.

But... come to think of it, I have conflicting feelings about posting. Sure there's a thrill - but there's also a void. If the void weren't there, I probably wouldn't be posting. Hmmmm. Now I have to think about this.

photogeek said:

You... overthink... never.

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Ha ha! See my response above. And fyi - I deleted more of my response than I posted.

Spamasutra said:

Tx
Thinking women are sexy! Don't forget it

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Thanks, Spam. That's one of the things I like about Lit. Most men here, well the ones that find their way to my thread anyway, seem to appreciate women's minds and personalities as much as their bodies.

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Van093 said:

....instead of looking at it as 'over thinking' you could look at it as thinking a few steps ahead of everyone else.

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Ha ha, Van! And men really LOVE that, don't they?

I can't speak for others...

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txconfidential said:

Ha ha!

Honestly, I wasn't quite accurate when I typed "available and looking" before. Why? Because I don't think that "looking" is the best way to "find." Make sense?

So "Available and looking" isn't accurate. My husband and I are in the process of ending our marriage. And when you combine the lack of physical intimacy in our marriage, my sensual nature, and my tendency to overthink just about everything in my life... the answer to that question depends on my mood. And that means it's probably premature for me to be available.

See? Told you I overthink things.

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Sweet lady just be happy that is all the anyone can do is enjoy life.


fred

TX
When posting and writing remember you are giving joy to the world

You continue to post pictures to the delights of those here who view and do appreciate another look as such, I do believe in certain ways your easing on showing certain parts of yourself and actually doing so more. Enjoying it perhaps, being bolder? Maybe or maybe just showing more of us what was already there.

You speak of a void and truthfully, isn't that why all post here? Those who post their pictures and even those of us that simply post. We are all looking for something, trying to find it, in your case I believe the void will not be fulfilled exactly until you do find a person you can share your nights and days with that can fill your needs and desires. You've gone so long without so many that you posting here is one reaction to that but you still do need more, eventually you will have it and the desire to post here will likely fade away. Such is how things go.

Since you will be single before you know it remember, you do not have to jump into anything right away nor too quick, some do that and regret it. Find what you need, what you really do need, make sure it's the right choice, you've gone this long, there is no need to make a snap judgment right away, in the end you will get what you have lacked and feel that comfort and the void will be simply another memory in the distant past.

You shall find someone or they will find you.

txconfidential said:

Okay - thank all of you for the sweet, supportive, and crazy HOT PMs. Y'all ROCK!

A lot of you keep asking "Why now?" "Why did you finally post the pic?"

Long Answer:

Well, if you'll go back to the Vesuvius post, (my FAVE btw) you'll know that no one, besides myself, had even seen me in an intimate, up-close-and-personal way since 1999.

It simply felt inappropriate to debut myself to the world in such an impersonal, unconnected way. Don't get me wrong, y'all are great. But when it comes down to it, I crave human connection - not cyber connection. Lit has been a wonderful way to fill a gaping void in my life -- and for now, I'm thrilled with the interaction here.

But... the void is still there. I would prefer to find a true, human, passionate, intimate connection that doesn't leave a void in my life. When that time comes, Lit may possibly become a fond and treasured memory. Unless the two of us are "into this sort of thing" Who knows, right?

Anyway... I have made a few friends here. Given the early conversations I had had with my husband, I allowed myself to be open to connecting with others who had the same limitations as I placed on myself. Add my desire for a safe, uncomplicated return to the world of intimacy - and, with any luck, raw, animalistic passion. And I've been SO lucky to have connected with a couple of Lit friends on a deeper, more intimate level - physically, sure (hell, this is LIT after all!) but intellectually, and emotionally as well.

Of course, life is messy - and the boundaries and guidelines my husband and I established when we first discussed an "open marriage" turned out to a slippery slope. It opened the door for both of us to admit what our heart's truly desire. And - turns out, I don't want physical gratification alone. I crave more. So...

(I am incapable of giving a short answer to complex questions... can you tell?)

The reason I was willing to post the pic is because I found a thrilling, and wonderful partner to kick off my journey.

Yay me!

Not saying this is a "forever yours" situation. Far from it. It is exactly what I needed... with just the right amount of connection in all areas without the worry of the future.

If my first experience was with someone who could potentially be someone I could and wanted to build a life with - there would be far too much pressure, and I would have been far too fraught with doubts, fears, and insecurities.

Now I can approach my future with a clear head and just a bit more confidence when it comes to my ability to pleasure my partner.

SUCH a perfect reintroduction.

So.... here's the short answer:

After 11 years, I finally got laid!

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Malerotica said:

I can't speak for others... But i know i love seeing this pic....it brings back such great memories...the feelings...the sensations...feeling your pulse...through your tongue. Looking into those eyes as you caressed me...and looking into yours as I returned the favour..two months is far too long....

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Mmm... nice to see you step out from the shadows.

It's certainly no secret that I finally ended the drought that begain in 1999. And, thanks to you, oh what a glorious ending it was.

I couldn't have asked for a better reintroduction to carnal delights so the photo brings back wonderful memories for me as well. You created such a wonderful space - emotionally, phyisically and mentally for me to trust myself again, to feel cherished and desired again, and to feel deserving of love again... and I will forever be grateful for that.

And though I went into it knowing that it would never be "happily every after" with us... you certainly opened the door for me and helped me realize again that there can be a happily ever after for me.

Normally I wouldn't respond so publicly (and I noticed you deleted the post after our conversation). But since some have asked above and I have received several PMs about me being "available and looking;" since I view this thread (at least partly) as a record of my journey; and since I want to be authentic as opposed to presenting one face to the world while living a completely differrent reality... I felt that it was appropriate to respond here. I don't know if it's the wrong or right decision, or if there IS a right or wrong.

But I do know this... without our time together, I would still be full of doubt, insecurity and a general perception that "sex is for others, not for me." And so the very fact that I am (sooner or later, when the time is right) open to being "available" is, in no small part, due to our wonderful time together. Thanks to you, I'm back on track and will be ready if and when opportunity arises.

Hope you had a wonderful weekend

Happy Monday to All,

I hope everyone had a lovely weekend. Me? Sunday morning got away from me. It's a shame, because I had intended to post these black and white photos... they're similar to the lipstick and necklace ones.

Anyway, this is me in the morning.

drtshare said:

Sweet lady just be happy that is all the anyone can do is enjoy life.


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FRED! So good to see you here.

Wise words from a wise man. Yes, I have much to be happy and grateful for. It's always good to have a straighforward reminder, though.

Good morning tx hope you are well

deltha said:

TX
When posting and writing remember you are giving joy to the world

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You know what, Deltha? I'm glad you wrote this. I am overthinking why I post here and how it makes me feel. I don't have a lot of time to devote the thinking energy to it right now... but it's percolating. It's nice to have a positive outcome to throw into the mix. Thank you.

Until then, I took some great pics (well, I like them )

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Hope you had a wonderful weekend

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Aw, PH. It was a good weekend filled with family (ALWAYS filled with family since I moved to Texas - Love it!) some work, brunch, and a movie. Didn't get as much done in the organiziation department - no surprise there.

Hope yours, and everyone else's was wonderful, too.

Miss TX, so sorry to hear your marriage is on the decline because it's always sad when two people decide to part - on the other hand there are many great chances for starting over now, chances you wouldn't have imagined a year ago or so.
Hope you're well!

Ah what a wonderful sight in the morning! I love the coffee shot naturally It combines multiple delicious elements lol

txconfidential said:

Happy Monday to All,

I hope everyone had a lovely weekend. Me? Sunday morning got away from me. It's a shame, because I had intended to post these black and white photos... they're similar to the lipstick and necklace ones.

Anyway, this is me in the morning.

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Oh how I would love to walk up behind. ya wrap my arms round ya kiss the back of your neck while you r drinking your coffee.

txconfidential said:

Happy Monday to All,

I hope everyone had a lovely weekend. Me? Sunday morning got away from me. It's a shame, because I had intended to post these black and white photos... they're similar to the lipstick and necklace ones.

Anyway, this is me in the morning.

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These are beautiful. Makes me feel like I'm sitting on the edge of the sink while you're doing your hair in the morning before work, chatting about the news but secretly staring at your shape.....hoping we can steal back to bed for a quick 10 minutes

Love your comments - they always help me sort my thoughts because you come at them from a different angle.

MasterSnatch said:

You continue to post pictures to the delights of those here who view and do appreciate another look as such, I do believe in certain ways your easing on showing certain parts of yourself and actually doing so more. Enjoying it perhaps, being bolder? Maybe or maybe just showing more of us what was already there.

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Most likely, it's showing what was already there. As a professional level ballet dancer (youngest apprentice ever selected in the company TYVM though I had to end it soon after that... long story), a swimmer, and later flamenco dancer, I've never felt uncomfortable showing my body (well - until stress and life affected both my body and mind - but y'all already know THAT story ). I'm also lucky to have never been burdened with a shameful attitude about being a woman or sexuality. My early reluctance was based purely on the the musings Vesuvius post .

So "bolder"? In a way. It is probably more accurate to say that I am simply rediscovering many aspects of who I am, and with that, feeling bold enough to explore those aspects and discover something new.

And one thing I've discovered is that one of the hardest things for me to do is be authentic. I spent many years putting on a facade - pretending eveything is perfect. (Have you seen Just Go With It - I saw myself in the characters, because I felt that I was pretending to be something I'm not).

And so... when confronted with the choice of taking an action that will be true to who I really am vs. one that will maintain a shiny, happy picture, I am trying to respond authentically. I don't want to fall into the "facade" trap again. What I don't like about it is people (including me) can get hurt - or they may get the wrong impression, especially if they're trapped in that "facade" pattern themselves, or if they don't care enough about me our our connection to communicate with me about it. But those who truly care about me will recognize the struggle for what it is... a desire to be myself and not have to spend energy reframing aspects of my life to make them more palatable to those around me. It's those aspects and experiences that shape who I am. And if I wasn't who I am - they probably wouldn't care about me in the first place.

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You speak of a void and truthfully, isn't that why all post here? Those who post their pictures and even those of us that simply post. We are all looking for something, trying to find it, in your case I believe the void will not be fulfilled exactly until you do find a person you can share your nights and days with that can fill your needs and desires. You've gone so long without so many that you posting here is one reaction to that but you still do need more, eventually you will have it and the desire to post here will likely fade away. Such is how things go.

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True. Thank you for the reminder. It's nice to hear from someone else - helps put all of this in perspective more easily.

MasterSnatch said:

Since you will be single before you know it remember, you do not have to jump into anything right away nor too quick, some do that and regret it. Find what you need, what you really do need, make sure it's the right choice, you've gone this long, there is no need to make a snap judgment right away, in the end you will get what you have lacked and feel that comfort and the void will be simply another memory in the distant past.

You shall find someone or they will find you.

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Amen, Brother. I have no desire to latch on to the first warm, hard body that comes my way. And come to think of it, that's probably why I never get hit on. I am so guarded and protective of myself that I'm sure my body language doesn't convey a willingness to engage.

On the flip side, I've found that exposing myself here - not in photos, but mentally and emotionally - can be like leaving the back door to my heart wide open. I didn't realize that at first - anf life being messy as it is, a couple snuck inside before I realized it.

So if any of you ever wonder why I don't "chat" or "PM" or even engage in the deliciously delightful "simulated play" in my thread - that's why. Maybe it's just me, but I've learned that doing so makes me vulnerable - and I already have plenty emotions, hopes, fears, doubts, insecurities, that I'm dealing with on my own. And, when I care about someone, I take on all of those for them as well. So the barriers I erect are simply self-preservation defense mechanisms.

How does that relate to what you wrote, MasterSnatch? Well, I suspect that meeting someone the conventional way, or even through a dating website will pale in comparison to Lit. Sigh... I just realized I can go on and on. But I've spent way more than 15 minutes here, I have some photos I want to share and I do have to get to work.

Thanks, MasterSnatch. As always, you get the wheels turning - I appreciate it.

Hi...loving your thread...and see you are having fun!........thats great!.......

the_apocalypse said:

Good morning tx hope you are well

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I am well. Pensive, apparently, given my last post... but well. Thanks!

gummibaum said:

Miss TX, so sorry to hear your marriage is on the decline because it's always sad when two people decide to part - on the other hand there are many great chances for starting over now, chances you wouldn't have imagined a year ago or so.
Hope you're well!

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Aw, thank you Gummi. You are right, there is a sadness and loss - and in my case a sense of guilt (not because I've done anything wrong, but because I worry about his health). But in truth the "husband wife" dynamic was over long ago, so it is for the best for both of us.

Spamasutra said:

Ah what a wonderful sight in the morning! I love the coffee shot naturally It combines multiple delicious elements lol

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Ooohhh... thank you Spam!

darrad143 said:

Oh how I would love to walk up behind. ya wrap my arms round ya kiss the back of your neck while you r drinking your coffee.

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MMmmmm... it is nice to have someone to share moments like that together, no?

sammyIammy said:

These are beautiful. Makes me feel like I'm sitting on the edge of the sink while you're doing your hair in the morning before work, chatting about the news but secretly staring at your shape.....hoping we can steal back to bed for a quick 10 minutes

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Yay Sam! That's what I would be hoping for as well.

It's funny, when a couple of you first suggested the "intimate moments" shots, I thought "sounds boring". But they certainly are evocative.

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Hi...loving your thread...and see you are having fun!........thats great!.......

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Ha ha! Thanks for saying so on such a Text-Heavy streak, JustCruisin.

txconfidential said:

Ha ha!

Honestly, I wasn't quite accurate when I typed "available and looking" before. Why? Because I don't think that "looking" is the best way to "find." Make sense?

So "Available and looking" isn't accurate. My husband and I are in the process of ending our marriage. And when you combine the lack of physical intimacy in our marriage, my sensual nature, and my tendency to overthink just about everything in my life... the answer to that question depends on my mood. And that means it's probably premature for me to be available.

See? Told you I overthink things.

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I guess that would also depend on who's available on the other end too...

Happy Monday TC..

I found a cute skirt in my closet that I hadn't worn before. I tried it on and thought "Damn, looks pretty good."

So then I tried it on with my heels - well when I saw THAT, I couldn't help but snap some photos. And as I snapped the photos, I couldn't help but think of posting them... and the reaction they'd bring...

So here's the start: